Date: Mon, 10 Jul 2006 14:21:45 -0700 (PDT)
From: Mickey S <njmcmick@yahoo.com>
Subject: Coy Boy, Chapter 23

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The story is set in the fictional city of Trenton, New Jersey. Yes, there
is a real city by that name, but other than being a state capital on the
Delaware River, it bears little resemblance to the city in this story.
While a few of the places mentioned may exist in reality, all of the
characters and events are fictitious.

Chapter Twenty-Three

For the next couple of days all I could think of was Chipper. I couldn't
imagine why I was obsessing over him like that. Something had just clicked
between us. I tried to compare it to the way I'd felt toward Marcus when I
first met him. There was something different, but I couldn't put my finger
on it. I discussed it with Norman over dinner on Monday and he attributed
it to different feelings about different people, something that simple.
That might have been it. As he'd said before, each person you meet is a new
experience. You can't compare them. No two relationships are exactly the
same.

But relationship wasn't the right word for this thing with Chipper. We'd
barely met and we were only going to get to see each other one more time
before he went home for the summer. I didn't know whether to be happy or
sad about that. Marcus would be home from school in a couple of weeks and I
was hoping he'd have good news for me. Our timing would really suck if just
as he was getting his head together I was the one getting confused. One
more date with Chipper might be just enough for me to decide if there were
romantic possibilities there or if it was just a freaky physical
attraction. I was glad we'd decided to meet in the afternoon so we could
spend quite a bit of time out of bed getting to know one another.

All of those plans were thrown into a tailspin on Tuesday morning when I
made my weekly check-in call to Nancy at the law firm.

"Jerry, I'm so glad you called. I was just about to call you."

"Why? I'm not late. I haven't done anything wrong, have I?" I'd followed
Mr. Boyle's instructions and called Nancy every Tuesday morning without
fail.

"No, it's nothing you've done, but I'm afraid I have some very bad news for
you. Your aunt passed away early this morning."

I felt a tightening in my throat and choked back a sob. I moved my lips but
couldn't get any sound to come out of my mouth.

"Jerry? Are you there? Are you all right?"

I took a couple of deep breaths and tried again.

"Yeah, I'm okay, I guess. What happened?"

"Apparently she died in her sleep. She'd been doing poorly lately, you
know."

"Yes, I was there a couple of weeks ago and she was looking so thin and
weak. She didn't suffer any, did she?"

"They said that she passed peaceably."

I was quiet for several seconds, trying to get my brain to work. "So what
do I do now? There are things I have to take care of, right?"

"There's very little for you to worry about, actually. Mrs. Farrell made
her arrangements years ago and we'll make sure everything is the way she
wanted it. The service will be at Briggs Funeral Home in Chester. Are you
familiar with it?"

"Yes, they're the ones who handled my mother's funeral."

"I just spoke to Mr. Briggs and he suggested a single viewing Friday
afternoon from three to five and the funeral service itself Saturday
morning at ten. How does that sound to you?"

"That's okay. I'm not working Friday." Of course that meant I couldn't see
Chipper, but there was nothing I could do about that.

"Do you have someone in the Chester area you can stay with?"

"No," I said quickly. "No one at all."

"All right, Mr. Briggs recommended the Best Western down the block from the
funeral home. Would you like me to make a reservation for you?"

"Yeah, that would be great. I've heard you need a credit card to make a
reservation and I don't have one."

"Don't you worry about a thing, Jerry. Everything is taken care of with the
funeral home and Mrs. Farrell had a short list of people she wanted
notified. We'll handle that. You just have to be at the funeral home at
three on Friday. I'll take care of the rest."

"Thanks, Nancy. I really appreciate it."

"Don't mention it, Jerry. If there's anything you need just call. I'm so
sorry for your loss."

"Thanks again."

I put down the phone and picked up the picture of Mom. As I looked into her
eyes the tears started running down my cheeks. I put the picture down,
threw myself onto the bed and sobbed into the pillow.

I went to my classes in the afternoon but couldn't keep my mind on
them. When I got home and started dressing for work I took a look at my
suit. It was still in the plastic bag from the cleaners so I didn't have to
worry about that. I hung a clean white shirt in the bag with it. I then
checked out my shoes and realized they were going to need polishing. I
thought about all the stuff I was going to have to carry with me and knew
the train would be a problem. The only luggage I had was my old knapsack. I
picked up the phone and called Norman. I still wasn't comfortable asking
for help but it was a little easier with him. I gave him the news about
Aunt Aggie and told him about the arrangements.

"I need a huge favor, Norman. Would you be able to drive me down to Chester
on Friday? My suit and stuff will be a mess if I have to carry it all on
the train. You could just drop me off and come right home. I can take the
train back Saturday. It won't matter how much my stuff gets wrinkled then
because it will all be over."

"Don't be silly, Jerry. I'm not going to leave you to go through all of
that on your own. I'll stay the night, go to the funeral and drive you home
afterward."

"I couldn't ask you to do that, Norman. That's too much."

"Nonsense. This is a terrible time for you. You shouldn't be alone. Tell
you what, why don't you come over and stay here the rest of the week?"

"Thanks, but I've got work tonight, the shelter tomorrow and then work
again Thursday. I'm not going to be alone all that much."

"Well, if you're sure, but if you need to talk to someone please call me."

"I will. I had my cry earlier so I think I'll be okay."

It wasn't until I was at the restaurant that I realized I hadn't called
Chipper to cancel our date. When things got slow late in the evening I went
into the supply closet and called.

"Hey sexy, what's up? Tell me it's that huge flagpole of yours."

"Afraid not, Chipper. I'm at work so no playing around. I hate to do this
but I have to cancel this weekend." I explained about the funeral.

"Oh man, I'm so sorry, She was all the family you had, right?"

"Yeah, she was it. From now on it's just me, the only Walton left."

"Well, look, I'd really love to see you again before I leave but I
understand this takes priority. Call me if you need to talk. I mean that."

"Thanks, Chipper. We can talk over the summer if you want."

"Yeah, and maybe you can come down and visit."

"Oh, I'm sure a visit from a Yankee waiter boyfriend would go over really
well with your family."

"Maybe you're right, Coy. Let's just talk on the phone. Before you go,
what's the funeral home? I want to send flowers."

"You don't have to do that. You didn't even know Aunt Aggie."

"No, but I know you and I want to send flowers."

I gave him the information and went back to work. Maybe it was for the
best. Chipper was the closest to my age of all the guys I'd slept with, but
there were too many obstacles to our pursuing a relationship. He lived
hundreds of miles away and he intended to get married and go into the
family business. At nineteen, he already had family obligations.

Friday morning I packed up all of my stuff and then counted my money. I'd
just spent a little over a hundred dollars sending flowers to the funeral
home but I still had eight hundred left in my savings, most of it from
Derek. After my experience when I first arrived in Trenton I didn't like
carrying a lot of money around with me but I wasn't much more comfortable
leaving it in my room. I had hundred dollar bills hidden in pockets of
various pairs of pants and shorts and two more in my schoolbooks. I figured
if anybody broke into my room they probably wouldn't find all of them. I
took three hundred with me to pay for my hotel room, meals and gas for
Norman's car. I decided that when I called Nancy the next week I was going
to ask her if there was some way I could open a bank account.

Norman picked me up at eleven. It was only an hour drive but we wanted to
have time to check into the hotel, have lunch and get ready before the
viewing. We'd only been on the road ten minutes when I decided to ask
Norman about something that had been bothering me.

"Do you think I'm a slut, Norman?"

"A slut? What are you talking about?"

"Well, eight months ago I was a virgin, waiting to fall in love with
Mr. Right before having sex. Now after such a short time I've had sex with
thirteen guys and I'm still not even in a relationship."

"Thirteen guys? What are you talking about?"

"Well, there's Marcus and Manny. And then when I was selling blowjobs in
the park there were seven guys. So that's nine. This year there's been
Derek, Patrick, Dave and now Chipper. That's a lot of sex with a lot of
guys."

"Well, it is and it isn't. It's more sex partners than many people have in
a lifetime but it hasn't really been casual sex. I wouldn't even count the
seven in the park. Ten minutes on your knees when you're desperate isn't
exactly wanton behavior."

"Yeah, but that still leaves six in eight months. That's a lot."

"Let's take them one at a time. You wanted, and still want, a relationship
with Marcus. You have strong feelings for him. Manny was the best friend
you'd ever had in your life up until that point. Derek, for all my
misgivings about him, has been a good friend and advisor to you. You dated
Patrick for several weeks and tried to get a relationship going with
him. Dave and Chipper were one-time things but even they weren't casual
sex. Dave befriended you at one of the lowest points of your life and gave
you advice that might have prevented something terrible from happening to
you in the park. And Chipper is another unusual one. You had an instant
rapport with him aside from that odd narcissism. That isn't something
you're going to run into every day."

"So I'm not a slut, then?"

"No. Maybe if you continued to have sex with that many men every year you'd
be one, but so far I don't think you're in any danger. Besides, even though
you haven't told me all of the details of every time, I'd guess your grand
total of sexual experiences with these six men is less than
twenty-five. That's not a lot for a year."

I thought about what he'd said. I'd told myself some of the same things but
I knew I was just making excuses. Hearing it from Norman made me realize
they weren't just excuses, though. Maybe I wasn't a slut.

We got to Chester too early to check into the hotel so we went to lunch
first and by the time we got back they let us check in. Norman had reserved
his own room even though I'd told him he could stay with me. There were two
double beds in each room, after all, but he decided we'd both be more
comfortable in our own rooms.

Norman and I walked to the funeral home since it was so close. He looked so
dignified in his dark suit. I was glad Derek had bought me my suit when he
did. At the time I couldn't imagine ever having a need to wear it
again. When we approached the door of the funeral home all of the memories
of Mom's funeral came flooding back into my mind. I stopped ten feet from
the door, shaking, unable to go any further. Norman was at the door before
he realized I wasn't next to him.

"What's the matter, Jerry? You look as white as a ghost."

"I don't know if I can do this, Norman. This is where my mother's funeral
was. I wasn't looking forward to this anyway, but it's so much harder than
I thought."

He walked back and put his arms around me in a warm hug.

"I know, Jerry. The loss of a loved one is one of the most hopeless
feelings we experience, because there is nothing we can do to change
it. But we shouldn't dwell on the loss. We have to remember all of the love
we experienced when we had that special person with us. Think of how much
your mother loved you, how much Aunt Agatha loved you. Think of how much
you loved them. That love continues because it's within you."

"I know, Norman. I'm usually pretty good at remembering the good instead of
the painful. But being at this building again brings back all of the pain."
I took a deep breath. "I can do it, though. I can get through this."

"Just remember you're not alone. I'm here for you for whatever you need."

He kept his arm around my shoulder as we walked into the building. I
breathed a sigh of relief when I discovered that they had Aunt Aggie in the
larger room. Mom had been in the smaller one. Mr. Briggs met us in the
front hall. He explained that he would greet people as they came in, but as
the only family member I could do that as well if I wanted to. Or I could
take a position inside and greet people there. I was tense and feeling a
little restless so I decided to do a little of each.  I started off inside
the room.

When I walked in I stumbled when I saw the casket open in the front of the
room. I walked past the rows of chairs until I was just a few feet from
her. People always say dead bodies look peaceful, or like they're sleeping.
I thought Aunt Aggie looked artificial, overly made-up. She looked thin and
old, but she was still Aunt Aggie. I knelt down at the side of the casket
and leaned my forehead against it. I was never much for praying and I
wouldn't know what to say anyway, so I just silently thanked Aunt Aggie for
all she had done for me, for all she had given me.

When I stood up, Norman gave me a handkerchief to dry my tears. It was
going to be a weepy day, I could tell. I walked over to look at all of the
flower arrangements. The two largest were from Boyle and O'Hanlon and from
the staff of Chester Manor Nursing Home. I found the one that I had
sent. Right next to it was one with lots of white lilies. The card said
Chipper Johnson. On the end was Norman's. There were some smaller
arrangements scattered about from people I didn't know.

In the first half hour a lot of older people came. I recognized some from
the old neighborhood. They came in, spent a minute of two in front of the
casket, some standing, some kneeling, and then came over and introduced
themselves to me. Some left right away, but some took a seat and chatted
quietly among themselves. A little after three-thirty a large group of
employees of the nursing home arrived, led by Eleanor. She held me in a hug
so tight I could barely breathe and we cried together a little.

People kept arriving, more than I would have expected. I had no idea Aunt
Aggie had had so many friends, but then her life was already winding down a
bit when I was born. I was starting to feel a little claustrophobic in the
room so a little after four I took up a position in the hall just outside
the door. Norman followed me out.

"The music they're playing is really depressing. I'm sure Aunt Aggie didn't
pick that out."

The music was very faint background stuff and sounded like dreary violins.

"I'll talk to Mr. Briggs. Maybe they can change it."

Norman went over to him and they talked a minute. I saw him reach in his
pocket and then hand him something. Damn, he had to tip the guy to get him
to change the music? When he came back he was smiling.

"Your aunt chose the music for the service tomorrow but didn't specify
anything for today so they just picked something generic. He'll change it."

A minute later the violins stopped and then a piano started playing. After
only a few seconds I recognized it. Gershwin. I turned to Norman.

"You remembered what Aunt Aggie liked! I'm surprised they had something
like this."

"They didn't. This is you, Jerry. I recorded you at the house a while back
and brought the tape along. I thought it would be nice for you to play for
your aunt one last time."

I threw my arms around Norman and began to cry again.

"Thank you so much," I sobbed. I was just getting myself under control and
he'd handed me the handkerchief again when I heard the voice of someone I
was hoping to avoid, the fat bastard himself.

"I mighta known you'd be bawling like a little girl." He looked over my
suit. "Those lawyers are taking good care of you. Looks like the old bird
had money after all."

"They didn't pay for this. I earned the money myself."

"Yeah, right, like I believe that. Anyway, it looks like you're all mine
now, kid."

"What are you talking about?"

"The only reason that lawyer won was because your momma gave you to
Aggie. Now that Aggie's gone, I'm the only one left."

"I wouldn't go back to you if my life depended on it. It's not going to
happen, Ralph."

"Do I have to get a restraining order to keep you away from Jeremiah,
Mr. Ferguson?" a voice behind Ralph interrupted. We both turned and
Mr. Boyle was standing a few feet away.

"You've got nothing to do with the kid now, Boyle. Aggie was his
guardian. You were working for her. Now she's gone so you've got no rights
anymore."

"I think you should see an attorney, Mr. Ferguson. We both know the only
interest you have in Jeremiah is this hallucination of yours that he's
coming into an inheritance that you might get your hands on. You can spend
your money on a lawyer to fight for custody if you want, but I guarantee
that there is no money you will ever see out of this."

"We'll just see about that, shyster. I know my rights."

"Like I said, have your attorney call me. I'd love to waste your money but
I don't think your lawyer will let you do that. Now if you're not here to
mourn, get out."

Ralph turned and stormed out, slamming the door behind him.

"I'm sorry you had to deal with that, today of all days."

"That's okay, Mr. Boyle, I'm just glad you came in when you did. I didn't
expect to see you here."

"I wanted to represent the firm here and my wife has plans for me for
tomorrow, so I came by today."

I finally remembered Norman was standing next to me. He hadn't said a word
all through Ralph's tirade. "Oh, this is my friend, Norman
Fredericks. Norman, this is Timothy Boyle, my lawyer. And that other guy
was Ralph, my stepfather, but you probably figured that out."

"Yes, that seemed pretty clear. You have a lawyer, Jerry?"

"He's Aunt Aggie's lawyer, actually." I turned back to Mr. Boyle. "Did you
hear what Ralph was saying about the custody? Is that true that he might
get me now? I thought it was all settled."

"Actually, he had a point. Agatha was your guardian. We were only acting on
her behalf. Technically, the court should appoint a new guardian now and
Ralph might win this time."

"So what do I do now?"

"I'm going to try to convince him that he has nothing to gain by trying to
get custody. He wants money, not you, and there won't be any, so maybe
he'll drop it. If he does go to court, we'll stall. After all, you'll be
eighteen in five months and it will be a moot point then."

I heard Norman clear his throat next to me and when I looked he was almost
glaring. I shook my head at him and turned back to Mr. Boyle. He gave me a
comforting smile.

"I'm going to go in the other room and pay my respects. Why don't you take
a minute and try to calm down? This must all be very stressful for
you. I'll see you again before I leave."

As soon as he went into the room Norman turned to me. "Eighteen in five
months? You're only seventeen? You were sixteen when I met you last
summer?"

"Calm down, Norman. I don't like lying, especially to people I care about,
but I had no choice. If anyone knew how old I was last summer I would have
been sent back to Ralph. You just saw him. Would you want me to go back to
that?"

"No, but you could have said something after all this time."

"Once I was eighteen I was going to tell everyone. Look, can we talk about
this later? I'm just not up to it right now."

"Okay, Jerry, but you can be sure we are going to talk about it."

Norman went back into the room and I stayed in the hall, greeting more
people as they arrived. When I glanced in a minute later I saw him talking
to Mr. Boyle. I hoped he was asking legal questions and not telling
Mr. Boyle about my sex life. Not that there was any reason he would, but I
was a little paranoid about my guardian finding out I was sleeping
around. After a while the two of them came back over to me.

"When you call Nancy on Tuesday she'll set up an appointment for you with
one of our associates to go over Agatha's will."

"You're not handling that?"

He smiled. "We have over sixty attorneys with the firm, Jerry, most of them
quite specialized. Your aunt's will is not a complicated one and you will
be in good hands with the associate we've assigned to the case."

"Do I still call Nancy every week, though?"

"Yes, for now she's still your contact point for guardianship, although the
associate may end up handling those issues as well. We'll let you know if
we hear anything from your stepfather."

"Thanks again for everything. And thanks for coming today, too."

After Mr. Boyle left I checked my watch. Twenty minutes to go. I couldn't
wait for it to be over. The few people still there were slowly leaving,
stopping to say goodbye on their way out. It was nearly five when an
elderly couple came in the front door and spoke to Mr. Briggs. He pointed
to me and they came down the hall. They looked to be seventy or so. He was
tall and thin with white hair. She was shorter and a bit plump. They both
looked very old-fashioned and stuffy. The man spoke in a soft southern
accent.

"Excuse me, the gentleman said you were related to Mrs. Farrell."

"Yes, she was my mother's aunt. I'm Jeremiah Walton." I held out my hand.

The woman gasped and put a hand to her mouth. The man froze for a second,
but quickly recovered and shook my hand.

"I'm Jonathan Walton, Agatha's brother. This is my wife, Sarah. If you're
Jessica's boy, we're your grandparents."

Now it was my turn to stare. These were Mom's parents, the people who had
turned their backs on her when they found out she was pregnant with
me. They'd never made any attempt to contact her or me since then. They'd
shown no interest in us at all.

"So what are you doing here?" I tried to keep my voice even.

"Agatha left instructions with her attorney that we be notified when she
passed. We didn't even know she was ill. It's been years since we heard
from her."

"You knew where she was. You could have tried to keep in touch." I couldn't
keep the bitterness out of my voice.

"You don't know our history, son." I tensed up when he called me
that. "There were a lot of harsh words on both sides."

The woman who was apparently my grandmother tugged on her husband's
sleeve. "Let's not get into that, Jon. Not today." She smiled sweetly at me
and then looked past me into the room. "Is your mother inside, dear?"

I choked. I couldn't believe it. These two bastards who had thrown us out
and never contacted us didn't even know Mom was dead. I took a few deep
breaths, trying to get myself under control. When I spoke it was through
clenched teeth.

"If you were hoping to see my mother, I'm afraid you're a little late. She
died nearly four years ago."

My grandmother let out a little shriek and pitched forward. Norman and I
caught her just before her knees hit the floor but she just sagged in our
arms. Mr. Briggs came rushing over and helped us carry her into an office
where we placed her on a couch. He pulled some smelling salts out of his
pocket and waved them under her nose. She sputtered a bit, opened her eyes
and struggled to sit up. She looked up at me and began to cry. My
grandfather sat down next to her, put his arm around her and glared up at
me.

"You could have broken the news a little more gently, son."

"Please stop calling me that. I'm not your son."

"But you are my grandson. What happened to your mother?"

"Does it matter? If you cared, you would have known, you would have been
here."

"We cared a great deal. If we hadn't cared do you think we could have sent
her away?"

"What kind of garbage is that? Forget it. I don't want to talk to you. If
you want to see Aunt Aggie, go ahead, but just stay away from me." I turned
and strode out of the room hoping it wasn't obvious how much I was
shaking. Norman was right behind me.

"You were pretty hard on them, Jerry."

"They deserved worse."

"They probably did, but it's not like you to be like that. Hating them
won't bring your mother back."

"I know, and I don't hate them. It's been a struggle, trying not to hate
them when everything I've ever heard about them made me want to. But Mom
always said that hate backfires on you. It turns in on you and eats you
up. So I don't hate them, but I sure don't like them either."

They only stayed for a few minutes. I managed to keep maximum distance from
them at all times. Just before they left Norman spoke to them briefly. I
asked him what that was about as we walked back to the hotel.

"They said they'd be at the funeral tomorrow and they'd like to talk to you
afterwards."

"I have nothing to say to them."

"Oh, I think you have plenty to say to them but because you're a good man
you don't want to."

"You're right. I'm afraid I'll just explode and tell them off. I have
nothing good to say to them so I'd rather say nothing at all. They never
hurt me because I never knew them. But they hurt Mom so bad. She rarely
mentioned them in front of me but when she did I could see the pain in her
eyes."

"How about just listening to them? I'm not going to say you should give
them a chance. Maybe they don't deserve it. But you deserve to know why
they did what they did. This may be your only chance to get answers."

"I don't know. I just get so mad every time I think of them."

"Sleep on it. You may feel differently tomorrow. Hear them out and you'll
never again wonder why they treated you and your mother as they did. It may
not make you feel better, but it will put the questions to rest."

"I know you're supposed to forgive people who do you wrong, but I've never
been able to forgive them because it wasn't me they did wrong."

"You don't have to be superhuman, Jerry. If you can't forgive them, you
can't. Just listen before you decide."

"I'll think about it."

"Okay, enough about them for now. Let's go get some dinner, my
treat. There's a certain seventeen-year old I want to discuss with you."

To be continued.