Date: Wed, 17 Oct 2012 06:32:39 -0700 (PDT)
From: Eric Blank <indibuttmunch@yahoo.com>
Subject: Paul's Coming Out Chapter 35

       	The following work of fiction is just that, fiction, none of the
acts performed nor the characters encountered are real. If reading this is
illegal in your area, please read at your own caution. The author does not
recommend or endorse the illegal touching of minors or performing any other
illegal act and if you can't appreciate the difference between reality and
fantasy please don't read! To those who can appreciate and understand and
are of legal age to read such material, by all means enjoy and your
comments are welcome.


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	Paul worked furiously at his computer after Tom had left the
RV. Paul's focus was razor sharp having had his immediate needs
fulfilled. Thoughts of lust and debauchery seemed completely forgotten when
Paul set his mind to his work. Susan had come and gone again to spend the
night at John's house with John and Natalie. Paul worked tirelessly through
the night, as the high from his arrival at the camp was wearing off his
determination to continue work on his project increased. Finally as the sun
was rising Paul closed up his work and lay in his bed to rest. Paul had
seemed completely unaffected by the changes in his life to those on the
outside, but inside he was both completely at peace with the changes but
still amazed to the degree and the direction in which his life had
changed. There was a definitive air he felt about his life now that he had
never felt before. Paul felt in control of himself, he felt as if he was
finally following a path that had always been his to trod but he never
dared and now that he had chosen this path a sense of relief had overcome
him. Mixed with the relief was a fear however, a gnawing sensation that
maybe the world was right and what he felt was wrong. After a lifetime of
watching those around him and doing as they did, wanting the things they
wanted and agreeing with the choices they made left Paul with a residual
sense of wonder. "Is this really ok? I mean, sex with animals, with
children, even if out of love, is it really ok?" He would hear the voice in
his head ask himself. Paul sat up, his mind racing as he thought through
the meaning of everything he was choosing, and everything he was choosing
to give up.
	"I'm here, and when I'm here there is no place I would rather be on
earth, and every time I leave I can't wait to return, that's got to mean
something." He thought to himself.
	"That's true, but really, is this all you are, the sum of your
weaknesses, desires you can't seem to control, lust, need?"
	"I'm far more than just that, and you know it!" Paul spoke to
himself "My work has never been better, I've never been more productive, in
fact, when this project is over I'll probably end up with a promotion, and
even if I can't prove it, I'm sure it all has something to do with what I'm
doing now."
	"And what are you doing now, fucking everything what will let you,
taking any strange cock up your ass, it doesn't even have to be human
anymore, is this what you want? Is this really who you always wanted to
be?"
	Paul agonized with himself over his choices, but as his dialogue
with himself continued he felt that now familiar sensation of peace. Paul
had fought this fight before, and having battled his own thoughts he had
come to a belief that the fight he was fighting was between the real person
he was and all of the outside interference he had been taught by his
parents, teachers, adults he had known growing up and even his friends. The
persona he had been was being replaced by the person he had always wanted
to be and somehow the persona wasn't going to be replaced easily. Paul had
spent many hours wrestling with this voice in his head in his quiet times;
it never seemed to appear when sex was involved, so apparently it was a
fickle conscience.  Paul had read many articles, books and online
references regarding major life changes, he was a computer scientist,
rational to the core after all. One of the things that Paul found
consistently among all the different sources of information was that to
become who you really are, you have to put aside all of the layers of
information and advice and lectures put upon you by others who would have
you as they wish you to be. This was a battle Paul was now fighting and one
he planned on winning. Paul knew he had made the right choice for him and
he knew that over time the voice in his head would subside and eventually
disappear altogether. "I wonder if that is what it is when the Buddhists
talk about Nirvana, finally shutting that voice up?" he thought to himself.
As the argument in his head quieted down he noticed another now familiar
feeling, the burning in his groin telling him it was time for some raw
fucking. The thought of Tom suddenly popped into Paul's head and he decided
to visit and see if either Tom or Serena was around.
	Paul walked over towards the area of the ranch where Tom and Serena
stayed, on his walk he noticed that empty spots had started to appear; it
looked like people were starting to leave. Paul reached the camper they
stayed in and could hear the sound of voices inside so he knocked. Paul
heard a muffled voice and took it as an invitation to enter. Paul looked
towards the end of the camper and saw a man and woman sitting at the side
of Tom's bed, they were nude and she was stroking the man's cock. On the
bed Paul noticed Tom with what looked to be a boy, not small, but certainly
not adult size. Tom was lovingly rubbing his cock between the sweet young
buns of his lover as what Paul assumed were the boy's parents looked
lovingly on.  Paul approached the group quietly and the parents looked at
him beaming, he could sense the love and pride they were feeling as their
boy was becoming a man. Paul sat with the couple and watched and listened
as Tom lovingly whispered in the boy's ear. Soon Tom was fingering the boys
tight love hole. Paul watched intently as Tom teased and fingered the boy's
ass, the boy was clearly lost in the pleasure as he moaned like a true
bottom. Tom inserted one finger first, twisting it in and out of his lover
for several minutes before attempting a second; eventually Tom had worked 3
fingers inside his new student. Once the boy's ass had been fingered and
was clearly ready for cock Tom gently crawled onto the boys back and
positioned his cock at the entrance waiting for him. Paul's eyes moved from
the lovers on the bed to the parents watching intently. Paul reached over
and began to rub the man's leg gently. Paul noticed the woman gesture
towards her husband's cock and Paul could feel the man sitting back and
relaxing as he watched his boy getting fucked. Paul moved to the floor
beside the man and moved his hand up his thigh towards his hard cock. Paul
sat in front of the man stroking his cock while the man's wife played with
his balls. The couple on the bed was deep in the throes of lust as Tom was
slowly, skillfully sliding his cock inside the boy's tight ass. Tom could
get no more than half his cock inside but Paul could tell he was loving
every slow purposeful thrust. Paul turned towards his lover and noticed the
woman was pointing her husband's cock right in Paul's face. Paul reached
out his tongue and ran it around the head of the man's cock as he moved his
mouth over his leaking cockhead. Paul began to suck the man's dick in time
with Tom's fucking of his son. Paul looked up and could see that the man
was fingering his wife eagerly almost to the point of fisting while Paul
worked his tongue up and down the man's swollen shaft. The boy was moaning
loudly, but Tom was moaning even more loudly. The wife was practically
swallowing her husband's hand with her pussy and was emitting the most
erotic sound of pleasure Paul had ever heard. Soon Paul recognized the
sound of Tom cumming and turned his head to see his hot white cum splatter
all over his lover's perfect little hole. At the sight of his boy being
creamed the man Paul was sucking shot his load deep in his throat. Paul
savored the thick gooey load in his mouth and listened as the man expertly
fingered his wife to and incredible climax. ,
	Tom had been holding the boy close to him and gently kissing him
but once everyone had cum he released his lover who ran into his daddy's
open arms with a look of joy and hopefulness. "I did it daddy, did you
see?" His father was beaming with pride and love and embraced the boy. "Yes
baby, daddy saw and you were wonderful." He said kissing his son's
head. The woman had knelt down and was wrapping her arms around her men and
kissing them. "Now you can do to me what you do to Mommy, it felt so good
daddy, it was just like Mommy said!" he said gleefully. The trio moved over
to the bed and the parents kissed Tom and thanked him endlessly before they
left the camper. Paul sat up where the man had been sitting facing Tom. Tom
looked incredibly worn out; Paul offered him a towel to wipe the sweat from
his face. "That was something special to see Tom; you truly are a master at
teaching." Paul said in a hushed gentle tone. "You know, I can't explain
it, and I know nobody would understand, but I get as much if not more
thrill from sharing what was taught to me as I do from the fucking! Its
hard work finding the right pressure, tempo, you know, finding what's going
to make my partner enjoy it as much as I do and as much as I know their
parents do." Tom said sitting up. "Anyway, what brings you here?" Paul
chuckled, "I've really enjoyed being with you and was hoping for some
lessons of my own, but I see there's a long line!"  Paul and Tom sat and
chatted in the camper for some time. The two men were fast becoming very
good friends and they hoped special lovers to the other.
	Tom leaned over and put his hand on Paul's knee "What's going on
Paul, what brings you here, you look kind of upset?"Paul sat back in his
chair looked out the window for a moment and looked back at Tom. "Not upset
really, just still working out some things."
	"What kinds of things?" Tom asked.
	"Well, this place is an absolute heaven for people practicing
family love, talking to John it was the original intent."
	"Right, one of them anyway." Tom replied feeling the importance of
what Paul was trying to explain.
	"I didn't grow up in that, I've never had children and somehow I
still feel a part of me feels that living like this is wrong. I'm always
finding myself wondering if life should really be based on sexual desires,
especially ones so out of the ordinary." Paul said, his voice trailing off
as if he was losing his strength.
	Tom sat up instinctively feeling what he was about to say would
somehow be one of the more important things he'd ever said. "Paul, do you
really think this place is all about fucking?"
	Paul lifted his head to look at Tom "Isn't it? I mean isn't that
why people come here?"
	In a deep tone Tom began to speak slowly and clearly "No Paul, it
isn't why any of us come here. We come here for freedom. We come here to be
free of our daily routine. We come here to be with others seeking the same
freedom. Yes, sex is an important part of who we are. We are sexual beings,
from our basest most animalistic needs to our social need for acceptance
and love, sex is important to every person, we simply accept it and live it
as a way of life."
	Tom watched Paul as he spoke, he could tell Paul was hanging on
every word and continued. "Paul, I have never not gone to work because of
sex, I have never not paid my bills because of sex, and I have never
intentionally hurt anyone because of sex. Sex has always been a positive
wonderful experience for me and I enjoy sharing it with anyone and everyone
I choose. But sex is one part of who I am, I like to think I'm a good son
to my parents, I try to be a good partner for Serena, and I do my best to
be the best employee for my employer."
	Paul listened intently and finally spoke "But what does any of that
have to do with this place? What does being a good son have to do with
fucking, and look you and your dad do fuck each other, it's like you've
blurred the line between sex and everything else."
	Tom smiled; he finally reached the crux of Paul's emotions and knew
what was bothering his friend. "We do fuck, and it's incredible! But what
if I told you that there really was no line? What if I told you that the
line didn't exist, so really there was nothing to cross?"
	Paul spoke almost as if anguish "C'mon Tom, everyone knows there
are boundaries, there are lines, without them there would be nothing but
chaos."
	"I never said there weren't boundaries, of course there are, but
this line that you think you've crossed, it only exists for you, it's the
line you've been told exists, it's the line the people around you forced
you to accept, but it's not really there Paul. You just watched me perform
what to most people out there would be an unthinkable act, I just had sex
with a child, how many people do you think would brand me a pervert, a
pedophile, a freak?"
	"Most I guess."
	"But you were here, was it what you've been told those things are?"
	"No, of course not."
	"No, it wasn't, it was pure love, and it was one person with
experience sharing this wonderful knowledge of love with a person who was
inexperienced. That's what people do for each other Paul, that's what makes
us who and what we are, a social animal. That boy's parents love him with
all their heart, you could tell that right?"
	"Oh yes, they were both so proud you could see it on their faces."
	"And the boy, did he seem unsure, scared, tricked to do what we did
together?"
	Paul smiled remembering the joy on the boy's face "No Tom, he loved
it."
	"Exactly, but according to your thinking, I crossed the
line. According to mine, there was no line to cross, there were boundaries
of course, some I created, how far would I go with the child, how long
would we fuck, some his parents created, they wanted him mounted, they
wanted him to understand the feeling of male on male intercourse, they
wanted him to learn a certain way and I agreed which is what you
watched. Paul, the line you fear is in your imagination, it's a figment of
all the things others have told you is right or wrong. What do you think is
right or wrong Paul, having been here, having seen what you've seen, after
living out there in their rules, what do you think?" Tom reached out and
placed his hand back on Paul's leg to reassure him.
	Paul looked torn, still fighting what he knew to be true, what he
felt in his core to be the truth, that every word Tom had just said was
exactly how he felt, that what was causing him pain wasn't him at all but
his subservience to a lifestyle that never felt comfortable for
him. Flashes of his past ran through his mind as he prepared to answer
Tom. Paul remembered playing with his friends as a little boy fascinated
when they were nude together and they innocently touched each other. Paul
remembered the feelings he had looking at his fellow athletes in high
school, their growing cocks hanging down between their legs, making Paul
wonder how good they would feel in his mouth, ass.  As these thoughts raced
through his mind Paul began to speak "I know you're right Tom, and because
I know it's right I've moved here, I've left my wife, I've sought out a job
which will let me live like this, I just can't seem to quiet the voice in
my head that keeps telling me what I'm doing is wrong."
	Tom knelt down next to Paul and wrapped his arms around him. "I
know Paul, I know it hurts, but you need to find a way to accept yourself,
all of you, I know it's not easy, but it's the only way. Most people live
two lives, the life they think is acceptable to those around them and the
one they want to live for themselves. How can you fully live if you are
torn between two different existences? You can't, and neither life gets the
best of you, it gets whatever you have to give it at the time. Now you have
the chance to give the best of yourself to everything you do because you
have the chance to become one whole person."
	What Tom had just said resonated all the way through Paul's body,
he was right, Paul was in the process of becoming whole, for the first time
in his life, and it was amazingly strong and comforting to not have the
chains of conformity holding him back. The fear and doubt that had gripped
him so strongly were suddenly gone and Paul felt as he had when he had made
the decision to pursue this life. Gratitude filled his heart as the clouds
of gloom disappeared and he reached his arms around Tom in both gratitude
and love. The two men kissed. The kissing went from one of love to one of
passion. The men's hands roamed each other's firm tanned bodies. Soon Paul
felt Tom's hand stroking his cock while his mouth welcomed Tom's tongue.
The kissing between the men was now full of hunger and desire and Paul was
aching for Tom. Tom could sense Paul's growing desire was matching his own
and he was feeling an overwhelming need for cock. Tom turned his back to
Paul and reached out for the lube still on the bed. Tom covered his fingers
in the lube and began to rub the smooth clear liquid on his beautifully
hairless asshole. Paul watched in complete lust as his lover prepared
himself for him. Paul moved behind Tom who now had his hands on the bed
with his back arched waiting to be mounted. Paul kissed his way up Tom's
back and soon was teasing Tom's ass with his cock. Tom moaned at the feel
of Paul's thick cock as it slid up and down his ass crack. Paul was kissing
Tom's neck and shoulders as he grinded himself against his lover. Soon Paul
was grabbing his cock and pressing it against Tom's eager hole, both men
gasped as Paul penetrated Tom's hungry ass. Gently sliding himself inside
Tom cooing in his ear how wonderful he felt. Once inside him Paul began to
slowly pump his cock inside Tom's hungry ass. Tom would thrust himself back
on Paul's cock eagerly moaning at the feel of the big cock inside him. The
men made love like this for several minutes before Paul finally exploded
inside Tom. The men held each other close until Paul guided Tom up to the
bed and sat him on the edge. Tom lay back as Paul straddled his body and
began to lower himself on Tom's still raging cock. Quickly lubing Tom's
cock as he lowered his hungry ass on it Paul groaned loudly as the warm
hard dick slid up his ass. Paul began to bounce eagerly on Tom's cock, the
lovemaking from before had now turned to full on fucking and Tom was
slamming upwards into Paul's ass. Paul urged Tom to fuck his ass, begging
him to fuck him harder, deeper. Tom fucked Paul for quite a while like this
until he finally exploded in Paul's ass, as Paul moved off Tom's cock cum
was pouring from his gaping hole.
	The men lay together on the bed, their bodies covered in sweat from
the sex they had just shared. When Serena's voice was clearly heard in mock
jest "Boys will be boys..."