Date: Sat, 28 Feb 2004 22:06:20 -0800 (PST)
From: gaymormonwriter@yahoo.com
Subject: Born To Be A Missionary Chapter 10   adult/youth...relationships

Born To Be A Missionary
Chapter 10

(Author's notes: All the usual disclaimers and proclamations on
copyrights. I am totally surprised I am up to 10 Chapters...hmmm)


>From Rick's perspective:

I had just got off the phone with Sara, Jim's ex-wife, who told me that
Jamie (only Jamie's brothers call him `JR') had forgotten his dinner date
with his Dad and I, so she sent him off our way. I had a roast beef in the
oven with potatoes and salad. Also, we are celebrating Jamie's 18th
birthday so I have cake and ice cream. I had just hung up when I heard
Jamie's car pull into the drive.

"I can't believe you forgot, Jamie," I said as I let him the front door and
we hugged. "Your Dad called and said he would be running a little late and
not plan for dinner until about 7."

"That's okay Rick, I get to some time with you." Jamie said.

"Well you might as well come out to the kitchen and keep me company." I
said. I did notice something just above Jamie's upper lip and I am sure it
is not hair. I went over to the stove to turn down the oven and Jamie took
a seat at the table.

"Ah, Jamie, you have what looks like some dried toothpaste above your lip."

I had my back to Jamie but I could see him out of the corner of my eye and
he was wiping his lip with anything he could find. When I turned around,
the spot was gone and he was blushing. I sat myself down at the table.

"Jamie, that wasn't toothpaste on your face, what's the name of the lucky
guy?"

Jamie looked up at me, he had a frown on his face, but didn't say anything.

"I know you are planning on going on your mission next year, but you look
like a man in love and if I don't miss my guess, you have been sexually
active in the last couple of hours."

"Rick, I am kind of at a loss for words. I could never get anything over on
you, could I, but how did you know?"

"Well, I have worked for years with gay teens. Have you heard of the term
`gaydar'?"

"Yeah, but I never realized how effective it could be. How long have you
known, Rick?"

"You were about 15 when my gaydar went `ding ding' on you."

"Does Dad know?"

"About you, I don't know, the only thing he ever mentioned to be me was
that he figured with his genes, one of you boys might be. You see, your Dad
compared to me was a complete innocent. I don't think your Dad's gaydar
ever developed. Since I am more worldly than you Dad and lived the
lifestyle when I was in Ohio, I figured I honed it in pretty good. The
other thing that tipped me off was your eyes, you have the same eyes as
your Dad, you have the same look as he does when he looks at me..."

"I know the look, Rick, I haven't seen it for years with you two."

"Well, anyway, I noticed about 4 years ago you had the same look of love in
your eyes as your Dad. Only I would have noticed that as I am the only one
he looks at when he has the look in his eyes. So, how long have you been
together with..."

"Steve...he is LDS, and I have been with him since we were 13. We were just
bragging today how well we were hiding our relationship."

"Well, I don't know your guy, but I definitely want to meet him. If he gets
that "look", he has to be something."

"I do love him and he loves me. Oh damn, Mom was right in my face tonight,
I hope she didn't see it."

"I doubt it, I have a dirty mind," I said with a big grin, "so I couldn't
help but figure you had been ah...busy today."

"I guess we will have to work on that."

"If you don't reevaluate what you are doing, you might just screw up your
missions, since I assume you both are planning to go anyway."

"Yeah, we are. We are both praying we go to the same area, but we figure
that may be too much to ask for, but doesn't hurt."

"Are you happy, Jamie."

"Oh yes, I am very happy. It is more than the sex, we are really close."

"Are you planning on telling your Dad?"

"No, I wasn't planning on it, but since you know...what do you think I
should do?"

"Jamie, personally, I think you should tell him. If I know your Dad like I
do, he is going to feel very disappointed that you didn't tell him. I think
he would want to be a part of what you are enjoying in your life. Your Dad,
and I loved him even more for this, always included me whenever he had you
boys for the weekends and holiday visits. Your Dad's world is us 4 guys, if
your happy, then he's happy."

"I told Steve today I wanted with him what you and Dad have. I have seen it
for all these years, I have looked up to both of you, I have always
considered you a "Dad" to me, more than my stepfather. "

I got up and Jamie did to and I put my arms around him and he did me.

"Jamie, there was this little boy about 6 that I knew 12 years ago and he
did something that melted my heart and I bet you don't remember. Your Dad
and I had been together about a year than, your youngest brother was
sleeping in his carrier, Randy was sleeping in your Dad's lap. You were
sitting on the floor watching TV. Suddenly you got up, climbed up into my
lap, put your arms around me and said `I love you Uncle Rick', then you
laid your head on my chest and went to sleep.  At the moment you found a
special place in my heart that your brothers don't have. Before I came to
be with your Dad, I never thought I would have a family like I do now, but
with that special child like innocence and acceptance, I immediately felt
the kind of love a Dad has for his son. I have always looked at you guys as
my sons, but you, my namesake, I have loved you like your father does,
maybe in my way a little more. I know you got your brothers to do the same
thing with me, and I knew then that you got the best of two wonderful
hearts, your Mom and Dad's.  You have always made me feel so proud to be a
part of your life and I can't tell you how much I love you."

Jamie hugged me tighter when I said that. When we backed away from each
other, we both had tears in our eyes.

"You are 18 now, a man, a remarkable man who has exercised his `free will'
that the church says we all have. I will support you in this, but I won't
support you not telling your father." I put my hand behind his head and
brought closer to mine, I kissed his cheek, "please don't get hurt, Jamie,
I hope you never feel that."

"I'm okay Rick." Jamie said, "Rick, I have always felt blessed that you
have been in my life. I will tell Dad tonight, but first I have to call
Steve and tell him what's up?"

"Why don't you invite Steve over about 8 to share some of your birthday
cake so your Dad and I can inspect the guy."

"I will."

>From Jamie's perspective:

I left Rick's embrace, I do love him as much as I love my Dad. I reached
for the phone and dialed Steve house. I spoke with his mother and asked to
speak to Steve.

"Hey, Jamie," Steve answering the phone.

"Hi sweet guy. Look, our time table just got screwed up. I am at Dad's and
Rick and I just had a long talk. Rick is incredible. Steve, he knows about
us."

"How?"

"Gaydar and it didn't help that I had dried cum on my face, your cum. He
said that he figured that I had been with you for at least 3 or 4 years. It
seems Rick could see the love in my eyes for you. He said I got that look
from my Dad, just have to be more careful if I can give it away like I
did."

"Jamie, I know that look," Steve said, "Wow, what do we do now?"

"Steve, you are just going to have to quit making me so happy."

"No way."

"Well, anyway, Rick has invited you over for some of my birthday cake. He
would like to see about 8, can you come?"

"Yeah, I can be there. He wants to meet me, huh?"

"He told me he wanted to meet the guy who makes so happy."

"Sounds like he is a romantic."

"Yeah, I guess he is. I can hear Dad's car pulling so I will see you at
8. I love you. Bye."

"I love you too, bye."

>From Jim's perspective:

I came through the front door and Jamie was waiting for me.

"Hi Dad," he said and gave me the biggest hug.

"Hi birthday boy...ah, you not a boy anymore are you?"

"Nope. So how was your day Dad?"

"Fine. Is dinner nearly ready?"

"Let's check with Rick, Dad."

We walked out together to the kitchen. There's my man. Rick turned around
and we fell into each other's arms and kissed. I love to kiss this man.

"Well, as soon as I put the food on the table we can eat guys."

"Good. I am starved."

We all sat down and offered a blessing on the food and dug
in. Conversational chit chat for most of the meal. As usual, Rick's cooking
is exceptional. I always have enjoyed when I have one of my sons here with
Rick and I. I am very proud of Jamie, does well in school and church and he
is going on his mission next year after a year in college. He is moving
along in the traditional Mormon life cycle.

"Dad, I need to talk to you about something," Jamie said.

"Sure, son, anything."

Jamie looked over at Rick and I sensed the two of them were up to
something.

"Dad, I hadn't planned on telling you this. Rick and I had a talk before
you got home and he advised me to tell you that ...I am gay."

Wow! Didn't see that one coming. Surprise, yes. Disappointed, no.

"How? When?, " I turned to Rick," You knew?"

Rick looked at me, grabbed my hand and nodded his head.

"How long have you know, Rick?", I asked.

"Jim, my gardar went off about 4 years ago. Jamie only confirmed with me
tonight."

"How did that happen, did you just come out and ask him?"

"Dad, Rick noticed something on my lip that shouldn't been there. I guess I
outed myself. The how, well I must have inherited some your genes. The why,
it is just how it is. You already know that stuff. "

"I know, Jamie, I deal with parents all the time coming to terms with a
child's sexuality, but this is me and you. So what is going on?"

"Dad, Steve and I have been together since we were 13. I love him and he
loves me. Steve is LDS and we are both planning to go on our missions."

"Does anyone else know, Jamie?"

"No, Dad, just you and Rick."

"I am here for you son."

"I know, my two Dads are the best."

Rick and I got up and went to Jamie and we had a nice family hug.

"When do I get to meet the lucky guy you are in love with?"

Rick cleared his throat and had that evil grin on his.

"Actually, Jim", Rick said, "In about 15 minutes. Steve is coming for cake
and ice cream."

I looked at Rick and said," You and I are going to have to talk later."

"Why is that Jim," Rick chuckling," Just because your gaydar doesn't work?"

"Smart ass." I said. Then we all broke up laughing.

>From Jamie's perspective:

Rick was right, I had to tell Dad and he is cool with it. I am so nervous
waiting for Steve. The knock on the door told me he was here. I opened the
door, let Steve in, spun him around and planted the sexiest kiss on his
lips I could come up with.  I could see Dad and Rick standing, Dad just
looked on while Rick had the biggest grin on his face. I broke the kiss and
found Steve with the reddest face.

"Dad, Rick, this is Steve, Steve, this is my Dad on the right and on the
left is Rick."

Dad shot across the room with his hand out. "It is a pleasure to meet you
Steve."

They shook hands and Dad stepped aside for Rick. Rick walked over and he
grabbed Steve by the arms. Looked him up and down, felt his arms and then
released him and offered his hand to him. Steve, still blushing, took the
hand.

"Well, Steve," Rick said, "Do you love our Jamie?"

"Ah, yes Rick I do, with all my heart."

"Steve, is Jamie really good to you?"

I looked over at Dad, he was getting a kick at Rick's interrogation of poor
Steve.

"Yes, sir" Steve said glancing at me, "He is my lover and my best
friend. He has always treated me special. He has a caring heart, an
understanding soul, a generous being and I have been blessed to have known
him."

Rick looked pleased with the answer. "You know Steve, I like you. You
seemed to have been very good for Jamie. You pass my inspection young man."
Then he put his arm around Steve's shoulder. "You and I are going to have
to be best buddies here since we love these two Haines men. I agree, we are
both blessed to have had fallen for these guys. Everything you said about
Jamie, goes for his Dad. We will have to get together so I can tell you all
about Jamie, things that I am sure he hasn't told you." With that Rick took
Steve in his arms, kissed his cheek and whispered something in his
ear. Steve told me later that Rick thanked him for making me so happy.

"Oh Rick, " I said.

"Welcome to the family, Steve," Rick said.

"Ah, thanks, Rick", Steve said.

With that, we had our ice cream and cake, they sang Happy Birthday to
me. Steve and I held hands as much as possible. Steve seemed to be
completely relaxed after Rick did his number on him. Dad warmed up to Steve
has much as Rick has. Dad and Rick told us that they are there for us, so
if we needed anything just to ask. We discussed how we were going to
continue to hide ourselves from everyone else. Dad told us that even though
we weren't being honest about ourselves, he still expected us to maintain
integrity in all my other living endeavors.

Dad told me that he would eventually have to answer to my mother for his
knowledge of my homosexuality, but he hoped it would be `after' our
missions, not before. It was a great evening. I got to spend it with my 3
favorite men in my life.

>From Rick's perspective:

I thought the evening went well, Jim seemed relatively happy about the
evening's events. Jim and I got ready for bed and offered our nightly
prayers and ask for a special blessing on Jamie and Steve. Then we climbed
into bed and snuggled together. I love my life.

End of Chapter 10