Date: Thu, 16 Jan 2003 11:46:15 +0000
From: alfredo garcia <alfredo247@hotmail.com>
Subject: After a drunken night, part 1

Yesterday I drunk to much and today I have a monumental surge and, as is
usual in this situations I have an brutal desire of sex. To eat and to be
eaten.

I imagine myself adolescent, nude, in the arms of one attractive, strong
and loving man. He caress me in a very sweet manner, he look into my eyes
and smile. I blush and lower my eyes. He is clothed and I am entirely
nude. I am seated on his legs, my face leaned upon his hairy and broad
chest. His left hand wrapped me, his right hand caress me, my tender
nipples, my legs, my testicles, as soon as he touch lightly my erect
penis I began to shiver. He whisper in my ear words of love, my beautiful
boy, my love. I feel the hardness of his penis through the trousers
cloth. I insinuate my right hand under his shirt and caress the hair of
his strong chest and his erect nipples.

I am very excited and at the same time I feel myself, languid, smooth,
sweet, open, surrounded, vulnerable,...My happiness is his happiness, my
pleasure is his pleasure, my love is his love. Now his hand caress my
cheek, my neck, my movements are looking for the caresses of his hands,
strong and sweet, I close my eyes, the point of his fingers raise my chin
, he compel me to look at his eyes and penetrate down to the bottom of my
soul, I am afraid, but the brightness of his eyes overflow me, secure me,
calm me, I approach my lips to his mouth, he return to caress my cheek
and smile me, he love me, I close my eyes, his warm and humid lips touch
lightly my cold and dry lips, the point of his tongue lubricate the
entrance of my being, he kiss me softly and at the same time strongly. I
feel spasms in my penis.

He separate his face and look to me, again I blush and lower my eyes,
his hands return to caress my nude body, my chest, my legs, my hard
testicles, the erection of my penis is almost painful. Then, suddenly he
rise me, he embrace me strongly, I feel his excitation , his warmness,
his strong ness, his desire. He deposit me on the bed, he nude
completely, his handsome masculine body, his beautiful erect penis.

He now is on the bed on his back, the eyes closed as if he was dreaming,
the arms above his head, a leg bended and also lightly separated. What is
he expecting for me?

If anybody know what I must do, please write to me.

Now again the headache, I do not know how I have drunk so much last
night, I go to bed very late and this morning I have to be early at work.
Now I am in my office, and I can not sleep , and also I can not
masturbate myself.

Another scene come to my mind. Again I go back to my adolescence, to the
lost paradise. I am in a large and comfortable room, big carpets cover
the wooden floor. The smell of the wood of the beautiful noble wood
furniture, the fire on the chimney , the sound of a piano from a far
room. I see the back of myself, looking trough the large window, out it
is raining, from the trees fall the yellow leaves. I feel sad and
melancholic, I do not know what is happening to me, perhaps I am in love,
and the girl that I love do not reciprocate me. Perhaps I am not
attractive for the girls. Perhaps she love other kind of boys of her own
social class. She live in this house, and her parents are rich and
cultivated. We study at the same school ,but I do not get as good
qualifications as she get. And my parents are not rich and cultivated, I
have one scholarship. I like her house and everything that she had.
Perhaps this is the reason for which I love her. I have come to her house
to restitute she some class notes, but she is not at home. In the house
is only her father, he open the door, he spend a lot of time to do it, he
open just when I am going to leave, he told me that he was under the
shower. I am a bit uncomfortable, his presence intimidate me a lot and I
do not know the reason. I do not dare to maintain his glance, he note it
, and that seen to amuse him. He told me to wait, that he has some thing
for me, and that he will be came back soon. Because he was in his bath
wrapper, I think he is going to dress himself. I was waiting a lot, I was
thinking that under the wrapper he was nude, I see part of his chest and
legs, he look younger and stronger, I upset myself imagining the rest of
his body. It was then when my penis began to erect. This was the moment
at which a see myself looking though the window, what a shame if he just
came now, and see my excitation, I introduce my hand under my trousers
to arrange my penis, it was then when I fell this presence just in my
back. I paralyze myself, I want to disappear, I close my eyes. I feel
that he want something from me, that now he was going to give me that he
was promise before. I feel his arms enveloping me, and I think that I am
going to lost my sense. Why that?, perhaps he had noted my sadness, my
need of love, the refuse of his daughter, and he want to console me, to
animate me. In a moment my penis lost his erection and my whole body
tense. He tighten me smoothly against his body but with steadiness, he
told me to calm and to relax, He take out my hand from my trousers and
kiss the palm. Slowly I began to relax, I abandon my body to his arms,
the heat return to my body, I lean my head upon his shoulder. I open my
eyes and I look how the wind move the leaves of the trees. I a few
minutes the light has gone, and the room was in penumbra, reflex of the
light of the chimney flames and the heat of the body that envelope me, I
feel very nice, I wished that the time stop, I close again the eyes, I
wished that he caress me, that he told me tender words. He slowly began
to unbutton my shirt and take out it from my trousers. And one of his
hands caress my chest, at the same time, he kiss my neck, I feel my penis
beginning an erection. Now his two hands caress my whole body, the points
of his fingers make hard my nipples. I feel myself engaged to know that
he like to touch me, that some body want me, specially if this one, was
strong, clever, cultivated and sensible, with a beautiful wife. After
that he take out my shoes and nude me completely. I let him do that, I
am ready to everything that he want, I knew that he was not going to hurt
me, and that those moments will change all my life. In those moments I
never think that the things that he was doing to me has anything to with
the homosexuality. The he open his wrapper and his nude body caress the
back of mine, his hard penis over my buttocks, and one of his hands now
caress the interior of my legs, and the other hand my cheeks, my lips. He
began to whisper to my ear. That I am a good boy, beautiful and clever.
That I must not worry because I have had not yet a girl. That the girl
like his daughter does not know which are the best boys. That he like me
very much, and that he think in me very often, and that he want to be my
friend, to talk with me , to play with mi, to kiss me, to love me. That
he love my nice sad eyes, which always are asking for love. That I have a
beautiful and masculine body and that in the future I will be one very
good athlete. That though I were happy with the things that he make to
me, that do not mean that I were a queer. That this is natural in
sensible and intelligent boys of my age. That almost the same had
happened to him when he has my age, and that he remember that as the
happiest fact in his life. After that he turn me and envelope with his
wrapper our two nudes bodies, our penis are touch, I embrace his waist
and caress with my cheek the hair of his chest, it was silky and warm, he
raise my chin, and oblige me to look strait at his eyes, he smile me.
This time I was able to maintain his look, and I smile to him at the same
time that brush and approach my lips to his, but without dare to touch
it. He was the first person that kisses me and I believe that this was
the happiest moment of my life. Touch me if you like, do not be shy, he
told me. His waist, his back, his neck, his legs, but I do not dare to
touch his penis. He take my hand and wrapped his sex, you would like it,
he told me, you will be very good friends. His penis was like him, at the
same time smooth and strong. My hand caresses it shyly, after that I take
his testicles. Then with the help of my two hands I take together our two
erect penis, his more gross and large that mine. He then kisses me again,
but now with more lust and passion that the first time and also he
introduce his tongue in my mouth. In this moment I feel my imminent
orgasm, he also is at the edge, I feel both in my hands, they are growing
at the same time and intermittent eject the semen. Now I also fight with
my tongue his. In this moment our mouth can not suppress one groan, that
like a large cry of hopeless agony, grow and grow from the deepest button
of our souls, and full the last coin of this beautiful house.