Date: Thu, 21 Oct 1999 14:12:15 -0700 (PDT)
From: phillip parker <philbo78@yahoo.com>
Subject: The coming of truth

This story is mostly fiction, but some of the
incidents are based on personal feelings and
experiences.  Some characters in the story are
fictional and some are based on real people.  This
story is a story of homosexual love.  If you don't
want to read such things, please leave.  For the rest
of you, I hope you enjoy it.  Feel free to send me
your comments.


As a teenager, I was very mixed up and troubled about
my sexuality.  I dated girls because I was supposed
to; that was what guys did.  That was what so many of
my friends expected me to do.  I could not, however,
bridge the gap between dating and overt sex with them.
 On a date, when I would think of having sex with the
girl I would shrivel up to the point I couldn't find
my prick so that I could take a leak.  On the other
hand, I had a great deal of trouble handling the
public showers after gym class.  I loved being naked
in a room full of naked boys.  I prayed everyday that
my cock would not get hard in the shower room.  At
this stage of my life, my sexual experience only
involved my right fist.

When I was in the twelfth grade, I had my first overt
sexual experiences.  The first occured in the early
spring during a picnic.  Two of my good friends and
their girl friends and "my girl friend" went to a
secluded lake surrounded by tall pines and plenty of
manzanita shrubs.  It was a quiet, peaceful and lonely
place.  Naturally, we enjoyed the water and food and
sun bathing.  Late in the afternoon one of my friends
started talking about skinny dipping.  Others picked
up the topic and before long my two friends dropped
their swim suits and slowly walked into the lake.
They made no effort to hide their frontal nudity. It
caused me to take in a deep breath and feel something
in the pit of my stomach that I usually felt in the
gym locker room.  I hoped no one heard the intake of
breath or observed me starring at their beautiful
naked bodies.  Soon their girl friends joined them.  I
had never seen a live naked girl before.  To tell the
truth I didn't come close to having the same reaction
seeing them naked as I did their boy friends. I was on
the verge of feeling humiliated and I was scared to
death.  Finally my date suggested that we do the same
as of them  so we wouldn't get ribbed about not doing
it for the rest of our lives.  We did.  I was
embarrassed, but strangely exhilarated at the same
time.  We walked naked along the shore.  I noticed
that the other couples had left the water and gone
into the trees.  Betty and I eventually walked back to
our blankets and heard a commotion in the trees and
went to see what the subtle noises were.  There on the
ground we found both couples engaged in love making.
When I saw my two friends ass holes slowly going up
and down and when I got glimpses of their cocks moving
in and out of their girl's pussys I started to get
aroused.  Betty saw this and before long, we too were
on the ground with my cock inside of her.  My great
turn on in this whole thing was the vision of my
friends and their aroused bodies and expecially the
view I got of their ass holes as they continued to
pump their girl's pussy's.  Before long I came in
Betty, as did the other guys in their girls.

I worried endlessly about a possible pregnancy for
almost two months.  It took me that long to get enough
nerve to ask Betty about her period and whether or not
she had had one since our littly tryst.  Fortunately,
no pregnancy.  One of the other couples did turn up
pregnant about six months later, but they had been
fucking for over a year.

Late that summer before leaving for college I visited
an older cousin who had graduated from college a
couple years earlier.  We shared similar interests in
a number of things so the visit was most enjoyable.
Over the course of a couple of days the conversation
turned to sex a number of times but the conversation
would turn just as quickly to other subjects.  On the
second day, he asked me point blank if I had ever
thought of having sex with another man.  I related to
him my experiences four months earlier and how I had
been turned on by the guys not by the girl; also, I
shared with him my feelings when showering in the gym
after gym class.  My cousin said he understood the
feelings exactly and asked my if I would like to get
naked with him and explore those feelings.  I jumped
at the suggestion.  It seemed so right and for the
first time in my life my sexuality seemed clear and I
had no fear of it.

We went to his bedroom, where he slowly undressed me.
My heart was beating rapidly, not from fear but from
anticipation.  When he finally, pulled down my jockeys
exposing my half swollen cock I felt liberated.  He
took my cock into his mouth and as he slowly sucked
me, he massaged my balls and his fingers slowly found
my crack and began to dance over my ass hole.  I
pulled him to his feet and slowly removed his clothes
until he was naked and then it was my turn to take his
cock into my mouth and gently play with his balls and
ass hole.  Though this had been my first experience
with a man I needed no coaxing or prodding.  It all
came so naturally and felt so right.  Eventually, we
got onto the bed where we shared our first kisses with
our hard cocks wedged between our bodies.  In the next
couple of hours, our fingers had been inside the
others love channel, our cocks had been in the same
luscious place, our tongues had been on the rim of the
same place, and we had taken each others cocks into
our mouths and experienced the ecstasy of tasting the
others cum as it was jettisoned into our eager mouths.
 I also experienced before the afternoon was over the
feeling of being fucked and feeling his explosion and
the warmth of his love juice as it was injected into
my body.  Wow, it was all incredible.

We laid naked on the bed for hours that evening and
talked about this wonderful afternoon and how, for me
at least, I finally knew the truth about myself.  My
cousin, being older than I, was already aware of
himself, but his compassion, love and gentle love
making helped me discover myself.  I will forever be
grateful.

Years have past and our lives have gone in somewhat
different directions, but we do get together 3 or 4
times a year and we still experience the same loving,
caring times as we did several years ago.  Feeling his
cock in my ass is still wonderful. The only real
difference in our love making today, as compared to
years ago, is that we now wear condoms, but the
feeling of love and acceptance is just as powerful now
as then.

I am so happy I am gay and that I can share such
powerful emotions and feelings with other men,
particularly my cousin.