Date: Mon, 28 Nov 2005 08:15:57 +0100 From: A.K. <andrej@andrejkoymasky.com> Subject: Alain's Diary - 14/14 (adult-youth) ---------------------------- ALAIN'S DIARY by Andrej Koymasky (C) 2005 written on October 8th, 1990 translated by the author English text kindly revised by Dave ----------------------------- USUAL DISCLAIMER "ALAIN'S DIARY" is a gay story, with some parts containing graphic scenes of sex between males. So, if in your land, religion, family, opinion and so on this is not good for you, it will be better not to read this story. But if you really want, or because YOU don't care, or because you think you really want to read it, please be my welcomed guest. ----------------------------- Part 14 14th of June, '74, Friday I'm asking myself how they could manage, Chris and Babette, to prepare for their wedding in so little time. There are ten thousand and one things to think about, to prepare, to plan. And we have already a furnished and nice home. Jac, for the ceremony, wants to rent the hall of a castle. I told him that I would rather do it in the woods, amidst nature. At the end we decided that we will have the ceremony in the park of a castle and the party in its hall. Now we have to single out the right place. I told him I would like a small castle, not too showy. He thought that perhaps in the castle or nearby, we can book rooms for all our guests, so that we can offer them also a kind of short vacation. It seems too much luxury, to me, I would like a simpler thing. Jac told me he will do as I like, and to trust him. Then we wrote down the list of our guests. He would like to have also all my little brothers but I think better not to, as they are still too young to understand, and I'm afraid we would just confuse them. Anyway we decided to invite around a dozen people. Then we have to decide how to dress, what kind of clothes to have tailored for the ceremony. Just for jesting, I said to him to forget I'll dress in white. He looks at me astounded and says, "Surely not, you aren't a woman!" and I, very seriously, "That is not there the problem. It is that I'm no longer... a virgin." and we burst in laughter. We decided to dress in an elegant but not too formal way, something a little unusual, something special. We hope to find a good model. We will go and meet a stylist and tell him we have to marry in the same day, in the same ceremony, therefore we want two suits different but harmonizing... And so, deciding this, discussing that, preparing everything, I feel that the end of August would be just a right time. 24th of June '74, Monday We sent the invitations. They are simple cards where we wrote, by hand, "As you know us two, Alain and Jean Luc, since a while are in love. We want therefore to celebrate our relationship with a small private ceremony where we will exchange the rings and swear reciprocal love. We hope you can be with us." And then the date, our Paris address and the prayer to give an answer. As we haven't yet found the right place, the first meeting will be there in our home, and then we will move all together. July 2nd, '74, Tuesday Today in the afternoon Jac took me to see the place he found. It is charming. It is an old, small castle, immersed in a wide forest and lapped by a river, a little less than 100 km from Paris. The castle has been transformed into a hotel, but without altering it, and has 11 rooms, and also a restaurant. Jac rented it for all the period from the 20th to the 27th of August, so in that week it will be used only by us and our guests. We also choose the menu for the lunch after the ceremony. As we couldn't tell them it is a marriage, we said it is a small private anniversary ceremony, and we asked them to put it for the 22nd, in a clearing in the park, a small table and half a circle of chairs, and to surround everything with pots of plants with red flowers. The cake will be a square, only one layer, totally covered in whipped cream, therefore all white, with in the center the letters "A+J" written in red and the date written in gold letters... July 10th '74, Wednesday Today we decided also for our suits. He will wore a tuxedo made in raw silk pearl-grey with bowtie and cummerbund of light blue silk. The shirt will be in white silk with two very small lines of lace along the covered row of buttons; then the trousers of the same silk of the jacket, just a shade darker like the tuxedo collar. For me, instead, tail-coat trousers and an opened waistcoat, without buttons, made in glossy silk in a grey mid-way between the shade of Jac's jacket and his trousers; under the waistcoat I'll wear a white shirt in matt silk with lace jabot and machetes. We will wear identical shoes of dark grey calf. Both we will have a white rose stuck on the collar. I like these suits, all together it is really elegant and all the colors and the clothes harmonize together perfectly. They will be ready for half August and we would need two or three fittings. The tailor asked us how would the bride be dressed, and we answered we don't have the faintest guess, and were about to laugh. The stylist told us that the colors and clothes we chose, would harmonize with anything our brides will choose. Jac, totally serious, answered, "I've no doubt on that." July 19th, 1974, Friday Everybody already answered and everybody will come. So we wrote them back the date and the exact address of the castle with a simple map showing how to reach it with a car, and to each one the room number we booked, and so on. Who decides to come by train, there will be the hotel cars at the station. God, do I feel excited and moved! So, the room 10 is for Jean Mark and Manuel, who will play his guitar during the ceremony, something he composed expressly for us; the room 11 is for Therese and Pierre; room 12 with a single bed, for Charles, Philippe's son; the number 13 will be for Babette and Chris, as they are not at all superstitious; room 14 for Jac's father and mother; the 15 for Patrick and Jervais; the 16 for Philippe and Robert; the 17 for Dominic and Andrew; the 18, a single, for Herman; we keep the 19 for us and the 20 is not used. 28th of July 1974, Sunday Yesterday and today we were to see Pierre, the only relative of Jac, besides his parents, knowing about us two, and his wife Therese. They received me with a real liking. Pierre is 41 and Therese 45. At their place I also met Herman, who is a gay German boy 23 y.o. and the lover of their son Jerome who is now in the army and who unhappily couldn't get a license to come to our ceremony. I was really impressed by the fact that the parents know that Herman is their son's lover and that they keep him in their home as a relative. After all it is logical, but I think it is also something really rare. Pierre is a man of little interest, somewhat dull, but a good-hearted man, his wife on the contrary is really likeable and lively. Herman is working at Charles De Gaulle airport as radar technician. He is a shy boy, thin, and he talks just about his Jerome and how much he misses him. I can understand him. He told me that they met when Jerome was 16 and he was 19. It has been Jerome who made him understand he is gay, who "seduced" him and persuaded him to become a couple. Since then, they always lived together, at Jerome parents home. They always made love there, in the parent's home, since the second or third time. Herman had just arrived from Germany with a scholarship and as, like Jerome, he is fond of fine art, they met at the Louvre while both of them were admiring the Greek statues of naked athletes. They met some more times and, as I said, Jerome "seduced" Herman. When the boy told his parents he wanted to live with Herman, they wanted to meet him; they liked each other so they welcomed him in their home and bought a double bed for the boys! I then asked him, if when Jerome seduced him he was just 16, for how long the boy knew to be gay? Herman told me that his boyfriend had his first sex experience at 13, with an Algerian boy 17 y.o. who was doing the cleaning in the gym that Jerome attended, and after that, he indulged in his whims with lot of men and boys. But after he fell in love with Herman, he is totally faithful. To Herman, on the contrary, Jerome is his first and only one with whom he ever made love. He told me, slightly blushing, that Jerome had to teach him everything... I then asked him how they managed; now that are forced to be separated. Herman blushed again, some more than before, and explained me that at times Pierre takes him with his car to meet Jerome when he has some half day leaves, rents for them a room in an hotel and goes for a ride, passing to fetch him at the time Jerome must be back to the barracks. This is not really enough for both of them, but it is better than nothing, and anyway his boyfriend will be out of the army service in four months. I swear I never cease being astounded. And Herman calls Pierre and Therese, Dad and Mum... August 1st, 74, Thursday Today, near the 18th arondissement's Hall, I met Guy, the photographer. He recognized and called me, and came to greet me. We chatted for a while and at a certain point I told him about my marriage. I saw him with so much enthusiasm that I decided to invite him too, as the room 20 at the castle is still empty. It's a double room, so he says he will come with his lover Albert, and they will do as a wedding gift a full service of photographs. He asked me news about Claude and I explained to him I could not invite Claude, even though I'm sorry for that. Guy's studio was not far from there, so he took me to see it. He showed me the pics he shot, naked males, and gave me some I liked a lot. Then he said he would have loved having again sex with me, but I told him it is not possible. My relationship, I explained to him, is absolutely "closed", for a choice Jac and I did even though we never talked about that so explicitly. I just love too much my Jac, and there is no place for others into my heart and even less into my bed. He didn't insist and rather made me his congratulations and compliments. 16th of August 1974, Friday We are at the very end. I'm so excited. So is Jac. Even though we are already living together, we understand that this ceremony, for us and for our relationship, will be fundamental. We will "commit" ourselves in front of our families and friends. It was not needed, but it is beautiful doing it. Today I had a nice idea; I understood what will be my wedding present to Jac. I always wrote this diary hiding from everybody, even from my Jac. It is not right I continue hiding from him. He has to know everything and anything about me, I don't want any secret between us, there cannot be any secret. I always tell him all I think, all that happens to me, all I do. There is no more sense to write all that in here, and even less hiding it from him. Therefore goodbye my dear diary. You represent an important phase of my life, but now your task is over. On the 22nd of this month my Jac and I will be married. You, my dear diary, will be my most important present to him for that occasion, and you will be no longer be mine. I leave you, then; I don't need you any more to open my heart, I've Jac. I started writing on you on the day of my 16th birthday, three and half years ago. I'll leave you on the day I will swear before all our beloved ones I belong to my lover, as all of me, therefore you too. Here I am I read you again from the first page to here. Yes, you have in you an important part of my life; therefore I'll give you to Jac. I'll write on you just once more, when I'll give you to Jac, in front of him. And then, I'll be totally naked before him, not just and not only physically, but above all my soul. August 22nd 1974, Saturday 10:30 a.m. IN A SHORT WHILE WE WILL BE UNITED FOREVER IN FRONT OF OUR BELOVED ONES I LOVE YOU JAC MY ONLY GREAT LOVE ----------------------------- THE END ----------------------------- In my home page I've put some more of my stories. 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