Date: Fri, 10 Mar 2000 06:47:16 EST
From: BARBARABBCONTEMP@aol.com
Subject: What Happened-4{boyband section}

    This story is not intended for anyone under 18. If this is prohibited
in your state, do not read it. This is my first time writing a story of
this subject, so please be gentle. I would love feedback! This story does
not mean to imply anything about the sexuality of the Backstreet boys or
anyone else in the story! This is purely fictional.

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Here is the next installment, it's also a little emotional. I'll try to
stop with all the drama, it's just at that point right now. Enjoy!


			      What  Happened

Chapter-4


"You sure your going to be O.K.?" Howie asks as he helps Brian carry his
bags into his apartment.

"I think so, I just want to relax and try to put it out of my mind for a
little bit" Brian turns the light on in the kitchen and starts to fix two
drinks. He is more worried then he wants to let on. No one has heard from
AJ since he left, two days ago. He knew the last check was enough to take
AJ anywhere he wanted to go. He would do anything just to hear his voice
right now, at least to say he's O.K.

Brian takes the drinks into the living room and hands one to Howie. Neither
speaks as they're lost in thought. Howie sighs and take a swig of his
drink.

Brian lays his glass on the coffee table, "where do you think he went?" He
looks over to Howie.

"I don't know.... definitely not his house. That's the first place the
media would look. If he was at a hotel in town, management would find
him. Most likely, he's miles from here."

Brian stared into his glass, "How long do you think he's known about my
feelings for him?"

Howie thought about the question for a minute, "we haven't talked seriously
in a while, he never said anything." Howie looked over at Brian, "I know
how much you care for him Bri, but he needs a little distance right now. We
would only remind him of everything and he needs a break,"

Howie downed the rest of his drink and set the glass on the table. "I
really need to get home, I need sleep bad." He chuckled as he headed to the
door.

Brian stood up to see him out. "Thanks again for helping Howie, I
appreciate it." He pulled Howie into a hug, "I don't think I've hugged
anybody this much." He halfed smiled as he released Howie from the embrace.

Howie opened the door and stepped into the hall. "Have a good night and
call me if you need me." Brian nodded as the door shut.

Brian leaned against the door and sighed. He ran his hand through his hair
and closed his eyes. `Where are you J', he thought as he let out another
sigh. He pulled his body from the door and picked up the glasses from the
table. He took them to the kitchen and rinsed them out. He made his way
back into the Living room to lock up, as he reached down to turn the lamp
off, he saw the light on his answer machine flashing.

He pushed the play button as he sat on the arm of the chair. "1:15 A.M.,
Saturday June the 25th." came the automated voice.

"Bri, it's me....." Brian gasped as AJ's voice filled his ears. "I know
it's late, I just wanted to let you know I'm O.K.. I don't know where I'm
going or when I'll be back!  I just wanted you to know I'm fine. I hope you
understand, I have to do this for me and for the group.  I'm so close to
the edge Rok, it's scaring the hell out of me! I hope you will still be
there when I get back, but if not I understand. I just wanted to let you
know........I love you too Bri." Brian felt the tears slowly fall from his
eyes. He had waited so long to hear those words. AJ took a deep breath, "I
know it's kinda cruel to tell you like this, but right now it wouldn't
work. I can't be what you want right now. Maybe when I get back.
Anyway....please tell the guys to take care of themselves and I'll miss all
of you. ......I love you Bri......bye."

Brian stared at the machine as the message came to an end. He thought about
listening to it again, but that would only hurt more. He had never been so
happy to hear AJ's voice as he was know. `At least he's safe', he thought
as he wiped the tears from his face and turned the lamp off. He headed to
bed, he decided to call the guys tomorrow and let them know.



Howie locked the front door of his dark apartment. He flicked the lamp on
as he dropped his keys on the front table. He finally got home after making
sure Brian was doing alright. All he wanted right now was a hot bath and a
warm bed. He headed upstairs to his bedroom. He slowly opened the door as
not to wake his sleeping wife.

He turned on the water in the shower and pulled his robe out. His whole
body relaxed at the thought of the water against his skin. He got his shoes
and socks off, he jumped as he felt a set of hands start to unbutton his
shirt. He turned around to see his beautiful wife smiling at him.

"Hey handsome, what are you doing home" Jenn asked as she finished the
buttons on his shirt.

Howie pulled her into a tight embrace, "The rest of the week was canceled,
until we can figure out what to do without AJ." He lowered his lip to hers
in a soft kiss.

"What do you mean, without AJ? What's wrong with AJ" she asked as she
pulled away from the kiss. She was very protective of AJ, since he used to
date her sister. They had developed a strong friendship over the years and
she was there for him when he went through his breakdowns.

"Aaron decided he would take AJ's part in `My life so far'. He also had
management agree to change all our part on the albums to suit him." Howie
pulled his pants and boxers off and slipped into the steamy shower.

"I know how much it had to hurt AJ over that, he wrote the song." Jenn
drops her night gown and joins Howie in the shower. She slips her arms
around his back and kisses his neck. Howie turns around and wraps his arms
around his wife.

"I just pray that he doesn't have another episode without us around to
help."  Howie mutters as he lays his head on Jenn's shoulder.

"He been really distant with me lately", he sighs into her neck. "As long
as he's safe, he needs some time away."

"How is Brian taking it?" Jenn asked with the shampoo in her hands. She
massaged it into Howie hair and shoved him under the spray.

"He says he's O.K., but I know he's worried sick. I just hope we can get
something worked out, I'm not ready to quit. As mean as that sounds, I'm
not ready to throw my career away on some self-centered brat. Me and the
guys have worked too hard." He washed his body as Jenn finished his hair.

"It's not mean honey, I'm sure AJ's worried too. This is all he has left,
since he gave up the solo projects." Jenn reached over and turned the
shower off. Howie stepped out and wrapped them in his robe. They wabbled in
to their bedroom and laid down on the bed laughing. Howie threw the robe
onto the floor and pulled back the covers.  Jenn crawled over into his arms
and settled for the night. "I hope things work out for you guys, you know
I'll be there for all of you." Jenn told him as she leaned down for a quick
kiss.

"I know baby, that's why I love you. Goodnight." Howie reached over and
turned out the light.



Kevin drove along listening to the new `Live' album.

He had just dropped Nick off at his parents house. He wanted to be by
Nick's side when he confronted them about the Aaron situation. He was
debating on wether to turn around and go back anyway, but he knew that
would only make matters worse for Nick.

He was headed South to his best friend's house. He thought that maybe he
would be able to make some sense of everything that had happened.


A small moan was the only noise heard through out the house as the couple
made love.  "Ohhhh...... yes baby" came from the blonde as he ran his hands
along his lover's back.

 He raised his hips to meet the thrust of his boyfriend's thick rod. The
force against his prostate, sent a tremble through his body. He clenched
his fingers into his lover's back as he felt him plunge deeper into his
warm hole.

 The bed started to creak as his man grabbed onto the headboard for more
leverage.  His sweaty thighs, wrapped themselves around his mans hips as he
rode him.

He could barely breath as the heat poured down on them. Sweat glistening
from every pore of his hard body.

His eyes squeezed shut as he sensed the familiar tingling in his balls. He
grabbed the sheets and arched his back as he felt his release rumble
through his penis. A small scream escaped his mouth as his sweet juices
shoot out of his pulsing head. His heart felt like it would burst through
his skin.

The muscles in his tight ass gripped his boyfriend's dick to the root. He
felt the breath quicken near his ear as he ran his tongue along his man's
collarbone.

He came down from his high as he felt his inside fill with his love's
cream.  After a couple more small thrust his lovers drops onto his chest,
completely spent.

The blonde runs his fingers through his man's dark hair as he slips into
sleep "I love you......."


They are awaken an hour later by the front door bell. The blonde raises his
weary body from under his lover. He stumbles over to the intercom on the
wall, "Who is it?" he asks.

"Lance, it's Kev." He perks up a bit. He didn't expect him back so soon.

"When did you get back Kevin?"

"Yesterday, can I come in?"

"Sure, do you still have your key?"

"Yeah."

 Lance moves back to the bed and places a kiss on his mans forehead. He
reaches onto the floor and put on his discarded robe. He closes the door
softly behind himself and walks downstairs into the living room. He sees
Kevin sitting on his couch, staring into space.

"Hey sexy, I missed you!" He says as he pulls Kevin into a hug.

"Yeah me too." Kevin returns the hug. They settle onto the couch.

"I saw the news!" Lance says as he reaches over to grab Kevin's hand. "How
is he?"

"I wish I knew, we haven't heard from him in two days, I'm really worried."

"He just disappeared?" Lance say with an suprised look on his face.

"Yeah, he didn't tell anyone where he was going." Kevin stares into his
lap.

Lance suddenly remembers something from the last time they talked. "How are
you and Nick doing?"

Kevin gets a sad look on his face. He's hesitant to meet Lance's eyes, he
knows what he will see there. "It isn't working Lance. I'm tired of the
hold they have on him. Every time he seems to move on they suck him back
in. I can't do it anymore, I can't keep putting what life I have on hold
for him. Especially if he doesn't feel that what we have is worth dealing
with this once and for all. As bad as it sounds, I'm to the point where
it's them or me."

Lance knew this was coming. Kevin was the type of person who needed
security and total trust. He needed someone he could depend on no matter
what. As long as the Carters had a say so in his life, he knew Nick wasn't
that person.

"We've been trying to do this again, but it's the same thing over and over.
I've given him the benefit of the doubt, but I want...no I need him to make
some type of effort or....that's....it."  Kevin hung his head over the back
of the couch.

Lance was cautious with his next statement, but he knew it needed to be
said.  "Kevin, I don't want to upset you, but...maybe it's time for you to
move on." He waited for a reaction.

Kevin squeezed the bridge off his nose to relieve some of his stress. He
lifted his head up and smiled at Lance. "The funny thing is, that exactly
what I've been telling Nick to do.  Seems were in the same boat. I know
I'll be there for him, the question is will it be as a friend or as his
lover?" He looked up as he heard footsteps on the stairs.

"Hey Kevin, how are you?"

"Hey Joey, I'm doing as good as can be expected."

"Yeah, we saw the news, I hope he's O.K." Joey said as he planted a kiss on
Lance's lips.  He sat down on the couch and laid his head on Lance's lap.

Kevin watched them with envy. They had sustained a good relationship for
two years now. He wanted that more than anything, but he knew he and Nick
were a long way from that.

"How's Nick." Joey asked

"He's good......I guess. Were not as close as we used to be. I took him to
his house, before I got here."

"Are you sure that's a good idea with everything that's gone down."

"No I don't, but he insisted." Kevin saw Lance yawn and knew it was time to
go.

"Well I guess I'll see you guys later. I just wanted to say hi and let you
know what's going on."

Joey sat up and let Lance out. He followed Kevin to the front door. "How
about we have lunch tomorrow." Lance asked as he pulled Kevin into a quick
hug.

"I'd like that, I'll call you around 11."

"Alright, drive safe."

Kevin pulled away, "bye Joey."

"Bye"

Kevin walked to his car and headed home.



Nick pushed open the door to his parents estate. He peered at the remains
of his hard work.  He has provided for the family since he was twelve. He
made a deal with Lou, instead of the small salary he gave the guys in the
beginning, he paid off his parents house. That was the first sign to Jane,
that she could use he children to get anything she wanted.

The house was empty and all the lights were out. He walked along the halls
in search of the stairs. The only noise was the sound of his footsteps. He
found the stair and went up, careful not to trip.

He reached the door to his room. He stood with his hand on the knob, unsure
of what would be waiting on the other side.

He sighed and pushed the door open. The lights were out and the blinds were
down. The darkness enveloped his body as he entered the room. He felt along
the wall for the light switch. He gasped as the light cascaded upon the
room. It was empty, completely empty.

His bed was gone, his furniture, his personal things. Everything was gone.
The only thing left was his carpet and the trash can by the door.

His heart dropped. If there was any doubt left about where he stood with
them, it was now shattered. They had made his choice for him.

He shut the light off and walked into the hall. He closed the door with a
heavy heart. For once, he didn't cry, he knew it was coming.

They had pushed him away since he was sixteen. It started with little
things like not returning his calls and sending his uncle when he asked one
of them to come with him.  When things happened inside the family, he would
find out to late or not at all. His parents kept his brother and sisters
away from him. They said they didn't want them to get to attached , since
he wasn't there. That's one of the reason he tried so hard with Aaron. He
couldn't let his only brother go. They even went so far as to move to
California, when he was seventeen, without telling him.

He saw it happening, but refused to believe it. As much as they hurt him,
he always put them above anything and anyone who actually cared about
him. He couldn't deny it anymore.

He made his way to the garage. As he flipped the switch to raise the door,
he was relieved to see they didn't take his car. His Durango was his baby,
it meant to much to him. He opened the driver's side door and slipped
in. As the car's engine came to life, he noticed the boxes on the back
seat.

He pulled out of the garage and drove to the end of the driveway. The ride
down was the longest drive in his life. A little piece of the person he
thought he was, disappeared with every motion. He got to the end of the
driveway and put his key in the mailbox.  `Goodbye' he thought as he drove
away from his `home'.


Well that's all for Chapter 4. I know it's another emotional installment,
but let me know what you liked and what you didn't. Thanks for reading!.


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