Date: Thu, 30 Aug 2012 13:55:26 -0700 (PDT)
From: Cant Tellyouyet <chefinthewild@yahoo.com>
Subject: size does matter part V in the gay adult friends section

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	Size Does Matter (To Me)


	Part V: It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down
on. Just try your best, try everything you can.



	Three things never failed this time of year.  Someone gets too
drunk and kills someone or themselves.  Someone gets hurt playing with
fireworks.  And the community pool gets over crowded.  With the fourth of
July coming up this weekend all of the Sheriffs department were working
overtime.  The yearly festival at the high school was being set up with a
small carnival going on all weekend.  The fireworks display put on by the
fire department got bigger every year and with it the crowds.  Every deputy
was dreading it.  When ever a big event came around the Sheriff turned into
a dictator.  He treated all the guys like they were his private army and he
their general.  At times like these he was called Howling Herb behind his
back.

	Monday:

	When he gathered everyone together for a meeting on Monday a black
cloud settled over the building.  "As y'all know I'ma retiring come the new
year.  And if anyone wants to get on the ballot which is empty right now,
you have till the end of the month."  Herb glared at Alex.  He felt almost
every eye turn in his direction.  It was no secret herb was trying to groom
him for the position.  "If none of ya put your hat in then the county has
ta open it up to outside the community.  I highly doubt any of you want
some stranger coming in and making changes."  A few murmurs of agreement
followed.  "Now we come to the big shindig this weekend.  I am getting to
old to handle all that stress so im putting Alex in charge of it.  I will
get final say on all the big decisions but he will be the boss for this."

	The entire room was silent.  Herb scanned the room and it was
pretty much the reaction he expected.  Eyes were all wide and just about
every jaw had hit the floor except one.  Alex was on his feet note pad on
the floor eyes blazing and mouth tight grinding his teeth.  Alex thought
that son of a bitch I should have known he would try something like this.
He knows I don't want the job so he is going to force it on me one way or
another.  "Alex sit down your not in charge yet we will cover all the
basics here now then you can get together with your team leaders when we
finish.  As usual we have lots of volunteers signing up so there will be no
shortage of people on hand.  Just make sure they know they have no real
authority we don't need a repeat of you know what."  The rest of the
meeting went by quickly and quietly.

	As it broke up Herb left for his office and the ranking deputies
started asking Alex for their assignments.  Before they could overwhelm him
he stormed off after Herb.  Not bothering to knock he let himself in and
slammed the door.  Herb had his back to him not bothering to turn around he
continued walking around his desk.  Alex to furious to be polite just
yelled.  "What the hell was that about!  I've told you way to many times I
don't want your job!  Now I am going have to deal with all the resentment
from the older guys that have been doing this for years and years.  I've
only been here a few years!  You've been telling all your friends to push
me haven't you!?  How do you think that makes me feel.  I'm not ready for
that kind of responsibility.  Too many people treat me like I am their own
private cop.  I can't walk down the street without someone stopping me.  I
think I know everyone in the county by first name now."  Throughout the
triad Alex paced the office losing steam as he went on as he finished he
collapsed on the couch burying his face in his hands.

	Herb stood back up and slowly stepped over and sat down and place
an arm around Alex, well as best around the big guy as he could.  "Are you
done?  For one thing everyman in that room has the utmost respect for you.
Second when I started talking about retiring so many of them came to me
saying they thought I should ask you to take over.  I had about six guys I
was going to start the ball rollin to see who could do it.  Five of them
came to me first and suggested you.  The sixth says he won't do it."  Alex
looked up at him his eyes a little wet seeing the old man in the same
condition.  "You need to have more confidence in yourself.  You remind me
of me when I was about ten years older then you.  I knew everyone around
here too.  Having everyone know you and bring their problems to you shows
how much they will trust you to run things.  And you've done it at such a
young age for this kind of work."

	He stood up and called his receptionist telling her they were going
to be in a private meeting for the rest of the day.  Pulling a bottle of
Jack and two glasses out of a cupboard he poured them each two fingers
worth.  He sat back down and told Alex to drink up they were done for the
day.  "I don't see how a big grizzly like you can be scared of anything?"
Downing his drink Alex coughed and helped himself to another.  "I am not
scared I just don't want that kind of responsibility right now.  I want to
have a chance to have a life and do what I want before I get too tied
down."  Sipping his own Herb shook his head.  "Bull shit your scared out of
your mind.  You don't think you could do the job but every goddam man in
this building, including myself knows you can."

	"Do you know that your the only guy on this force that has
discharged his gun only once since you started here.  And that was to shoot
a coyote that was terrorizing some cows.  You have fantastic judgment.
With only one exception and I believe you will still get that bastard
someday.  That you have the highest arrest and conviction record in the
tricounty area."  Alex sat back feeling the liquor.  "I had no idea.  I
just do my job and hope I do enough.  I just want everyone to be safe and
happy."  Herb shook his finger at him.  "That's why you do such a great
job.  You don't do it for the glory or praise.  You do it for the sake of
it needs to be done.  As for having a personal life that's the biggest
bullshit line.  Sure the first few months will be hectic getting settled in
and getting your agenda on track.  Look at me I am on my second wife and
have six kids my youngest Kevin is just a year younger then you.  I see
them all the time.  And I have more hobbies than I can keep up with."

	Shaking his head Alex sighed.  "You don't get it I like my life
being private.  If I take this office from you everyone is going to know my
business."  Herb stifled a giggle.  "You know your life isn't as private as
you think.  I know your gay."  Alex's eyes went wild and his heart started
racing.  He could feel the sweat beading on his forehead.  Trying not to
stammer and keep a level tone Alex slowly let out "What are you talking
about?  I'm not gay.  What would give you that idea?"  Seeing the sheer
panic from Alex he couldn't help but laugh.  Alex was confused.  What was
the old man up to now.  "Please son don't think you can pull the wool over
my eyes.  Back when I was in the army they called me the spy master.  The
FBI tried to recruit me but I wanted to come back home and be with my
family.  There have been rumors about you for a while now.  More then a few
times I've been asked about you.  Pretty much every eligible woman around
and a few married ones have tried to get their hands on you and you haven't
gone on so much as a date as long as I have known you."

	Alex let out a breath he could see a way out of this.  "So what
just cause I haven't met anyone around here doesn't mean I'm not looking."
Herb reached out and smacked him across the head.  "Give it up boy you are
gay capital G A Y and we both know it.  A few of the guys have noticed you
checking other guys out.  And Kevin my son your age is gay.  He lives out
in the city.  He told me he saw you at one of the gay clubs over there.
Don't try to deny it, you don't exactly blend in with the crowd."  The
tears were let loose.  Silently Alex wept whatever life he thought he was
going to have was gone once everyone found out.  Herb handed him some
tissues.  Once he calmed back down. Herb refilled their glasses and had him
down it.  "Who cares, I don't."  Alex looked him in the eyes.  "Oh I'm sure
people are going to care.  We live out in the boonies people are going to
have a problem with this."  Nodding his head Herb sat back.  "Of course
you're right.  Some people are going to have a problem but nowhere near as
many as you think.  This community is more open minded then you want to
believe."

	"Before school let out a few weeks ago I had a few students in here
wanting to talk to me.  They want to start a gay straight alliance next
year and asked if you could help out with it.  They suspected that you were
gay.  I didn't tell them you were by the way I know how to keep a secret.
But they said even if you weren't they wanted you as an adviser or mentor
of sorts cause the kids look up to you and think the world of you."  Alex
stood up he couldn't handle much more of this.  He had no idea what kind of
influence he had on people.  He always thought his size just kept people in
their place.  It seems he was the only one clueless to how he affected
those around him.  Herb put the bottle away and sat back down at his desk.
Putting his serious face on he spoke with a fatherly tone.  "Get yourself
cleaned up and go home.  You have a lot of thinking to do.  Come back in
tomorrow refreshed and get going on that festival.  We are all behind you
on this.  And when this weekend is done we will sit down again and discuss
your future."  Alex just nodded wiping his face and went home.



	Later that night as Alex sat petting Mini and contemplated his life
the Lords of Hyrule were practicing their asses off.  They had four songs
to learn and master by Saturday.  Thanks to them the Dirty Jug was packed
every Friday night.  They were getting lots of attention but never expected
to be asked to play the Fourth of July festival.  Throughout the day the
various school band from around the county would be playing then from 7:30
till 9:30 they would be on stage before the grandstanding by officials and
fireworks started.  Then a DJ would take over to finish out the night.
They could play anything they wanted as long as it wasn't offensive but the
first two and last two songs were already picked out for them so they only
had a week to learn them.

	There was some tension in the room.  Before they got started there
was an argument about what they should wear to the concert.  So far they
just wore something comfortable with the exception of Shane who was always
so buttoned up.  One guy wanted to have shirts made with their name on it
and just wear shorts.  Jeff thought they should go shirtless instead but
everyone vetoed that.  It got really heated before they just dropped it and
began playing.  Shane was the only one not to express an opinion but he
thought about it as they played.  As they were packing up for the night he
don't know what came over him but he blurted out his idea.  Stunned to hear
him really say anything about it at all they are looked at each other and
wondered why they hadn't thought of it themselves.  One of the guys worked
as a tailor in his moms shop and said if they all came in and were measured
tomorrow he could have everything made in time for the show.

	After the guys had left Shane sat on his bed he couldn't believe he
had said anything at all he always just went with the flow.  Not only did
he have an opinion at all but they liked it and were all for it.  He was
pumped.  His heart and mind were racing filling him with nervous energy.
Feeling all sweaty from being in the warm humid basement and moving around
as they played he decided to take a shower before trying to get some sleep.
Stepping in front of the mirror he took a good look at himself.  He didn't
like what stared back.  The greasy black hair was getting too long and
stuck out at odd angles.  He always wore the plastic framed glasses with
the small scratch.  He wanted to save the black metal frames for special
occasions.  The eye doctor said they made his green eye pop whatever that
meant.  His beard was out of control he kept it somewhat trimmed but it was
growing out uneven now.

	Grabbing some clippers he ran them over his head giving himself a
high and tight like he used to do before he stopped caring how he looked
just leaving a bit on top so he could spike it up.  As for his beard it was
time to try something new.  Starting with the clippers and then a razor he
shaped it into a pointed goatee like you would see on a devil costume and
topped his lip with a thin mustache that curled slightly at the tips.  He
grinned thinking wow I look like some evil hacker from a cheesy movie.
Turning on the shower he took off his shirt and ran his hand over his
lightly hairy chest and down his thin treasure trail.  He had thought about
trimming it or shaving it off before but just like every time he couldn't
do it.  Having some body hair made him feel like a man and not a little
boy.  Opening his belt and dropping his pants he turn around and looked at
his ass in the mirror.  The white briefs he wore made it look firm and
tight but as he lowered them he could see the scars from the beating he had
taken from belts and whatever else his dad or Todd could get their hands
on.  They both had been careful not to leave marks anyone would notice.

	Turning around he was not going to let that get him down he was
determined to let that part of his life go.  Continuing to pull the briefs
down he ran his hands over his legs the only other part of his body with
any hair other then his pits and pubes.  Standing back up he was surprised
to see he had an erection.  Pointing ninety degrees from his body at a
thick seven inches it was hard as iron.  It had been a while since he had
one beside a piss hard on in the morning.  Not wanting to waste a
spontaneous hard on he jumped in the shower and using the shower gel
lathered himself up.  With one hand tweaking his nipples and the other
gliding up and down his cock he let out a moan.  Slowly at first and
quickly building up speed the intense feelings became to much for him and
sank to his knees.  As the water cascaded over him he blew his load it just
seemed to go on and on.

	Finally spent he got back up on wobbly legs and finished cleaning
up but his hard on had not gone down.  Drying off he walked to the bedroom
and laied down the stiff dick leading the way bobbing along.  Just laying
there arms spread his dick throbbed to his heart beat twitching by itself
begging for more attention.  Taking it in a loose grip he stroked it trying
to imagine that someone else was there with him to give him pleasure for
once.  The guys that popped in his mind were all pretty generic none really
bringing him that excitement to bring him over the edge again.  He thought
about the guys in the band but they didn't fit.  Nor did any of the guys at
work.  There were the guys he saw at the bar all the time but yet still
nothing was working.  So instead of a specific man he tried to think about
what he wanted to be doing.  He wanted to be held and protected to be
wrapped up warm in snug in a guys arms and gently made love to.  A warm
mouth kissing him all over bringing him to ecstasy.  Getting close he
stroked faster it was working and a face was coming to him.  Opening his
eyes he the face that was there surprised him and even through the shock he
lost it and the cum erupted shooting rope after rope of cum.  The first
shot went over his head leaving a trail across his body and face.  The next
landed right in his mouth and the rest loosing power covering his neck
chest and stomach.  Not wanting to deal with what he just thought he
quickly cleaned back up and slipped between the sheets.

	Tuesday:

	The next day Alex got up early after a fitful sleep and drove over
to his moms house.  As usual she was already up and eating breakfast.
Being a nurse in the maternity ward she was used to early and odd hours.
With his mind made up he sat down with her looked her straight in the eyes
and said "Mom I've decided im going to run for Sheriff and im gay."  She
just took another bite of her eggs and sighed "That's nice dear could you
pass the coffee."  As he poured her another cup he wasn't sure she really
heard him.  "Mom did you hear me?  I'm gay and I'm running for sheriff."
Taking a sip of the bitter brew she just shrugged "I heard you if that's
what you want I think it would be a great job for you.  As for being gay
its no surprise a mother knows these things I was just worried you would
hold it in for the rest of your life and it would hurt you."  Looking up
the look on his face was priceless so she couldn't resist the jab.  "It is
too bad I wont get grandchildren but I suppose you could adopt I won't mind
as long as you bring he or she by often for me to spoil."

	Unable to control it she just laughed slapping the table.
Eventually he saw just how stupid he sounded and joined her.  "Well I had
no idea how you would react do you think dad would have been okay with
this?"  Taking his hand she lovingly squeezed it.  "Honey your dad was one
of the kindest most compationat man I have ever know.  When you left for
school he told me not to be surprised if you brought a boy home.  He never
talked about it because it hurt so bad but he had an older brother that was
gay.  Back then things were different you couldn't be open about it and
when he was in high school some of the other kids found out and it was bad.
One day they beat him up bad and he couldn't take it anymore and hung
himself."  Alex had a tear in his eye.  "I'm learning a lot of things this
week.  Why didn't dad ever say anything to me?"  Sighing she looked to the
picture of him on the wall.  "He was scared if he pushed you something bad
would happen.  He could not risk losing you."  Looking at her watch he
jumped up.  "We need to get going I have babies that can't wait and I'm
sure Herb will want to hear yours news right away."

	When he got to the station he found a folder on his desk.  It was
all the paper work he needed to run for Sheriff and it was all filled out
all it needed was his signature.  There were petitions with hundreds of
names and recommendations from many of the other deputies as well as his
commendations.  Looking up Herb was leaning on the door to his office and
just nodded and mouthed MOM.  Shaking his head Alex signed everything and
took it over to Vicky the receptionist.  "Could you see that this gets sent
in please darlin."  With a wink and a grin the plump woman said "sure think
sweety and its about dam time you had us worried."  Then the clapping
started turning around he just shouted over the din.  "Get your asses back
to work we have a festival to prepare for."


	The day had been long, one fire after another had to be put out.
Some idiot on the executive floor had downloaded a virus and it spread to
all the servers.  Shane's department was in panic/recovery mode.  At the
end of they day they had saved almost everything and stopped the virus.  It
was going to take the rest of the week to reload everything.  Making his
way over to the mall where Zach's mothers tailor shop was.  He had walked
by it many times and had never even looked inside.  In the back he could
see a tiny gray haired woman plugging away at a sewing machine.  Behind the
counter Zach was measuring and cutting some green material.  Looking up he
said he would be with him in a second.  "I'm in no hurry you said to come
in to get my measurements."

	"Sorry were we altering a suit for you or something I don't
remember your order."  Raising an eyebrow Shane didn't get the joke.  "Dude
you told us to come in so you could make our outfits for the concert."
Zach's eye went wide "Holy shit I didn't recognize you, what brought on
this change?"  "I just needed to do something different.  Is that green for
us?"  Gesturing behind him "Ya the other guys have already been in and im
making sure I have enough for the tunics and hats the pants will be a
lighter green.  Just step back to the dressing room and ill get you sorted
out."

	Pulling at a tape measure and a notepad Zach had Shane stand with
his arms and legs spread and went on taking down the numbers.  As Zach
wrapped his arms around Shane's middle to take the chest and waist Shane
felt a stiring.  It made his think of last night and his fantasy of being
held and taken care of.  When Zach got on his knees and ran his hands up
and down his leg by then he had a hard on in his tight briefs.  He hoped
Zach wouldn't notice through his baggy trousers.  It was such a turn on
actually having a man run his hands over him even if it was just for a
fitting and if it didn't end soon he was going to cum.  That's when Zach
placed the tape at his ankle and dragged it up the inside of his legs and
bumped his balls that's all it took and he came.  Jumping away he went red
with embarrassment.  Zach just thought he had hit him in the balls too
hard.  "Sorry when guys where baggy pants it hard to tell when to stop your
not the first guy I've hit. But your all set."  Alex left so fast hoping he
could get to his car before the stain could start to show.

	Wednesday:

	The next day Alex woke up to the Mini licking his face wanting out.
Letting her out he got the paper finding his picture taking up the front
page.  The headline said Our New Sheriff??? he scanned the article which
just highlighted his brief career and his standing in the community.
Needing to get his day started he quickly got dressed and headed out.
Before he got to the end of his street he saw three signs on lawns
supporting him.  All he could think was how the hell did they get those so
fast?

	Arriving at the high school he was going to meet with all the
volunteers and hand out assignments.  The traveling carnival was there
setting up.  A lot of the local businesses were setting up booths but one
caught his eye.  Next to the stage were two booths one was for the Dirty
Jug.  Jessica was setting up tables for both booths.  The other booth said
Grizzly for Sheriff.  He just waved to her and headed over to the
gathering.  It only took about an hour to get everyone situated and a map
drawn up of where everyone needed to be.  The rest of they day he walked
around with the deputies making sure all was well.


	Another day done and Shane was exhausted.  One more day and the
company's computers would be cleaned out and safe again.  His bosses were
impressed with all the hard work his team put in.  He was just glad he
insisted that all the systems be kept backed up every week.  Now he had to
get home for another practice.  They almost had all the songs right.  But
driving home he was distracted all day by the gossip then driving home he
saw all the signs.  The one man he didn't want to think about and he was
everywhere.  Then when he got home the guys all wanted to talk about him.
He ended up going to bed rather frustrated.


	Thursday:

	Things were going rather smoothly.  Alex was running drill after
drill all day making sure nothing went wrong tomorrow when things kicked
off.  All that was left was for the celebration to start.


	Shane raced home.  Just after lunch his phone rang.  It was the
security company letting him know the alarm was going off at his house and
the police were on their way.  Pulling in the driveway he could see a young
boy of about ten in the driveway playing with a basketball.  A cop was
standing on the porch questioning someone sitting in the rocker.  As he
approached the officer asked if he knew the woman.  "Ya she is my sister
sorry you had to come out here."  "No problem that's my job.  Mam next time
I suggest you call ahead first."  As he left the boy came around and hide
behind his mother.  Shane hadn't seen him since he was about four.  "What
are you doing here Trish?  You cant just show up like this I'm too busy
right now to have you around."

	Taking the boys hand she scowled.  "Why Trish how nice it is to see
you and Max.  You both look great why don't you come in and have a drink.
You are such an asshole.  I have been calling you for months.  You couldn't
just pick up the phone and let me know your okay."  He walked past her and
opened the door.  "Well come in since your already here."




	Damn that was a lot of emotion there.  Hope I don't scare anyone off
with the direction im taking this.  I am having fun writing it.  The next
part will cover the festival and will have a surprise twist at the end I
don't think any of you will see coming.  This part is dedicated to Leon he
was the first to let me know how im doing and has been supportive.  And the
title from the last chapter was the song Drive by Incubus.  If you have
anything to say let me know or if you just want to guess what song the
chapter title comes from.  chefinthewild@yahoo.com