Date: Thu, 24 Jan 2002 20:40:35 -0500
From: Kay Black <sweet_love_99@hotmail.com>
Subject: tearing up my heart chapter 2

Disclaimer: We are not, and do not know the Backstreet Boys. We know
about as much about them as you (the reader) does. We are not implying or
stating anything about their sexual preferences (although it would be
interesting if they were gay, or bi!)

Notes: Hey guys! Sorry it tool so long to get this out. Its kinda hard to
write fast when u have 2 authors, and the story is basically writing
itself. We're trying hard! Honest! Well, here it is, enjoy! Candy O., Kay
B.

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Tearing up my Heart

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Chapter 2
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As AJ awoke he found himself in unusual surroundings. As he became more
aware of where he was he remembered. He remembered Nick, his blonde baby
angel that he loves with all his heart. He realized 2 things right then and
there, 1. He realized that he could never live with out Nick and 2. That he
stunk really bad and needed a shower.

After much deliberation (Because AJ needed a shower but didn't want to
disturb Nick)He finally decided he had to get up. AJ slowly got out of
under Nick and went to take a shower. Nick slowly awoke while AJ was in the
shower and could hear the faint, but beautiful sound coming from the
bathroom. Nick recognized the tune immediately and started to sing softly
along with AJ.

"Oh baby I'm missing you. We used to love so strong tell me where did we go
wrong. Oh baby I'm missing you. They say you learn to forget but it sure
ain't happened yet. I still have your pictures hung around my room.
They're the only thing that's left of you and me. Oooh, Girl what can I do
to make you come back soon and make it just the way it used to be. Oh is
there someone new? Could never go on with out you. Girl, I don't wanna
think about it. I can't sleep at night , no this can't be right.

Come back baby, come back. Oh baby, I'm missing you"
As AJ got out of the shower he realized that Nick was awake.
"Hey sleeping Beauty, How are you feeling this morning?" AJ asked
as he leaned down and kissed Nick on the forehead.
"Not to Bad and your self?"
"I am feeling GREAT!!"
"And why would that be?"
"Because we are going out tonight." AJ said as he sauntered away.
"WHAT?!?!?!?" Nick screeched as AJ whipped around.
"Well I figured since we are now a couple we should have a first
date don't you Babe???"
"Oh yeah we do to don't we?? Are we going anywhere fancy??" Nick
said in a girlish voice
"Well yeah so dress up!!" AJ said as he winked and turned on his
heel to leave.
"What don't I get a good Bye Kiss??" Nick pouted.
"Oh yeah how could I forget that!!" AJ said running back and
jumping
on top of Nick planting a kiss on his soft lucious lips.
"Bye!! And be ready at 6 I am picking you up to take you out!!"
"Yes Sir" Nick Said mocking AJ. AJ just turned around and stuck
his
toungue out at Nick.
"Tease!"
"Damn right!"
With that AJ left and closed the door behind him.

***********

Once AJ had left Nick got up and took a shower. As he was shampooing his
hair he remember hearing AJ singing and he started to hum 'Missing You'.

When he stepped out of the shower he heard the phone ring, and being alone
he ran for it without grabbing a towel. "Hello?" he answered breathlessly.

"Nick! You never called me back last night! What's up?" An
annoyed, yet
relieved Misty cried over the phone.
"Oh, Misty, I'm so sorry hun! AJ came over, and, we made up.
Actually,
we did more than that. Oh Misty! I'm so happy, we're finally
together!
I've waited for this moment for the past 6 years. I never in my
wildest
dreams thought he would love me back!"
"Wow, Nick. That's deep. I'm happy for you. Nick, AJ spent the
night
didn't he? That's why you're so hyper huh?"
"Uhh."
"Nick..."
"Yeah. So?"
"Cute! So, are we still on for the movie tonight?"
"Oh! Shit! Misty, I'm SO sorry. AJ wanted to take me out tonight
and I
said yes. Can we reschedule? I'm so sorry!"
"Yeah, Nick, it's cool. I understand. Just don't do it again.
I'll
forgive you if you pick me up and take me to the mall. Oh say, in
an
hour?"

"Yup, sure.....ok...great..you can help me find something to wear
tonight...a'ight...bye!" Nick hung up and sat down on his bed.He picked up
the pillow that AJ had slept on and smelt it. He could still smell the
cologne, sweat, and soft scent that only AJ had on it.  Memories of last
night and thoughts of what tonight would hold swirled in his mind and
caused his body to respond. That's when Nick realized he was still
naked. Nick sauntered over to the dresser and pulled on some boxers and a
beater. He pulled on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt to cover his 6'2"
frame. He checked himself out in the mirror and decided he looked ok, but
needed to do his hair. He spiked it up, grabbed his sunglasses, and hopped
in the car to pick up Misty.

**********

By the time Nick got home after dropping Misty off it was already 5:30.  He
ran to his room and started to change into the outfit he'd bought that
afternoon. He smiled as he thought of how Misty'd dragged him into store
after store before settling on a pair of black pants and a snug white
t-shirt. He smoothed the shirt over his chest and loved how the ribbing in
it seemed to emphasizehis well-built body. He grabbed a black button-down
shirt from his closet and threw it on over top. He went into the bathroom
and fixed his hair, he picked up a tube of mascara and put some on. THe
doorbell rang and he ran downstairs like a teenage girl. He threw open the
door and inhaled sharply. This was one of the few time that AJ wasn't
wearing his sunglasses and the effect was very sexy.  "Hey babe. Wow, you
look *nice*. Are you sure you want to go out tonight and not just stay in?"
AJ joked as he stepped inside. Nick blushed and kissed AJ softly on the
lips.

"Mmmmm. Yeah, let's go out. I didn't spend the whole afternoon listening to
Misty blab on about her new beau just to stay in." Nick laughed, "So where
are we going?" He leaned in and kissed AJ again and as his eyes closed he
felt a soft peice of cloth go over his eyes.

"Someplace special," AJ whispered, "You'll see when we get there." He lead
Nick to the car and began to drive. A little while later AJ parked and took
the blindfold off of Nick's smiling face. Nick opened his eyes and gasped.
In front of him was a huge oak tree. Under the tree was a blanket with a
pic-nic dinner on it. It was Mrs. McLean's famous (well not quite famous
but you get the picture) fried chicken, potato salade, and home made white
wine.

"AJ...you thought of all this???WOW!!"
"Well...yeah..umm...I thought it would be nice." AJ said a bit
embarrassed.
"WOW!!! Thanks babe!" Nick said leaning over to plant a kiss on
AJ's lips.
He ran his toung along AJ's bottom lip making him groan.
"Ummm Wanna go eat now??"
"YEAH!!! I'm starving!!" Nick said jumping out of the car.AJ
laughed at the young mans eargerness to eat.

They got out of the car, Nick practically running to the pic-nic blanket
and AJ strolling behind laughing quitly at Nick. Quickly Nick spun on his
heel and ran back to AJ, leaned over to kiss him but pulled away just
before they touched their lips. Nick turned and ran to the grass with AJ
running after him. AJ soon caught up to the younger man and tackled him to
the ground. They wrestled around for quite a bit before AJ finally pinned
Nick.

"So what was that?? You like teasing your boyfriend?? Not wise
Carter not wise at all."
"Oh?? And whys that?? I thought it was very wise!" Nick said
trying to hide his grin.
"Oh do you now?? And why would you think that??"

"Oh because now I can do this longer!" Nick said lifting his head to AJ's
and kissing him deeply. They stayed in that position for what seemed like
hours but was only in fact about 15 mins. before AJ moved off of Nick.

"Ok Nick normaly I would Love to stay like for hours but I am SO
hungry!!!"
And almost as if on cue AJ's stomach grumbled.
"Ok what ever you say Hun!" Nick said as he moved to the pic-nic
blanket.
They where both so hungry that for about 10 mins. al they did was
eat they
didn't even talk to each other.After 10 minuts AJ started to make
conversation.
"Ummm....I have something to give to you. WOuld you mind if I
gave it to you
now?" AJ asked politly.
"Umm No of course not go ahead." Nick said as AJ reached into his
pocket to
reveal a small black velvet box. Nick inhaled deeply thinking the
AJ was
proposing to him.
"Now I know what you think this is, but it's not an engagement
ring. It's a
promise ring. When I give this to you it makes a promise that
while you wear
it you are in love with me and that you will never betray me. It
also shows
my love for you and promises that I too will be faithful and I
will not
betray or lie to you. I hope that you Nickolas
Carter will take this promise ring and treaure it. Will you?!?"
"Of course AJ. I love you." Nick said while AJ place the ring on
his finger.
"I love you too."
* * * * * * * * * *
After Nick and AJ had finished eating they had..um..kept warm (if
ya know
what i mean;)heehee)under the blankets. Soon there afterwards
Nick started
to doze off, so AJ suggested going home. Nick of course said yes
and they
heade back to the car, With Nicks arm around AJ's waist stopping
once in a
while to kiss. Once AJ arrived out side of Nick's house he turned
and said
"Hey Nick babe..come on wake up...your home."
"um..what??Oh AJ its you..yeah ok...wanna come in with me???"
"I would love to" AJ said and they stumbled into the house
together.
* * * * * * * * * *
"Nick, Hun are you up???"
He whispered softly into Nicks ear. Nick quickly rolled over and
kissed him sofly on the lips.
"Yup!! Whats for breakfast?"
"Whatever you want."
"Thanx babe!! Love ya!!"
He turned and left to go have a shower. Nick thought deeply about
his relationship. What would he
be without him. What would life be like??Who would he be without
his man. His AJ. Who would he
be other then Nick Carter. Famouse Pop star. He would be no one.
He would be....
AJ walked into the room after his shower looking great. He
noticed Nick deep in thought.
"What are ya thinking about Babe?"
AJ said to Nick as Nick Popped back into reality.
"Oh nothing Important!!"
"Oh"
AJ said sadly wishing his lover would open up to him.
"What are we doing today??"
"We have nothing scheduled!!! So, I was thinking we could just
hang"
"Sounds good to me!"
"Umm.... Nick...Hun?"
"Yeah?"
"We gotta tell them."
"Who???"
You know who. Your parents. Look we have already told the guys
and even accepted it. *He*
came to terms with it and I think your parents will too. Look you
don't
have to tell them about "Us" but you should at least tell them
you are Bi ok?"
"Well its just that...."
Nick said trailing off.
"I know babe, I know. You know I will allways love you."
AJ said sofly hugging Nick while rocking. One single tear ran
down both their faces.
"I gotta go for a shower."
Nick said pulling away quickly almost in shock. He jumped up
wearing only a pair of boxers. He
planted a kiss on AJ's head and headed off to the shower.
"Be back soon!!"
"Ok Babe love ya!!!"
Nick scooted off to the shower and left AJ thinking.
* * * * *
When Nick got out of the shower he found AJ was no longer in the
room, but an aroma of coffee,
bacon, and eggs. Coming down the stairs he saw AJ fiddling around
in the kitchen. He put his arms
around his love and kissed him on the neck.
"I'm gonna do it. I'll go home this weekend. You're right as
usual, I *need* to tell my parents about
this. I love you babe." AJ turned around inside Nick's arms and
kised him softly on the lips.
"Have some breakfast." AJ said, and placed a plate of eggs, bacon
and toast on the table. They sat
down and started to eat silently sneaking a few kisses in between
bites. The rest of the day was spent
lounging around the house: watching t.v., playing Nintendo, and
cuddling on the couch kissing and
doing other such things. Around supper Nick pulled away
breathlessly from yet another make-out
session.
"I....think..I should...call home...now." AJ nodded and held him,
while Nick picked up the phone and
dialled his parents number."Mom, Dad? Would y'all mind if I came
home for the weekend?....Yeah,
there is something.....no don't wory, I'm fine...yes the guys are
fine too....no, mom, no one is
dead....everything is fine! I just need to come home for a bit...
I miss you too. Ok, I'll see y'all then.
Love ya, bye bye." Nick hung up and sighed pulling AJ closer to
him " I'm so afraid AJ, what if they
don' accept it. I need you to be with me."
"Nick, baby, I'd love to but I think me being there wouldn't be
the greatest thing. But I will call you
every day. When are you leaving?"
"Tomorrow, it's Friday, and I want to be there for the weekend."
Nick leaned in and kissed AJ. It
was so needy, so powerful, that they soon found themselves
wanting more, and they ran up the stairs
to Nick's room.
**********
That morning Nick woke up a little soar from the night before. He
suddenly remembered what he
was doing today. He got up and started packing leaving AJ to
sleep a little longer. As he packed he
didn't even notice that AJ was awke watching him. Nick was
silently crying while he packed. AJ
stode up and wrapped Nick in his arms.
"Hey Hey whats wrong babe??"
Nick just continued sobing, soaking AJ's shirt sleeve. About 10
minuts later Nick had calmed down,
so AJ asked again.
"Whats wrong Nicky???"
" Well while I was packing I just thought what if my family
doesn't accept me and so on. I just got so
worked up about it and started crying. I'm sorry AJ babe."
"Don't ever be sorry for feeling a certain way. It's ok your
family loves you, they will always accept
you no matter what.You know that, and I know that. Plus I will
call you everynight ok?? So cheer
up!! Don't worry Be happy!!!!"
"Ha Ok AJ I'll try. You know I really do love you."
Nick said and Kissed AJ.
"But I gotta finish packing K??"
"Ok I'll go get breakfast ready."
* * * * * * * * * *
"So you promise you'll call me everynight??"
Nick asked as him and AJ waited for his flight to be called. They
had gotten a private room so as not
to be mobbed my groupies
"I promise!!I will call your cell every single night your gone.
You come back sunday right??"
"Yup Sunday at 7pm. Can you pick me up??"
Nick asked shyly.
"Of course. I will be here at 6:45 waiting." AJ said with a grin.
**FLIGHT 17 BOARDING FIRST CLASS PASSENGERS NOW IN GATE 2**
Nick sighed
"Well thats me. I'll call you as soon as my flight lands ok??
Lizzy is picking me up at the airport
right??"
"Yup she will meet you by the gate ok?? Talk to you later."
Nick leaned in to kiss AJ when the PA system said
**LAST CALL FOR FIRST CLASS PASSENGERS ON FLIGHT 17 LAST CALL**
Nick pecked AJ's lips ever so lightly and ran off, AJ watching
him untill he got to the gate then he
spun on his heel and went home.
* * * * * * * * * * *
Nicks flight went pretty smoothly, except for a slight bit of
turbulance. Nick was so worried about
seeing his family again. He was fidgetting really badly as he
disembarked from the plane. Luckly no
one from his family could pick him up so his friend Elizabeth (or
Lizzy for short ) had to pick him up.
He was very glad for that.
"Hi Lizzy!! How are you??"
nick said enthusiastically as he ran up and hugged her tightly.
"Not bad and you my little Nicky??"
"Same here. Tour went pretty well though we had a lot of fun
doing it. The sales were through the
roof."
 Nick said as He and Lizzy walked through the airport. They
picked up Nicks luggage and went to
Lizzy's car , Nick talking enthusiastically about the tour the
whole way. They put Nick's stuff in the
trunk and headed to Nick's house.
* * * * * * * * * *
"Nick!" A blond head slammed into Nick's chest knocking the wind
outof him. Two arms wrapped themselves around Nick's waist as he
tried to breathe.
"Aaron, think I could breathe?" Nick gasped. Aaron apologized and
stepped back as the rest of Nick's family moved in to welcome
him. Nick grabbed his bags and went upstairs to the room that he
and Aaron would be sharing for the weekend. "I missed ya Airhead.
What's up with you?" Nick asked affectionately messing up his
little brothers hair.
"Not too much. There's this girl who just moved in nearby. She's
pretty cute, and we've been hanging out. I think she likes me. So
mom says you broke up with your girlfriend, why?"
"Uh....it just....wasn't....right anymore. I wasn't in love with
her. I was in love with someone else. And, no, I'm not going to
tell you yet. I want to wait until we're ready to tell everyone ok?
Sorry, bro." And with that Nick's cell rang and Aaron slinked out
of the room."Hello?...Oh hey baby......yeah I miss you to...so what
did your mom say?...So she was cool with it?....well yeah she
already knows your gay, but I mean about *us* AJ, was she ok with
it?.....well that's a relief....yeah a little....I know, but it's
just for the weekend....Ok, see you then....love you too. Bye
babe."
Aaron staggered away fom the door. Nick? And AJ? What was going on?
Nick was gay?! With AJ?! The bedroom door swung open and the two
brothers were face to face. Nick knew immediately but the look on
Aaron's face that he knew. He pulled Aaron into the room and sat
down to talk.
"Nick, are you seriously with AJ?" Nick nodded. "So
you're...gay..?"
"Bi"
"And you were planning on telling us this when?"
"This is why I came down."
"Well, if you guys are in love, and you're happy than I'm happy for
you. I love ya man!" Aaron hugged Nick, just as Jane called them
down for supper.
*******************
After supper Nick sat his family down and told them that he was Bi.
They sat and stared at him for a second to see if he was joking.
Then, one by one, they all smiled.
"Alright, BJ, cough it up you owe me 5 bucks. I *told* you he was
gay!"
"Leslie!"
"Sorry Nick, but I figured you were when I caught you checking out
Justin instead of Britney that one day." Nick blushed.
"Well, Nick, just so long as you're happy." Bob sauntered over to
Nick and hugged him, taking him by surprise. Nick looked around at
his family and noticed the grins on thier faces. They weren't mad
they genuinely supported and loved him. Then he noticed Angel, she
seemed distant lately. He missed her, she was his baby sister and
he loved her. He made a mental note to spend more time with her
this weekend when Aaron intrrupted his thoughts.
"Yeah, and the best part mom is who his boyfriend is!" All eyes
were on Nick.
"You never told us about a boyfriend! Well, spill." BJ said
impatiently.
"Nick, is there something you'd like to share?" Jane asked in the
way only mothers can.
"Well, I wasn't going to bring it up yet, but seeing as *someone*
already did, I'll tell you." Nick glared at Aaron, "Well
it's...it's...AJ. We're in love, and well, we have been for quiet
awhile, we just wouldn't allow ourselves. Guys, say something!"
Everyone broke out in smiles, and jumped up to give Nick a hug.
Everyone chorused, "Congratualtions, Nick." Everyone, that is,
except Angel.
"Faggot!" Angel shrieked, "I hope you burn in hell! God doesn't
create such monsters as you! I loathe calling you my brother! How
can you do this to me!? Don't you know that it says in the Bible
that being gay is *WRONG*! You're such a selfish asshole! I want
*nothing* to do with you *ever* again!" And with that she stormed
up the stairs and slammed her bedroom door. The entire Carter
family sat in shock at what they had just witnessed. Nick burst
into tears, and Aaron ran upstairs. He pounded on the door but it
refused to budge. He yelled for Angel to let him and and the door
slowly crept open.
"What do you want you little brat???"
"If I recall correctly we are the same age Angel...and by the way
WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT ALL ABOUT!!! NICKS YOUR BROTHER!! HOW COULD
YOU TREAT HIM LIKE THAT???"
"Becauz..I...I..."
"You what Angel???"
"I love AJ" Angel said quietly under her breath secretly hoping
Aaron didn't hear her.
"You WHAT?!?!?"
Angel didn't notice that Nick had come up stairs and was listening
to their whole convorsation...
"I LOVE AJ!!!"
Suddenly Nick started freaking out, Angel was so terrified that she
didn't know what to do.
"YOU WHAT?!?!? HOW COULD YOU LOVE MY BOYFRIEND??? YOUR ONLY 14 YEARS
OLD YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS !!! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TOO
ME!?!?!"
All the sudden they heard *SMACK*
Angel had hit Nick.
* * * * * * * * * *
Back in Orlando they "Boyz" were all sitting around in AJ's backyard
getting pissed drunk and playing truth or dare. It was Kevin's turn.
"Ok Howie...truth or Dare???"
"Dare"
"Ok I dare you to strip all your clothes off and run down the street
screaming "*Nsync Sucks Ass!!!"
"Ok"
So howie got undressed and started screaming *Nsync sucks Ass" and
running around like a maniac untill someone screamed outta their
window "The Backstreet boyz are worse!!!" Little did they know that
Lance and JC were only two houses down, so Howie got dressed and sat
down while all they others just pissed them selves laughing.
"Shut up guyz now its my turn..." Said a VERY red Howie

"Brian?"

"Truth"

"When was the first time you jacked off?" Howie asked trading his redness
to Brian.

"Uh, I was 10." Brian admitted and the boys laughed. The game progressed
and they were having a riot. Brian dared Kevin to kiss Howie; AJ admitted
he'd been in love with Nick for five years, which recieved a loud
"Awwwww!"; AJ dared Howie to dump a tray of ice down Kevin's pants, so
kevin decided to get back at AJ.



"AJ truth or dare?"

"Truth"
"Whats the biggest secret you've ever kept from me...besides your
love for Nick?"
"That me and Angel Carter made out" AJ said as calmly as if they
where talking about the weather.
"WHAT?!?!" Brain, Howie and Kevin said in unison.
"Did I say that out loud?... Oh shit...um..umm..um"
"WHAT THE FUCK???? WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN??ANGEL'S JUST A KID!!! HAVE
YOU TOLD NICK???WHAT THE HELL WENT ON???" cried Kevin

"ummmm ummm ummm i suppose you guys want an explination???heehee..."

"Yeah AJ, that could help lot," said Howie, moving to sit beside his best
friend. The boys had sobered up quickly and were now interested in what
AJ had to say,"So, when did this happen, and does Nick know?"

"Last year. No," AJ said sadly, heading to his car to go home. "And he
can't know, he'll never love me if he knows."

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Notes: "Missing You" by the Backstreet Boys, NOT making any claims on it
as our own, just our idea to use it in this story. Uh...i don't know who
wrote it or anything like that, but it is not we repeat NOT our song!!!!
(however I do have the full lyrics to it).