Date: Fri, 24 Sep 1999 14:06:21 +0700
To: Tonny <aspire34@go.com>
Subject: When You Say Nothing At All #10

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WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL
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Previously on 'When you say nothing at all':

"Does he never give up!" Justin said sarcastically
"Justin, be nice remember" I said to calm him down
"He asked for your address, what next, having sex with you!"

"JUSTIN!" I raised my voice, "What you just said, it's so disparage me. I even
lied about my address to him," I said angry as I stood up
"Tony wait!" he grabbed my hand, "I'm so sorry what I just said"

I jerked his hand. "You know what! I have fed up with all of this, I have work
to do, just think what you just did to me ok," I said clearly and walked away.
Justin just looked down, I looked back at him for a second, "Grow up Justin!
GROW UP!" then I made my way to the studio.


CHAPTER 10: END OF THE LINE

I was heading my way to the studio for the MTV Land, actually I felt bad leaving
Justin alone but he needed a lot of thinking to do. The show ran smoothly, even
the guys could play along as I planned. When we just nearly wrapped up the
shows, I could see, Justin was standing near the door of the studio. He looked
down when I was staring at him; I made my way to him.

"I'm so sorry Ton. I was really overreacting. I didn't mean to insult you or
something" Justin apologized softly

"You should know me better Justin, and try to trust me Ok" I replied then he
nodded and smiled to me.

The show was ended, and time for me to have a lunch break. The guys came to me
for saying goodbye.
"Well done guys! The show was superb. I hope, you can come again" I said
politely

"Yeah sure, next time when we visit Singapore again" Roger replied
"Well, we're going to have lunch. Would you like to join with us" Lee asked, and
I looked to Justin and he didn't show any jealousy anymore.

"Naah, Thanks for the offer guys but I have my lunch with my friend in here" I
put my hand on Justin's shoulder and Justin smiled shyly to me

"That's cool. Well we've better going then. Thanks for everything Ton" Neil said

"Not a problem guys" I shook their hands

"Oh yeah nice to meet you Just! I hope we can meet again" Phil looked at Justin

"Yeah me too" Justin shook his hand and the others.Then they all left the
studio.

"Come on, I'm hungry. You're hungry too right?" I asked Justin
"Yeah" he replied, "Ton, I'm so sorry"

"That's cool Justin! In fact, I like when you're jealous" I mocked him and he
chuckled.

We went to Scott Picnic Food Court on the Scott Road. Actually, it's in the
basement of Scotts shopping center; it serves excellent selection of foods.
Since it was Friday, so I could finish my work a little bit early, so I took
Justin for a quick sightseeing, which ended with Justin bought a lot of stuff.
We were browsing every stores in the Orchard Road, Justin seems never tired of
shopping; he even didn't bother to check the prices. When we went to one shop,
we always came out with at least one shopping bag. We went to Palais
Renaissance, Pacific Plaza, The Paragon, Metro, Isetan, etc. I was getting tired
with our 'quick' sightseeing then I had to stop him at Daimaru; we took a cab
since I couldn't help him anymore with all the bags. At 6pm, we decided back to
my apartment, having dinner and straight to bed.

My Place 07:00am 08/05/1999

Yesterday, I asked Michael for a day off, I told him that I wanted to bring
Justin sightseeing since it was his last day in Singapore. Michael didn't have a
problem with it, since I had done all of my works for that day. I looked at the
clock, it was 7 already then I decided to take a bath and prepared some
breakfast for us. When I was preparing my pancake, Justin woke up and went to
the kitchen to see me.

"Morning Ton!" Justin said and yawned plus some stretching
"Morning, it's still 7:30, you don't have to wake up this early you know" I said
as I fried more pancake

"Yeah, but I smell something delicious from the bed that wakes me"
"Just some pancakes. Why don't you brush your teeth and take a shower before
eating" I ordered him

"Ok...wait...Don't you have to go to work?" he returned at me
"Oh I asked Mike for a day off to take you sightseeing today"

"Cool! I've better hurry then" Justin excited and straight to the bathroom
"Take your time Just!" I shouted.

And he did. He took an hour to get ready, even I had to reheat the pancake into
the microwave. He burped after eating my pancake, and I had to remind him about
his bad habits. At 9, we started our journey, first I showed him Merlion Park to
see a symbol of Singapore. It is a mythical beast, said to be half-lion and half
fish. Then I took him to Jurong, to see some basic tourist attraction, like
Jurong Bird Park, Haw Par Villa, Tang Dynasty City; Justin seem so amazed of
various cultures in Singapore.

At 1pm, I decided to take him for lunch in Garden Seafood Restaurant, the place
was quite expensive, but it didn't bother me since I was rarely going to that
place and Justin seemed like the lobster and I liked chili mussels. After having
lunch, we went to Sentosa Island by cable car from Mount Faber. We spent the
rest of the day on that island. The island was full of tourist attractions,
which has different admissions. Well as long as Justin happy then I was happy
too, apart from being stopped by his fans whose asked for photos and signatures.

At 7pm, we were absolutely tired; I decided to take cab to go back to my
apartment, we stooped at McDonald's Drive in for Dinner take away since I was
not in the mood of cooking that night. At 10pm, We were going to bed since we
were very exhausted. I laid down on the bed next to Justin, and I turned to face
him

"So did you have fun today?" I asked him and he turned to face me

"Yeah but I'm very exhausted. Thanks ton" he thanked me, and I just looked to
his eyes and kept silent. "What's wrong, ton?"

"You will be leaving tomorrow and I'll be alone again" I sighed

"I want to stay a little bit longer ton, but I promised the guys that I should
return before our concert in Tennessee." Justin said sadly

"Yeah I understand, I just wish, we can always together" I replied

"Me too. So come with me" Justin looked at me with full of hope.

"Not now Just. I just have this job" Justin looked even sadder, "but I promise,
I'll come to visit you and the guys" I cheered him and he smiled.

"well last time, you said that you would come to Florida that Sunday" Justin
pouted

"I said SOMEDAY not Sunday," I said sternly and he laughed

"So what 'Someday' would be then?" he asked me

"I dunno, just see what happened ok. I've never lied to you right?" I assured
him and he nodded. I hugged him tightly, 'Ooh God! I miss him already' I said to
myself, as we felt asleep.

The next day, it was Sunday so I didn't have to go to work. I took Justin to
CHANGI Airport, his flight was on 09:45. When he came to Singapore, he only
brought a backpack, now he returned to Florida with 2 large travel bags. I knew
that we did it twice, saying good-bye at the Airport. He looked so sad, while I
kept smiling to him, tried to cheer him up; inside I wanted to jump to that
flight and go with him.

"Come on! Don't be sad, we did this a couple of times" I looked at him and he
was wearing his sunglasses, then tears falling down on his face. I took his
glasses off and wiped his tears; then he hugged me suddenly

"Please...just this one, come with me" he said and still sobbing

"I want to Just, but not now. We discussed it last night right?"

Justin nodded, "I promised that I'll come to see you. I miss you ton" he said as
he kissed me lightly

"I miss you too. Come on, I don't want to see that face. That face made me sad"
I smiled to him and he tried to smile at me, "There you go, that's my Justin.
Ok you should boarding now, the plane can't wait for you" I joked and he cheered
a bit

"Ok, I'll wait for you. I'll call you" Justin said as he put his backpack on his
shoulder

"Ok please say hi to the guys and your mom ok" Justin nodded and he walked
heading to the gate, "Be good Justin!" I shouted and he waved at me. Then he was
gone from my vision; I couldn't hold the tears anymore; I sighed, then left the
airport.


MTV STUDIO-SINGAPORE 14:00 18/05/1999

"Tony, can you come to my office please?" Michael asked me and I nodded as I
finished my last bite on my sandwich.
"Please sit" Michael said as he cleared up his table from papers.

Actually, I was a little bit nervous, I had a feeling that he was going to fired
me.

"Tony, you did a great job in here and I'm impress with your works so far"
Michael smiled at me.

I gasped 'What a relieve'

"I have some assignment for you" he looked at me.

"Ok and that would be?" I asked

"You know that Backstreet Boys is going to be our Artist of the Month for June
right?" I nodded, "We received a lot of responses or actually questions for them
on MTV ASK with BSB, so I want you to go to US and shot for the show and also
make some footage about them for Artist of the Month"

"What? Backstreet Boys? They are a boy band" I sounded rejecting of the idea
"So? What?" Michael questioned me

"Come on Mike, send someone else. I don't like BSB, I'm even hardly listening to
hear their music. Why don't you send me for Madonna, Mariah or Celine perhaps" I
tried to persuade him

"Well you also have to do some shoots for Jennifer Lopez in NY since she's going
to be our Hot Seat for July" Michael added

"Great I take Jennifer, I love her music" I excited

"And BSB too" Michael said sternly
"But Mike..." I pouted

"Hey this is your first assignment. It's really not a good sign for your future
career if you turn it down" he looked at me seriously

"Ok Ok you're the boss" I gave up

"Great, you will be going with Alex the cameraman. And here are the tickets,
You're going tomorrow, meet the BSB in Orlando on the 20th and meet Ms. Lopez in
NY on 23rd. Your return flight is on 24th. I confirmed their schedules with
ours, please be on time." Michael said as he gave me the full itinerary

When I heard the word Orlando, suddenly I was feeling excited because I had a
chance to meet Justin and the guys.

"OK I'll do it!" I said excited
"That's the spirit. You do know what to do right?" Michael asked me
"Yeah...It's all in here" I put my finger on my head.

After work finished, I was straight back to my apartment, I prepared all my
stuff for my trip to see Justin, oopps I meant for doing my job. I couldn't
sleep that night I was too exciting to meet Justin; I was planning to give him a
surprise so I decided not to tell him about my trip to see him.


MIAMI INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT-FLORIDA 09:35am 19/05/1999

"I hate long flight," I said to Alex, while we were waiting in a long queue for
the immigration.

"Not for me, I can't believe you could sleep that long during the flight and
missed all the foods and movies" Alex replied

"ha ha Yeah I couldn't sleep last night" I said to him as we moved one step
ahead in a line

"Why? Exciting to meet BSB?" Alex mocked me
"Oh please!" I pouted, "I have to do this because Michael asked me too"

"Awww" Alex yawned, "I think, I have a jetlag already"

"Yeah, we used to sleep during this time," I said as I gave our passport and
some documents to theimmigration officer.

After getting all of our stuff, we took a cab to our hotel, Buena Vista Palace
Resort, as Michael reserved for us. I had never been to Florida before, I was so
impressed, and it was so USA. We arrived at our hotel at 11, we had same room
but in different bed.

"Lex, I want to go around a city for awhile. Do you want to come?" I askked him
as I put my bag on th floor.

"No thanks. I need to sleep" Alex said and in a minute, he started snored. I
giggled just watching how fast he was sleeping.

Then I decided to go out by myself. I was walking along the street, seeing a lot
of people walking around and enjoying the city of Orlando, many people walked so
fast; well it was peak hours. I tried to take a bus, which I didn't know where
the bus going to. Then I saw this huge music stores 'Virgin Record Store' and
crowded people outside the building, I was so interested what was going on, so I
stooped there. I went in to the store, I was so impressed by the collection of
the CDs that they have. But I still didn't know why it was so crowded, so I
decided to ask someone.

"Excuse me, can you tell what's going on in here?" I asked the girl near me

"Don't you know" she said excited and I shook my head no, "We are waiting for
Nsync. Nsync will be here for signing their album," she said as showed me her
Nsync CD and disposable camera in the other hand.

"Oh ok. Thanks" I smiled at her. 'I've never expected that I could surprise them
this fast' I said to myself, so I decided to buy their Christmas Album, and
waiting in the line with most teenage girls around me. I couldn't wait to see
them. Suddenly, I heard a lot of girls' scream out loud as the guys went to the
store and sat on the chair, ready for fans meeting session. They didn't see me
that I was in the line with their other fans. I was standing there for an hour
or so, I had second thoughts about surprising them like this; but I saw, there
were 9 girls in front of me, so I decided to have a little bit more patient. It
was getting closer and now my turned...

Justin was the first one. I was so excited to see him and I wanted to hug him
but I saw his fans standing behind me waiting to meet the guys. I put the CD on
the table, and he didn't look at me, I was so disappointed as my surprises
didn't work. Justin grabbed the CD and started to sign my CD

"So what's your name?" Justin asked as signing my CD; I still couldn't believe
that he didn't look at his fans and just ignored me.

"Thanks!" I didn't reply his question. He was a bit shock on my reaction and he
looked at me, finally. He held my CD and froze. I could see his eyes bulged
wide, I just smiled at him.

"Next" JC yelled, "Justin, pass the CD would you?" JC looked at Justin, who
still shocked of seeing me; finally JC looked at my direction. And one more eyes
bulged wide, it was from JC.

"TONY!" JC called my name out loud, and then Lance, Chris, and Joey looked at my
direction suddenly. I had weird stares from their fans whose waiting behind me.

"Shhh, guys! Please act normal," I said to them without moving my mouth and I
saw Justin still froze holding my CD and he was just started to cry. Then I took
the CD from his hand quickly

"I'll wait for you guys, across the street" I smiled at Justin and the guys,
then I walked out without JC, Lance, Chris, and Joey signing my CD. The guys
looked me in awe as I left the store.

Suddenly all of them signed all of their fans CD as quickly as possible. I
walked across the street and I bought a hotdog and coke from a hotdog vendor
nearby as I was waiting for them. I was still standing across the store after 30
minutes of waiting, I decided to read my tourist book guide. Then a limo stooped
in front of me, and a huge guy in suit got out from the limo. He grabbed my hand
and dragged me to the limo.

"Hey! What the hell" I yelled at him as the limo's door opened and he pushed me
to get in. I saw the guys inside then I smiled at them. Suddenly Chris, Lance,
JC and Joey gave me a bear hug in the same time.

"Guys! You're killing me," in a wheezing voice
"Oh sorry" they all said as released me

"Oh my God! I can't believe you finally come here," Lance said

"We missed you a lot. It's been 4 months already since we met in Perth," Chris
added
"I missed you all too" I smiled at them "So what bring you here?" Joey asked
excitedly

"I have some assignments to do from my boss" I replied

"Awwwww we're talking with MTV people in here" JC mocked me

"Shut up!" I laughed then I was searching for my Justin. I saw him sitting on
the corner and sobbing. The other guys looked at him puzzled; I came to sit
closer to him.

"Why are you crying?" I asked him then suddenly he hugged me tightly and cried
on my shoulder

"I miss you Ton! I miss you," he said with a trembling voice and I rubbed his
back to calm him down

"Shhhh I miss you too. Please don't cry! You should happy to see me again" I
said. He released his hug and wiped his tears from his face.

The guys looked us in awe.

"Why don't you tell me if you want to come?" Justin asked

"Well I thought you all love surprises" I smiled at him, "as a matter of fact,
Michael just told me to come here yesterday"

"Did you come here by yourself?" Lance asked

"No, I came with Alex, my cameraman" I explained

"Cameraman?" Justin asked with puzzled expression

"Yeah remember the BSB things" I tried to retrieve Justin's memory, "I have to
record the show in here, MTV ASK with BSB"

"Hey! What about us?" the guys said in unison. Justin and I just looked at each
other's and burst to laugh.

"What so funny?" Chris said

"Actually it was what I said in Singapore" Justin giggled

"Sorry guys, they're going to be our Artist of the Month for next month" I
explained

"When are we going to be Artist of the Month?" Joey asked

"Well there are certain criterion to follow to make the artist as an Artist of
the Month on MTV Asia" I said

"Such as?" Lance was curious

"At least you have 2 albums. Have a current hit. And people have to like you
guys" I gave him a simple explanation
"Ok just wait until we will release our new album this fall" JC assured me

"Don't worry guys! You'll have my support" I added
"I know, you will" Justin said as he kissed me

"Awww guys, there are people in here," Chris mocked us

"Shut up Chris!" Justin yelled as we broke our kiss.

"So where are we going anyway?" I asked them as I looked out of the window

"My place" Justin squeezed my hand, and I just smiled. Actually I was so nervous
to meet her mom.

On our way to Justin's house, Justin just put his hand around my shoulder to
make me closer to him. I was chatting a lot with the guys, tried to catch up
what I missed since they left Perth. The trip to his house was pretty exciting.
All of the houses come in different sizes and shapes on the right and left of
the road, not to mention a beautiful manicured lawns. The drive took about 45
minutes because of the traffics. I felt the limo stop in front of a big house
with huge driveway.

"Well, here we are," Justin said, and the guys exited out of the limo. I was the
last one. I just looked amaze at his house, it was huge and beautiful.
"hey why are you just standing there?" Justin came to me while I still standing
outside the limo.

"This house is so huge, Justin" I still looked at the house
"Yeah, well come on" Justin took my hand and we were the last one who entered
the house. The guys sat on the couch looked exhausted.

"Mom! Jon! Are you home?" Justin shouted out loud

"Justin!" a little guy running toward him, "You're back" he excited

"Hey little bro. What's you doing?" Justin said as he hugged his little brother.

"Nothing much, just playing some games up stairs" he replied as he grabbed
Justin shirt then he looked at me. "Who is he?" he looked at Justin

"Oh he's my best friend" Justin said as he looked at me and I smiled to him, "He
just came from overseas" Justin continue

"So you must be Jonathan. Justin is always talking about you. How are you?" I
asked him as I knelt down so he didn't have to look me up.

"Good. Where're you from?" Jonathan asked me shyly and hiding behind Justin
"Singapore" I replied as I saw his cute face

"Do you like playing games?" Jonathan asked as he tried to change the subject
quickly

"Jonathan!" Justin yelled

"Justin, it's ok" I said to Justin and back to his brother, "Yeah I like playing
games, as a matter a fact, I always bring my Gameboy Pocket when I'm
travelling." I said to Jonathan as I pulled my Gameboy from my Jeans pocket.

"Cool, can I try? Can I try?" Jonathan came to me to see my Gameboy

"Sure, I have Donkey Kong Land 2. I'm on level 6 at the moment," I gave my
Gameboy to him

"Thanks" he started to play the game

"Jonathan, why don't you play it in your room," Justin asked his little brother.
Jonathan just nodded and still focusing on the game and went to his room. Then
I stood up.

"Sorry about him, he's so annoying sometimes" Justin told me

"Oh please, compare with you, he's nothing" I mocked him

"Hey what was that supposed to mean" Justin pinched my hand

"Aww that's hurt" I rubbed my hand and Justin just giggled.

"Hey Love birds! Come here, join with us" Chris yelled and we just laughed. We
went to the guys, just before I wanted to sit on the couch, a figure appeared
from one of the connecting room.

"Mom" Justin came to her and gave her a hug.

"Hi sweetheart! And who's that young man?" Lynn notice my present with smiled

"He's Tony. He surprised me today" Justin replied with excitement. I saw the
smile faded from Lynn's face.
She came to me, "Hi Tony, I'm Lynn, Justin's mom. How are you?" Lynn asked me as
she offered her hand to me.

"I'm good ma'am" I shook her hands and tried to be polite

"Please don't be so formal. Just call me Lynn ok," she asked me and I nodded.

We all were chatting for a while, Lynn kept asking me about my life and my jobs
basically, I felt as I was being interrogated. Until I saw my watch it was 6pm
already, I had to go back to my Hotel.

"Well it's 6 already. I think, I should go back to my hotel now" I looked at
everyone.
"No! You stay in here" Justin insisted

"I can't Just, I can't leave Alex alone" I replied
"just call him and let him know that you stay with me, please" Justin begged me
as the others just giggled but Lynn, who gave me displeased looks. "Tony can
stay here right mom?" Justin looked at his mom

"Sure" Lynn smiled to his son

"If it's not too much trouble for you, ma'am oops Lynn" I smiled at her

"No trouble at all, we still have spare guest room up stairs" Lynn replied

"No! Tony stays in my room" Justin said as he looked at his mom

"JUSTIN!" Lynn yelled as she gave Justin unpleasant look, "he will sleep in the
guest room"

"No MOM, I miss him, I want him to sleep with me. It's not like we will have sex
or something," Justin yelled back. The guys and I just kept silent, hearing the
arguments between mother and son.

"NO! You listen to me young man! As long as you're living under my roof, you
should follow my rules" Lynn said sternly

"Justin, I can stay in the guest room" I interrupted softly, I saw anger in his
face as he looked to his mom.

"Well I don't want to follow your rules anymore, then I've better go then"
Justin replied sarcastically; then we all shocked on Justin's statement. Justin
stood up from the couch and grabbed his car's key.

"Justin! STAY!" Lynn yelled

"No! I'm out from this house. Come on Ton!" Justin looked at me. I still shocked
and felt guilty.

"Fine! If you don't want to come with me. I'll go by myself then," Justin said
as he left the room to go outside.

"Justin, wait!" JC stood up and tried to catch him, but I stoped him.

"Let me do this ok. I know Justin. I'll bring him back to you" I said as I
looked at the guys and finally Lynn, who just kept silent.
 I left the room and walked outside to find Justin, Justin just started the
engine on his Mercedes Benz at the driveway, but I stoped him by standing in
front of his car.

"Justin, please don't go" I asked him but he ignored me and started to hit the
gas

"Go away ton! I should leave this house anyway, soon or later" Justin replied
angrily as the car getting closer to me

"No I'll stand here"

"TON! GO AWAY! I WARN YOU!" Justin snapped at me and I shook my head no. I
didn't know what he was thinking but he steeped the gas and it hit my legs.
"AAAhhh" I screamed as the car touched my legs.


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