Date: Tue, 14 Sep 2004 19:50:43 +1000
From: S
Subject: Sexual Awakening Part 4

NEIGHBOURS' No. 4


Continuing the story of the kids next door I suppose I should tell what
happened yesterday afternoon when I was sitting outside painting some art
`masterpiece' when Josh passed the side gate and saw me.    He shouted to me
and I waved back.

A few minutes later he was coming through the gate saying that no one was at
home in his house and could he come in and stay with me.   I was happy about
that and he came in and immediately said "Do you want to know what happened
when Chris and I first had sex together, you said you did want to know."

I said of course I did and I then asked him into the house where we would
not be seen or heard.

Josh was obviously still in school uniform with fairly loose too large
shorts on and school short sleeved shirt and tie.   We went into a spare
bedroom which I had been using to massage guys who I met either I the city
or on the Internet.   We sat on the bed with the bedroom door closed.

Josh looked at me with eager eyes and he said "Remember you were going to
teach my how to love another person."

I said "Yes Josh."

He said "Can we do it now because I have some things to tell you."

I said "Yes you were going to tell me about you and Chrissie."

He said "Well there is something else which I feel very shy about."

I put my arm around his shoulders and drew him into me and said "Josh you
can tell me anything you want.  I promise you I wont be surprised."

"You might" Josh said.

"I won't Josh I have been there and heard and done that.  What is it".

I could see tears well up in his eyes as I cuddled him close to me and I
tilted his chin and wiped the tears away from his eyes and said "Look my
dear wonderful good looking Josh,  I can almost guess what is coming from
you and there is nothing to be ashamed of, not in telling me because don't
forget I am gay as well."

He looked at me and said " AS WELL, do you think I am gay ?"

I said "I don't know Josh and neither do you..."

He cut in and said "But I am, I am and I don't mind but I am not really sure
what I am."


I said "Look Josh, dear sweet Josh, we have all been like you and with many
many guys they are sometimes in their thirties and forties before they
REALLY know they like guys.  Being 12 is no age at all, you have a lot of
living to do and a lot of experiences to enjoy or hate before you can say `I
am Gay'."

I held his face in one hand and stroked his cheek and said "Josh you are
truly a beautiful boy, now tell me what you were going to tell me."

He said "Oh you are so understanding and gentle and I love you so much.
Yes I was going to say I think I am gay because I cannot do things with
Chrissie.  Whilst I am hard on and off all day, somehow when Chrissie starts
to try and get me to touch and love her my hard disappears.   Its not
because she is my sister its just that I don't see anything wonderful about
a girls body.  Sure it is nice and cuddly and looks sexy but I want more or
at least something else.  I am so confused."

I said "Of course you are because you are just now starting to release this
huge amount of boyish hormones and you want to get satisfaction and maybe it
is not coming via Chris."

He said "That's cool because I seem to get hard just looking at other boys.
Even one time Auntie got me alone in her house and she started to show me
how to love but I guessed she was really just satisfying herself or at least
wanting me to satisfy her.   She had me stripped off and she started to suck
me but I went soft even although I liked it to begin with.   She then got me
hard again after she wanted me to suck her boobs and she wanted me to put it
in her and I did but again it just went down. I cried because I was so
embarrassed and she told me to get dressed.     But when I am with you I
feel different or I get a different feeling, I feel I love you Stevo."

I said "Wow Josh that is some statement but I can understand it, just one
more thing what have you and Chris been doing for the past number of months
since that first time with Auntie.   I need to know what you did and how
often and when and where."

"You don't want much do you he he he"  He laughed.

I said "I know all about what happened with you Chris and Auntie on that
night of the thunder.  Chris told me."

"Yes she told me she had told you everything."

"And from there on..."

"Well Jody always came into my room when we got home from school and if Mum
wasn't in she wanted me to strip off as she did and she would rub my willy
until I got that great feeling and I would have to put my fingers in her.
It was alright for a short while and then she wanted me to put my thing
inside her and that is when I started going soft and I just did not want to
do it.    She called me names and it hurt because I could not

help it, I just did not have the excitement I thought and knew was missing.
  What is it Stevo what is the matter with me. ?"

I said "Absolutely nothing my dear Josh."    I stroked his head and brought
his lips to mine and I kissed him with my closed lips and when I pulled away
he pulled my head back again.  I now got him across my legs with his body
facing up towards my body and his legs were stretched out on the bed.     I
started to let me tongue out of my mouth and just delicately caressed his
lips, he soon got the message and brought his tongue out.   It was sweetness
itself and he really loved what we were doing and I quickly saw that his
shorts were sticking out as he was getting such an erection.

I kept gently kissing him and he did the same to me until his tongue was
right in my mouth before mine got into his and we dueled back and forth
holding each other tightly.  I caressed his face with one hand and the other
hand I slipped down his body across the front of his trousers where I could
feel the hardness of his manhood.   I brought my hand down to the bottom of
his shorts and gradually slipped my hand gently up and down his bare leg.
He was moaning and saying "oooohhhhh its so nice  -  oooohhhh I love you..."
   He continued to moan and wriggle as my hand slipped further and further
up his very smooth and hairless leg.  I have seldom felt anything so
beautiful (maybe the boy on the beach near Newcastle was the nearest to this
perfection).    I caressed his leg and he opened his legs to allow me right
up the inside of his soft and smooth leg until I could feel his ball sack
which was tight and seemed quite small.     Yes I knew from the size of his
hard in his shorts that he was no `small boy'.

I brought my hand down his leg and up to his tie which I loosened and took
it off and then I undid the buttons of his shirt feeling his warm smooth
velvety chest and small hard nipples.    All this time we kissed and he
moaned and kept saying "I love you  -  I love you."

When I had his shirt completely off he leaned back across my legs and as I
bent over kissing him so softly I let my hand caress his smooth and warm and
so soft tummy and as I played with his `inney' tummy button he just moaned
and said things I could not catch properly.

I let me hand slip down his soft hairless tummy and slipped under his shorts
but I knew quickly my hand was not going to go to far because his shorts
were quite tight around the waist.    Then I felt him undo the clasp and the
buttons of his shorts and I was able to caress my hand right down over his
pelvic area which was hairless to the touch although I knew he had a few
hairs coming there.   I moved my down further and felt the very root of his
hard little proud manhood.   I slipped his shorts off the end of his legs
and feet and now he only had a pair of multi coloured boxers on and these
were tented, partly with his man hood and partly with my hand.   I slipped
his boxers down and just cupped his stiff cock and his drawn up ball bag.
He moaned and kissed me harder and harder as he threw his arms around my
neck.   He kept saying `please please please'  I whispered back to


him "Slowly my dearest Josh, I will, but lets love you gently and slowly,
you are too beautiful to rush."

As I held his package he was pushing his lower body up into my hand and I
gradually encircled his hard rod which was about 5inches long I reckon and
just a nice thickness for a boy of his age.    He was now whispering to me
"This is what I have always wanted, I love this so much, I have wanted
someone gentle and understanding for so long to love me like this   -  never
stop, please, never stop."

But it was plain to see he was getting to the point of no return because his
soft pliable and so beautiful body was out f control as he pushed his pelvic
area into my hand.   I closed my hand harder around his rod and started to
slow jack him off.   He started to almost shout "Please please more more."
  Totally out of control he kissed me and talked and moved his body and
licked my face and he was just alive as I have never seen anyone before.

I was only gently stroking him but it was so very sensuous and I always
allowed my trailing finger to caress his ball bag which was now tight up
into his body and I felt it was really solid.   Suddenly Josh shouted "Oh
yes Oh yes yes yes..." And his alive body sort of stiffened and his hard as
iron rod spurted quite a bit of fairly light coloured and maybe watery fluid
out on to his stomach and across my hand.   I kep stroking him and kissing
him and he just lost it completely and was so ful of love and energy as he
clung to me.

Within a minute he started to relax and he looked me in the eye and I could
see he was absolutely chock full of love and pure exstacy.   He looked at me
and said "I have wanted this all my life. This is what I want forever."

I said to him as we kissed yet again "Josh you are a very sexual boy, you
are not only beautiful but you have this inner love and need to be loved
which will never leave you."

"Oh dear Steve I needed that and I need it again and again."

I said "No Josh the trick now is to enjoy it when it happens but never push
it day after day hour after hour and get the wrong person to love you.   You
have to be clever as you get older and just know that not all guys are
gentle or loving in the same way.    I have always hated the JERK JERK CUM
GONE type of guy who has not got a clue what real loving is all about.   I
know it is difficult when you are young and full of hormones all dying to be
released in the way we have just done but just be careful and selective."

"Oh Steve when can we do this again ?"

I said "Now -- he he he"

Josh said "Yes please...."

I said "Lie down on the bed I will give you another experience..."

Josh lay down and I stripped off as well and we lay side by side kissing and
cuddling until I started kissing down his neck and across his chest to
suckle on his small nipples which were hard as little buttons.   I slid down
his body and soon had his -- again hard as iron -- manhood in my mouth but
this time I only gently sucked it for a short while before lifting his legs
up and with his knees up near his chest I licked around his clean and
pinkish and slightly wrinkled ball sac.   I then licked and kissed down his
perenium until I reached his tiny puckered hole which was twitching I swear.

All I could hear was Josh moaning and just sighing and whispering
"oohhhh..."

I came back around and lowered his legs and took his entire cock into my
mouth as I came up and sucked around the head of his circumcised cock.   I
kept just touching it with my tongue and licking it and sucking it all
around the head as Josh got more restless and his body gyrated and moved
everywhere.   It did not take long of this type of treatment to have him
once again at the point of utter pleasure and excitement.  His body
stiffened and with his cock head buried in my mouth I felt it twitch and
spurt out some fluid into my mouth.  It tasted so sweet and so beautiful as
Josh hit high after high as I continued to gently caress his manhood with my
tongue.

He was now very touchy and I moved up the bed and lay beside him and cradled
his body into mine.  He was so full of love and contentment and he looked at
me and said "This is what I want..."

I said "I know Josh, you are one very very gorgeous and sexy boy."

He could feel my rock hard cock sticking into his tummy and he moved his
hand down and encircled my cock and I really was not far off cumming myself
when we heard a voice shouting from the fence area "Josh Josh are you in
there ?"   It was his Mum.

I had the presence of mind to shout back "Yes he is here and we are just
finishing a game."

I heard his Mum then say "Send him over when you have finished he has
homework to do."    Back to reality !!!

A very flushed and excited and tired Josh got dressed and he looked at me
and said "If I skip school tomorrow can we do that all day ?"

I saw some signals there and I said "No Josh I wont be here much tomorrow,
and you are not skipping school.  Lets just play it by ear as to when we can
do things again."

When we got to the door I took Josh in my arms and said "Josh my sweet boy,
please this has to be our secret, you know I could be in deep trouble if
this ever got out to the big wide world.  Please Josh do you understand."

He said "Yes Steve I know and you have taught me so much about myself and
other things that I am cool about it. I wont even tell Chrissie, we are
joined in a private sort of love.   This is our secret."

He left the house and I went to the bedroom and jerked off remembering all
that had gone on because never once had I managed to get totally satisfied
myself.


I know there are many boys like Josh, so frightened by their inner most
feelings, have no one to turn to, and pressure just builds up.  I want to
help them by talking if I can.