Date: Sat, 2 Feb 2002 20:42:45 +0800
From: pseud0nym <pseud0nym@edsamail.com.ph>
Subject: What I See 3/?

Disclaimer.

If you are under 18 or not of legal age in your country, please do not read
on. If you couldn't accept themes of homosexuality and the like, please
don't read on. This is a story concerning gay males having intimate
relationships and is considered FOR ADULTS ONLY due to its sexual theme and
contents. BUT if you really like this stuff, please don't tell others.

Everything in this story is purely FICTIONAL. Or it's not true!!! Even if
this story involves NSYNC and a fictitious character, all that happens in
here is fictional... again, it's not true. I don't know anything about
their sexuality, as far as the I and the world know, they're straight as an
arrow so I dunno if they're gay (but I do have my speculations) or not but
I wrote this out of freedom of speech and my love for these guys and slash
fiction. I don't own or know NSYNC personally. AGAIN, it's NOT TRUE!!! but
don't we all hope that it's true... hehehehe...

First Words.

Hi guys. This is my 3rd work here in the boyband section. I dunno why I
called it "What I See" but I just ran out of ideas for a title and thought
of something simple. So the title, What I See was born. I dunno if I can
manage my 3 stories at the same time but Crossed Paths is in it's "season
break" and Reformation is still there. But I'll try my best. I have a
little of the new season of Crossed Paths I hope y'all like this
one. Remember, I love feedbacks. Mail me at pseud0nym@edsamail.com.ph!!!


What I See Chapter 3

"Justin?" I said not believing what I was seeing. But it was really
Justin. Justin Randall Timberlake of NSYNC is in front of my front door. He
was my date?!

"Surprised to see me?" Justin asked me still with his grin on his face.

"Yeah!" I blurted out. "I just didn't know that you go that way." I said to
him.

"We'll talk more later, the limo is waiting and we have reservations."
Justin said to me as he led the way to the waiting limo. Limo?
Stylish. Very stylish.

Still, I was in confusion. It just doesn't make sense to me. I have never
thought of any possibility that he might be gay, bisexual or whatever. I
mean he has Britney Spears as her girlfriend already for crying out loud
. Wait, if he's dating Britney and I'm gonna go out with him on a date,
where does that put me? That's not right.

"After you." Justin said gesturing like a gentleman. I smiled at him warmly
and entered the limo. Then, he followed and sat beside me even if there's a
bigger space in front of him. Isn't he too quick or something? "You look
gorgeous." Justin said looking at me intently. There was something in his
voice? Was it seduction? I just can't tell with other things swirling in my
mind.

"Thanks. You're looking good too." I returned the compliment to
him. Actually, he really looked good in his all-black attire. He looks more
demure and elegant than his street look in the band. "I never imagined that
um, you're... gay." I added being blunt as usual. Why bother go around the
bush if it would come out, oops, no pun intended.

"Well, I just don't broadcast it to the world. I have an image to protect."
Justin said cockily.

"What about Britney?" I asked already. I was already itching to ask it from
the first time I saw him this night. I mean Britney is his girlfriend as
far as the world and I know.

"What do you mean, what about Britney?" Justin was playing dumb. Do we have
to play around? I mean I asked a direct question and he returns it with a
question. Is that right? I don't think so, but just to be nice and
everything, I'll just let it pass for now.

"I know that Britney is your girlfriend." I said to him.

"Oh that!" Justin exclaimed. "Well, it's just a cover-up so the people
won't suspect a thing with my real sexuality." Justin explained.

"I see. So it's like you two talked together and asked her to be your fake
girlfriend." I said what I thought about it. Well, it does sound good and
it's very sweet of Britney of doing such a selfless act for a friend.

"Well, not exactly." Justin said to me hesitantly that left me in
confusion, again. "Technically, Britney is MY girlfriend and I'm dating her
but I just do it to not let the cat out of the bag so to speak." Justin
elaborated. I tried to suppress a come back with what he just said to me. I
think that was so, um, selfish (?) I mean, he is using Britney as a
cover-up and it's all based in lies. I mean she is his friend after all and
there he is using her without her knowledge. I don't think I can live in
that situation. It is just too hard.

"I see." I said hiding my irritation from what I just heard. "So, the other
guys know?" I asked him again.

"Not exactly." Justin told me. I think when JC said that Justin has a good
character, he was just buttering him up. Yeah, he's a gentleman and
everything but that's it. I mean, all I'm seeing now is one filthy liar who
uses a poor defenseless woman to hide his true sexuality without the girl's
knowledge and he's not even honest to his so-called brothers of what really
works in that little nutty head of Justin's.

"Okay." I said to Justin with a strained smile. I hope he notices that I
was just being nice to him and not being sincere. "I heard that JC came out
already to you guys." I said trying to suppress any annoyance that I was
feeling to Justin at this moment. JC is a good thought.

"Yeah. Everyone was cool with it." Justin said to me plainly. That's it?
"Dee said that you like our music." Justin changed the topic. I dunno if I
should thank or hate Dee for doing this for me.

"Yeah, I do. I really love some of the songs in your latest album." I
remarked.

"Really? Is it any of my songs? I mean, I did write most of the songs
there." Justin said smugly. I think it's time to burst that big bubble.

"Well, um, actually, I really like ones that JC wrote." I said to him
truthfully. Well, I do like JC's songs better than his.

"Oh." Justin said downcast. The trip to wherever he's gonna take me was
spent in utter silence except the humming of the car. I crossed my arms and
looked at the view outside thinking. "I get the feeling that you really
don't like me that much." Justin broke the silence. I think it finally got
through his thick head. Not to sound so mean, but he really sounded so
self-centered and egotistic.

"Justin, I'm not saying that I don't like you because there are lots of
things to like about you. I guess I just get this feel in your personality
that I don't really like." I said honestly. "Please don't take it the wrong
way but there are some things where our beliefs clash but I'm trying to
grasp everything you believe in and try to understand it." I tried to
explain.

"Be honest, what do you see in me?" Justin told me. I looked at him
intently thinking of any euphemisms that I can use to describe him. But I
really don't know how to go about it without being so cruel and judgmental.

"Let's start with the good things. I really think you are very handsome and
a true gentleman. I can see that you're very passionate in the things you
want and very persistent. I also think that you are very talented even for
your young age; you have an amazing gift in music." I paused thinking of
other stuff that I saw in him. Nadda. "On the other hand, from our
conversation earlier, I get this notion that you're very self-seeking. I
mean, I really don't like to bash you or anything but the thing with
Britney really appalls me coz I feel so pitiful for Britney coz she's in a
pointless relationship without her knowledge even. And you knew that JC
already came out to you and the others so why not join in it as well and
not have another one of those uncomfortable moments where you tell it to
them."

Justin didn't speak after my piece. I hope I didn't hurt his
feelings. "Thanks for the kind words and being honest. I think you're the
first guy to be so honest to me. Well, in the Britney thing, I just don't
wanna hurt her but I see your point and where you're coming at. I do sound
so egotistical." Justin spoke. I guess it's good that he's realizing his
faults.

"But don't you think that she's gonna be more hurt knowing that you just
led her on to something pointless?" I asked him rhetorically. Justin seemed
to think about it and I could see a little sadness in his face. I think I'm
being too harsh here. "I hope I didn't hurt your feelings and won't scar
any relationship that we are sharing, if there's any." I said to him with a
smile as I touched his shoulder.

"I think we should go on with the date and let's see where it's gonna
head." Justin smiled at me.

"That's fine. Let's leave Justin the egotistical asshole somewhere coz I
wanna know the gentleman and kind Justin." I said to him. Well, I guess
that broke the tension coz we started from the start. We chatted about very
trivial things about ourselves learning about each other. And the more
things we share, the more things I learn about him and that's good.

After a few minutes, the limo stopped. I guess we're already in our
destination. The driver opened the door and the two of us stepped out. We
were in front of a very fancy Italian restaurant where my family and I
usually eat in here. I think it was more of a tradition already. We entered
the restaurant and he talked with the maître d'. The maître d' led us
to a secluded part of the restaurant that Justin prolly reserved for us for
privacy reasons.

The maître d' handed us the menu and I skimmed at it looking at anything
that caught my attention. I guess I'll just settle with my favorite
here. "I'll just have a Pasta ala Carbonara." I said to the waiting
attendant.

"Excellent choice. What about you Mr. Timberlake?" He asked Justin.

"I'll just get what he got and can you also add your finest wine." Justin
told the maître d' who nodded and scuttled off to pass on our
orders. Once alone, Justin and I talked some more.

The food and the wine arrived after awhile but we didn't get bored because
Justin and I seemed to be fond of each other. But is there some attraction
there? I would be a hypocrite if I said no because he was sorta my crush
then. But do I see any possible relationship? I doubt.

"Do you mind if JC knows that you're my date?"  I asked Justin.

"You talk with JC?" Justin questioned back.

"Yeah. I think we really hit it off before in the club and we're constantly
talking about life and hot guys there and there." I said trying to make the
conversation light.

"Well, I really don't mind coz I think I'll just come out to the guys when
I come back. I'm still a little unsure if I should tell Britney coz I hate
to see her cry and heartbroken over this." Justin told me. I think that I
like Justin better now.

"Well, like what I said to JC. Just take your time but don't take too much
of it." I said to him as our orders arrived.

Our time together in the restaurant was amazing. Justin proved to be really
fun-loving and very down-to-earth. I guess my only explanation with his
earlier behavior was because it was sorta like a defense mechanism for him
already. Be egotistic and superior so they can't touch. But truthfully,
Justin was just a normal guy who didn't have a very nice childhood. Who
would have a good one if you are in tour since the age of 13?

"You know, you're not too bad after all." I told him. His eyes were
glittering and I could see that he was happy that I didn't think that he's
such a big prick even if he is sometimes.

"Thanks." Justin said to me. He called on the maître d' for the bill and
after he paid even with my objections that I should be the one to pay, we
got back to the limo. Justin directed the driver to bring us back to my
house. The drive home was not so tensed like earlier which was good coz
that's the last thing I need to end a very spectacular date even with a bad
start.

After a few minutes, the limo halted to a stop. I could see my house
outside the window. "Do you wanna come in?" I offered.

"Sure." Justin said coyly and instructed the limo driver to drive around
and he'll just call him if he needs to go already. We stepped out of the
limo and entered my house. I was fumbling with my keys and I could hear
Pookie already barking from the inside. Did I feed her? I think I
did. "You've got a dog?" Justin asked.

"Yep. A brown Chihuahua." I said to him. Finally, I found the right key and
opened the door. Pookie was in front of me wagging her tail
excitedly. Then, she averted her gaze to Justin and growled a little. "Bad
Pookie!" I said hearing her growl. She silenced herself and I picked her up
from the floor. "Sorry about that. She has a little problem with meeting
new people." I said with a giggle.

"It's okay." Justin said to me. "Nice house you've got here and very
stunning interior." Justin commented.

"Thanks. It took me a long time to finally furnish everything but I think
it's worth it." I said to him with a smile. I looked at my answering
machine and saw that I have messages.

"Kyle! JC here! I hope you enjoyed your date, whoever he is. Call me and I
want details!" JC's voice played out. I chuckled a little hearing the
anticipation and excitement in his voice.

"I never heard JC that... um, thrilled over something. Maybe except if he
had an idea for a song." Justin laughed. I smiled a little and realized
that I was being a very bad host.

"By the way, do you want anything?" I offered.

"Nah! I'm still filled with the pasta dish we ate earlier." Justin told
me. The two of us sat on the couch and resumed talking about our lives. I
got a glimpse of Justin's private life that's away from the limelight. It
was really interesting to know Justin really. I guess these pop stars have
been too exposed publicly that you just don't see that they have another
side away from it and when you hear that, you'll just be blown away. It was
the same with JC.

"It's getting late already and we have rehearsals tomorrow. I guess I
should head home." Justin said to me as he stood up.

"You're right, it's late already. If you want you can just stay in here for
the night. It would save you some time and give you more time to sleep." I
offered.

"Thank you but I don't want to impose on you." Justin said.

"Nonsense! That's so small considering that you gave me a very wonderful
night and a good conversation. Call the driver and just tell him to get you
tomorrow. I'll prepare your room." I said to him as I stood up to go to the
guestroom and see if everything is okay there.

I think that everything was in place so I returned down to Justin and saw
him talking on the phone. "Wait a minute." Justin said on the phone. "Kyle!
JC wants to talk to you." Justin handed me the phone.

"Hi Jace!" I said cheerfully. "By the way, the room is ready and if you
wanna take a shower, it's in the second door from the right. Towels are in
the cabinet and you can borrow some clothes in my room, the one beside the
guest room that you'll be using." I said to Justin who nodded and went
upstairs.

"I can't believe that Justin is your date!" JC exclaimed to me.

"You should have seen my face when I opened the door and I saw him
there. It was like I saw a ghost or something and I bet that my expression
was funny as hell." I said chuckling.

"I didn't even expect that Justin was gay coz he has Britney and everything
and he seemed to be such a flirt with the girls." JC told me.

"You're a flirt too!" I said to him.

"Am not!" JC retorted.

"In your dreams. You're such a big flirt and you know it." I said to him.

"Okay I'm a flirt." JC said sadly then giggling afterwards. "Come on, I
want details." JC squealed.

I told him everything. From my first impression to Justin until when I
invited Justin to stay in here.

"How come you invite him to your house and you've never invited me there?"
I could see a pout already forming on JC's lips. I think it's really cute.

"Well, you never gave me signals that you're interested. And I always think
that you pop stars are always busy to have a slumber party with little
people like me." I said dramatically.

"Hey!" JC said to me. "Well, if that's the case I just have to prove to you
that I have time to little people like you. What's your address?" JC asked.

"Don't say you're coming here at this time?" I asked him incredulously.

"I am!" JC stated.

"JC, you have rehearsals tomorrow. You'll be too sleepy tomorrow coz it's
late already." I explained to him. I can't let him jeopardize a rehearsal
day because of a silly thing. "How about you go here after your rehearsals
and we can sleep here if you wanna." I suggested.

"Sure!" JC said excitedly. "I'm gonna change the topic. So what do you
think now of Justin?" JC asked. I think JC's past life is a sleazy gossip
column reporter. Geez, he's too gossipy!

"I think that Justin's a nice guy." I said.

"That's it?" JC asked me quizzically.

"What do you want me to say?" I asked back.

"Well, I was expecting words like, 'he is such a perfect gentleman. I think
I can live with him forever.' or 'I think it's love at first sight.'" JC
said to me with feelings. He's a bad actor.

"Well, in that case, um, no. I don't think of Justin that way." I said. "We
spent a night together and I learned lots of things about Justin, both good
and bad. I can see that he's a very talented and special man but I just
don't see myself being with him. I guess it's just his character but don't
get me wrong coz he has a good character. I guess it's just I see him more
as a friend than something more." I told JC honestly. It was the complete
truth. All the trace of my petty crush with him has just vanished. I guess
learning about someone does put out the spice but I know that it's a good
thing.

"Really?" JC asked a little excited.

"Someone's excited." I said playfully.

"Um, well, I just thought that I'll have a chance with..." JC started to
stutter.


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End of Chapter

That's chapter 3. Well, I wanna call it the date chapter. I hope I didn't
bore you out with their day. And there's a cliffhanger as well! My first
one for the series. I'll try not to place lots of those there coz I know
how it gets to someone, based from experience. ;-P

Thanks to all of you who took the time and emailed me. It was so sweet and
very much appreciated. From the bottom of my heart, I thank y'all.

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A big 'HI' to the people in the Nifty Boyband Chatroom! They are so nice,
especially Dru, CJ, Duckie, Strat, Clive, Jayson... and the list goes
on. Wanna say hi to my friends Byron and Reggie who have helped me with
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without him, we won't be reading any of the best slash fics in the world!

Also, here are my suggestions of other cool stories in the archive that
influenced me in my craft.

 + Brian and Justin (Brian/Justin)
 + The One (Brian/Justin)
 + Jamie's Romance (Justin)
 + Love Thru Chat (JC/Justin, Lance)
 + Josh and Just (JC/Justin)
 + Lance in Shining Armour (Lance)
 + My New Life (Lance)
 + Because I Love You (Brian/Nick)
 + Double Take (Brian/Nick)
 + Bad Boy B-Rok (Brian)
 + Justin's Dark Angel (Justin)
 + My Surprise Romance (Lance)
 + Heir to the Darkness (Brian/Nick)
 + Life with Justin (Justin)
 + Kevin and Dustin (Kevin)
 + French Kiss Me (Brian)
 + Millennium Love (Brian)
 + Forever (Kevin)
 + JC's Hitchhiker (JC)
 + Get Another Boyfriend (Kevin)
 + Jimmy Needs Assistance (Lance)
 + Lance, JC and an Astral Fan (Lance/JC)
 + Lance's Search (Lance/JC)
 + Heir to the Darkness (Nick/Brian)
 + JC Dreams (JC)
 + On the Streets (Kevin)
 + Sans Vous, Je Suis Rien (Justin)
 + Insecurities (Nick)