Date: Wed, 27 Feb 2008 23:05:23 -0400
From: Chris Johns <chris-johns@hotmail.com>
Subject: Cruelty to Children 10

Usual rules everyone.

				Chapter 10

				My Two Sons

Invariably Matt and I were caught. We got away with it for nearly a year
but as Ryan approached his fourteenth birthday there was a night when Matt
was home from college that he wanted cuddles and was sleeping with me. He
came into our bedroom just as Matt and I were climaxing with me nine inches
deep inside him. We didn't see Ryan until we were climbing down from our
orgasms. Christ what a shock for all three of us. Ryan had just witnessed
his brother and his father having penetrative sex and orgasming. His jaw
hung open and his eyes were out on organ stops.

I recovered first and called him over.

"Matt, go and shower while I talk to your brother."

I pulled Ryan onto the bed with me and cuddled him. I think he was in
shock.

"I'm sorry you saw that Ryan, do you want to ask me questions or do you
want me to explain?"

He raised himself onto one elbow so that he could look into my eyes.

"Why Matt and not me Dad?"

That floored me, just about the last question I would have expected.

"Because you are too young Ryan and you are my legal son now."

"But Matt's your legal son as well. Don't you love me like you love Matt?"

Oh fuck. How do I answer that one? I loved Ryan deeply but what I felt for
Matt defied explanation in the context in which we lived.

"The short answer Ryan is Yes. I love you deeply, you are my son and I am
so proud of you. I would give my life for you the same as I would for Matt,
but you need to know the complete history of Matt and I to understand fully
the difference in my love for the two of you. I emphasise, it is a
different not lesser love. It is much too late to explain completely
tonight. I know Matt is out with Kevin tomorrow. I can start late, so why
don't we have a talk after breakfast in the morning."

He looked confused but worked his way through it until he said.

"Can I sleep with you and Matt tonight Dad?"

I kissed him gently several times before replying.

"Of course you can. Do you want to be the filling in the sandwich?"

He grinned.

"Yes please. Will you spoon me?"

I laughed. I knew why. He wanted to feel my penis in his crack and he
wanted his in Matt's with a hand free to wander to Matt's groin.

When Matt came back I scooted off to the bathroom to clean up and think. I
had come off lightly I thought, but I guessed the morning would find me in
difficulties. Me having sex with Matt I don't think was going to faze him
very much, it was the fact I wouldn't have it with him was going to be the
stumbling block.  I slept badly and woke early to find our covers on the
floor and Ryan pushed hard into Matt's back and a hand wrapped around
Matt's very hard cock. I slid out of bed and made it to the bathroom before
my laughter became too loud.

What on earth was I going to do. The simple answer would be to give in and
let all three of us make love to each other as the mood took us. Ryan was
only just into his teens but Matt had been a good teacher about gay sex and
I was almost 100% sure that they indulged but had not yet had penetrative
sex. I couldn't stop it without accusing Matt, and the boys so obviously
loved each other, I really didn't know what to do. I was spared having to
do or say anything about it for another couple of hours while I had a
couple of coffees.

When the boys arrived for breakfast I got a funny look from Ryan and a
`What are you going to do Jase?' look from Matt. I just shrugged and got
them their breakfast.

"What time do you have to meet Kevin, Matt?"

He looked at his watch. "I have about half an hour, I've got money Jase so
Kev and I will eat out for lunch and be back here for supper if that's ok
with you."

Matt went as soon as we finished clearing away.

"The study I guess Ryan. We have to talk."

He looked slightly embarrassed and kept looking at my groin with that same
look of longing that Matt had until he seduced me. Could I possibly give in
and have sex with him? I was sure it would create more problems than it
solved.

When we were settled in the study I told Ryan the story of my first Matt,
about my feelings of guilt and my determination not to make the same
mistake with this Matt. How much I loved him and allowed him after a couple
of years to eventually seduce me. I emphasised that Matt was almost of
legal age when we first did it.

"None of us are blood relatives Ryan so sex between us isn't really
incest. If I make love to you though that is paedophilia and is very
wrong. I love you very deeply and you are an incredibly sexy young man but
I should not have sex with you, morally and ethically probably never,
legally not until you are sixteen. I make love to Matt still because we
both have such deep love for one another that sex is the only way we can
express it completely."

"If I really wanted it Dad would you have sex with me when I am sixteen?"

"I guess the answer to that one is let's wait and see."

"Can I still sleep with you and have cuddles and kisses like we do now?"

"Of course, I would be upset if we didn't."

Like Matt, Ryan was a thinker and although he was satisfied at the moment I
guessed more questions would be forthcoming eventually. They did, but
quicker than expected. He had gone off to his and Matt's bedroom after
breakfast and I didn't see him again until lunch. I then discovered that
Ryan might only be fourteen, nearly, but his brain was functioning at adult
level and was open to thoughts of a little blackmail. Sat across the table
from me he started.

"Dad, you`ve always been fare with Matt and I and agreed compromises
occasionally when we have disagreed violently on a course of action. Can we
do it again for this case?"

I tried to think where this was going before I replied but the only thing I
came up with was me allowing him and Matt to have sex. I was close.

"Go on, let me hear your proposals."

"You have penetrative sex with Matt which you say started when he was just
short of sixteen, but you had other sex with him before then. If you love
me as deeply as you say you do can we go the same way. Please let us have
sex Dad, but I won't ask you to fuck me until I am completely legal."

I needed help for this one. It was getting close to the scenario four years
ago with Matt. If I refused point blank Ryan was going to feel
rejected. His perception would definitely be that I loved Matt more than
him, which of course was true, but to say so would destroy him
emotionally. I walked round the table and took his face in my hands. I
watched his eyes as I moved into him and kissed him full on the lips for
the first time. We had done a lot of kissing and cuddling since he was
twelve. I had kissed most of his body at some time, from the waist up only,
when we had been playing, but never his lips. As I pulled away I saw the
surprise in his eyes.

"I love you very much son. My heart is full of love for both you and Matt,
the loss of either of you would cause me great pain. You are also two of
the sexiest young men I have ever come across. It would be so easy to just
say yes to you and make love to you completely the same as I do Matt, but
the ethics of it is causing me considerable unease. Will you leave it for a
while and let me think about this because if I compromise with you I have
to with you and Matt as well. If I do compromise it changes our
relationship immensely and makes both Matt and I criminals for having sex
with a minor. I would die if it ever became known and ruined Matt's life."

"It won't Dad, I swear I will never tell a soul."

"I still have to think about this and talk to Matt as well. This has to be
a family decision."

No outright refusal, he was going to do the same as Matt had at a similar
age, adopt a wait and see attitude. That gave me the breathing space that I
definitely needed.

At supper Ryan's eyes were flicking continually between Matt and me. I
guessed he was wondering when I would bring up the subject with
Matt. Supper finished, clearing up done and Ryan was like a cat on a hot
tin roof. I couldn't let him get any more frustrated so I bit the bullet.

"Ok you two, settee for cuddles and family conference."

I had them both snuggling into me. I loved it. Matt was nearly nineteen now
and Ryan fourteen but both of them still loved kisses and cuddles, just as
I had done with my dad.

"Matt, Ryan thinks, having seen what we were doing last night, that I
should compromise on the sex thing and allow you two to indulge and for
Ryan to have sex with me as well. The compromise would be that we would not
have anal sex with him until he is sixteen. I want to say no to both,
particularly you because of the implications for your future if Ryan ever
let it slip. If I do lock him out of the sex he will think we don't love
him as much as we love each other. What do you think?"

Matt thought about it and reached across me to take one of Ryan's hands in
his. Addressing Ryan directly he said.

"I love you little Bro almost as much as I love Jase and I want to make
love to you completely, I think you are such a sexy little bundle. I also
think that you ought to know the joy of Dad making love to you as well. He
takes me to heaven every time we do it. I can understand Dad's worries
though so whatever he decides I will abide by his decision."

Then he looked at me.

"I mean that Jase, whatever you decide, but know that I really would like
to pleasure Ryan. I can live without the penetration, there is so much else
we can do to get pleasure from our lovemaking. Ryan knows we love him so
much he would never hurt us by saying anything outside of this home."

Backed into a corner or what?


Sadness and trauma next so get your hankies ready