Date: Tue, 29 Apr 2014 20:56:31 -0500
From: Jarrod Holiway <jdylanh9@gmail.com>
Subject: Levi (Part 3)

Levi (Part 3) The Damaged Boy

This is the third installment of the Levi series.

All Usual Disclaimers Apply

	Levi, Nathan, and I set off for a bit of shopping. Levi had very
few outfits and as my protege (which was unknown to him) I felt it
necessary to clothe him in the finest. We went to the Galleria and some
other fine clothing stores I patronize on a regular basis and we had a
ball. It was fun for Nathan and I watching this brand new homosexual who
never had anything in his eighteen years on Earth try on expensive
clothes. Nathan and I sat or stood shoulder-to-shoulder outside of dressing
room doors for hours waiting for Levi to walk out in something exquisite he
wanted to try on. Each time the door opened and he stepped out I saw in his
eyes what I wish I could see in every person's eyes. I saw joy, happiness,
glee, excitement, and love. His face glowed, his body radiated heat and a
beautiful aura. Sharing this time with Nathan was also lifting my heart to
heights it had not known for over a decade. After we had spent all morning
and much of the afternoon playing dress up with Levi; we decided to do a
late lunch.

	Our server, Jason, was a young man with charisma who rivaled
Nathan's. He was almost magnetic. I am sure with his charm, face, body, and
the fact he served at a five star restuarant he made serious money. Fuck, I
wanted to tip him 100% just for honor of his company. However, it wasn't me
who took the grandest notice of Jason - it was my boy Levi. I think Levi
fell in love the very same second his eyes looked into Jason's eyes. I
shared a knowing look with Nathan. It was apparent Jason took notice of
Levi too. Holy shit!  Nathan and I are literally witnessing one of the most
beautiful things on earth - the connecting of two people. When we finished
up at the restaurant we headed back to the loft for the evening and for a
much needed bourbon.

	Nathan and I were on the sofa talking and sipping bourbon while
Levi was putting his new things away in his room. About an hour and 4
fingers of bourbon had passed when Levi began coming down the stairs,
slowly - each step was completely deliberate. The staircase from his room,
which was the whole partial upstairs, was a spiral staircase. So we could
see his front, side, back, other side and repeat. Each time his face came
around he made eye contact and smiled a toothy smile at us. We must have
looked completely foolish. Nathan and I sat just staring, like some kind of
mouth-breathers, at him as he descended the staircase waiting for his front
to come around again so we could see his face. when he finally reached the
bottom and strolled over to us, he sat right between Nathan and I. Since we
were sitting pretty close, Levi had to wiggle his cute little bottom down
in between us. We were both just kind of still mesmerized by his little
stair performance.

	Levi looked into my face and hugged me full on. He whispered into
my ear, "Thank you so much. This is the most perfect day of my life." His
whisper was literally little more than just breath leaving his mouth. The
words came from his mouth, I guess. But, I was never positive he said
actual words. I have often wondered if he was able to convey a sense of
feeling to another person. I do not mean in a telepathic way or some other
sci-fi thing - I mean Levi was always so powerful when it came to
emotions. I believe, with all my heart, he can literally put an emotion
into a person. I think he can actually communicate with emotions.  Fuck, I
had not felt anything for a decade before I met him. I bet the hardened
heart of the pharaoh would have been no match for Levi's skills.

	I still can't explain why, but my eyes filled with tears. They
weren't tears of sorrow, I wouldn't call them tears of joy. It was more
like there was so much emotion in my heart my body didn't know what to do -
so it just picked something. Rather than picking giving me a hard on, extra
energy, or something useful - it picked tears. I guess when you are
overcome with so much emotion and you have no idea how to begin to process
it - tears do make the most sense.  Good job, body. Good job, soul. I
kissed him on the forehead and told him he deserved this day and if he kept
up his end of our bargain there would be plenty more perfect days. He
released me and grabbed up Nathan. I don't know what he whispered to Nathan
but Nathan kissed him on the forehead and told him thank you when they let
go of each other. Levi bounded back up the stairs in a fashion completely
contrary to his descent and Nathan and I just looked at each other.

	I had been struggling with my feelings about these two for a short
time but I knew exactly how I felt about each of them at this point. Nathan
had become the object of my desire.  I had fallen in love with him and
wanted us to share a life together. As for Levi, I had grown to love him as
a son. Our soul connection made me want to look after him and him want to
be looked after by me; give me the purpose I needed. I wanted the best for
him and to see him succeed. If Nathan moved in we would have some sort of
domestic family unit. I didn't even try for any of this. It just fell into
my lap. Once again the higher power graced me with gifts of which I am
undeserving. I told Nathan I wanted to talk to him in the bedroom and he
followed me.

"I have been thinking a lot lately, Nathan." I said.

	"I know you have Christian. To be honest I have been wondering what
has been going on with you. You have done a 180 in the last couple of
weeks. You went from a self-absorbed predator to...I don't know...whatever
it is you are now."

	"I didn't plan or ask for any of this but it feels good and you
know I like to feel good.  I have always gone after what I want, so just
listen for a second. Nathan, I have fallen in love with you. I want you to
be more than my confidant and bartender. I want you to move in. I want you
to help me keep Levi on the right track. But most of all I just want you to
be with me. I want to wake up next to you. I want to smell you. I want to
hear you. I want to see you every single day. I want to kiss you every
moment - I want to kiss you now. I want to stop talking.  Fuck." There it
was. I laid it all right on the line so Nathan would know exactly how I
felt and what I thought.

	Nathan replied hesitantly, "I don't know what to say Christian. I
gave up on you a long time ago but watching this transformation you have
gone through lately renewed my feelings for you. I think you are talking
about moving things along a little too fast. I don't know if I am ready to
move in with you and are you asking me to 'father' Levi with you? In case
you didn't notice he is eighteen years old."

	I was still riding on an emotional high from before. I was losing
control of my voice and tempo and inflection as I responded, "I know he is
eighteen but he has never had any paternal or maternal guidance. He grew up
in a household that told him he was a wicked beast everyday.  Despite all
of that he has turned out a remarkable young man. I'm not asking you to be
a parent I just think the two of us together as influences in his life
could really help this kid blossom into something great. You don't have to
move in with me if you don't want. I just want you to know that I want to
get serious. You spend half the week here anyway and I feel that isn't
enough time. Just think about it."

	Nathan got up and walked to me. He kissed me on the lips and told
me he had to go and get ready for work. He yelled up the stairs to Levi and
told him it was time to go to work. Levi came down and hugged me again in
one of the tightest hugs I can ever remember receiving. During that hug I
did something I have purposefully done a couple times in my life. I
purposefully made a memory. I made sure to hold him and put myself in tune
with all of my senses. I inhaled him; to get his smell in my scent memory,
I focused on my body against his; to get the feel of his frame in my touch
memory. I listened to his breathing; just to hear him move air for my
hearing memory.  When we began to part; I opened my eyes and looked into
his face for my vision memory. Finally, I leaned back in and kissed his
lips. I just wanted a memory of what his lips tasted like. The scene
itself, in no way ever, could ever be erased from my memory. Then, just
like that, he followed Nathan out the door. I felt sad watching the two
most important people in my life leave at the same time. I knew they would
be back in seven or eight hours but it still hurt to go that long without
them. It hurt.

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	Over the next few weeks not much had changed. Nathan hadn't moved
in yet but he had told me he did want a relationship and he was spending
more and more time with Levi and me.  Levi had taken his college entrance
exam and had done decently. He was accepted to SLU and was supposed to
start classes this coming spring semester. I was so proud of him and we had
a celebration dinner. I had spoken to his financial aid counselor and she
had told me that there wasn't a way for me to pay his tuition
secretly. There was no way to create a phony scholarship and lie to the boy
about how his tuition was being paid. During the dinner celebration I gave
Levi an envelope containing a check to SLU for the full amount of his first
semester. Levi teared up and refused to accept it. I told him it wasn't
really a gift but a loan and when he was famous he could repay me. I told
him to think of repaying me as an incentive to do well. After arguing about
it all evening he finally accepted with a tearful thanks and hugs all
around.

	Nathan had told me that Levi was the belle of the ball when it came
to the club. Levi was everyone's favorite server and hence Levi started
getting the best shifts and was earning some really good money. Whenever
Levi tried to give me any I told him to just put it in the bank and save it
for when I am old and he has to pay for a nursing home for me. Things were
going so well. Nathan and I had a wonderful relationship going on and Levi
was just flourishing. However, Levi was often missing. Not exactly missing,
but he would be absent for large blocks of time and never tell Nathan and
me what he was up to. We ruled out drugs and all wrongdoing actually. It
was just as if he had a special alone time he didn't want to share with
us. I am not one to pry in anyone's business - even if that person is my
protege and soul connection buddy.

	Nathan and I were anxiously awaiting Levi to come home from
work. It was Saturday morning and Levi should have been home at least an
hour ago. Levi had never, not come home on time. He had told Nathan and me
he really liked a special boy and we thought maybe Levi was getting to know
him - in a special way. Levi, being the responsible boy he was, I always
gave him credit but he would have called though. I was very worried but
Nathan seemed somewhat nonchalant. Nathan tried to ease my mind with
stories of all the guys who come into the bar who want to fuck the young
servers and that Levi must have taken fancy to one or more of them. It was
5:32 a.m. when I got a phone call from a colleague. "Christian, it's
Lizzy. I know this is a HIPAA (medical privacy act) violation but you need
to come to the hospital. Your friend Levi just showed up by ambulance. I
had him assigned to me in the emergency department. I'll save all the
explanation for when you get here but as a doctor you know what I mean when
I say you need to come as quickly as possible."

	I thanked Lizzy for the call and hung up the phone. Nathan had
already started getting dressed as he knew by my expression something was
wrong. We were dressed and in the car within 4 minutes and we were at the
hospital in under ten minutes. I used all my physician perks to get to Levi
as soon as possible. I parked in physician parking, bypassed security and
registration and ran through the E.D. till I found Lizzy. My heart sank
even more as Lizzy lead us to Trauma Room 2, that was a bad sign. As I
entered the room I smelled the all too familiar smell of iron - of
blood. Levi's clothes were drenched in blood and in shreds in the corner
from when the ambulance or hospital staff had cut them off. Levi, was on a
backboard and in a cervical collar.  Both eyes were swollen shut and
discolored, nose broken, lips split open, and one of Levi's front teeth had
been knocked out. That was just the damage I could see to his face.

	Lizzy began to give me the breakdown of his injuries, "CT scans and
x-rays have ruled out spinal damage, internal bleeding, and broken bones"

"Cerebral damage?" I asked

"I'm sorry Christian but he has two IC bleeds. The smaller bleed is
subdural and he has a nasty subarachnoid bleed. The operating room is being
prepped for him now."

"Who is the surgeon?"

"Dr. Sheppard will be operating and based on the CT he thinks there will be
a good outcome; minimal loss of motor function and minimal, if any, loss of
cognitive capabilities. I'm sorry, Christian."

	I grabbed Levi gently and I was talking to him. I'm not sure what
all I was saying to his motionless body but it was mostly reassuring things
I think. Nathan pulled me back from the bed and held me in a hug. I hadn't
even noticed surgery had come down to get Levi. I watched all the IV's
running into him and I couldn't help but think of all the times I had
ordered those same IV's and watched patients go to surgery and not come
back. Yet, that couldn't be the case here. Those were patients. This was my
Levi. He was my boy. He was my soul connection. He was a battered and
abused child who still had the love of an angel inside of him. He was
beautiful even now while he was so damaged. This couldn't happen to my boy.

	Levi was in surgery for four hours. I collected his important
possessions such as his wallet and his phone. I noticed his phone had 3
missed calls. I didn't want to snoop but it I thought there might be
something important there. I immediately realized who had been trying to
get ahold of Levi; Jason. The charismatic boy from the restaurant. I
couldn't help it - I had to look at his text history.  It was clear Levi
and Jason had been sort of dating. This coincided with the blocks of time
Levi was gone. I didn't understand why Levi never told me. I thought about
calling Jason. He would surely want to know what happened, but I decided
against it. I didn't want to overstep my bounds and I have no idea what
their relationship status was.

	Dr. Sheppard found us and he approached us cautiously, "We have
done really good work Christian. I think we are looking at a full recovery
in time. When Levi wakes up he will have only fifty percent use of his left
arm but with physical therapy I am estimating he will suffer no lifelong
debilitating injuries. I breathed a long sigh of relief and Nathan did as
well. We sat in Levi's room together and nine hours passed before Levi
awoke.

"Christian?" The first thing Levi said.

"I'm here Levi and Nathan too. What do you need?"

"I'm really thirsty and I hurt a lot."

"I will get your doctor in here. Do you remember what happened, Levi?"

"I was attacked by three guys."

	Levi was sobbing and I hugged him and whispered every comforting
thing I could think of into his ear. I fought back tears while I just
repeated, "I love you." over and over again. I pushed the 'call' button and
his nurse came in. She adjusted some of his IV's and fetched Dr.  Sheppard
for us. Dr. Sheppard proceeded to tell Levi exactly what his injuries were
and what would happen. I thought he did a great job and I was happy it was
him explaining it all to Levi and not me. Dr. Sheppard exited the room with
his usual stiff professionalism.

"Christian, I have been seeing Jason, the cutie from the restaurant. Will
you call him for me?"  Levi asked.

"Of Course." I grabbed Levi's phone and called Jason.

I heard the overly excited voice of Jason. "Hey Pumpkin!"

"Jason, it is Dr. Teach - I mean, this is Christian. I hope you are
well. Levi is in Barnes Jewish Hospital and Nathan and I are here with
him. He would like you to come." I said.

"What happened? Is he okay?" The all too familiar notes of panic in a
voice. I had not really made too many of these calls. Nurses or other staff
usually did on my orders.

"He will be okay in time. For now he just needs the people who care for him
around him. I hope that you are one of them. Will you come?" I had an
unnecessary amount of curtness in my tone. I don't know why I was behaving
this way with Jason. I did not really know him, from what I did know, I
liked him. It just seemed too much to me to have him here when Levi didn't
really know him that well, and I certainly didn't know him that well.

"On the way." Jason said and the phone went dead.

	How inefficient. Jason didn't give an estimated time of arrival or
seek further information about the situation. I began to think I may have
been wrong about Jason. Perhaps, he wasn't the guy I thought he was. Given,
I didn't really know him, but I usually always trust my first instincts,
and my first instincts about Jason were really good. I moved to return
Levi's phone to the bedside table and I noticed he was grimacing. I
immediately queried to Levi's pain level.

"My pain level is high, Christian. Both inside and out." Levi said.

"Let me get you some more meds." I said. However, before I could move
another inch.

"NO. While it is fresh in your mind I want you to ask yourself why you were
so cold with Jason."  Levi said.

"I wasn't!" I replied, taken aback.

"Bullshit! Nathan, was Christian cold to Jason?" Levi asked.

"Ummmm. Well, maybe I would have used a different tone or terminology, but
you have to understand we are all very tired and emotionally
exhausted. Christian only has a couple nice gestures in him on any given
day and he already used those up for today." Nathan said.

"Levi, you need to keep yourself calm. we can talk about this later. You
just had head surgery.  I swear I will think about it. we can talk about
it. You have to be calm right now though. I will drug the shit out of you
if I have to. I won't listen to another word." Try to get some sleep I
promise we will wake you up when Jason gets here." I said with finality in
my voice. I don't care how I may have been too curt on the phone with
Jason; it certanly doesn't matter compared to Levi's recovery and what is
best for his recovery.

	It was right around an hour later Jason arrived. He didn't wait for
me to wake Levi up, he didn't say anything to me at all. He strode right
past me to Levi and bent down and kissed Levi's face. Levi awoke and
reached out to him - like he had reached out to me earlier. I was jealous
and somewhat resentful. I couldn't even believe I didn't know about Levi
and Jason being close and especially not this close.

Levi looked towards me and said, "I know you must be very tired. You and
Nathan can go home for a bit if you like."

	I was astounded. He was dismissing me now that Jason was there. I
felt somewhat angry and rejected. I did not want to rile Levi though. I
just told him it would be nice to rest and we would be back later. Nathan
and I took turns kissing Levi and saying our "love yous" and "good bye, see
you laters" to Levi. I shook Jason's hand and told him thank you for
staying with Levi for awhile.  Nathan could feel my intense distaste for
the situation radiating from me in waves. While we were in the elevator he
took my hand in his and whispered, "We can talk about it when we get
home. To our home. I love you baby. I do want to live with you if the offer
still stands."

	Of course my mind was on Levi's health and how upset I was that
there was this thing between Levi and Jason that was unbeknownst to me -
actually kept from me. However, the touch and words from Nathan caused all
bitterness in me to immediately dissipate. It is strange how much some
people can influence us. It is amazing how much we allow ourselves to be
changed by people. We put so much of ourselves into specific people who put
their hearts and souls into our hands. It is truly beautiful. Mere words
from them can change the course of our entire lives and alter us in just a
moment's time. I looked to him and planted my lips to his. My hand found
the back of his head and we kissed so intensely. The love we shared was
transferring lip-to-lip.

	We ended the heartfelt embrace by the time the elevevator doors
opened. We went to the car, and drove in silence to what was my loft, but
is now our loft. We walked in and for the first time I didn't view my
expensive loft which was furnished with fine things as just one more
extension of myself; I saw it as a home - our home. Nathan's, Levi's and my
home was this loft and there was so much love inside these walls. "Nathan,
I have so much to get done. I need to get a nurse for Levi for when he gets
discharged. You'll have to get someone to fill his shifts too."

"Do you want to talk about this Jason thing?" Nathan asked me.

"Nope. Levi will tell me what he wants me to know. He is an adult and a
good boy. I trust him. He could never disappoint me." I said.

"How about we just take an hour or two for ourselves and then you can put
that big brain of yours to work making the preparations." Nathan said as
wrapped his toned arms around my body.

	I went from sex being the last thing on my mind, to being in
heat. When Nathan turned it on, I couldn't think of anything else. I ripped
my shirt over my head like I was mad at it.  I guess in the past I used sex
as a kind of emotional release regardless of what the emotion was.  I used
to fuck hard when I was upset and soft when I was sad or depressed. With
Nathan, it has never been that way because I can't be with him and feel
anything other than love in my heart. Nathan had already shed all his
clothes. He stood before me naked just staring into my eyes. I reached out
and put my hands on each side of his face and pulled him to me. Our lips
locked again. For several minutes we kissed passionately. His hands undid
my belt and pants but he didn't push them down. He broke the kiss and just
sank to his knees.

	He pulled my dick out of my briefs. My nearly completely hard cock
was just hanging there out of pants and underwear. Then it disappeared into
Nathan's mouth. I let an uncontrollable gasp escape from my lungs and
mouth. The man I loved so much was using his mouth to make me feel such
physical pleasure. I appreciated that, but the emotional pleasure I get
from Nathan is more important. However, with emotional and physical
pleasure combined I couldn't help myself. I began to make love to his
mouth. My right hand found his head and my fingers were entwined into his
beautiful blonde wavy hair. I used my hand in combination with my hips to
piston my dick in and out of Nathan's hot, wet mouth. He was providing
suction on my dick I have never felt before. He had to be getting
lightheaded from lack of breath. I don't know how on earth he was getting
any oxygen because the suction on my dick never stopped.

	His hands landed on my torso while he was sucking me. He began to
feel my whole my body.  His constantly roaming fingers sent waves of pulses
through my body giving me goosebumps and making my breathing erratic and
ragged. He pulled off and pushed my pants and underwear down in a flash and
went right back to blowing me. He took an ass globe in each hand and was
massaging my ass while he continued to accept the face fucking I was giving
him. His left hand came around and started rubbing my balls. He was rolling
them around and using the thumb of his other hand to put pressure on right
behind my balls. I screamed. It was like he was rubbing my prostate from
the outside of my body. The pleasure was almost too much.

	I told him I was close. He squeezed my balls just a little and
pulled them down away from my cock. I have never had someone work a blowjob
so expertly. His other hand continued to put pressure behind my balls but
his amazing dexterity allowed his forefinger to start circling and pushing
on my asshole. He continued to work it until his finger started to enter
me. He kept on and kept on. So much was just running through my mind. I was
thinking about our home. I was thinking about Nathan and Levi. I was
thinking about my life. I was thinking about love. I was focusing on what I
could feel physically and emotionally. I screamed and came. I didn't have
the ability to think about anything for the orgasm that lasted at least two
minutes. I had an iron grip on Nathan's head and I pumped every bit of cum
in me directly into his mouth. Then before I could think or act at all; I
started to tear up. I kind of cried.

	Nathan stood and wrapped his arms around my neck. His lips found
mine again. I instantly tasted myself. He was pushing my own cum into my
mouth with his tongue. I would have been repulsed about this any normal
day. However, I was just so emotionally charged I was enjoying sharing this
moment with Nathan. My arms around his torso. Our bodies rubbing together
and our mouths coated in my cum; I knew I was home. Now, I just needed my
boy Levi home.


To Be Continued...

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Levi (part 3) The Damaged Boy