Date: Fri, 31 Aug 2001 20:34:36 -0500
From: thumper1561@hotmail.com
Subject: Whispering Your Name Chapter Three (Gay) Joey/Justin/JC

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This story is fiction and is not intended to imply anything about the true
sexuality of the celebrities mentioned or any personal knowledge about
their private lives.

I do not know the true sexuality of any members of Nsync.  If you are not
at least 18 years old, or are offended by homosexual material, then, this
story isn't for you. And what are you doing here in the first place!

'Whispering Your Name' Music & Lyrics by Jules Shearer, Vocal Recording by
Allison Moyet

Chapter Three  (Justin)
Whispering Your Name

'If it's just a little fling, a simple thing
I'll try not to pretend
If it's just for jealousy, he's using me
That might be hard to mend

Oh, what else can I do
But to try to give him more than he got from you
But when he wakes up suddenly
And he says your name to me
I'll just hope it's force of habit
and I pray

But he keeps whispering your name
He keeps on whispering your name
Like he's just waiting...

Oh, tell me what is better
When nothing's wrong, oh
He just stands there
Like he's just waiting'


	It is a beautiful sunny morning in New York. The hotel coffee shop
is mostly empty as Justin stands in the doorway. It is early, too early for
anyone in the group to be up and around. JC had disappeared but Justin
figured he was working on his music. He usually did when they fought. He
freezes when he sees, sitting in a booth away from the windows, JC and
Joey. Justin begins to breathe heavily. They both look wonderful to him. He
stands helplessly, unable to move, like he's just waiting.
        Justin remembered the first time he met Joey. At that club in
Orlando where Chris had brought them to discuss forming a group. He
remembered how Joey lit up the room with his energy and his looks. He
remembered how Joey sat next to him all night and frequently put his arm
around him. Later when he was used to Joey's flirting, he would realize
that he had gotten the 'treatment'. He joked about it with the others but
Joey's flirting had always hurt him more than he had ever let on. He had
wanted Joey in the group immediately but JC had been strangely
resistant. Chris agreed with him however and Joey was in. Justin had never
been sure if he and Joey would ever get together. He had fallen head over
heels for the big Italian but he was never sure where he stood.
        Justin had figured out he was gay early on. He liked girls but had
no sexual interest in them. He was still a virgin and wanted Joey to be the
first and last guy he was ever with.
        Those early days had been the best. There hadn't been much money
around but they had a great time together. Every day was an
adventure. Their first trip to Europe, their first fans, first autographs,
the travel. It had all seemed to be a fantasy come true.  They all hung out
together and Justin was with Joey constantly. Justin first came out to JC
who was totally supportive of his lifestyle but negative about his feelings
for Joey. Justin knew Joey had 'issues' but he was desperately in love with
him and didn't listen to his friend. Justin finally came out to Joey when
they were in South Africa. He told him that he was in love with him. Joey
seemed stunned and unsure about what to do but Justin overpowered him. The
setting was perfect. The beautiful beach and ocean and glamorous hotel all
but screamed romance. Justin pulled Joey into his bed and made love to
him. He let Joey inside him and at that moment Justin found love. The two
became inseparable.
        Nothing had been the same after that. Justin and Joey decided to
tell their bandmates about the relationship but agreed to keep it quiet for
the sake of their careers. Lance and Chris took it in stride but JC had
looked sick. Justin was puzzled by JC's reaction. He knew that JC wasn't
Joey's biggest fan but he thought he would be more supportive. In the
beginning, it was perfect but Justin soon discovered that his loving Joey
wasn't enough to keep him faithful. Joey was fooling around with both men
and women. He promised Justin that he was being safe but Justin worried
anyway. Still, he always forgave Joey. After all, Joey always came back. He
knew Joey loved him and was sure that in time they would be able to settle
down together and Joey would be satisfied. His bigger concern was
JC. Justin discovered some of what was going on when he accidentally caught
JC on his knees giving a club bouncer a blow job after a gig. Justin had
been hurt when JC deliberately turned away to finish off the guy. When
Justin tried to talk to him about being gay, JC shut him out. Justin
couldn't understand why JC hadn't told him he was gay after sharing so many
personal things with him. That hurt didn't stop him from caring though and
he was worried about JC's wild lifestyle. He was sure that JC was exposing
himself to all kinds of dangers. Justin couldn't understand why JC was
behaving the way he was. But Joey understood.
        The merry-go-round went on for a few years. Their success became
greater and greater.  America fell to the boys charm and upbeat
dance-pop. Flush with money and fame, the great salves of celebrities'
pain, they partied at clubs and dreamed of greater things.  Who knows how
long it might have gone on but for one night. Justin was at home playing
with the dog when Joey came in. He was serious. He told Justin that Kelly,
his 'good friend' was pregnant and he was the father. Justin sat stunned
with the dog between his legs. He couldn't think, couldn't even breathe
really. He had to get out. He grabbed his keys off the counter and ran. He
heard Joey calling after him but he had to get away.
        Wild, dark thoughts ran through his brain. He had lost Joey
forever.  This baby would always be between them. Joey would always have an
obligation to someone else. His fantasy world had crashed and he had
nowhere to turn. He was approaching a bridge.  Wihtout really thinking it
through, he turned the wheel sharply and tried to run himself off the
bridge into the river. Everything went black and he thought his suffering
was over but when he regained consciousness he was in great pain. The truck
had survived the impact on the rail and not gone over. He could taste blood
in his mouth and felt damp. He managed to get the truck started and drove
to JC's house. He didn't want to see his parents. JC let him in and let him
cry himself to sleep. Then a doctor came and there was medication. He was
vaguely aware of fights going on around him but he couldn't do anything but
sit and stare at the TV. Every night Justin slept in JC's bed and JC
cuddled him the way Joey used to.  Justin refused to talk about the
nightmares that haunted his sleep. JC respected his privacy and worked
quietly to get his friend back. He played old MMC videos from the days
before NSYNC.  He put on the Home Shopping Channel and got Justin to shop
for shoes. He did stupid impressions and played games and stood on his head
and gradually, Justin's depression began to lift.
	There was a new album to record and a tour to plan. Their careers
couldn't be stopped just because of a personal crisis. It was arranged that
Joey not be in the studio at the same time as JC or Justin. Meanwhile,
little Brianna Fatone was born and Justin was forced to confront the
reality of his lost love again. He refused to see Joey or the baby. It
would just be too painful. Justin felt that something that should have been
his had been taken away. He knew it was physically impossible but he wanted
to be the one to give Joey children. They had talked about adopting or
surrogate motherhood before the world came crashing down around
them. Justin thought about quitting but JC talked him out of it.
        Tour rehearsals were the beginning of the end. Justin, though a
pro, had always been a terror during rehearsals. Filled with self-doubt and
expecting the worst, he got tense and irritable, and the only one who could
calm him was Joey. Joey had a trick of coming up behind him and wrapping
him in his arms and whispering to him. The tension would just flow out of
his body until he was relaxed and ready to move on. After a couple of days,
it was clear JC wasn't capable of doing the same thing. His own
perfectionism drove Justin further into self-doubt and chronic
sniping. Joey stood silently as Justin's rages and mood swings
escalated. Justin knew he was being considered a 'problem' but he really
didn't care. He was the one they were coming to see after all. Everyone was
feeling the tension when the stage malfunctioned and Joey's leg was
trapped. A bolt shot through it and cut him to the bone. Justin ran to
Joey's side and held him in his arms until the ambulance arrived. He
followed Joey into the ambulance and held his hand all the way to the
hospital. He saw JC watching as the doors shut.
        At the hospital, Justin was turned away at the emergency room door
so Joey could get treatment. Joey's parents and Kelly arrived and told
Justin he wasn't needed. Justin saw Brianna for the first time in Joey's
dad's arms. She looked just like Joey.  He teared up and walked away,
convinced that Joey didn't need him anymore. JC was waiting and started
arguing even though Justin looked crushed. JC couldn't stop tearing into
him and telling him that Joey was gone forever and he better accept it and
shape up. It was only the first in a continuing series. Justin could feel
JC was pushing him away but he didn't know how to stop him.  When Joey had
returned and the tour began in earnest, Justin performed professionally and
gave the audience his best. Still, anyone could see that the loose
camaraderie of the bands' early days was gone. A stiffness and discomfort
pervaded everything they did.
        In bed with JC, although the lovemaking had stopped, Justin found
himself dreaming of Joey again. He would dream about being with Joey and
Brianna on a picnic and they would be laughing and playing. He would always
wake up when Joey leaned over to kiss him.
        Now he stands in the door of the coffee shop and his future seems
to hang in the balance. Both Joey and JC stand up and look at him. Like
he's just waiting.


To be Continued..Or Not???????

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