Date: Fri, 02 Dec 2005 12:17:04 -0500
From: m yonge <myonge@hotmail.com>
Subject: What If: Ralph

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Title                    Category               Date

Joes-Bar            Beginnings               07-Nov-02
Arthur and Joe           Beginnings               03-Apr-03
Tour Guide               AdultYouth               15-Apr-03
Brother Pat              AdultYouth               07-Nov-02
Father Greg              AdultYouth               15-Apr-03
JeffryandJason           AdultYouth               18-Jul-05
Of Gord and John         Beginnings               Aug-29-05
Sons of Seth and Cain         Celebrity           Oct-24-05
Ham                 Celebrity           Oct-28-05
Aaron and Zaph                   Historical            Nov-
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Mike


INTRODUCTION TO THE SERIES:  Oh to be young again:  Have you
ever wondered what life would have been like if at any
particular time things had turned out differently?  As I
grow older I find my self wondering more and more what would
have happened if I had done this instead of that and so on.

I think we can all look back over our lives and point to
specific times or incidents that were turning point moments
in our lives.  They were times that we were put in the
position to make a decision to go one way or another.  And
we wonder 'Had things turned out differently or if we or
others had made different choices in our lives how would
have turned out?'  Who knows how they might have turned out?
But is certainly a source of much fantasy

I can think of several situations, incidents and choices
that I made at various different times in my life, that had
I moved in a different manner or responded differently or
chosen to pursue a specific, or different course of action,
things would have turned out much differently than the place
I find myself in today.

That is what this series is about. What could have happened?


Chapter 1:  Ralph
When I was about 18 I worked one summer in the Montreal
Children's Hospital.  I worked in what was known as the
'Animal House' it was all in all quite an interesting
summer.  I got to take care of the experimental animals,
rabbits, mice, rats and guinea pigs.  The really interesting
time though was the experiences that this job exposed me
too.

I was always a pretty shy guy.  Most people would have
considered me a bit of a geek.  I tended to be a loner.  I
was also very interested in the male body.  Not that I would
ever have admitted that to anyone at the time, after all I
was a Christian and that kind of thing was clearly a sin.
Any one that had read the account of Sodom and Gomorrah
would have no doubt what God thought about that kind of
thing.  I couldn't even bring myself to mouth the word homo.
no I just couldn't because I wasn't.  But man, that statue
of "David" by Michelangelo, "The Thinker" by Rodin.  I could
look at them for hours and more often than not they resulted
in my masturbating.  Masturbation another one of those
things that were a sin and yet I didn't seem to have any
control over.  That "sin of Onan" the man that "spilled his
seed on the ground" rather than do what was right by his
dead brother.  Man I was screwed up!

Well my brother had gotten me a job in the hospital.  As I
got ready to start work that summer my brother who had also
worked there warned me about certain orderlies because some
of them were gay.  They had come on to my brother.  It was
enough that my interest was peaked.

The first week was exciting as I was being trained and it
was my first real job.  I didn't have a lot of time to think
about anything other than the job.  It found I loved being
with the animals, with the exception of the rats.  Them I
hated.  I didn't trust them at all.  You had to be careful
with them all the time.  They would watch for an opening to
escape as soon as you opened the cage to put food in.   It
was important that they didn't get out because they would
attack the young in other cages if they could at all get to
them.  The problem was that the rat cages were wire and the
feet of the young rats would sometimes stick through the
wire.  The escapee rats would attack from below chewing off
the legs of any rat whose feet or legs they found hanging
down.  It was a horrible mess to clean up.  I could never
figure out an animal that would eat it's own like that. I
hated them.

The guinea pigs were just stupid, but they would squeal a
greeting every morning as they heard the keys in the door.
Well I called it a greeting.  They were actually just
squealing in anticipation of being fed.   As far as I was
concerned they were happy to see me.

It was on the Monday noon of the second week that something
happened.  I was not even thinking about it.  I had
forgotten my lunch so I went down to the staff lunchroom.
It was standing in line that I met Ralph.  He was an orderly
in the hospital, about 30 years old.  (31 I learned later)

"I've never seen you here before."  He said as he came up
behind me in line.

I looked around to see who was speaking.  He smiled at me
indicating that it was to me that he was speaking

"Oh, I'm working in the animal house.  I just started last
week, but I forgot my lunch today so came down here to get
something"

"Well welcome to the staff, I'm Ralph" He smiled at me and
offered his hand to shake

I shook his hand "I'm Mike."

We ordered our lunch, paid for it and I was going to go back
upstairs

"Why don't you join me" Ralph said

I remember hesitating,

"You have an hour for lunch don't you?"  He continued.  He
nodded his head to get me to follow him.

Too shy to argue I did just that.  We sat down at a small
table in the corner of the cafeteria.

Ralph smiled at me as we sat down.  I sat down first.  It
was a small square table with four chairs.  Ralph sat not
opposite of me but to one side.  I immediately noticed that
his leg was against mine.

As we started to eat he chatted.  He asked me about myself
and as I normally do I tend to reveal all.  He only had to
ask the questions and I opened up.  Not that there was a lot
to tell.  He chatted happily as we ate.  I noticed that he
tended to touch me a lot as he talked.  When he was making a
point he would touch me on the hand, the arm, or the
shoulder.  I also noticed that his leg was always on the
move, up and down against mine.  When we first sat down and
his leg was against mine I moved my leg away slightly.  It
was only seconds before I felt his leg against mine again.
Through out lunch I would move my leg away and he would find
it again.  After about the third time I no longer moved my
leg away.  It really didn't bother me as such. I just
thought it was a little strange but left it, and besides it
kinda felt good in a way.

"So when do you get off?"  He asked just as I was getting
ready to go back to work.  We carried our trays to the
kitchen.

"I'm off at three"

"Ah I'm on till six; well maybe I'll see you tomorrow?"

"I'll probably have my lunch with me"

"Well you can bring it down here they don't mind it is the
cafeteria for the whole staff"

"I'll see, Audrey and the others up there always eat
upstairs, I think that I am sort of expected to eat with
them"

Ralph smiled and extended his hand to me "Well if you want
to come down here and chat I'm always here at noon, I
enjoyed our time today"

"Yeah me too, maybe I'll come down here again, see you
later"

When I got back upstairs Audrey my supervisor was a little
miffed that I hadn't come right back up.  When I told her
that I had decided to eat downstairs, she made it clear that
I should not be making a habit of forgetting my lunch in the
future.  She was a little funny that way.

The next three days I ate my lunch upstairs.  I saw Ralph in
the halls at a distance a couple times as I was leaving to
go home.  He waved at me and smiled.  I smiled back and
waved.  There was something about him that my subconscious
was telling me I wanted to know more about, and at the same
time telling me "Danger!"  To me it was just some unknown
thing that was drawing me to him.  That certain "je ne sais
quoi"  "I don't know what" that made me want to talk to him
again.  There was also something forbidden about him,
perhaps it was because Audrey told me that I was not to eat
in the staff cafeteria again.  (I had not told her that I
was talking with someone down there just that because I had
a lunch with dishes that I had decided to stay.)
Perhaps it was the leg thing that told m that this was more
than . more than what?  Was this what my brother had warned
me about?  I made a mental note not to tell my brother about
Ralph
As I left to go home on Thursday afternoon Audrey told me
that she would be away the next day.  The thought
immediately flitted across my mind that I would be able to
have lunch with Ralph then.  It struck me funny actually
that that was the first thing that I thought of.

As I left I saw Ralph in the hall so I walked over to him.
"You want to have lunch tomorrow? Audrey is going to be
away"

He hesitated and then smiled... "Yeah sure!  Noon?"

"Yeah"

"Great see you tomorrow"

The next day at lunch I told Mary one of the other workers
up on the Animal House floor that I would be eating in the
cafeteria again.  She smiled and "Good, I want to do some
shopping over lunch and Audrey never lets me go."

I hurried downstairs and found Ralph waiting for me at the
cafeteria door.  He grinned and greeted me as I arrived.  As
I started to walk into the cafeteria he said "Say why don't
we go to my place it's just across Atwater on Dorchester."

I remember looking at him.  "Well it's just that  this is
one of my days off actually."  He continued "But I wanted to
have lunch with you"

I know I blushed, I was embarrassed, I never even thought
about him being on some kind of shift.  "Oh. Oh, I'm sorry I
didn't mean to ."

He laughed and put his hand on my shoulder "That's alright
Mike, if I hadn't wanted to have lunch with you I would have
said."  He squeezed my shoulder and that sent some sort of
electric shock through me.  I didn't know why, but it felt
good.

"Ok then . yeah why not?"  I said and we left the hospital
and crossed Atwater to Dorchester.  He had an apartment in
one of the old Victorian style buildings not 5 minutes walk
away.  He let me in.

From the door I could see the dining room table and that it
was already set.  As he led me in I saw that he had made
salads for us.  I looked at him and grinned.  "You knew that
I would come over"

He laughed "You got me" He squeezed my shoulder again.

I noticed that the settings were arranged so that he was
sitting kiddy corner from me again like in the cafeteria.
He showed me where to sit and went to the kitchen.  Moments
later he was back with a plate of sandwiches and a large
pitcher of lemon aid.

He sat down and I immediately noticed his leg against mine.
We began to eat.

"So Mike" Ralph began, I felt his leg move against mine, "A
good looking guy like you must have a girl friend?"

"Well, yeah I guess"  I said, the thing was I had what in
the church was called a girl friend in that we were always
together in the church, but I didn't have a girl friend like
my friends outside the church had girl friends.

Ralph looked at me questioningly. "You guess?  Don't you
know? " He laughed

"Well I have a friend that I hang out a lot with so I guess
she's my girl friend"

"You guys have sex?"

"NO!!"

Ralph laughed.  His leg continued to move against mine.  For
some reason I didn't move my leg away.  He told me later
that he noticed that I didn't move mine away so he kept it
up.

I was embarrassed, could feel the blood rushing to me face.
He reached over and touched my arm.  "I'm sorry I shouldn't
have laughed, it's ok, just that most kids your age if they
have a girl friend they have had sex, I'm surprised is all"
He left his hand on my arm and again I didn't move away from
his touch.

"Well... I uh. it's wrong, we believe it is wrong"

Ralph stared me in the eye "wrong?  Like in church wrong?"

I nodded

His had still remained on my arm and I still was not moving
it.  His leg continued its' slow rubbing against mine.

"Or are you not that interested?"

I think I nodded, because I really wasn't that interested.
I seem to recall being happy that I was affiliated with a
church that condemned premarital sex, it let me off the
hook"

Ralph was now gently rubbing my arm "have you ever tried
with a guy?"

Again I nodded I had experimented with a friend of mine
about a couple years earlier.  He was just coming into
puberty and was quite interested in what was happening to
him.  I remember doing the old 'I'll show you mine if you
show me yours game.'  We had played around for a few weeks
actually until he started to find girls more interesting.

Ralph raised an eyebrow.  "Did you like it?"

I nodded; this whole line of questioning had me feeling very
uncomfortable and hot.  His rubbing my arm and leg didn't
help.  I had a massive hard on, so much so that it was
aching.  I found myself having to adjust how I was sitting
to give my penis some more room.

Ralph smiled, "You are hard right now aren't you?  That's ok
so am I."  He gripped my arm more softly he asked.  "Would
you like to see mine? I know I would like to see yours."

He got up.  I could feel my heart pounding.  I watched as he
slowly undid and unzipped his pants.  As the zipper came
down I saw that he was not wearing any underwear.  He
quickly pulled out a very hard precum oozing cock.  It
wasn't huge, about 6.5 inches but I remember thinking "It's
beautiful"

"You want to touch it Mike?  Go ahead."  He took my hand and
brought it to his cock. I didn't resist.  "Take it Mike."
He said quietly

I took his hot hard member into my hand.  It felt so good.
You know there is nothing quite like the feel of someone hot
cock in your hand.  What happened next was like a dream
almost.  He grabbed me under my arms and lifted me out of my
chair.  Then he kissed me.  I was still holding his penis; I
could feel it jumping in my hand.

I don't know what came over me but it all felt so good to
have this man's lips against mine.  He put a hand on the
back of my neck and held me to his mouth.  Moments l later I
felt his tongue probing at my lips.  At the same time I
realized that he was fumbling with my belt.  He released my
neck but not my mouth briefly as he opened my belt.  Then he
brought his hand back up.  With his other hand he unzipped
me.  I could feel my pants sagging down.

All this time I was still holding on to his cock, as a
matter of fact I was lazily jacking him.  He obviously liked
it because he was moaning lightly as I did.  I knew this was
wrong but I couldn't stop what was happening.  I didn't want
to stop it, the whole thing felt so delicious.  I had never
felt so good.

Our tongues were dancing together. As his tongue had started
probing at my mouth I had opened to him.  He worked his hand
into the top of my briefs.  My knees buckled as he took hold
of my cock which I know what sopping wet with precum.  I
almost came right there.

Ralph broke off the kiss and freeing himself of his pants
and helping me with mine he led me to the living room couch
on which he had me lay.  He told me to lie down and close my
eyes.  "Just let me do this Mike, I know you will like it."

What I remember next was a blinding show of fireworks
shooting off in my mind as I felt his hot mouth engulf my
penis, and starting to suck on.  I remember it as the
ultimate most amazing blow job I have ever had and it lasted
all of 5 seconds.  I was so wound up I came immediately.  I
couldn't believe what my mind was telling me, but I was
hooked, I knew that I couldn't go back to my former ways,
whatever they were.

The rest of that summer while I worked at the hospital if
Ralph had a day off that coincided with one of my work days
I was over to his house, but not for lunch.  That summer he
taught me the fine art of gay love making.

One Friday he asked me to come after work to stay over.  I
told my mother that I would probably be late as I was going
to a friend's place after work and he had said if it was
real late I could stay there.  My parents while not strict,
strict. had rules and you had to be in the house by 11:00 PM
because that was when the door was locked.  Mum was not too
happy about me staying in town but agreed so long as I was
home the following afternoon.

When I arrived at Ralph's apartment that afternoon he opened
the door to me.  As we kissed I saw two other guys there
smiling at us.  I recognized them both as orderlies in the
hospital.  We greeted each other.  I didn't know their names
but I had seen them with Ralph at work before.   Ralph
introduced us around "Mike this is Stephan and Don, they
thought they would like to meet you."

Ralph kissed me again, holding me close.  Immediately as he
took me into his embrace the other two closed in and I felt
their hands on me.  Ralph passed me from one to the other.
I was being kissed and "handled" all over my body.  You can
only imagine the exquisite feelings that were jolting
through my body.   While Don was kissing my mouth Stephan
was behind me nibbling my neck and reaching around teasing
my nipples through my T-shirt.  Ralph was kneeling before me
and opening up my jean, stripping them off me.  I swore for
the first time in my young 'Christian' life as Ralph
engulfed my aching cock with his hot mouth.

 "OOOOOOHhhnnnnn RAAAALPPPPHHH  FUUUUUUCK!!!"

My jeans off Stephan and Don stopped what they were doing
only long enough to take my T-shirt off.  Then they were at
me again.  I was struggling against Ralph because I didn't
want to cum yet.  I was on the verge of a major exploding
orgasm

"Ohhnnnn Ralph not yet!  NOT YEEEETTTTT!!! "I wailed.  He
pulled back laughing.

"OK my friend but you are going to cum, and many times
before this day and night are out, and so are we all"

Ralph took me into the bedroom, Don and Stephan following.
They were all shedding clothes as they went.  Before I knew
it we were all a tangle of legs and arms and hot hard oozing
cocks.  I might add at this point that I was more than a
willing participant, I didn't know which body I wanted to
touch, to feel, to attach myself to first.  I wanted them
all at the same time.  It was my first orgy and I know I
didn't want it to be my last.

I should stop here and just describe what my eyes were
feasting on.  Stephan and Don were in their mid twenties.
Stephan was dark haired with the sexiest soft brown eyes.  I
have a real thing for brown eyes, and he had eyes that just
melted me.  He was a French Canadian lad. Sporting a
gorgeous fine line trimmed moustache and goatee.  But you
probably don't care about that or his brown eyes.though if
you saw them I'm sure they would have the same effect on you
as they had on me.  He was shorter than me and for that
matter Ralph and Don, about 5'8"  He was not stocky but
slim, and of dark complexion.  His cock was not reduced in
proportion to his body as I might have expected.  He was
sporting a beautiful member about 7 inches long.  It was
thick and oozing precum in big drops. He was uncut but the
foreskin by the time he was stripped and on the bed was
rolled back past the ridge of his cockhead.  He was ready
for business

Don was a WASP (White Anglo-Saxon Protestant) like me.  He
was slightly taller than me and somewhat heavier which
wasn't that hard because I was quite thin back then.
Looking back I would have given him about 175 pounds.  He
was a good looking man, blonde and blue eyes. piercing blue
eyes.  His cock was much the same as mine,   about 7.5
inches.  He was cut.  His cock was long and thinner than
Steph's, but every bit as marvelous to touch and make use
of.

The four of us crashed on the bed.  My mouth met threes
pairs of lips back and forth.  At the same time there were
hands all over my body, as mine explored theirs'.

At one point I felt my legs being lifted up and then.and
then, well I let out a major groan as someone, Ralph it
turned out, started licking my ass. the hole.  He had not
explored that yet and I was wondering why not.  It felt so
exquisitely amazingly awesome.  His warm tongue massaging my
sphincter.  I moaned out my pleasure.

Stephan was kissing me again.  I clutched him tight to me as
our tongues fucked each other's mouth.  I couldn't get deep
enough into his mouth.

Don at the same time started to suck on my cock, causing ,me
to jump.

Ralph worked on my ass for several minutes fucking me first
with his tongue and the slowly working fingers in.  I was in
such a state of stupor with the other two working on various
other parts of my body, that if what Ralph was doing hurt ,
I certainly didn't notice it.

Don and Steph working in tandem as if by design switched
back and forth between my cock and my mouth and points in
between,  taking care never to let me cum, bringing  me to
the edge but never over.  Let me tell you if it was by
design they carried it out to and with perfection.

After some time, I know that Ralph had entered me with three
fingers because all the while he was actually softly talking
to me and telling me what he was doing.  I felt him removing
his fingers from me.  I watched looking over Steph's head as
he was sucking me, as he positioned himself between my legs
and gently lifted me up.   There was an incredible feeling
as he slid , just slid his cock as smooth as silk into me.
I moaned out loud with the exquisite pleasure of the moment.
The fact that I was so totally and completely relaxed and
that Steph was doing amazing things to my cock while Don was
boring out my throat with his tongue, I'm sure had something
to do with the lack of pain that others has spoken of.
Ralph started rocking back and forth slowly at first.  I
could feel his swollen member rising and falling inside me.
I have never since felt so wonderful.   As his excitement
rose so did his passion and he was soon fucking me in
earnest.  Steph and Don switched one more time and I was
brought to an absolutely mind blowing orgasm, exploding a
massive load of cum deep into Don's throat.  As I came Ralph
let loose a shout and I felt the heat of his male fluid
filling my bowel.  When it was over I was gasping for
breath.  I felt hot splattering of cum falling on my face
and chest.  Looking up I saw both Steph and Don kneeling up
one at my head and the other to one side, heads thrown back
in what can only be describe as ecstasy masturbating over
me.  Exhausted I licked what cum landed on my mouth and lips
and just lay there in the after glow .

I looked up at Ralph he was beaming down at me from between
my legs.  Sweat was dripping from his face.  "I love you so
much Mike." He said softly as he slowly pulled himself out.
Both don and Steph smiled and we all slowly got up and went
to the bathroom to get cleaned up.  Ralph and I were given
first dibs on the shower.

We had a beautiful supper that Ralph had prepared.  During
the meal in which I had my first alcoholic beverage. as very
fine French wine, Ralph lifted his glass for a toast.
"Mike" he said  "I planned this evening and asked Steph and
Don my good friends here to share it with us, to tell you  I
love you so much, and I would like us to find a way for you
to come and live with me to be my lover."

I cried

Ralph came around to my chair and we hugged and kissed and
cried together, Steph and Don joining us.

"Ralph that is the most wonderful thing , I love you too,
and I want to be  with you always, I don't know how but I so
want to.  I want to be your lover for ever"

It was sealed with many kisses, kisses that were followed
after supper and well in to the night with incredible
lovemaking with the four of us in celebration, of our union.

I don't remember how many times I came that night, I vaguely
remember looking at the clock at one point and seeing it was
just after two in the morning.  I was exhausted and we were
a tangle of sleeping male bodies.  I remember the thought
flashing across my mind. "I'm a married man, married to a
man"

The next morning we all eventually woke and stirred as one
or the other realized that there was a major need to empty
our bladders.  We  ended up doing a four way crowded around
the bowl.

Steph and Don who I found out were actually a couple left
for their home shortly after breakfast and Ralph and I were
left alone for the rest of the morning.

I had already broken off with my girl friend before this.
It didn't matter because when I went to my pastor early on
in my meetings with Ralph to try and make sense of what was
going on in my life, he, rather than keeping the Pastor-
parishioner confidence brought it first to the deacons board
and then to the church.  I was told to leave and never come
back.  My parents of course found out as did my friends.
Most of my old friends, no actually all my old friends no
longer wanted anything to do with me.  My folks didn't
understand but they accepted me as I was.  My brother was
furious with both me and Ralph.  He actually confronted
Ralph, and would have beaten him up if I hadn't been there.

As I was still underage and going to high school something
that they valued very much, my parents wouldn't let me move
in with Ralph. They did however let me bring him home to
meet him.   I was permitted to invite him to some of our
family celebrations such as Thanksgiving that fall and
Christmas Day

I was also permitted to spend my weekends with him during
the summer at least.  Those times together and those times
apart only served to draw us closer in our love for each
other

I had another year of high school.  I continued to see Ralph
throughout the fall, winter and spring.  When high school
was finished and I graduated he helped me get a job as an
orderly in the same Children's Hospital, where I am today.

Just before the end of school Ralph came over to my folk's
home one Friday evening, unannounced and a surprise even to
me.  He asked to speak to my mum and dad.  When my parents
were seated Ralph took a deep breath.  I could see he was in
some kind of distress

"You know that I love your son very much, and I want to
spend the rest of my life with him.  He is finished his high
school and I have come to ask your permission for him to
move in with me.  If he wants to go to university or college
I will help him and support him.  I have arranged a job as
an orderly for him at the hospital that he can start on
Monday.  I just love him so much"   He let out the breath
that he had been holding as he spoke.

I looked at him in complete shock, he was asking my folks
permission to "marry" him, as much as gay were able to do
that.

There was a total palpable silence in the room.  No one
spoke.  Ralph looked almost miserable and then Mum broke the
silence.

"I don't know what to say but you know that we wanted Mike
to do more than finish his high school.  We like you, you
seem to love Mike, and you seem to be good for him,
especially after all his friends left him.  You don't know
about this gay stuff.  We will have to talk about this.  So
why don't you and Mike go for a walk for a while  and come
back and we will tell you what we think."

I moved in with Ralph the next day . With my parents
blessing.

Even though he was several years older than me we made a
very happy couple.  My folks weren't totally happy about it
but let me go.  They had hopes for me to go to university.
I did eventually go to college and became a Nursing
assistant.  I was able to get a position as that in the same
Children's Hospital as the first male Nursing Assistant in
the system.

Ralph is retired now I still have a couple years to go. I
expect that we will grow old together.  We have never lost
that first love.

We still see Don and Steph who have grown old with us, and
live just a few blocks away.