Date: Wed, 4 Jun 2003 17:27:02 -0500
From: Lee McDougal <leo1980@pride.com>
Subject: Spinning Nick Chapter 11
Disclaimer: I don't know Nick Carter or any of the members of Backstreet
Boys. I also don't know Daniel Bedingfield or anyone else in this story.
This story is a work of fiction.
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Spinning Nick
Chapter Eleven
The three guys were well pleased with the visit to the house, and
were looking forward to spending more time there. Nick and Colin both had
lovely thoughts of breaking in the new bedroom. The three walked back to
the car, and drove the short distance back to Nick's house. AJ and Howie
arrived 30 minutes later, and they all set down to eat the take out food
that Nick had ordered when they first arrived back home.
"Howie and AJ, this is my boyfriend Colin and his friend James." Nick
introduced them as the boys shook hands.
"It's really nice to finally meet you." AJ told them.
"Yeah, Nick has said nothing but good things about you." Howie
confirmed.
"I hope I can live up to the things he's told you then." Colin said
blushing.
The guys were both very friendly to the two of them, and were all
talking like friends soon enough. AJ really got into talking about the
music James and Colin were now working on, and Howie was curious about the
song they were recording.
"Deja vu - I just told this story to Brian a few days ago."
Colin replied to them.
"Really, I haven't heard it yet." Nick confessed.
All three guys listened carefully as Colin told about his high
school crush that had inspired "Hold Me," and how he never actually dated
anyone till after high school. That story was told a lot among his friends,
because it was the start of his musical career and his personal coming
out. Howie and AJ really appreciated hearing this very personal story.
"That's cool I guess, but it must have been hard to fall for someone
that could never feel the same way." AJ commented.
"It really is. Next time you listen to the song, you will
understand it more. It has a definite tone of sadness to it." Colin told
them.
"I was like crying the first time I was trying to compose music to
go with the words - I was the first person Colin told about his sexuality."
James told them.
"Um, so are you gay, James?" AJ asked a question that even Nick
wanted to ask.
"I'm actually bisexual. I don't usually talk about it though. I have
dated mostly women in the past, and it's just not that big a deal to me."
James told them.
"You guys have both shared a lot with us this evening, and we really
appreciate it." Howie stated. Nods were shared around the room, and a few
smiles broke out too. Nothing like life stories or confessions to bring
people together. This of course left the stage wide open for the pop
singers open for sharing their skeletons in their tour bus closet.
"I don't have anything to match your stories, but there was this one
time that I got really drunk - and I swear I get so horny when I'm
drunk. Well, I won't give you the gross details, but the next morning I had
like five different girls in my bed. I was like `What the hell!' I'm
really glad I quit drinking." AJ told them.
Laughs were shared and then an evil gleam came from Nick's
eyes. "Hey Howie, tell them about your fist time." Nick said.
"You are beyond evil Nick. I can't tell them that story!" Howie
protested.
Howie's first time was like straight out of an American Pie
movie. His face turned several shades of red as he referred to his failed
attempts at sex. He had prematurely ejaculated twice, before he finally got
it right. But lucky for her, his third try was a charm!
The guys really enjoyed hanging out, and friendships were starting
to build between them. Nick was very pleased to see that all the guys have
gotten along with Colin thus far. Only one person was left to meet Colin -
Kevin. They would be meeting him and Brian at the mall in a couple
hours. Nick could only guess how Kevin might react, but he was sure he'd be
the tough cookie. Kevin had given Nick a hard time when he was dating
Brian, and was afraid the same might happen again.
AJ and Howie left about an hour before the other guys were meeting
them at the mall. James and Colin decided to do a little work on a song,
and Nick was happy to help them by being an audience. Nick's smile during
the process of going over their new song, "Love Songs," was very inspiring,
and it had James playing better knowing that Colin's voice was more upbeat
than usual.
Love is so much more than anyone can ever know Love is so much more than
anyone can ever show Love is an adventure that could never be sold Love is
a river that could never go dry
Chorus: Love is not something that you can fit in a song. Love is
something so much more than you can own. So why does so many people try to
trap it by their words? No, it can't be told in some silly love song.
Love is a prayer that changes a life Love is a child and his first smile
Love is an angel crying for the lost Love is a castle too mighty to fall
Repeat chorus
Love is living when hope is gone Love is believing that life is so much
more Love is a hope that survives when you're gone Love is believing that
the heart lives on
Repeat chorus
Don't sing to me silly love songs. Don't break my heart with your lies.
Just hold me near tonight my love. Don't let me live alone on love songs.
The song ended and Nick could feel the hurt that Colin was going
through. He could only imagine what that last chorus had been about. But he
went to Colin and held him near.
Colin didn't tell him what the song was written about, and the truth
is he wasn't sure himself. Perhaps in some way he had channeled every
disappointment in his life into emotions, and that's what came out. Or
perhaps it was just the hearts natural fear of being broken.
Nick comforted him, and their love seemed to grow more that day. The
more Nick learned about Colin's heart the more he was sure they were the
perfect match. Colin was having much the same thoughts about Nick. Nick
seemed to know just how to hold him when he needed it, and to kiss him just
when he wanted it - which was just that moment actually. The two shared
a nice loving kiss.
"So we agree that this song is a keeper?" James asked.
"I like it, and it seems to have an emotional attachment with it."
Nick commented
"Yeah, I think I must have channeled a broken heart when I wrote
that song." Colin told them.
"Well, since you have such emotions running through you when you
sing it, it really adds to the vocals. I wish we could have recorded it."
Nick stated.
"Actually we did record it. I had a tape recorder right beside
me. It's not as good as recording studio, but it will help to remember the
flow of things." James said.
James played the song back, and Nick and Colin just held each
other. Without the emotional attachment it was almost romantic. There were
certainly a few points that still made Colin let out a single tear or
two. Nick was also getting into the emotions of it all.
It wasn't too long after that Colin and the rest had to meet the
guys at the mall. Colin was looking forward to seeing Brian again, and was
glad that after meeting Kevin that he would have officially met all the
Backstreet Boys.
The boys pulled into the mall and spotted Brian's car. They pulled
in and parked beside him. Kevin and Brian exited the car when they
recognized the other car for Nick's. The guys all shook hands as
introductions were made once more.
"Hello, I'm Kevin. It's nice to meet you." Kevin offered to
James.
"Nice to meet you as well, I'm James." James replied.
"And you must Colin?" Kevin asked, offering his hand.
"Yes, it's nice to meet you, Kevin." Colin shook his hand.
Colin wasn't sure but there seemed to be a little aggression in
Kevin's hand shake. And the smile on Kevin's face was more than a little
fake looking. Nick gave Colin a rub on the shoulder, as if he sensed
something was in the air as well. But for now they were off to shop.
Nick had dyed his hair a dark brown, and was wearing very casual
clothing-old jeans and a baggy tee-shirt. No one would pick him out to
be Nick Carter at all. At most, someone might think he's a look alike, so
Colin and Nick felt free to hold hands there in the mall. They kept it low
profile by keeping in the middle of the other guys - so someone would have
to squint and stare hard to see their hands together.
Kevin seemed to not notice them holding hands - or if he did, he
didn't mind. Brian, however, noticed and smiled at them. James was walking
on the other side of Brian, and was chatting with Kevin about everyone's
common interest of music. They all decided to go into a clothing store
first. Nick and Colin separated hands whenever going into a store - due
to larger crowd, it was just not as safe there. They would, however, stay
pretty close, so they could help each other pick out outfits.
After a productive clothes shopping trip the boys moved on to a
furniture store. Nick wanted to pick out a house warming gift for Colin,
even though the house wasn't officially theirs yet. Colin thought it was
sweet, so he wasn't going to argue with him.
Kevin and Brian went to look at beds, stating that Kevin wanted
something more comfortable to sleep in when he stayed at Brian's
house. Nick and Colin were just starting to look at dinning room tables,
when someone spotted them. A very handsome man strolled up and grabbed
Colin up and hugged him.
"Hello, Colin. I didn't think I'd see you here." Daniel
Bedingfield stated.
"Um, hello Daniel. I could say the same about you. What are you
doing in Orlando?" Colin asked.
"I am doing a show here. I'm glad you're in town. I really
wanted to see you again." Daniel said as he went in for a kiss.
Daniel's lips had barely touched his before Colin was drug into
Nick's arms. "Um, slow down tiger. Colin is already taken." Nick told him.
"Nick Carter, is that you?" Daniel asked.
"Yes, and you were just kissing my boyfriend. But I know that Colin
wasn't able to tell you about me, so I'll overlook it this one time." Nick
said trying to be nice, but certainly warning him to.
"Ah, well I'm sorry. I knew you were gay, Colin, because of the song
and everything - and I thought you were still single because you never
mentioned anyone. I'm really embarrassed." Daniel said blushing.
"It's okay man! But you really should think about exposure for
yourself, kissing in a mall isn't exactly good for your fan base." Colin
joked.
"I guess your right, but I just felt drawn to you I guess. Well, let
me make this up to you both. I'll take you guys out to dinner tonight? If
it's okay with you Nick." Daniel asked.
"That'd be great. Colin had told me you guys were friends, and if he
considers you a friend, then I want you to be my friend too - just as long
as you keep your lips away from him." Nick joked.
"I'll be on my best behavior." Daniel promised.
Daniel excused himself shortly after that, and Nick and Colin picked
out a bed. They were walking up to purchase the bed when Kevin ran up to
them.
Little did they know, Kevin had seen the whole scene with Daniel,
but from his point of view it appeared as though Daniel and Colin had
kissed, then Nick just pulled Colin in for an embrace-as if they were all
comfortable with the situation.
"I saw you kissing that guy, Colin, and then you Nick taking him in
your arms. What kind of sick relationship do you have going on?" Kevin
asked.
"Our relationship is none of your damn business, Kevin, and I will
not listen to you yelling at me or my lover." Nick said taking Colin's hand
and practically dragging him out of the store. It was a good thing Nick was
not looking like himself, because he managed to drag him past quite a few
people.
Colin and Nick wandered around till they met James where he had told
them he was going to meet them. Colin told him the short version of Kevin
starting a fight with them, and they wanted to go. Nick called Brian on his
cell phone to inform him that he was going home early. Brian knew something
was up, but Nick couldn't tell him yet. They agreed to talk about it later.
Colin was upset, but Nick did his best to comfort him. And Colin
soon did the same for Nick. They both were in a fix with Kevin, and they
both wanted to settle it as soon as possible. Talking to him now wouldn't
do any good though, because they were both still fresh with anger. Kevin
didn't know what he was talking about. That kiss didn't mean anything to
Colin, and Nick had every right to hold Colin.
That night Brian called Nick.
"Hello." Nick answered.
"So what happened today at the mall?" Brian asked.
"Well, it's a long story, but the short of it is Kevin walked over
to where we were looking at beds at a very bad time." Nick said.
"Oh my gosh! You two weren't trying out the merchandise were you?"
Brian teased.
"No, but it was almost as bad. Remember me telling you about Daniel
Bedingfield buying one of Colin's songs?" Nick asked.
"Yes, but what does he have to do with anything?" Brian inquired.
"You see, Colin and he had spent some time together talking about
the song, and doing his radio show. They became friends. And since Colin
isn't able to tell people about us, Daniel didn't know we were together."
Nick said.
"Hmmm. This isn't sounding too good." Brian commented.
"I know! And low and behold, Daniel is gay. And Colin being the
stud that he is had Daniel to come onto him right in front of me - and
apparently Kevin. Well, when I saw what happened I pulled Colin away from
him, and told him what's what." Nick told him.
"Wow that had to have sucked. You don't think Colin likes him do
you?" Nick asked.
"No, I'm sure Colin doesn't like Daniel that way. Colin was like
floored by the situation. He actually cried when he got home this evening,
because he was afraid he hurt me." Nick told him.
"Colin is too good to be true, man! I really do like the guy. So,
how did Kevin take it?" Brian asked.
"He was furious, he apparently thinks we are all three getting down
and dirty together. I'm so angry with the way he yelled at us, that I don't
think I can talk to him now." Nick stated.
"I can totally understand that. Would you like me to talk to him?"
Brian asked.
"If you think it will help." Nick answered.
So it was settled that Brian would try to calm Kevin down, but Colin
was almost sure that things with Kevin were going to be rocky for a time to
come. Colin really did cry about the Daniel thing once it had time to sink
in. He felt bad like he had cheated on Nick in some way, and that he had
somehow unconsciously led Daniel on. But Nick was an amazing boyfriend that
evening, telling him everything was fine. Nick knew that Colin would never
intentionally hurt him, because Nick's heart and Colin's beat at the same
rate at that moment. The two breathed in and out at the same pace. They
were becoming one, and Nick and Colin both were happy to be together.
To be Continued
Well, I'm glad to see you made it through another chapter of my story.
Seems like there's going to be a little drama with Kevin, but Nick and
Colin seem to have everything in perspective at least. Will Daniel give up
on Colin so easily?
Once again thanks to Randy for editing my story.
Notes: And for anyone who reads this and X-sync both, I would like to
formally state that I am no longer involved in that project. The author
has already done things with my character that I don't approve of, and most
likely will continue on with that. I don't want to cause trouble, so I
will let him use Bluestreak to whatever ends he sees fit. But the Lee in
that story, is most certainly not me!