Date: Wed, 17 May 2000 22:52:59 EDT
From: MrClean290@aol.com
Subject: Love Me 15

Disclaimer: Same as always, this goes for the new characters in the story
as well!

Anyway, after having a nice chat with David, i got inspired to add certain
characters to the story, so i did! lol so David, thanks, and its nice
chatting with you.

I should say this, i am a gurl and know nothing about how sex between men
go, should go etc.  and i dont think im too good at writing it either, so
if there r love scenes, its gonna be minamal on the description, like this
chapter's, you'll see what im talking about.

ANYWAY

I hope to see yall at the chat this weekend, I am going to try my very best
to be there friday and saturday so please if u can come out and chat!

Enough of my ramblings, lol heres the story!

No recap due to the fact that the last chapter was posted yesterday!
so with the story!


Chapter 15


TJ had fallen asleep late the night before, talking with Lance and worrying
about Britney was not a way to get a good nights sleep, so when he heard
constant knocking on his door the next day, he was not thrilled.  When he
looked at the clock, realizing it was almost nightfall; he was just as
displeased that he had wasted an entire day sleeping.  He pulled on a pair
of boxers and swung opened the door.


	" What?"  TJ grumbled with his eyes still closed.
	" Man, we come to visit and all you can say is what?  I'm insulted,
I really am!"


TJ opened his eyes and saw a group of guys standing in front of him.  He
pinched himself to make sure it was real.


	" You're not dreaming you dumb fuck, now we're coming in!"


The group of five rushed in, dropped their things, and jumped onto TJ's
bed.  Two girls stood at the door waiting for TJ's approval.  He smiled at
them and waved them in.


	" Yo, Jerry, Brit called us this morning and told us to come down
for you, we figured if she said it was okay, you would have been in on it
with her, I'm guessing you have no idea why we're here huh?"
	" Uh, yeah something like that."
	" Brit is going to Sweden to record, we seem to be out of a job, so
to speak, we are now your dancers!"
	" Uh, Okay."


	" Man, WAKE UP!"  Alex jumped off the bed and yelled in TJ's face.
	" I didn't sleep well, what time is it, where are you staying?  Hey
Tania, Char."
	" Hey Teej."


	" So let me get this straight, you all are now my dancers?"
	" Such a fast learner!"  Alex laughed at his friend; Brandon
slapped him for the comment.
	" Okay, um, that's nice, now out!  I need sleep."
	" So demanding, we'll go split into rooms, but where's Darren, he
should be here!"
	" Yeah, he's down the hall, now get the fuck out of my room, or
else you're gonna have to sit on the floor and watch me sleep."
	" I vote for staying here and annoying TJ."
	" Lay off Lex, we're going now, sleep tight."  Brandon shoved Alex
and the rest of the gang out of the room.


	" Don't ever call me that again Brandy!"
	" Don't start."
	" Fine."


	" Its cute when they fight."
	" Yeah I'm sure we should bring that up.  They try to be the "
straightest," of the guys, and yet, together, they are so-."
	" Cute?"  Tania started to crack up at her friend's explanation.
	" Yeah, they really are."  Charissa joined her friend in laughing.


The two girls couldn't help their laughter and soon had to stop to catch
their breath.  Gabe, Nick, and Andre stopped at looked at their friends as
if they had gone crazy; Alex and Brandon were still bickering and didn't
even notice when they walked onto the elevator alone.


	" What the hell are you laughing at?"
	" The love birds."
	" Oh, them."
	" Don't oh them Mr. Florez, you'll find yourself someone too and
will be cutesy like they are now."
	" Never!"


Nick laughed with his friends.  He knew that he too wanted love like Alex
and Brandon had.  Andre would look at them and his mind would wonder as
well.  Gabe would look at them and wish that he could find a girlfriend as
loving as Alex and Brandon were to each other.  Yes, one of the famous
Britney dancers was not gay.


No one ever thought to set Nick and Andre up, it never seemed to have
interested either of them.  They each said that when the time came, they
would know.  Tania and Char tried to pry into their fantasies at every
chance.  Neither of them would budge.  They gave up, but still would watch
which way their heads turned when they did turn their heads.  Both Tania
and Charissa dated when they could, but touring all the time didn't help
matters.


Alex and Brandon walked to walked off the elevator at their floor and
turned to ask about the rooms, only to realize that he and his boyfriend
were alone.  Alex grinned at Brandon and raced to their room.  They fought
with the door until it finally opened and then shut after them.  They tore
at their clothes and jumped into a shower.  The two men stood under the
water; eyes closed and held each other tightly.


	" I'm sorry about earlier."  Alex whispered into Brandon's chest as
their bodies rubbed together
	" Its okay, it's just been a long day that's all.  I'm glad we have
this time to ourselves though."
	" Me too baby, me too."
	" I love you Lex."
	" Love you too Brandy."


Alex laughed into his boyfriend's shoulder, knowing that even though they
were allowed to call each other the cute but annoying nicknames, Brandon
would always attack Alex when the name Brandy was mentioned.  Sure enough,
Brandon gently pushed Alex away from him and slapped him lightly.


	" You better run boy."
	" Do I sense punishment?"
	" Don't tempt me!"
	" Uh huh, temptation is good."
	" Don't do that."
	" What?"
	" Be all sexy, you know I can't be annoyed with you when you are."
	" I know."


Alex leaned forward and kissed Brandon knowing that they would continue the
conversation if he didn't act.  He ran his fingers up and down Brandon's
slick body, his fingers slipping now and then into the tiny crevasses along
his stomach.  Brandon let his arms drop and enjoyed the feeling of his
boyfriend's lips on his wet body.  He felt his body shiver in desire and
passion.  He pushed away from Alex for a moment.


	" Not here."


Alex nodded and stepped out of the shower, he shivered as the cold breeze
hit his body.  Brandon stepped out and wrapped his arms around him.  Alex
turned and kissed him.  Brandon nibbled Alex's lips and ravaged his mouth
with his tongue.


Without letting go of the other they edged towards the bed and climbed on.
They got under the covers and held each other until they warmed up.


	" I never thought."
	" What?"
	" That one day, I'd be holding you like this."  Brandon kissed the
top of Alex's head.
	" I love you."
	" I love you too."



	" When your eyes say it

	I love to hear you say that you love me
	With words so sweet
	And I love the way with just one whisper
	You tell me everything
	And when you say those words
	It's the sweetest thing I've ever heard."



Brandon climbed atop of Alex and looked into his eyes, Alex stared deep
into his lover's eyes and smiled.  Brandon intertwined his fingers with
Alex's and held his arms above his head.  As they kissed, their
outstretched arms came to their sides.  Still holding hands, their fingers
caressed each other.


	" I need you Lex."



	" But when your eyes say it
	That's when I know that it's true
	I feel it
	I feel the love coming through
	I know it
	I know that you truly care for me
	'Cause it's there to see
	When your eyes say it."



Alex slowly changed positions with Brandon and withdrew his fingers from
Brandon's hands.  He touched every inch on his lover's body.  Kissing him
every so often.  He massaged his arms, legs, and thighs.  Alex dipped his
head down and took all of Brandon in his mouth.  Brandon shouted in
pleasure.



	" God Alex, I love you!"



In response, Alex increased his speed.  He also played with his lover's
balls, rubbing his knuckles against them ever so lightly, but enough to
rive Brandon crazy.



	" I love all the ways that you show me
	You'll never leave
	And the way your kisses, they always convince me
	Your feelings run so deep
	I love the things you say
	And I love the love your touch conveys."



Alex sensed that Brandon was close, he withdrew his mouth and watched as
his lover's pre-cum dribbled out of his erect cock.  He spread his own
juices over his own hardness and in one sharp movement, thrust into
Brandon.  In that movement, Brandon came to his release.  Alex knew his was
coming soon too, and increased speed.  Faster and deep, finally, he came as
well, falling onto his lover's chest in exhaustion.


Brandon traced circles with his fingers along Alex's back.  Alex closed his
eyes, and fell asleep to the rhythmic sounds of Brandon's breathing and
heartbeat.  When Brandon sensed Alex's sleep, he rolled his boyfriend off
him and tucked him in.  Watching his lover sleep brought him comfort on so
many sleepless nights.  Even when he was tired, he knew he couldn't until
he watched Alex smile in his own slumber.


Brandon took out a book and read for a while, looking down every ten
minutes to just look at the man who had given him his heart.  After about
an hour, Brandon looked at the clock, it read 10:30.  They didn't usually
sleep this early, but it had been a busy day.  Darren had called them that
morning, after Britney had left for Sweden.  They packed their things and
flew out.  Reaching the hotel at close to 6:30.  They would have collapsed
in the lobby if not for Alex's persisting to go surprise TJ.  Brandon
laughed at his boyfriend's actions.  He took a closer look at his face.
Every line rose with his every breath, and even his eyes seemed to smile
when he slept, Alex's eyes would flutter open occasionally during slumber.


Brandon could hardly keep his own eyes open as he turned off the lights.
He let the book drop to the floor and curled up next to Alex.


	" I love you baby."
	" Love you too Brandy," Alex muttered from within his dream.


Brandon fell asleep with a smile upon his face.



	" But when your eyes say it
	That's when I know that it's true
	I feel it
	I feel the love coming through
	I know it
	I know that you truly care for me
	'Cause it's there to see
	When your eyes say it."



The men of NSYNC were still in a meeting; they had been in the room for the
entire day trying to figure out how to replace Britney.  They all knew that
this task was going to be hard, especially with out Joey's input.  Eric
stayed by Justin's side all day.  They set up a playpen in one end of the
boardroom.  Justin found it comforting that Eric stayed with him during
this hard point in his life.


	" Okay, look, we have TJ.  As for others, we can have rotating
opening acts, you don't have to interact with them, they do their job,
sleep, and then will leave, how does that sound?"


Ruby looked at each of them demanding an answer with her eyes she was
tired, and wanted to sleep as much as the next person.  She had watched her
boyfriend and his friends say goodbye to Britney that morning, and it
hadn't been easy.  JC, Lance, and Chris each hugged her and said their good
byes, Justin was either refusing to say goodbye, or crying with Britney.
It wasn't easy prying them away from each other and putting Britney on the
plane.


Finally though, Eric stepped in and pulled Justin into his arms and let the
young man continue to cry in the arms of the man he loved.  Britney smiled
at them then continued to cry as she held her mother's hand and boarded the
place.  Justin wanted to wait until he couldn't even see the fumes from the
plane in the sky.  They stayed for an hour.  They went back to hotel,
checked on TJ, making sure he was till sleeping, then filed into the
boardroom for tour talk.


They talked about the possibility of touring without Joey.  No one wanted
to face that idea, but they knew it might be a possibility.  They all
agreed that if that happened, they would continue to tour, Joey would want
that, but that if Joey was really out, than NSYNC would disband, and as
painful as the concept seemed, they knew it could happen.


They talked about possible opening acts.  Several names were talked about
and considered.  Everyone from BBMak to Westlife, M2M to Leslie Carter.
They couldn't concentrate long enough on act to decide.  They stayed there
all day, only leaving to use the bathroom.  The room was cluttered with
food containers and clothing.


Ruby stared into each of their eyes, refusing to blink until each of them
gave an answer.


	" BBMak."  JC whispered.
	" M2M?"  Chris suggested to his girlfriend.
	" Leslie has a great voice."
	" Its settled then, we will have three rotating acts, then TJ then
you guys.  Now go, get out of here and get to sleep, tomorrow wont be
nearly as fun as today was."


NSYNC filed out of the room.  Chris wrapped his arms around Ruby as they
walked to their room and just about collapsed into bed.


	" Goodnight my sweet angel."
	" Love you Chris."



Lance stopped by TJ's room to see if had waked up.  He walked in and
watched his new boyfriend sleeping soundly.  He stripped to his boxers and
slipped under the covers with him.  TJ felt the movement in the room and
turned to see who it was.  He turned and saw that Lance had already fallen
asleep next to him.  TJ placed a tiny kiss on Lance's cheek, curled up next
to him, and fell back to sleep.


JC fell asleep not caring that he had left the door open a tiny bit.  His
day was not as bad as he thought it would be.  He had his best friend back,
Lance hadn't hit him yet, and he has managed to get through the meeting
without going out of his mind.


Nick and Andre walked back to their rooms, getting off on the wrong floor
and then getting lost on the big floor.  They walked passed each room,
trying to see if one of them was open and they could ask for directions.
They came to one and pushed it open a bit.


	" Hello?  Anyone here" Nick walked into the room, trying to focus
his eyes on something in the darkened room.
	" Nick lets go, this is so wrong!"
	" Shut up, look here is something."


Nick picked up a planner and opened it.  It read: Property of JC Chasez.


	" This is JC's room."
	" Well at least he won't kill us when they arrest us."
	" Come on, we'll just go ask him where we are and how to get back
to our floor."
	" Whatever man."


Nick an Andre walked to the bed and saw that JC was fast asleep.  Nick
turned away from Andre to keep him from seeing that his eyes lit up as he
saw this sleeping man, almost in the nude.


	" Come on, he's sleeping, let just go."
	" Yeh, okay."


Nick and Andre walked out of the room, closing the door on their way out.
They walked around until they found the elevator.


	" Someone likes someone."
	" What are you taking about?"
	" You, JC.  Go for it."
	" Oh, right.  Here's out floor, let just sleep now, I can't think
about anything else anyway."
	" Yeah, 'night bro."
	" Night."



	"But when your eyes say it
	That's when I know that it's true
	I feel it
	I feel the love coming through
	I know it
	I know that you truly care for me
	'Cause it's there to see
	When your eyes tell me
	I know they're not tellin' lies
	They tell me
	All that you're feelin' inside
	And it sounds so right
	When your eyes say it, say it."



JC couldn't get the picture of Nick Florez looking at him out of his mind.
He had always harbored a small crush on the certain Britney dancer, but
never thought to act on it.  He smiled lightly as he drifted off to sleep.



	"And the words that say take my breath away
	No song ever sounded so sweet
	I love every word that they say to me."



Justin helped Eric dress JJ for bed.  This felt right to Justin, helping
Eric put JJ to sleep, as if this was his role.  As if he was JJ's father as
well.  He smiled at the thought, then quickly hid it from Eric's
questioning eyes.  Eric saw him look at their son, smile then stop.  Their
son, it sounded right to Eric, and he knew that Jason had given them his
blessing for Justin to be JJ's father.


	" What is it?"
	" I want to be his father."  Justin let his thoughts slip out of
his mind, regretting it soon after.
	" I want that too."  Eric smiled at his lover and hugged him tight.
	" For real?"
	" What do you think?"


Justin looked at Eric.  Part of him thought he would see man who reject
another man in being the father of his son.  But the man he saw was holding
open his arms, to him.  Eric wanted Justin, forever.  Eric looked from JJ
to Justin, and smiled.  Justin knew that his place was in Eric's arms,
loving JJ.  Justin had somehow, in these short months, become a father.


Eric pulled away from Justin and tucked JJ in and pulled Justin into their
bedroom.  He gently pushed Justin into a near by chair, and pulled up
another one.  Justin sat looking at Eric, worry in his eyes.


	" What are you worried about?"
	" Um, what's going on?"
	" You'll see."


Justin sat patiently as Eric reached behind him and pulled a rose out of
his bag.  He presented it to Justin and smiled.  Justin took it and noticed
that a small card was attached.  He smiled as he went to read it.  Justin
almost cried as he read just the fist line.  He read it aloud, tears
streaming down his face.


	" Justin, in this small space I want to say so much.  All I can say
is that I love you.  JJ already feels comfortable in your arms.  My whole
life, I searched, and I thought I had found my destiny, but obviously god
had other plans for me, you were those other plans.  I'm too afraid to ask
you this in person, so I resort to romantic measures.  Be mine Justin, be
mine forever."


Justin put the card down and noticed something shining near the head of the
rose.  He looked into Eric's eyes; they were shining just as bright as the
diamond on the ring.  Justin untied the ribbon from the stem and two thin
diamond studded rings fell into his hand.  Justin's hand shook as he picked
them up and looked at them.  Eric took one from him and knelt before him.


" I know this is sudden, and you are young, but god help me, I am so in
love with you, and I can't imagine going even a day without knowing you are
in my heart, or even by my side.  Justin Randall Timberlake, will you marry
me?


Eric slid the ring onto Justin's finger, waiting for his response.  Justin
got down off of his chair and took the other ring in his fingers.  He slid
it onto Eric's ring finger and smiled.


	" Yes."



	"But when your eyes say it
	That's when I know that it's true
	I feel it
	I feel the love coming through
	I know it
	I know that you truly care for me
	'Cause it's there to see
	When your eyes say it."



Britney looked at the picture of her and NSYNC that she kept by her
bedside.  She traced each face as the tears splashed the glass.  When the
bandages came off, you could hardly see one cut.  But if you looked into
her eyes, you could have seen the cuts that were all over her heart.  She
couldn't shake the tiny shred of hope that she and Joey still had a chance.
She needed time away from him.


Chris had read her Joey's letter, she knew that what had happened was both
their faults, but for now, she needed to blame someone else for her stupid
choices.  The man she loved was miserable and it was all her fault, but
worst of all, there was nothing she could do.  She prayed to god that he
would keep Joey safe until they could be together again, whenever that time
was.



Joey sat in his old room, looking at the walls that he grew up within.
Home.  He was home, and he felt safe.  But he didn't feel any comfort.  He
looked over at the picture of him and Britney that was taken in happier
times.  He looked into her eyes, covered in glass.


	" If only I could see into your eyes now, I am so sorry."


Joey looked at the picture until his vision became blurred with tears.  If
he only knew.


	"But when your eyes say it
	That's when I know that it's true
	I feel it
	I feel the love coming through
	I know it
	I know that you truly care for me
	'Cause it's there to see
	When your eyes tell me
	I know they're not tellin' lies
	They tell me
	All that you're feelin' inside
	And it sounds so right
	When your eyes say it."

	(When Your Eyes Say It, Britney Spears, Oops I did it again)

~~~~~~~~~~~

Well another chapter done!  and i really like where the story is going, i
was not expecting to have the whole prosal thing at all, but it happened,
and i think it turned out well!

As for Britney, her thoughts and maybe a paragraph or two about her will
come into play once in a while, she is still very much a part of this
story.  the opening acts discussed will not enter the plot though.  they
are just there for the basic story, but will not get storylines.

For JC fans Im sure you know by now who he will EVENTUALLY get together
with, but im not gonna make it a fast thing like i did with Justin and
Eric, so hold tight!

If you have any comments, ?'s feedback, please, i beg you, lol, email me!
thanks much and i hope you are enjoying my story!
~Elisheva~
MrClean290@aol.com