Date: Tue, 17 Jun 2014 06:53:11 +0930
From: duncan thomas <dunbess7@hotmail.com>
Subject: Never Give Up 52

Never Give Up 52


I was just walking out the office door when an unknown car was coming into
the parking area. Someone I didn't think for one second I would ever see
again got out of the drivers seat, he looked sick and gaunt. "Steve, what
the fuck do you want, get off my property," I yelled at him as I moved back
towards the office.

"Cody, I'm in trouble again, please help me. I'm sorry for what I did to
you, really I am. I live with it everyday, you were never anymore than kind
to me and I abused you in a terrible way, I'll never be able to forgive
myself but I haven't got much time, will you help me please? I'm going back
to prison and it looks like it's going to be for a long time, my girlfriend
has overdosed and she's dead. I'm being charged with accessory to murder
and drug trafficking, my parents haven't wanted to know me for years and
your the only person I know that has the heart to do this," he was talking
a million miles a minute! I didn't know what to do. He then said the words
I thought I would never hear, words that pelted my heart with sorrow and
love.



"Cody can you look after my boys? I will sign them into your custody,
please I can't let children services split them up or adopt them out, will
you be their legal guardian?"

He caught me off guard; I had my phone out at the ready to call the police.

"What? You have children?" I asked surprised, that stopped me in my tracks.

"Yes Cody, please help me, I know I don't deserve it but they are so young
and I just don't know what else to do. It's not their fault that they have
me for a father.

I promise I won't be in their lives, I have to know they're safe and you're
the only person that can provide that for them, please I beg you," he
started crying.

"Where are they?"

"In the back of the car," he sobbed.

I moved over to the car and looked in the back, two curly headed blond boys
popped their heads up and slapped their hands on the windows and they
wanted to get out.

"How old are they?" I asked entranced.

"Two Cody," he sniffed. "They will be three in sixteen weeks time, I have
everything you will need, birth certificates and stuff so will you help
them, please?"

"You know I will Steve, how could I not help," I said.

"Thank god, can they stay with you now? I need to go, I have an appointment
with my lawyer, there's money in the bag and clean clothes in the suitcase
in the boot. We don't have much but I promise I can get more money to you
after I get through this court thing."



"No need for money Steve, what's their names?"

"Conner and," he looked down turned and opened the door and said,

"This little one is called Cody," he wept.

He was a broken man, someone in this much pain trying to give me his
babies, it's not right.

"You called him Cody?"

"They are both my pride and joy, I treat this Cody with respect and much
love."

"Cody, I have to go really but here's my number, can you call me tonight
about seven so I can say goodnight to them?"

"What are you going to do? I can get you a really good lawyer, maybe he can
get you off."

"Not this time Codes, I'm scared but I'm more scared for my boys, please
love them as much as you loved me."

"You know I will Steve but we have to talk more," I said.

"Please, just love them and yes call me tonight, I will have calmed down by
then," he replied.

He then opened the trunk and put a bag and suitcase on the path then he put
the boys on the ground and said,

"Be good boys and stay with uncle Cody and uncle Dan for awhile."

He kissed them both and I noticed he took deep breaths of both of them.

He went to kiss me but I pulled back.

"Tell your Dan that he got his wish Codes, it was relentless but to be fair
I did it for the drugs, thank you."

I should have asked loads of questions but as he drove away the boys
started crying, I had to think of them so I knelt down and hugged them
both. They were almost identical but lucky their little t-shirts had their
names on them. Later, I would discover a birthmark on the side of Cody's
neck it was like a little raspberry heart.



"Bobby, Bobby they're here, they're here," I was crying as I rapped on the
office door then I swung back to these beautiful angels.

Bobby ran out and screamed, "Yes."

He got his phone out to ring Rory, "Do you mind Codes?"

"No, go ahead, tell everyone but ring Dan first, he shouldn't be too far
away, I'm just gonna take these two gems inside and fill them with
ice-cream."

I heard Bobby as I picked the boys up.

"Dan, it's Bobby, your boys are here, come home as soon as possible."

He then rang Rory,

"Rory honey, the babies are here, what's their names Codes?"

"Conner and Cody."

"I got a Conner and Cody but hey, they are twins and blondes."

"Cody?" he inquired.

"Yes, Cody," I laughed.

I took the boys inside, they had settled down and their big blue eyes were
everywhere. Putting them down on the sofa I went to get them a juice and a
bowl of ice-cream, they were timid but enjoyed their treats. Bobby started
asking me questions that I couldn't answer then Dan arrived home soon after
and stood in awe. Cody screamed when he saw my gentle giant and raced over
to him, hugging his leg and dribbling on his shoe. He was talking baby
talk, not quite putting sentences together, yet.

"He loves you already Dan," I said remembering Tim's first reaction to him.

"What's his name Codes?" he asked as he picked him up.

"Cody," I flashed a smile.

"Cody?"

"Yes, Cody."

"And the other little fella?"

"Conner."

He bent over and kissed Conner on the head.



"Where did they come from?"

"Umm, we got to talk, maybe later Dan."

"Codes, you didn't kidnap them did you?" he asked.

"No Dan, it's all on the up and up, I hope."

"Cody?" he said with suspicion.

He got a slap on the face from the little one, guess he was trying to say
look at me. (How Timmy, okay you win, and me.)

Rory and Luke came in and Bobby said,

"Sandcastles?"

"Yesss," said Rory as they slapped hands.

"Cody, whose babies are they?" Luke asked.

"Ours Luke, you knew they were coming, this one is Conner and that one is
little Cody."

He gave me a weird look and said, "What have you done?"

"Nothing, their mum is deceased and their dad is giving them over into our
care but they belong to all of us Luke, you especially. Twins Luke, twin
boys, awesome," I cried.

He looked at me as if I was mad.

Dan let the kids take the babies down to the beach. He really was confused
and everything was happening so fast.

They were giggling and screaming just like Donny and Timmy did over a
decade ago, stomping their little feet as they waddled through the sand.

"Whose the father Codes?" Dan asked.

"Someone I used to know Dan, can we talk about it later?" I really was too
excited to delve deeper at that moment.

"Ah, let me think Squirt. NO!" he grabbed my arm.

"Dan, it's okay," I started to cry, more for joy.

"Cody Mitchell, whose babies are they?"

"Steve's Dan, they are Steve's babies."

The blood drained from his face, he made a fist and said,

"No, this is not happening, don't do this to me?" I could read
disappointment in his eyes, and maybe a tear.

"He came here today. He's going inside for a long time and he wanted us to
look after his babies and he told me to tell you that you got your wish."

I continued.

"He looks very sick Dan and he might not survive his sentence, we can't
blame these beautiful babies, we just can't Dan," I cried as my tears ran.

"Fuck, do we ever just have quiet, normal times in our lives Cody
Mitchell?" he was exasperated.

"Yes Dan, when I'm in your arms baby."

He smiled, I knew then he was just as hooked as me.

"Let's make sandcastles Dan," I said.

"Race you." Luke followed and then Jamie appeared, all smiles.

We all played on the beach until the babies ran out of steam. Later,
everyone was in the bedroom fussing and cuddling them, wanting to not let
go but needing to let them have a nap.

I pulled Luke aside and said, "Why don't you and Jamie check them out? I'll
clear the room and you can check their blood pressure and temperature and
things."

"They look healthy to me Codes."

"I know, I just thought you might want to sing them to sleep with a lullaby
or something Luke."

"Eh?" he looked confused.

"Well they are yours and Jamie's also Luke, you have to bond too," I
wiggled my eyebrows.



After explaining things, as I knew them to all the family I heard a little
boy crying.

"Go Dan, someone needs you. I was too excited and was desperately trying to
settle down, going to the boys in my state would be wrong.

Dan got up and went to their room, he didn't return so I peeked in and
there he was asleep with two little kids nestled up to him, the smile on
his face was priceless.

I closed the door and smiled, the phone rang and it was mum.

"I hear you have a full house again Squirt?"

"Yes mum, twins Conner and Cody, they are waiting to meet you and Rob."

"We'll come over tomorrow Codes, my guess is they are blonde?"

"Yes mum, same as Luke and Mike, Dan's in there taking a nap with them and
he's got the biggest grin on his face, I have to take a photo or a
hundred."

"Okay son, we will see you tomorrow, does Tim know yet?"

"No mum, we will ring them in Paris tomorrow, I'm too excited to speak to
them at the moment."

"Okay, see you at noon."

"Bye mum."

I hung up the phone and said, "Rory come with me, they will need more
clothes."

We went out to the container and put together five sets of casual wear,
some awesome pajamas and a few pairs of swimming trunks.

I leaned on the door while taking big breaths and trying to calm down, it
was getting to me. I've waited so long for them to arrive and I just didn't
know what to do first, my adrenalin was working overtime.

Bobby rubbed my back and was whispering, "Calm down Codes, calm down."

He then said,

"Cody do you think Steve's having a lend of your generous nature?" he
asked.

"No Rory, he's scared stiff the boys will end up in a home or
separated. This is the obvious place to leave them, he didn't scare me one
bit but Rory he looked so sick, I need to help him in some way if I can and
I'm loathed to tell Dan."

"Well, you have our support Codes, anything you want we can do between the
eight of us."

"I have to ring him tonight around seven so I will be able to tell you
more, after we talk," I replied.



I rang just after the boys had their bath, which Dan and Luke gave them,
they smelt all baby like and powdery, I couldn't get enough of them.

"Hello Steve?"

"Yes Cody, can I say goodnight to the boys then we can talk?"

"Of course, here's Conner."

The babies talked for ages, I couldn't understand them but my guess is
Steve could a bit. When Cody took the phone he started to weep but
eventually calmed down to baby chatter.

When they finished, Dan turned the TV on and found the cartoon channel;
they snuggled up with him and Jamie on the sofa, mesmerized by Tweety pie
and Sylvester.

"Steve we have to talk."

I took the phone outside so I could hear properly; Dan followed me not long
after so I switched the phone to speaker.

"Cody, I know what I did to you was terrible, I was high and not thinking
but I humbly apologize for it and if giving you my babies makes you happy
then I'm happy to do that. They are beaut little kids; their mother didn't
want to know them so I've had custody since they were born. It was enough
to make me dry out but I'm afraid the damage was already done, I'm
terrified I won't see my boys grow up, can you send me a photo and progress
report sometime Codes?"

"Of course I will, you know it's a done deal. I want you to write to them
and call them as often as you possibly can, you won't be completely shut
off from them Steve, I won't have it," I looked at Dan.

"Thank you Codes and Dan if you're listening, I'm sorry and apologize to
you, I was a cunt and so messed up that I can never make it up to you
both."

Dan was silent.

"Cody, I got the drugs for the ex and the stupid cow took them all at once,
they killed her. My lawyer says I will get seven to ten years for
trafficking and manslaughter. I was at my wits end until I found the
solution, you will love them, they are untouched by drugs and alcohol, they
are just the most beautiful kids Codes, very much like you. I have asked my
lawyer to draw up the custody papers and I will sign them tomorrow so can
you give me your lawyer's name? I will have them shipped to him and you and
Dan can sign them also. I have some money hidden away and I will send that
to you also, it's not a fortune but it will see them through school, I
hope."

"Use the money on yourself Steve, I have money for that."

"No Codes, where I'm going I won't need it, my lawyer is through legal aid
and I don't have to pay but at least I want my boys to have it."

"Okay Steve but I can assure you that they will have the best of care that
Dan and I can give them. What about your parents?"

"There won't be any trouble Codes, they don't want to know me or them, they
haven't even seen them, I will make sure you won't have any trouble from
them Codes. I will make the custody papers water tight. I don't want them
anywhere near our boys."

"Okay Steve, if you want to ring or need anything then just let us know."

"I'll be in touch Codes, they must be tired, go put your babies to bed and
Cody?"

"Yes Steve."

"God bless you and Dan," he said and hung up.

I breathed out and looked at my beautiful man.

"Fuck I hate this Codes, one minute I want to kill Steve and the next I
want him here for his boys. I guess it's up to us to make sure they grow up
right with heaps of love and attention."

"Thank you Dan, thank you," I said as I took his hand and kissed it.

We went inside to find Jamie and Luke and the babies all watching cartoons
so I sat on the floor and watched them and Dan sat in the armchair. When
Cody finally noticed, not taking his eyes off the screen he wiggled down
from the sofa and leant up against Dan's legs, Dan pulled him up and
cuddled him, kissing his head. I had to have some more photos and then I
sent them out to everyone in my family phonebook.

Conner was mesmerized but cuddled up to Jamie and finally they both were
asleep. We moved them into our bed and there was no way they would be alone
for the next few weeks.

Later, as we showered I said to Dan,

"Looks like we are back to parent sex again."

"Codes it was fun while it lasted but these little guys need us right now,
maybe Luke and Jamie will take them for a night or two so we can have some
us time."

"Do you really think that will happen Dan?"

"Of course not Squirt, maybe they would consider moving upstairs for a few
years," he chuckled.

Moving into the bedroom we found two babies cuddled up and fast asleep, one
sucking his thumb and the other with his arm around the other's waist.

We crawled into bed, kissed goodnight and went to sleep.

Crying always got to me especially when it concerns babies and around two
am it started, we whispered, cuddled, rubbed backs and changed night
nappies and by three-thirty we finally got them settled, Dan looked at me
and smiled before he leant over and said,

"Well done mum."

"Well done dad," I replied.

Morning was much the same; we prepared scrambled eggs and toast with
vegemite, some warm milk to settle them and they were ready for another day
in front of the cartoon channel.

We sat them on the couch but they moved nearer to the screen, they were so
close I'm sure they were only seeing the pixels.

Dan moved them back and when Rory and Bobby arrived with Will and Karen
they sat with them while I settled the bedroom and put their clothes
away. There was an envelope in the knapsack with three thousand dollars in
it, we decided as soon as possible to start a bank account for them and
deposit it.

We couldn't do much until the papers were signed so Dan put it in the safe
with their names on it. I noticed he opened another envelope and put more
money into it, then later that day I matched it.

That day we Skyped Tim and Donny and they were so excited to meet
them. They have known about the painting for a long time, Tim used to ask
when were his brothers arriving but I didn't have a positive answer. But
now that they could see them, I swear Tim got a tear in his eye, he spoke
baby talk to them then wanted to talk to Dan. They just sat there and
smiled at each other touching the screen. Dan was asking about their
holiday and Tim was telling him how much they missed us. They will be home
soon so that will be two more babysitters added to the list.

Mum, Rob, Mike and Debs arrived at lunchtime and it was love at first
sight. Mum and Debs took over and fed them while Mike and Luke just grinned
from ear to ear. Rob was out on the porch talking to Dan and Jamie and my
guess it was about their father Steve. I couldn't do anything about that
but just pray that he will be okay, I will ring him again tonight.



As it turned out Steve couldn't handle the thought of being incarcerated
again, I spoke with him at length one night just before the magistrate
signed the boys over to us. He was HIV positive and he said his life was
over and that this was his punishment for being a coward. Three days later
before his court case he committed suicide. I was in a daze all day; it was
like a living nightmare. I was called into his lawyer's office, he had
provided money for his funeral costs and a large envelope was handed to me
for his children, it was full of cash, it wasn't a fortune but it was
substantial. We talked for some time and I signed the paperwork. We
organized a small chapel for his service, his parents came and some
workmates he had kept in touch with also attended. I had met his parents a
couple of times and they were the reason he was the way he was, they
treated him appallingly and they were the basic cause of his problems. They
even came to his funeral stinking of alcohol and cigarettes; her dress was
so old I thought it was going to disintegrate in front of everybody.

I didn't want anything to do with them then and I don't now.

His pompous assed mother said,

"Well I suppose I had better clean out a room for the kids, I know Steven
had some money put aside for their upbringing and I guess the state will
help with educating them. What's the name of Steven's lawyer, we must get
on to that as soon as possible?" she swayed.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing; Steve never told them he gave us
custody.

Dan was right beside me when this was going on after the service, his
father who I hated with a passion said,

"I suppose if it gets too much for us Shirley we can send them to aunty
Beas place, she's got more room," he was resigned to just give his
grandchildren away.

I tried to move closer but Dan held my arm tight, he knew I was pissed and
so was he.

"That's very noble of you both but it's not necessary, you're just so lucky
I didn't take you both to court when Steve moved out."

They gave me a shocked look.

"Oh don't play that little game with me you pair of cunts, I know Steve was
giving you my things and my money to feed your drinking habits, you fucking
low life's."

His father went to say something but I held my hand up in front of his big,
fat, ugly face. Then I got right into it and said,

"If you both ever so much as look sideways at Steve's boys, even think
about them for one split second, I will make sure you never see the light
of day ever again, you understand me?" I was calm at this point.

"Now listen here, we are his parents," he slurred out.

I had created a crowd and you all know how much I love an audience.



"Your son was so fucked up by the time I got him, he was so fucking damaged
by you pair it was impossible to turn him around. Now I know why we got
custody of his beautiful boys and why he never told you cunts, it was
because he wanted me to have the last word and by God if I ever see you two
miserable excuses for human beings again it will be too soon. Go home and
die, hopefully choking on your own decaying liver and lungs and die fucking
quickly because your not welcome on this earth any more, you cunts."

I spat this out more from the desperation I felt for Steve's unhappy life
but also for my sake, it was so good to get it out of my system.

"Come on Dan, let's go home and see our sons." I left them standing alone
in their own vile stench; I hated them so fucking much.

When I got to the car I turned to look at them.

"Not for one fucking second, you hear me," I screamed.



"Codes settle down, I think you made your point, loud and clear."

"Well it wasn't strong enough Dan, I should have kicked them both into next
week, could you imagine those two in charge of our babies Dan? They
wouldn't stand a chance. They got Steve to take my things and when his
mother visited us she was virtually there to pick out her new
furniture. That fucking bitch and he was giving them money, money I worked
for Dan and money I saved. They played him like a violin, you only saw the
dark side of him and he was terrified of his parents. I know he had loved
me at one time Dan but we didn't stand a chance at all with them in the
background chipping away at him," I said starting to get a bit hyper.



"Codes, calm down, there's nothing they can do about it and if they even
try anything, the documents we have from their father are watertight," Dan
said calmly.

"I know Dan but you never trust vermin like that, they are stupid
individuals and could try anything. Oh Dan, it's not about the kids, it's
all about the money with them, I know them, the next thing they will try is
to blackmail us into giving them money so they won't try to take the
kids. I know the type and I'm ready for it, bring it on I say, stupid
people."



I breathed deeply while Dan massaged my lower spine, it felt so good when
he laid me face down on the bed and the slap, slap noise that was coming
from the babies hands on my back was calming. My boys, our boys were
helping daddy to calm me down and bring me back to earth.



We went the next day to the site where the mall would be built and my boys
met us there. They were too interested in playing with the babies than
planning the next step so when I clapped my hands and said,

"Okay boys, listen up."

They took notice of me.

"Jamie will tell you where things are going and run through the plans with
you, make sure you understand what's what, and any input will be good."

I went and played with my kids who were throwing pebbles into a bush so I
sat and made daisy chains for them, they were very excited with their
necklaces and so was Larry with his.

After a lot of talking everyone started to leave and then there was just
Dan and I.

"What do you think Dan?"

"Amazing Codes, it's going to be brilliant but what a lot of work, where do
you start?"

"You start here Dan, at the front gate."

I went and got a sign out of my boot which read,

`Gymnasium, Pool, Factory Outlet Complex coming soon, members welcome', and
a phone number.

"Here's the hammer Dan, stick it over there near the gate," I grinned.

"Maybe people will start joining now Codes?"

"My plan exactly baby, now let's go home and start planning a opening
party."

I smiled.

He kissed me like no tomorrow and said,

"Want to do something on the way home Codes?" he raised his eyebrows.

"Like what do you have in mind Dan?"

"Oh, just maybe turn up a dirt track and make out for awhile, you look so
hot in those shorts?"

"Okay babe, your on," I giggled.

(See it's Dan that's tacky, not me)

Then I added,

"Ask the boys if they would mind Dad?"

He realized we weren't alone.

"Groan," he whined.

We had two very happy little kids in the back with their bright yellow
daisy chains on watching cartoons and one grumpy driver, that would be me.

Bath time was another nightmare but Luke had it sorted in no time, he took
a small DVD player in and started to sing nursery rhymes.

"Let's go look at the moon Codes."

"Okay baby."

We strolled down the beach and sat at our rock and after staring at our
moon Dan said,

"We're not too old Squirt, are we?"

"No Dan, not at all, we will see our grandkids grow baby."

"Life's just getting away from us Codes, I wish it would slow down a
little."

"I know Dan, let's just enjoy what we have baby, my stars are beautiful
tonight."

"They are Codes but they don't outshine you."

We kissed and cuddled.

Arriving back and giggling to ourselves, the boys were ready for bed and
each one kissed everyone and I took them to bed. Well Luke and Jamie did
and stayed the night. When we woke in the morning we had two little blonde
headed boys in bed with us.

"I lifted them in around four, something about noises scaring them," Dan
grinned. I'm thinking either Jamie or Luke snored or it could be both of
them.

We cuddled up to the boys, took photos and sent them off, kissed them and
looked at their perfect faces, then Dan leant over and kissed me, he
couldn't stop grinning.



"Donny, can you get the suitcases and hand luggage, I want to talk to dad
for a minute?"

"Okay baby, I won't be long."

"Tim don't do that, I'll give him a hand, you can't treat him like that."
Dan said quite annoyed.

"Oh okay dad, if you want."

"Come on dad, let's get some real coffee while they are doing that," he
giggled.

"You are going to get into trouble one day Tim, you just can't treat Donny
like that," I said.

"He loves it dad, he would do anything for me, makes him feel like more of
a man but I will let you in on a secret dad, I would walk over hot coals
for him," he sighed. I knew that.

I saw Dan and Donny struggling with the suitcases and walked over to get a
trolley for them.

"Here, this will help Dan but don't be long, we need coffee."

I walked off arm in arm with Timmy and he gave me a knowing look.

"So how was it baby?"

"Oh dad, just wonderful, we saw heaps of museums and galleries, old castles
and fabulous live shows and we ate at your restaurant in Spain and it was
amazing. Jacques sends his love and where's my brothers, you didn't bring
them?"

"They are with Rory and Bobby, playing pirates Tim."

He got a far away look and smiled, "He was so beautiful wasn't he dad."

"Who Tim?"

"Donny, my pirate friend, he was so handsome, I was totally in love with
him then but in a brotherly way," he giggled.

"You both were Tim and you both still are."

The boys finally came over. "Coffee, I need coffee," said Donny.

"When we get home Donny, I want to see my brothers," Tim said.

"Okay Timmy," he answered.

Dan let out a loud groan.

"Come on Dan, don't dilly, dally," I said and smiled at him.