Date: Mon, 7 Jan 2002 10:11:07 -0800 (PST)
From: AbSoLuTZaC <absolutzac@yahoo.com>
Subject: Beach Party Part 4

Beach Party Part 4

	"Zac Devlin!  Wake up right now."
	"Huh?"  I mumbled.
	"You are going to catch your death out here in this
cold."
	"Mom?  What are you doing here?"  I said.  I guess I
fell asleep in the hot tub, and Ty?  That must have
been a dream.
	"Well, I tried calling you but you didn't answer the
phone.  So I just decided to stop by."  She said.
	My mom is really cool.  She has worked for the
government like all her life.  She is one of the top
agents in her area.
	"What time is it?"  I asked still sitting in the hot
tub.
	"It is about a quarter to six.  Do you still want to
go jogging this morning?"  She said eagerly.
	"Mom, I can't even move right now.  Why don't you
come back tomorrow, or even tonight and we can go
jogging."
	"Ok, but get out of this hot tub, and get some
clothes on and go to bed or whatever it is you do."
	"Mom, I am twenty-one years old.  I don't need you
telling me..."
	"I am not telling you, I am giving you an order."
She pulled out her gun and aimed it at me.  Something
she did all the time.  I knew she would never use it
on me, but giving her the feeling that I was scared
made her feel better."
	"Shit mom, put that thing away your going to shoot me
someday and you are not going to like that at all one
bit."  I acted.
	"Then get the hell out of that tub and get some god
damn clothes on!"
	"Yes ma'am."  I got out of the hot tub, and let my
ass face my mom.  I grabbed a towel, and wrapped it
around me.  I walked into my bedroom and headed for
the bathroom.  I turned on the shower and washed
myself up.
	"Hey, mind if I come in and take a piss?"  Jacob
asked.
	"Sure no prob, doors open.  So how did you sleep last
night?"  I asked
	"Like a rock.  That bed is really comfortable.  I
needed that.  I have a long drive ahead of me today.
I am going back to Texas."
	I turned the shower off, got out and wrapped up in a
towel.
	"What?  Why are you going back to Texas?"  I said
walking up to him.  He was still over the toilet
peeing.  I put my arms around him and kissed his neck.
	"That is why I am leaving."  He said as he shook it
and put it away.  "I came back here to find you to be
with you.  I have never loved anyone like I love you.
You are everything to me.  Now there is this obstacle,
this little fucker Aaron from Seattle.  What in the
hell am I supposed to do?  Sex with you is great. I
can't do this.  I don't know what to do."  He said
moving to sink to wash his hands.
	"Jacob, I am in the same situation.  How do you think
I feel right now?  I am so confused.  I don't know
what I am supposed to do just as much as you are.  You
left me in a similar situation.  What in the hell was
I supposed to do?  You were moving to Texas, and I was
completely in love with you, and I have been since the
sixth grade.  After that night, in the morning when I
was getting ready for school?  You asked me to stay,
and you told me you were still a little drunk.  I
wanted to so bad but I was afraid.  I didn't know what
I was feeling.  I then realized how much I loved you.
I wanted you back.  But that was just one thing that I
could not have.  I tried dating, but the feeling for
you was strong.  Now six years later, I am finally
over you.  Then you come back, and I have learned to
love another person.  Fuck Holly.  Fuck David.  They
didn't mean half as much.  I love Aaron, and I love
you.  I don't know what to do right now."  I looked at
him with tears forming in my eyes, and I started
yelling.
	"If you walk out that door, to go back to Texas and
leave things unfinished, then life will feel extremely
empty."  I said turning my back.  "I felt empty for a
long time, please don't make me feel that way again.
Please stay."  I said walking out the bathroom door.
	I walked into my bedroom, and out onto the deck.  I
was in nothing but a towel and it was cold.  I lit a
cigarette, and sat down to smoke it.  Why is this
happening to me?  How am I going to do this?  Someone
is going to get hurt.
	"Zacary Ryan Devlin!  I am gonna kick your ass when I
find you!"  I heard Aaron scream.
	"What now?"  Was the only thing I felt like mumbling.
 I didn't move.  I just sat there and continued to
smoke, and look out at the ocean.  Looking at it like
maybe it would give me some answers.
	The door that leads outside was pushed open rather
hard.
	"I am gonna kick your ass."  He said angrily.
	I flicked my cigarette at his feet.  Looked at him,
got up and walked down the stairs to the beach.
	"What the hell is your problem, Zac?"  He said
following me.
	I was now really angry.  I spun around.
	"What in the hell is my problem?  What in the hell is
MY PROBLEM?  My problem is I am being pulled two
different ways.  What is it that I have to do to make
you people understand I DON'T KNOW WHAT IN THE FUCK IS
GOING ON!"  I screamed.
	He walked up to me and started to comfort me.
	"Why are you doing this to me Aaron?  You were never
like this in Seattle.  I was the one always comforting
you.  I was the one to express my feelings.  I have
bled my feelings out to you some many times to get
rejected.  What do you want from me now, Aaron?  Do
you want me to drop to my knees and tell you how I
feel once again?  Do you want me to stop living my
love life, and sit there and concentrate on nothing
but you.  I can't do that anymore.  Now, Jacob is back
and my feelings for him..."
	"Yes, Zac?  What are your feelings for him?"  He said
backing away.
	"Does it really even matter?  DOES IT?  I have waited
entirely too god damn long for you.  I would pick you
over Jacob in a heartbeat.  All you have to do is say
it Aaron.  That is all you have to do."
	"Zac..."  He said.  He looked at me.  I just looked
at him, smiled and walked away.
	"Zac, come back here please."
	I just shook my head and kept walking.  I went back
into the house and headed for the living room.  I
turned on the radio, and just sat down on the couch.
I think I fell asleep because I woke up to Aaron
shaking me.
	"Jacob left.  There is a note for you."  He handed me
the note.  I closed my eyes.  When I opened them tears
just started flowing.  I unfolded the note and read
it:
	Zac, I am sorry that I came back into your life so
abruptly.  I could no longer deal with the feelings I
had for you.  I had to tell you.  Not knowing what to
expect, I set too many expectations.  I love you, and
now I can no longer hide my feelings.  I am completely
in love with you.  My heart bleeds.  I had to leave, I
couldn't stand to be around, to see you and not hold
you.  Maybe things are meant to be this way.  I am
sorry.

Love always,
Jacob

	I crumbled the note up and threw it on the table.
	"How long ago did he leave Aaron?"  I asked him
standing.
	"I don't know, I think about ten minutes ago."  He
said moving closer to me.
	"You know I would never leave you..."  He started to
say.
	"Shut up Aaron."  I said pushing him out of my way.
I ran upstairs and threw on a hoodie.  I grabbed my
car keys and flew out the front door.  Tears kept
flowing down my face.  I was driving to the pit.  I
know he would visit the pit before he left.  That is
where we always went to get away from people, and
life.  That is where we would hang out when we skipped
school.
	I took the turn too fast.  I didn't have time to
break.  I smashed into the tree.  I didn't have my
seatbelt on.  I flew through the windshield, and
landed on the hood.  I remember turning my body around
and looking up into the sky.  I was still conscious.
My head was bleeding, and I couldn't feel my left arm.
 I think it is broken.  I can hear sirens in the
distance.  Oh, I am so cold.  Did I remember to wear
clothes?  Of course I did.
	Then he appeared.  It was Jacob.  He was there.  He
was holding me.
	"Oh my god.  Zac, hold on your gonna be ok."  He said
rubbing my face.
	I just looked at him and smiled.  I knew I would be
ok as long as Jacob was with me.  He started crying.
Blackness came over me.


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