Date: Wed, 4 Dec 2002 21:09:31 EST
From: JuilianJ@aol.com
Subject: Graduation day part 1

Graduation Day
BY : Julian

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	You ever had a crush on that special someone ?  Someone you could
always count on to have your back, someone who you can see yourself growing
old with ?  i do but i never thought i would.  It's like one minute we were
boys and the next, i was all into him but that's where it ends.  If he ever
suspected me of spotting his shit, my ass would have been tore up from the
floor up.  And that, i couldn't deal with.

Me and him go way back.  Back to 1986 when we first met.  Or maybe i should
say when his fist first met my face.  We were both in the school yard
spotting the same girl (before i knew any better).  This honey was the
finest thing outta L.A. and she brought with her all of the Hollywood
attitude you hear about.  Needless to say, she wasn't into either of us but
got her kicks from wathcing us rumble over her.  When the dust was settled
i had me a broken nose and him a scratch- a scratch !  if one thing i
learned back then it was this, don't start none, won't be none.  Anyway, we
watched this honey we thought was fly walk out the gate and into the arms
and car of a highschool senior.  " Can you believe that shit man ? "
holding my bloody nose i nodded.  He looked at me and broke out into a
smile, "I know that shit must hurt.  You aigh't man, i need to go get you a
nurse or something ? "  " No, i'll live. "  and that's how it started, how
we started.  He thought i was a tough guy for not crying, " I done punched
alot a nigga's but you the first not to cry, i respect that, you wanna hang
? "  " Sure thing man. "  " there's one thing though ? "  " What ? "  " No
more fighting over the same chick aigh't. "  now he didn't have to worry
about that.  Shortly after that incident i switched sides and i ain't been
back since.  " Aigh't. ".

That day marked the beginning of what was and still is a rollercoster ride.
We've had our ups and our downs but we still managed to keep our friendship
alive.  And that's how i wanted to keep it but as y'all know, life is just
not predictable.  About two weeks ago i got a call from him at about six
thirty in the afternoon.  " Yo man, i need to see you now, you busy ? " "
For you, never.  What's up ?  you sound excited, what happened ? "  " Nigga
you ain't gonna be believing, i just got to tell you in person, you think
you can skip out early and meet me somewhere. "  i knew i shouldn't but as
always, it was hard to say no to him.  " Ok man, i'm leaving in five, you
want to meet at ANDY'S ? "  " Whatever you want, just hurry up. " Click.

 Now i was more than just curious to know what was up.  He rarely got this
excited about anything.  On my way to ANDY'S i thought maybe he had one the
lottery or the D.A. had finally decided to drop those ridiculous breaking
and entering charges from last year.  Yeah yeah yeah, one of us has to be a
bad seed, isn't that how it always works, Mel Gibson and Danny Glover,
Eddie Murphy and Nick Nolte, Me and Him.  Last year around Christmas he
broke into his girls' house and took back all the shit he had bought her.
Yeah that bitch was a tramp and i'm not saying that cause i want him for
myself, though i do, i say it cause it's true.  She never brought anything
good to him, just her project drama- babydaddy this, welfare cheque that,
homegirl's man this and on and on and on.  Two volatile people like him and
her don't need to be hooking up and i done told him that but he convinced
he all in love with her.  " she got my back B, she got my back, you'll
see. "  i saw alright, she got his back and shoved it right into a jail
cell.  But that was then.  He finally got rid of that around Easter and
been riding solo since.  Though i coudn't tell him how i felt, i knew that
i had all of him back and that's how i planned to keep it.  Now here i was
waiting on him and hopeing that this was good news.

	" Yo Adrian, Adrain, over here man. "  i turned around at the sound
of my name and saw him waving to me.  I couldn't help but feel my face
light up like a candle.  " What's up D ? "  " Nothing man, just got me some
great news. "  " Yeah ?  What ? "  " Buy a brotha a drink and maybe i tell
you. "  " Oh, so you wanna play that game. "  i said nudging him.  He
nudged me back replying, " it's good, your ass is definately gonna wanna
hear this. "  and i did so i took out my wallet and put two tens down on
the bar.

As i looked at him, his back to me i wondered for what must have been like
the hundreth time why i was so attracted to him.  Apart from the obvious,
tall, dark and handsome and the not so obvious, hispanic heritage and
fluency in english, french, spanish and russian thanks to the USMC i
couldn't quite guess what made him so marketable to me.  Yeah if i didn't
know him i would have an excuse but this was Dameon.  The same foul mouth,
nigga this, hoe that, knock around guy i been through hell and back with.
I coulda gotten down with any other nigga i wanted but no, he was the only
one i wanted to be down with.  And wishing was all i would ever get out of
it.  I don't think there was another more True Blue Heterosexual,
Machochistic brotha in all of NYC than Dameon Stephen d'Paul.  He got pussy
around him 24/7 and not to disrespect the ladies but if they was around
Dameon, that's all they was.  Turning from the bar he handed me a Heiniken
and retrieved his rum and coke from the bar counter.  " So what's the big
news ?  you done win Mega Millions or something ? "  " Something like
that. "  now i was curious.  " Come on man, tell me, please. "  " Ok nigga,
you don't got to be begging. "  he leaned in close to me and said something
i thought i would never hear in this lifetime, i never wanted to hear that
shit and most importantly, i didn't need to be hearing that shit.  " your
boy is getting married ! "  you know my reaction was something like, " Say
what ? "  " Yup, i done did it.  I'm getting married. " and it was as if
time stopped.  Dameon getting married ?  this was like some shit from the
twilight zone.  " Getting married to who ? "  " Who you think ?  Terry ! "
that same bitch i told y'all about.  " Nigga did you lose your mind ?  why
the fuck would you go and marry Terry ? "  " Because. "  " Because what ? "
" Because she having my kid. "  now you know when people go into shock they
can't move, well that was me, frozen like a popsickle stick.  " Yo Adrian,
you ok. "  " Yeah, listen man, i got to go. "  " Say what ? "  " I got to
go back to work. " and i got up and walked out as fast as i could.  In the
parking lot i found a spot near a broken street light and sat down.
Minutes later i heard footsteps and out came Dameon.  " Shit ! " he cursed
to himself then turned back around and walked back inside.

Now two weeks later i was dodgeing him like the plague while trying to keep
my dignity and not fall to pieces.  D had called me no less than twice a
day everyday leaving all sort of messages on my machine like : "Yo Dre
what's up with you ?  you all mad and shit over something you ain't gotta
be mad ova.  Come on man, we supposed to be boys, how you gonna treat me
like this.  Come on playa call me. " and this : " When i find you i'm gonna
kick your ass nigga.  How you gonna have me running round the place looking
for yo ass.  What's up wit you ?  why you trippin, call me nigga ? "  i
admit i felt bad but anything was better than confronting him about this.
Why he had to go hook up with Terry ?  and after all the shit she done put
him through.  By week three i was tired of having to dodge my phone and
clearing my answering machine so i called him up.  " Yo i ain't got a
fucking thing to say to you Dre. "  " i deserved that man... "  " Yeah
right, your ass deserved that.  How you gonna ignore me like we ain't even
boyz. "  i swear he sounded hurt when he said it.  " You know i don't mean
anythign by it D, i was just suprised, that's all, i mean i didn't even
know you and her got back together. "  " We didn't man.  We been kicking it
since after New Years and shit happened.  I'm doing the right thing man.  I
gots to do this fo my kid. "  and that was what i had expected him to say.
Yeah he was a rough neck but he got his priorities straight.  " I'm sorry
D, i was just... "  he cut me off, " I know man, i know.  Me and you done
know each other too long fo that.  I know you don't like Terry but she
gonna be having ma kid and i got to do right by him. "  " How you know it's
gonna be a him ? "  " Because i know nigga. "  " Ha, what if it's a girl ?
"  " I'll love her just the same. "  and he would.

Well i made it through the wedding.  A small affair at city hall with
D,Terry, me and D's mom and grandmom.  Afterwards we all went to a
restuarant in Manahattan to celebrate.  Mama Paul seemed to be in high
spirits thinking of the grandbaby she was gonna be having in a few months.
Terry on the other hand looked like she coulda cared less.  She was too
busy eyeing the waiter everytime he passed.  When D went to take his mom
and grandmom to the back i said my piece.  " what kinda scam you running
Terry ? "  she turned to look at me and rolled her eyes.  " Excuse me ? "
" You heard me. " you no manners, weave wearing bitch.  " Listen Adrian, i
don't like you and you don't like me so how bout we both stay the fuck out
of the others' way aigh't ! "  " is that even D's baby ? "  now remember i
done told y'all about her projectish mentality, well here it comes, "
Listen nigga, mind yo goddamn business and stay the fuck outta mine.  So
what if this lil nigga ain't yo boy's kid, i don't give a fuck.  I got the
ring and i got his cash so fuck off. "  i was about to turn it up a notch
when D decided to make his reappearance.  From the look on his face i knew
he was reading my expression.  " Everything aigh't ? "  " Yeah baby,
everything is fine but i think i wanna go home now.  This baby is actin
up. "  this priceless expression that i have never seen before came over
his face.  " Ok baby, we gonna be goin right now, yo Adrain, you think you
can drop moms and grandmom off fo me ? "  " Yeah D, no problem. "  " Thanks
man. "  with that he took the hand of his, i ain't even know what to call
her, and walked out.  I felt my blood begin to boil and a million and one
things that i would love to have seen happen to the bitch came to my mind.
" So what do you think of her Adrian. "  at a stoplight i turned to look at
Mama Paul, " She's ok... "  "Now come on Adrian, how long you been hanging
around my house ?  i want the truth. "  " I don't like her, and i don't
think that she and D shoulda gotten married. "  she nodded her head, " I
agree.  Something about that tramp just wasn't fitting right.  Trying to
smile up in my face when she a damn hypocrite.  I seen right through that
Saint Mary act. "  i had to smile, mama Paul hit the nail right on the
head.  " My son deserves somebody who's gonna be straight with him all the
way. " and with that she turned to glare at me.  Now that got me bigtime.
Maybe she knew i was checking her son.  " yeah, you're right. "  if only
she knew that there was someone who was already prepared to do all of that.

" Yo man he the must beautiful thing you ever seen.  Damn, i wish i coulda
showed you him Dre.  He my heart man. "  " I know D, i know.  So when you
going to bring him home ? "  " A don't know, just trying to sort out some
things right now, but it's gonna be real soon and you gonna be god daddy,
you know that right ? "  " Yeah D, i know. "  and i was only too happy to
be.  I was already a god father to my sister's son so this was nothing new,
except it was.  I was gonna be a god daddy to my best friends' son.  Now
this was something to celebrate.  I took myself down to a club somewhere in
Long Island.  I been there once with a friend a mine.  And as i expected,
place was packed with wall to wall brothas looking for the same thing i was
into - some hardcore botty lovin.  It's been too damn long for me.  I think
i finally got my head outta my ass and was thinking of my future without
Dameon in it.  Yeah i was sad as shit about it but i was ready to see what
else was out there.