From: pumperde@ix.netcom.com (Paul)
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Subject: M/M from archive
Date: Wed, 01 May 1996 01:04:15 GMT
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July 25th, 1989
He sat in a field with 5,000 Americans. There were families
with
laughing children. There were couples with that "look" in their eyes
sitting on blankets under that beautiful Georgia starlit sky. There
were
rednecks laughing about some football game they had watched that
day.
There were even the capitalists ambling through the chess board of
blankets
and grass peddling tacky little souvenirs for whomever was a fool
enough to
think he was getting a bargain.
But he felt alone that nite as he sat there with his
companion.
He felt alone in this field of 5000 because he chose to love
his
companion. (Who just happened to be male)
The isolation he felt amongst all those human beings made him
feel
as if his heart would turn to stone, if not as big a stone as the
one that
these 5000 had come to look at on this nite. He had seen hate and
anger
directed towards his kind too many times. He never could understand
how
someone could hate someone that loved. It made him bitter that he
couldn't
reach out and put his arm around the one he loved to express his
emotion;
JUST the same way that the man and woman on the blanket in front of
him
had just done. It was only another priveledge that he didn't have
because
he was gay.
The laser show started with loud music and a dazzling array of
lazers
that painted beauty in his mind as they bounced and danced off of
Stone
Mountain. The show was in several themes, each having its own music
and
pattern of light. He was in awe and had forgotten his bitterness, if
not
just for that moment. He could only think of beautiful images,
images of
love.
It was then that the finale started and he watched as the
music went
to American themes and the lazers played out fireworks and images of
war
and pain and the American flag. He was shocked as uncontrollable
tears
fell down his cheeks and his throat was choked up with emotion. He
felt
a TOTALLY new emotion just then. And that emotion was an ease on the
bitterness that he had felt earlier. For he realized that he was NOT
isolated from the 5000 people that sat there. Each and every one of
those
Americans had the same tears in their eyes. And he was probably the
only
one that realized what made him as one with them. He was proud to be
an
American. He cried with his heart full of American pride and at the
same
time wondered how such an emotion could have remained hidden from
him for
so long.
He secretly wished that everyone there in the grass understood
the
revelation that he had just undergone. Perhaps they would understand
him
then. Perhaps thats all they had to do; UNDERSTAND. Perhaps he was
just a
bit idealistic. Perhaps. But he knew ONE thing with a certain
clarity;
He was going to do everything he could to make others understand
that he
lives, loves, hates, thinks and feels the SAME emotions that every
one
of those 5000 assorted Americans did that night under the stars,
that he was
just another one of them; A Human.
And that is why he shares that experiance with you now.
"We hate what we do not understand......"
Gregory Frankin Gooden