Date: Thu, 19 Apr 2001 13:43:46 -0400 (EDT)
From: maxwelllite@webtv.net
Subject: Lee and me  ch. 7

  It was after midnight and every one had left except one..a nondescript
teen named Herb.
Actually people called him Herbert. It seemed to fit him. Herb had more
of a macho connotation and Herbert was not that at all. He was a whimpy
type, the kind they pick on and push around.
  He had been a follower and hang around type when i had been leader of
the group and had tried to be friendly, but i had always ignored him and
pushed him to the rear of the pack where i guess i felt he belonged.
  He had been watching me all night with a smirk on his face and had me
bring him cokes from the bar a couple of times. He was obviously
enjoying the turn around in our situations and it had been embarrassing
waiting on, especially someone like him. But knowing i was doing it as
Lee's servant made it more tolerable, and yes even exciting. I was
thinking how my relationship with Lee had my whole outlook on things
completely turned around and out of sync.
  Herb just sat at a table watching as Worm and i began cleaning up what
looked like a mountain of debris. I was thinking that here i was
cleaning up Lee's party while he was off who knows where in my car with
my girl.
When he had asked for the keys why hadn't i said,
"No way, and your not taking my girl anyplace"

Yeah right, it was more likely my saying, yes master, and thank you for
taking my girl friend home master..well not really, but you get the
idea.
  As i approached the table Herb was sitting at, he moved his arm and
three half filled cans fell to the floor. He just sat and waited..i knew
it had been intentional. Herb was going to get his jollies watching the
former top gun on his knees at his feet. I got some rags and got on my
knees to clean up the spill saying,
"Oh well accidents happen"
trying to minimize the situation.
  I heard a horn beeb and it was to pick up Herb. As i watched him leave
a strange thought entered my mind..more of a fantasy i suppose.
What if Lee left town..moved away, and i started hanging around Herb and
became his gofor and lackey. Wow, what a turnaround that would be, what
a delicious humiliation. Boy was my thinking getting screwed up. I shook
off the thought and got back to work.
  It was almost two a.m when i heard my car pull into the driveway. Lee
came into the yard and looked around as if inspecting the job Worm and i
had done. As he got closer i saw the very noticeable lipstick smear on
his cheek and lips..left there intentionally of course.
I pictured him necking with Kay for the last couple of hours in the
darkness at one of the lovers lanes in the area where she and I had
spent so much time. Once again there was big time remorse and jealousy.
Lee had won again, as usual.
  I spent another sleepless night thinking about tonight's events. This
was the most serious of Lee's conquests yet. Kay and i had been going
steady for over a year now and at one meeting with Lee she had dumped me
at a party and gone off with him. I knew the minute she laid eyes on him
she was impressed, and then the way she clung to him all night and
looked up at him with awe i knew i had lost her.
  Remorse seemed to be overcoming the strange excitement i had felt as
Lee used and humiliated me in her presence as i humbly obeyed as if i
was his slave, and also the strange excitement as i watched them leave
together heading for my car with her holding his arm. I would call her
tomorrow and explain..but explain what. That i had this strange
compulsion to be Lee's slave and she should overlook such a minor fault
and stay with me.  But on a more serious note i decided that i would
call and play it by ear.

The next morning it occurred to me that Lee had not returned the car
keys and had parked the car on his side of the shrubs. I looked down and
it wasn't there. This was serious..what would i tell my parents if they
noticed that the car was gone. They both worked and pretty much stayed
out of my life and affairs, but i certainly didn't want to give them any
clues that their neighbors son had taken over and just about ruled my
very existence..that i was becoming more and more each day his slave.
  Suddenly i heard a car in Lee's driveway. I went to the window..it was
Lee behind the wheel of my gleaming red Mustang convertible.  It was a
warm morning and the convertible top was rolled back. Lee wore the white
bikini he had on last night and black sun glasses. He was an imposing
figure and it occurred to me that he looked like he belonged right there
in that car. Seated at his side was Kay. She also wore a bikini suit
although different from last night. It was all white just like Lee's. I
found out later she bought it on the way over here just to match Lee's
and put it on at the shop. She also wore black sun glasses..they looked
like something out of a hollywood magazine.
Kay had her back to her door, knees bent with her feet up on the seat
looking at Lee.
She wore open sandals with thin straps that wrap around and go several
inches up her calf.
I could see the bright red nail polish on her toes from my vantage
point. I had always thought that just like the rest of her, even her
feet were perfect. Yeah she was perfection all right, and i had
delivered her right into Lee's hands.
  I got dressed and decided that i would go over and as i said, play it
by ear. No swim suit...
i couldn't come close to matching Lee in that department. Not that  it
really mattered,
I already knew it was no longer a contest.
  When i entered the yard Kay or i didn't seem to know what to say to
one another. Finally she said,
"It's going to be a hot day and Lee invited me to spend the day at his
pool..wasn't that nice."

"Yeah, Yeah, very nice"...I didn't sound very convincing.

Lee then said to me,
"We haven't eaten yet, go in and fix us breakfast."

Not, why don't you, or how about. Not Lee..
He was starting in right where he left off last night, just in case Kay
had not gotten the message that we were not friends, and that i was
nothing more than his flunky and lackey.
Even knowing that, i replied with a humble,
"Sure Lee"
However i did leave off the usual, "anything you say"...and actually
felt i had scored a small victory. Yeah that should even things up.
He only had my girl, my car and me waiting on him like a slave, but i
had scored a point...
what a jerk.
  I prepared breakfast and served it to them on the patio by the pool. I
could tell Kay felt uncomfortable about things at first, but as they
talked and i remained silent, scurrying back and forth refilling cups
and such at lee's direction, her demeanor changed and just like that she
seemed to fall into the scheme of things.
Nothing more had to be said..
It was a silent acknowledgement by both of us.  I was out, Lee was in,
and that was that.
  The door bell rang and Lee as was his custom didn't bother to look at
me saying,
"Get That"
  This time there was no expression of surprise on Kay's face as i
instantly obeyed.
   It was Carter, Dawn and Worm. They came out to the patio with Worm
following like a pet poodle or better yet, a monkey on a leash.
As i thought of him that way it occurred to me that i was no longer any
better than he, that i was actually his counterpart. We had much in
common. Our former girlfriends were seated at a table with two arrogant
s.o.b's who used abused and humiliated us, reducing us to near slave
status which we had allowed to happen.
In my case i had actually encouraged it.
I wondered how long it would be before Kay would see me as Lee's monkey
on a leash...
She may have already.
  Carter and Dawn joined Lee and Kay at their table. Worm drifted off
and sat on a patio step.
He definitely knew his place. He was not there as Carters friend, he was
there to accommodate when needed. This time he had driven them over here
in his fathers town car. I could imagine Carter and Worms ex girl
friend, the extremely attractive Dawn in the backseat while the
obsequious Worm served as chauffeur...Interesting thought.

Even though Kay had met Carter and Dawn only last night there seemed to
have been an instant rapport, as they greeted one another and laughed
while conversing like old friends.
There was no doubt Kay was fitting right in, and i had never felt more
left out. This was Kay's environment, where she belonged, and as i
looked over at the hapless Worm i realized that was where i was now,
where Lee had put me..on the outside looking in.
  But just like Worm i could still hang around, still get to see Kay
even if she did belong now to Lee. I had to admit that was an exciting
possibility..following constantly in their wake, silent, filled with
jealousy, an enigma much like Worm, ridiculed and laughed at as i had
once laughed at him. Crazy i know, but that was the type of thoughts
Lee's dominance and the superiority he exuded brought out in me.
  I also thought that if i did not want to be left out..cast out by Lee,
i should do anything, everything to preclude such a happening.
I should bend totally to his will. Grovel, prostrate myself at his feet,
anything to gain favor. Then another thought: was it Kay i feared
banishment from, or was it Lee...At this point i wasn't sure.
  Carter and Dawn changed into their swimsuits.They also wore the
skimpiest of bikini's. Carter as i believe i already mentioned was
extremely well built but i had not realized just how shapely and sexy
Dawn was. The word "wow" once again came to mind. I looked over at Worm
and i could imagine his thoughts.
  She wore the same type of open sandals as Kay with the wrap around
cords. She seated herself and raised one very shapely leg straight out
and up slightly. She then called
out...."Worm"
  Worm knowing what was expected of him scooted over and got on his
knees. He then slowly almost reverently began to untie the cords and
remove Dawn sandals. She seemed to accept this as her absolute right as
she continued conversing with Kay. I was very impressed with Dawn..and
Carter.
  My eyes met Kay's and for just a moment i thought she might require
the same service from me. But alas, we hadn't reached that point
..yet.
   After some play and merriment in the pool..
Worm and i did not participate..they were seated at a table under a
beach umbrella as i  was bringing drinks as ordered by Lee.
  Lee was siting with one leg crossed at the knee, his sandal dangling
precariously from his toe. He turned his foot down slightly, the sandal
falling to the deck. He made no motion to retrieve it. I instinctively
dropped to one knee and trying to minimize the situation said,

"Whoops, you dropped something"

I then got on both knees and slowly replaced the sandal on Lee's foot as
he totally ignored me and continued conversing. I wanted to avoid Kay's
eyes but i felt her stare and i looked up.
Her lips were pursed in an amused smile.
I had humiliated myself beyond redemption.