Date: Fri, 27 Aug 1999 08:08:24 -0700 (PDT) From: Kyle D <tommyboy_d79@yahoo.com> Subject: Thinking of You (I Drive Myself Crazy) This story involves members of the band NSYNC. I am in no way implying anything about the sexuality of any of the members. This is purely a fictional story. Enjoy! This is my first attempt at writing a story like this so please bear with me. Please send any comments and/or suggestions to tommyboy_d79@yahoo.com * * * * * * * INSIDE A JEEP GOING DOWN I-10 "Aight we look good now don'twe?? Or should I have worn the jeans with this top?? OK lets turn around and go back and I can change the outfit." Kira babbled as I navigated us through rush hour. I turned to her and gave her the once over. Then the twice over and looking at her with a very critical eye I said, "Damn girl, aint nothin at home gonna make YOU look good." It took her about three mintes into her babbling before she realized just what I had said. She turned to me with a look of shock and then we both busted up laughing. "Okay so maybe I am overreacting a little but come on Cole, this is the first party of the year and the first impression is everything." I smiled at her and then looked back at the road. "Besides, its not like you'll have a hard time. My god if I can have at least ONE guy as hot as you come up to me and ask for my number then my night will be made." she said with a sigh. "Well I am sorry babe, but you know I just couldn't do it with ya! Even if I wasn't gay, even if I wasn't your cousin, your just not my type." I said with the straightest face posssible. There was silence from the passenger seat. I turned to look and we made eye contact and busted up laiughing. "You do know that one day your going to make a comment like that and the other person is not going to be used to your lack of decency and get very insulted, right? " "Yeah but then that means they aint the one for me baby." I sang. "Your a freak. A freak I tell you! But I love you anyways." she laughed. I pulled off on our exit and we headed towards the ASU campus. Now I suppose this is the point where I should tell you about myself. Aight. My name is Cole Tanner. I am 20 years old, have jet black hair, grey eyes, and a pretty nice body. I am a fitness trainer when I am not in school so that accounts for my build. I am currently a student at Arizona State. I had lived in Flordia all my life but had moved to Arizona to go to college with my cousin. She is only a year younger than me, but like the best friend and sister I never had. I am a single child. My parents are both alive but divorced. My dad is a crack dealer somewhere in Chicago last I heard. And mom?? Well Mom is a rich broad on husband number three and the last post card was from the Carribean. So dear cousin Kira was the only REAL connection to family that I had going for me at this moment. We were on our way to our first frat party of the year. It promised to be ...... interesting. We cruised down the street and found a parking space. As luck would have it, I would have to parallel park. So I maneuvered the Jeep in and worked my way in between a Porcshe and BMW. I parked and started to get out when Kira grabbed my hand. I sat back and looked at her. "Before we go in there I want you to make me a few promises. Deals if you will." "Umm I dunno Kira the last time I did that for you I got stuck with that bimbo while you made out with her boyfriend" I said with a smile. "Cole I am serious. Look at me. I don't want you talking about Trevor and Amanda ok?? Its not the subject to bring up when you are trying to get date. I mean I know she took him away from you and as a women you have the sympathy, but thats not what your opening line should be in a conversation." "Who's Trevor?? Who's Amanda?? I have no clue who these people are." "Aight, smart ass. The only other thing is this: have fun. Its been too long since you let your hair down." she said with a smile. This is our little inside joke. After a very serious two year relationship I was out on my own again. That and the fact that my longer hair was now short had something to do with it. "Now where is the deal?? What do I get from all this?" "Haha, I thought you would never ask. I know that you aren't going to like many of the guys here, SO I have a surprise for you tomorrow. You be a good boy tonight and I'll make sure your birthday is one you won't forget!" "Well with that much encouragment I'll even pretend to like you tonight!" I said and we got out of the jeep. The frat house was all lit up and already thumping with music. It was only 8 'o clock but there were already drunk ass frat brothers. Ah college life. Gotta love it. We went inside and everyone saw Kira and mobbed her. See I got my families genes of the Nordic decscent body wise, but Kira got the blonde hair and blue eyes. Plus this willowy frame that makes her look all sweet, innocent and helpless. Yeah right. My girl could take on the wrestling team. But she also had brains. So she is popular around the campus for her looks and smarts. Making her have a wide variety of friends. Seeing as how she would be busy I grabbed a soda and went for a couch. No sooner than I sat down did the most annoying of the bimbos sit next to me. "Hey Cole, whatcha doin here?" she said with gum poppin as she laid her hand on my leg. "Umm not a whole lot Kristy. Hey theres Jon I gotta go.." I said and jumped up. There were a group of guys from the football team on the wall so I went there. They greeted me and started talking about the upcoming game and how much I would be seeing them in the gym. "So Cole, you gotta work with me on my squats cause I want to be toned and ready for the big game." Jon was saying. And what I was thinking while I replied was how he would look doing squats on my dick. Bad thoughts bad thoughts, these are your STRAIGHT friends. "Cole, Darren says you give pretty good massages?? I pulled something in my lower back the other day, you think maybe I can schedule a time for a back rub?" Jared asked. "Hey guys, Cole is here like us to chill. So lets not bug him about work." Jon said. The guys all apologized and I smiled and we started talking about the opposing teams and what kind of season it looked like they were going to have. It was fun in a way, they are my straight friends but now I am gay and are cool with it. But it makes for some frustrating times. I lost myself in the conversation and hoped the night would pass quickly. MEANWHILE ON A TOUR BUS JUST CROSSING THE BORDER OF ARIZONA Inside the Nsync tour bus. We find that only four of the five guys are awake. Joey and Lance are sitting at the table with paperwork and an open laptop. Justin is sprawled on the couch dozing off and Chris is on the floor with Busta. "Okay so the plan is we get together with Kira and see whats shaking with the clubs, then on Sunday we all surprise JC right?" Joey asked. "Right, except that tomorrow night is her cousins birthday and we are gonna take him along too." Lance answered. "Man I can't wait to see Kira again. Last time we all hung out she was what, seventeen? She is fine and I can't wait to see her!" Justin said from under his hat. "Haha! Yeah right Just, like she's gonna give a boy the time of day when she can have a man?? " Joey laughed. "Nah, she'll take one looks at the horndogs you two have become and come running to me" Lance smirked. "Ah but then whatever will we tell Danielle?" Chris asked. At the mention of his girlfriends name Lance blushed. "Well... wel I was just...uh kidding..and.."Lance stammered. "I was just kidding Lance!" Chris said and came over to Lance "Besides I'm wondering how hot her cousin is going to be?" "Ah man Chris thats ill!!! Your gonna go hittin on Kira's family!" Justin said. "Whats wrong with THAT?? Ya'll are droolin over someone we think of as a little sister!" he shot back. "Yeah but bro with the curves like that it reminds you that she AIN'T our sister." Justin said. "Man what are ya'll carrying on about??? I was trying to sleep back there!" JC said as he entered the room. "Yeah like you don't get enough of THAT!" Joey laughed. "So who is the girl Just is after and who is the man that I know i am gonna beat Chris too?" he asked with a smile as he sat next to Lance. "Cocky huh?? Lets just remember Darien Lake where I scored with that hot guy and his friend and YOU sat in your hotel room!" Chris shot back. "Oooh low blow!" "Harsh man harsh" "Its alright Chris. Cause payback's a bitch" JC smiled at his friend. "Well may the best man win." Chris said as he shook his hand with a smile. The guys all laughed and went back to different conversations and work. They arrived in Phoenix at 11 pm and by the times they got to their rooms and were told to meet in Lance's room in the morning, they were tired and ready to sleep. Justin just tossed his bags to the side and flopped onto the bed and pulled out the picture of Kira. He started rubbing his already throbbing bulge and soon had it out and was playing with it. He thought of how he could get Kira into bed and soon started shooting a load all over his blue Fubu shirt. He showered and went to bed naked and drifted off to sleeps with thoughts of the next day. Chris unpacked and hopped in the shower within ten minutes of being in the room. He got out out and climbed into the bed and clicked on the TV. But his thoughts weren't on the TV they were on JC. Since the group had been together, the guys had all known Chris was gay. But after the first three months JC had come out to them and Chris had been ecstatic because he had always crushed on JC. But it seemed no matter what he did, JC never caught the signs that he liked him. Finally giving up he had made it a point to score with as many guys at each stop as possible. Maybe to make JC jealous or maybe to fill the void. Joey tossed his bags aside and got on his cell phone. He called his family and talked for a while. He then showered and got into bed. But he couldn't sleep. His thoughts were tied up about the guys. Everyone was acting a little off lately. Not on stage, but in their personal time. Lance was obviously having problems with Danielle, who Joey thought he should break up with. Justin was turning into a little horndog, and totally not respecting who he was with. He was treating all the girls he was with like whores. Chirs was getting quiet, which was weird for Chris right off. It made Joey think that he has a boyfriend back in Orlando and is really missing him. JC seemed to be the only one not affected by all of this. He was just JC. Always sleeping and on his cell. Lance unpacked and set up his laptop and started out on his email to Danielle. But he couldn't keep his mind on it. All he could think about was how Chris had touched his shoulder to reassure him. And then how JC had sat next to him and put his hand on his leg. All the guys thought Lance was straight and he tried his best to be. But lately things with Danielle had been frustrating. She wanted to reach that next plateu in the relationship and he wasn't quite ready too. Sighing he closed out the laptop and went to shower and then bed. Where he would toss and turn all night with thoughts of his friends. JC half unpacked before he got on the phone. He talked to his friend for hours before showering. His thought drifted back to the deal with Chris. He really wasn't to into all this competition they had had lately. He liked guys true, but had yet to find one that grabbed him. Sure looks were good but someone decent enough to hang with and not just to fuck. Someone who actually loved him for him, and not for JC member of Nsync. BACK AT ASU The party had finally ended and we got to the Jeep and found the Beemer gone and we pulled out freely. The top was off and we enjoyed the cool breeze. "So did you enjoy yourself?" Kira asked "It was good. I talked to the guys and avoided the bimbo so yah. I had fun" I smiled. I actually had enjoyed myself somewhat. True I didn't get laid, but it was aight. "Well you know that Jared is interested right?" "WHAT?!" "Yeah I saw you two. He is curious about you. He was asking me about you when you went to the bathroom. I think it would be cute." she said. "Look Kira, I don't need it right now. But when I am ready I will do it okay??" "OKay, now lets get home. Oh and by the way, Happy Birthday cuz." "Huh?" "Its 12:30. August 7. Your now 21." ========================================================================= So how did you like it?? Let me know okay. The second part should be out shortly.