Date: Mon, 22 Mar 2004 22:42:03 -0500
From: lgastvndve@yahoo.com
Subject: Reunion of Love chpt.4

I know it has been a litte while since the last time I wrote a chapter but
I had some writers block so I hope this chapters is good.  Let me know what
you think,.



When I woke up the next morning with Johnathan still in bed with me I was
so happy that I had finally let him back into my life.  That I had stopped
pushing him away and told him what had been going on in my head since the
beating.  I was so scared that he wouldn't want to be with me after I told
him but I knew I had to tell him, if I wanted to keep him in my life.  I
think he was shocked at some of the things that I had told him, but in the
long run I think that this will help our relationship grow.  I now know
that Johnathan really really loves me, and we will make it in the long run
as long as we are honest with each other.

As I lay here thinking about everything I keep looking at Johnathan he
looks so peaceful laying next to me.  I think god he he is the most
beautiful man in the whole world I am so lucky to have him in my life. I
start to stroke his chest, and I feel him stir alittle.

"Are you awake Johnathan my love?"

"mmm yes I am be sweet sweet prince.' Johnathan said.

"Thank you so much for last night it was the most wonderful thing to have
you hold me again and love me again."

"oh my dear lover you are so welcome, thanks for finally sharing with me
what has been going on with you.." Johnathan said as he leaned in a kissed
me.

We kissed for what seem liked forever.  Johnathan finally wrapped his arms
around me and rolled me over so he was on top of me. He leaned in a kissed
me more passionaltly, and began humping me.  My cock was no getting erect
as I could feel his ass move over it.  He then started to kiss my neck, and
down my chest stopping at my nipples.  He licked and sucked them each "MMM
JOHNATAN THATA IS SO GOOD."  He then licked down my stomach and licked my
naval.  He then licked down the rest of my stomach.  Stopped at my now hard
cock and kissed the tip, and then looked up and me with a devilish smile.
I wasn't sure what he was going to do what I knew what ever it was I was
going to end up liking it.  He then start to lick my inner thigh and down
my right leg and then back up my left leg.  Then he slowly licked the tip
of my dick letting me feel is tongue ring.  He licked around and then
slowly down one side of the shaft and then slowly back up.  I was moaning
in pure ectasy now loving every moment of him on my cock.  He then came
back to the head and wrap his lips around it and slowly began to suck it.
He got harder and faster in giving me head working my cock like there was
no tomorrow.  I was now screaming his name. "Oh SUCK MY COCK JOHNATHAN OH
GOD YES."  He continued with the blow job for a while, then he stopped and
came back up to kiss me.  We kissed for a little while then he moved got
off me for a second moved to the nightstand and got some lube.  He then put
some lube on me dick, and then lubed up his ass and then straddled me and
slowly lowerd himself on to my cock.  When he was all way on my cock he
just stayed there, and then leaned into me and kissed me again, and then
slowly started to move up and down on my cock.  He went slow for a while
then he picked up the speed and really started riding my cock hard.  He was
riding my cock like a harely on the bad road.  I know that sounds kind of
funny to say but that is just want it was like.  When he would sense that I
was getting close he would stop completely lean in to kiss me and then
start again.  We made love like this for a while till I rolled him over on
his back never pulled out of him, and start to poud his ass.  OH JOHNATHAN
FUCK ME FUCK ME HARD.  MMMM MAKE ME CUM.  THAT'S IT BABY I AM SO CLOSE." I
continued to fuck him then I felt my balls tightened and I knew I was
cummed.  "OH JOHNATHAN I AM SO CLOSE CUM WITH ME."  He said when you are
ready grab my cock and I was cum.  I pounded his ass a couple of more times
and then grabed his cock and then I came and right after he came too.  I
collasped on to him and just lay there for a second.

I rolled off of him and pulled him close to me, and we just lay there in
bed.  I held him tight and while I was doing this I felt him start to
tremble.  This scared me a little because I didn't know what was wrong with
him.  Did he not want to be with me now.  Did I do something, did what I
tell him last night finally sink in and he was regretting what just
happened, and he was going to leave me.  I had to ask even though I was
scared to know the truth, but I owed it to him to comfort him to be there
for him, after all he was there for me all those months that I pushed him
away.  I took a deep breath and then asked.

"Baby whats wrong, did I do something, do you hate me, do you want me to
leave?  Please tell me I can handle it I love you."

He was quieter for a while and he just kept crying.  I was scared that he
was going to tell me something bad.  I decided that it must be me that he
was crying about that he wanted me to go away I was going to get up and
leave.

"Johnathan I am sorry for everything. I love you so much thank you for
comforting me all those months even if you wanted to leave me, or did not
think I love you. I do love you and I am sorry for everything.  I guess I
can not fix all those months of pushing you away.  I am going to go now, I
will come back later I just don't want to cause you any more pain"

I started to slowly pull away from him but he just held on to my arms so
tight that I could not get up.  I just lay there next to him and held him
now realizing that is just what he needed.

"Benjie please don't go.  I am not crying cause I don't want to be with
you.  I am crying because I love you so.  Yes you pushed me away for so
long that I was starting to get scared you may never come back.  Last night
I was thinking that I love you, but if it hurt you so much to have me
around or if you were never going to be able to love me again that I needed
to give you some more space, maybe I needed to leave. Maybe I shouldn't be
telling you all this now but I have to so you can realize how much this has
meant to me. He kissed me and then continued telling me what was on his
mind I know I told you I was going to stay and I wouldn't leave you once
you got help, and I was so proud of the progress you were making but you
still wouldn't let me go near you.  I thought maybe your progress would go
faster if I was gone so that is what I was deciding to do.  I laid in the
spare bedroom for so long thinking of what I should do I just go so tired
everything of the last few months hit me and fell asleep. When you came in
and started to kiss me I was so happy, but so scared.  I thought maybe you
were doing this because you sensed something was wrong and you wanted to
make it right, then I looked into your eyes and knew that you wanted to do
this more for your self then for me. You wanted to do this to make your
self feel better so I let you. I let you kiss me and touch me, and feel me.
When you told me you wanted me to make love to you I was so happy.  I
thougth wow this will be great he is getting so better I love him so I will
make it happy.  So I made love to you and it was great.  I loved you so
much, and I was so proud of.  So proud that you had allowed your self to do
this.  I thought we could get through this now together.  When you feel
asleep in my arms I was so happy you have no idea.  Then you had a
nightmare.

He paused for a while and started to cry harder I just held him.  I had no
idea he was going through all of this, I was to preoccupied at getting
myself better then to realize what was goin on with him.  I thought after
the first time that he said he was going to leave and we got that all
worked out, I thought things were better.  I just don't understand why he
didn't tell me about this.  Maybe it was because he didn't want to scare
me, and make me do anything I didn twant to do.  Oh how I love him for
that, but I am so sad that I couldn't help him.  I sat up in bed and pulled
him up with me so that we were now facing each other.  I wanted to see him
when he told me the rest.  I wanted to wipe away his tears as they ran down
his face.  He looked at me quizzically as I pulled him up with me.  I just
kissed him and asked if he could finish.


"Yes Benjie I think I can finish now.  Just don't speak till I get it all
out please."

I nodded my head yes and he kissed me once more and then started again.

"When started screaming and thrashing about in the bed I was so startled
that I wasn't sure what was going on.  I started to get really scared and
tried to wake you up.  All that while I was thinking damn I guess this was
all to good to be true you were not really ready for me to come back ready
to give yourself to me completely.  You told me it wasn't my fault that
this had happened but I still wasn't sure.  I was so scared I didn't want
to leave you, but that nightmare made the thought of leaving you come back,
because I didn't want you to be in pain anymore.  So when the nightmare
happened I had really made up my decision.  You then told me that you were
so sorry for putting me at arms length for so long but that you felt you
had to, that you did love me but you were scared.  When I asked you why,
and that I needed you to tell me you did.  You finally opened up to me I
felt like such an asshole for thinking about leaving you again.  I realized
that I did love you and no matter what I was not going to let you push me
away, and even if you did I was going to stay no matter what.  Then ask me
to go make love to you again in our bed so I was so happy.  I feel in love
with you even more.  That you would open your self up to me like that, and
you were still going to want me to make love to you.  It was perfect.  Then
this morning when I felt you touching me, I wanted you to make love to me.
It was just so perfect.  I knew that we were going to be alright again. The
pleasure I felt was just so unbelievable.  I love you so much. So that is
why I was, and am still crying."


I took Johnathans hands into mine and kissed them, and pulled him into me
and kissed him passionately on the lips to let him know that I do love him.

"Thank you for telling me all this I had no idea that this was going on
with you.  I wish you had said something but I realize you didn't because
you wanted to protect me, and you didn't want to do anything to hurt me
anymore.  There is still going to be some times I get scared but I do love
you, and I think I am much better then I was.  So thank you.  I am going to
do something really special for you and you can not say no because I want
to show you how much I love you, and how special you are for standing by me
like that."


"Benjie just telling me you love me if find with me.  You do not have to do
anything special for me just being here with you is all that I need."

"Well honey I am still going to do something special no matter what.  So
make sure you keep tonight open for me please."

I kissed Johnathan again and then laid back down with him in my arms. I was
so in love with this mad.

"Well Ben I am all your tonight but I have something I need to get done at
the office today, so I will need to get up soon to get them done so I can
be with you tonight."

"Okay sweet pea. I can handle being with out you for so long.  I love you
so much."

We lay in bed for a little while longer till Johnathan had to get up and
get ready to go to his office.  I watched him get ready.  I love this guy
he is so beautiful.  I am so glad he didn't leave.  I am going to try to do
anything I can to keep him here.  He looked over at me while I was looking
at him and thinking.

"Hey stud whats going on in your pretty little head?"

"Just thinking of how much I love you my prince."

"Well baby I need to go to work now so I love you and will see you soon.
Bye sweetie."

He kissed me and then left. I laid in bed for a little while longer before
getting up to start on my surprise for him.