Date: Mon, 5 Jan 2009 22:27:13 -0000
From: gaverage@btinternet.com
Subject: Straight best mate - Part 5

Straight best mate - Part 5

Update - 5th Jan


Hi all. Thanks again for reading. I'm afraid this may
well be the last part of my story/diary. A couple of days
ago me and Jake sat down and had a chat.

He told me he was not sure if he wanted to "do it" again
because he wanted to fully commit to his gf. I was
shaking inside, but did not let him see how hurt and
disappointed I was. It would make him feel bad and
probably scare him too much if he realised how much I
really felt for him.

We talked for a while and we agreed to keep things normal
between us and that nothing needs to change. Although he
doesn't admit it often, he does enjoy our little sofa
sessions and the massages he gets from me. But its when
his cock gets involved that things "seem wrong" as he's
in a relationship.

I told him that the last I was going to say on the matter
was that if he ever changes his mind and get in the mood,
then he just needs to let me know.

Its possible he may get horny one night and may start
something, but it's a long shot and I've decided not to
wait for it. if it comes, then its comes (no pun
intended!)

I'm gutted beyond words and can only just keep from
losing it with him. I want to scream at him that there
was obviously something there between us, and that he is
making excuses. He cheats on his girlfriend often because
he is not content and that she isn't enough for him. I
want to make him see that I would be the perfect
distraction!!! Lol Whenever he was feeling horny, he
could use me to vent rather than go pull some random
bird!

But I won't have a go at him. I won't suggest being his
personal sex toy! He's just too damned important to me to
do that. So I'll remain here wishing to hold him again,
but having to settle for sofa time.

I am still glad it happened, even though its messing with
me now, I know that soon I will be able to deal with my
frustration by having a nice wank while remembering our
two fun sessions together.

So that's it for now. Unless my fans really kick off
about it, I don't plan on writing anything more for now.
If things change or I need to vent, then maybe I'll post
again.

Thanks again for reading and for the many emails I have
had. Some short and to the point, others sharing their
experience and lending an ear. or eye!

Thanks again!

Gaverage