Date: Sat, 17 Nov 2001 19:41:44 +0100
From: Dannii Ree <raindrops79@hotmail.com>
Subject: "the love we have" chapter 28

Disclaimer: Don't know, don't want to imply, this is fiction.

Notes: Sorry it took me so long to reply. But I didn't have a modem for the
last few days, so I couldn't go online. Enjoy this one!!


Chapter 28    by Dannii


"If you need to make out here in the bathroom, then at least keep it
quiet", a voice both boys knew very well said. Justin closed his eyes and
cursed silently. <Shit shit shit shit shit! This can't be happening. First
mom and now...>

"Maybe you two would prefer to come out of the stall. I mean, I already saw
you, Justin, so there's no need to hide." JC shook his head frantically,
but Justin slowly unlocked the door and opened it. He peeked his head
outside and looked at the person standing outside, looking back at him.

"And JC can come out, too. I don't bite, I promise." Sighing, Justin opened
the stall door wide enough so that him and JC could step out.

"How did you know that it was JC?", he asked, and Chris smiled.

"Well, it wasn't difficult to figure out. First of all, you two are
together like the whole time. I noticed that even though JC was ill from
Wednesday on. And, well, JC's voice did give it away." JC blushed heavily,
while Justin looked at his professor horrified.

"Are we that obvious?" Her wanted to know. He was a bit relieved when Chris
shook his head.

"Don't worry, Justin, you aren't. Let's just say that my gaydar is quite
good..." Chris smirked, and Justin and JC looked at him in awe.

"You... you are..." JC stuttered and shut his mouth when Justin elbowed him
in the ribs.

"Josh!" He hissed.

"No, Justin, it's alright. Yes, I am gay. I think it can't hurt that you
know. Not many people know. It's not that I'm ashamed of it, but it just
isn't everyone's business. Plus I don't think that all the other professors
would be to fond of it if they knew."

"That's exactly our problem", Justin said. "Nobody knows that we're
together. Okay, we've just been together for one day. But my mom even
doesn't know that I'm gay.  I'm not ready to tell her yet, I don't know how
she would react. And..." He stopped and looked at JC who smiled softly at
him.

"And then there is the problem that JC will be your brother soon", Chris
finished for him, and Justin nodded.

"I don't know how people will react when they find this out", JC said. "For
some of them it will be bad enough that we're gay, but when they find out
that we're brothers soon... I know it is against the law." He frowned when
Chris once again shook his head.

"No, JC, it isn't. It'd be against the law if you two were blood related.
But you aren't, as far as I know, right? So, it's not illegal. It will
still disgust people, yes, but it is not against the law."  Chris
explained. JC and Justin both felt as if a small weight was lifted from
their shoulders when they heard Chris say the words. It was a fact both
unconsciously had worried about.

"So, you're okay with it?" JC wanted to know.

"Of course I am okay with it, JC. But it isn't important if I am okay with
it or not. Sure, it will be hard for you, and it's especially hard every
time somebody calls you `fag' or everytime people turn away when they see
you - but what is important is what you feel for each other. If you really
love each other, then you'll be strong enough to go through it together."

"I love JC", Justin said and squeezed JC's hand tightly. JC squeezed back.

"And I love Justin. I know that it is weird, because we've only known each
other for a few weeks now, but I definitely know that he is the one for
me. And I know that he feels the same.  I've never been with a boy before,
so it's even more weird, but... I just know it." Justin leaned in and they
shared a small kiss before smiling at each other. Chris smiled as well.

"You're really cute together. I think I'm jealous." He saw the look both
boys gave him and sighed. "No, I don't have a boyfriend. Single since two
years. I haven't found mister right yet.  But I don't give up hoping!"
Before Justin and JC could say anything, Chris looked at his watch and said
"I have to go, I have to prepare some things for my next class. I guess
I'll see you after lunch break, Justin, right?" He was referring to
Justin's anatomy class.

"Sure, Chris. See you then." Justin let go of JC's hand and went to the
door.

"See you around, JC." Chris said to the older boy.

"See you, Chris." With that, the three walked out of the bathroom and
headed into different directions; Chris to his office, and Justin and JC
back to the cafeteria.

**********

JC sat in his car in front of the main building, waiting for Justin, who
had one more class than him on Mondays. He'd spent the time with Tyler
until five minutes ago, then Tyler had decided to drive back home, and JC
had gone to his car. Now he was staring out of the window on the crowd that
came out of the building, and he smiled when he saw Justin's mop of
curls. He was walking beside Lance, and both boys were laughing about
something.

Just one day earlier, JC wold have been jealous and angry, but now
everything had changed.  Now Justin was *his*. Justin had told him that it
had been Lance's idea to wear *that* dress when they had went to the park,
and that Lance really wasn't interested in him and vice versa.

JC rolled down the window on his side and grinned as the two blonde guys
came closer.

"Hey Lance!" He shouted. "Shall I give you a ride?" Justin and Lance
arrived at his side, and Lance shook his head.

"No thanx, I'm here with my car. I just wanted to say...", he looked from
JC to Justin and back to JC, "congratulations!" JC knew immediately what he
meant and winked at Justin.

"Thank you, Lance. - Just, are you ready to go?" Justin nodded and climbed
into the car after they both said goodbye to Lance.

**********

The ride home was silent. Justin and JC listened to the radio and smiled at
each other occasionally; they even dared to hold hands a few times. But the
closer they came to their home, the more nervous both felt.

JC shut off the engine and looked at Justin

"Here we go", he said, and Justin just stared at him.

"You know that mom will want to talk to you the minute you walk through
that door, right?"  Justin asked, and JC sighed.

"Yes, I know. And I say, the earlier the better." With that he climbed out
of the car and waited for Justin to do the same before he locked the doors
of the car and went to the front door.

Justin was right. Just a few seconds after JC and Justin walked through the
front door of their house, Lynn was by their side, a serious expression on
her face.

"Hey boys. - Joshua, can I talk to you for a minute now? We didn't have a
chance to talk this morning, and I'd really like to do it before Jim comes
home." At the mentioning of his father, JC paled slightly and nodded.

"Sure, Lynn." He followed her into the living room, leaving Justin standing
alone in the hall, both expecting him to go upstairs to his room. But
instead, Justin went closer to the living room door, eager to hear what his
mother had to say to JC.


JC sat down on the couch beside Lynn and looked at her nervously.

"So...", he said, and she smiled a bit at his nervousness, but tried to
hide it.

"So. Well, maybe you want to explain what happened this morning? I know,
you already told me, but I don't really believe you." JC swallowed and
tried to look like he didn't know what she meant, but Lynn didn't fall for
it.

"Honestly, Joshua. Why should Justin fall asleep in your bed?" Lynn looked
at him expectantly. JC desperately tried to thing of a good answer.


"He was... he was waiting for me to come out of the bathroom. Yes, that's
it. And he fell asleep while he waited. And then he lay there, and I... I
kissed him. While he slept. And he only kissed me back because he was
dreaming." Lynn didn't believe him one word, and JC knew it.

"Well, I'm not so sure about the sleeping part. Justin responded to your
kiss quite passionate, as far as I could see. I mean, he had his arms
around your neck And I can't remember that my son sleeps with his eyes
open. And he *had* them open." Lynn's voice was gentle, but nevertheless JC
blushed furiously and became more and more nervous.

"Are you gay, Joshua?" Lynn asked softly, and JC took a deep breath. Now he
had to say it.

"Yes, Lynn, I am. I'm sorry that you had to find out this way. I didn't
know it myself until I met Justin. Okay, maybe I am bisexual, but that
doesn't change anything. But I can assure you that Justin didn't know that
I was kissing him; he must have dreamed about a girl."

"No, I didn't dream about a girl", a voice could be heard from the
direction of the door, and Lynn and JC looked at Justin who now came into
the room and took a seat on the small table in front of the couch. JC
looked at him in shock, but Justin just smiled.

"It's okay, Josh. I want her to know." He looked at his mother and closed
his eyes for a moment, then he opened them and said quickly, before he
could change his mind

"Mom, I'm gay."

Lynn sighed and looked to the ground for a second. A second that seemed
like a year to Justin and JC. But then she smiled softly and took Justin's
hand.

"Well, I had the whole morning to think about everything. And one of the
possibilities I thought of was that you are gay. - I can't say I'm lucky
about it. No, Justin, I'm not disgusted or mad. I love you, nothing will
ever change that. I'm not lucky because I know that it will be hard for
you. And I only want you to be happy."

"I *am* happy, mom", Justin told her and looked at JC.

"Well, that's another thing", Lynn continued. "You being gay is alright.
Joshua being gay is alright, too. But - you two realize that you will be
brothers soon, right?  And that it's illegal what you're doing?" Now it was
JC's turn to speak.

"It isn't illegal, Lynn", he said softly. "It is illegal between blood
related persons, but we aren't blood related. - But we know that people
will still be disgusted by what we're doing, because they won't care if
we're real brothers or step brothers. But that's a risk we're willing to
take." He looked at Justin tenderly and gently touched his knee.

Lynn sighed again, very loud. "You know that we have to tell Jim, right? He
has a right to know, and I don't know how he will react." JC nodded
shakily.

"Yes, I know. It's alright. It's... alright." Justin took his hand and
stroked it with his thumb.

"He'll be okay with it, Josh, I'm sure. - Can we go upstairs, mom?" He
asked his mother and pulled JC to his feet when she nodded.

"I'll call you when Jim is home, boys." She watched as they walked out of
the living room, and when they were out of sight, she leaned back into the
couch and closed her eyes.

TBC...
**********feedback to: Dannii: eponinchen2000@yahoo.de   Megan:
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