Date: Mon, 17 May 2004 18:36:46 -0700 (PDT)
From: No Label <zero78245d@sbcglobal.net>
Subject: Donny, Chapter 36
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Donny - Chapter 36
I went straight over to the game shelf intending on occupying myself
with the latest and greatest. Huh? Looks like a couple are missing. Hmm.
Wonder where they got themselves off to. Probably accidently kicked under
the bed or something.
Dad cleared his throat. "Ah, think we can talk now, son?"
Am I ready or not? What do I say to Dad?
"Ah, I guess. Dad?"
"Yes son?"
"Well, the judge kinda sprung this on me real sudden. I'm not really
sure what all he was getting at."
"What don't you understand?"
"Like, what is really going to happen next week? What is termination
of parental rights?"
"Well, son. It's a legal term meaning that your biological father will
no longer have any say in your life. He cannot tell you what to do, or
take you anywhere you do not want to go, or anything like that. The judge
can make him pay money for your support, but he will have no say in how it
is spent. It means that until you are adopted, or when you turn 18, the
state will run your life, like where you live, or what school you go to."
"Can the state take me away from here? From you?"
"Yes, if, by their way of thinking, that is what is best for you."
"Oh fu.., huh. Damn, Dad! I don't want to leave here!"
"Well that can happen unless you and I do something to prevent that."
"Like you adopt me?"
"That's right, son."
"But the judge said I have to agree to what happens to me."
"The judge meant that you have to agree to be adopted, that he will not
grant the adoption decree unless you agree."
"Oh, okay. Uh, Dad? I'm really tired right now. Can we talk more
about this later?" I faked a real good yawn. Big enough that I didn't
have to look at Dad.
"Yeah, sure son. Tomorrow."
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Break time from taxing my pea-sized little noggin. Here is a sampling of
the wonderful response to my request for help. The responses I received
said so much more than what could fall out of my head so I chose a few
examples for you all to read.
>From Henry: I have thought about Donny's situation, and have come to a
conclusion about what I think ought to happen. I think that ultimately, he
ought to realize that as much as he may love Tom sexually, that he also
really needs a dad -- and, that Tom can't be both a lover and a dad to
him. As I recall, you have kind of set him up to reach this conclusion,
because in learning to abide by Tom's decision not to be sexual with him,
he realized in some way that he wasn't quite ready for a sexual
relationship with Tom.
>From Chris: well, I hope the kid chooses to be adopted. there are many
reasons this would be profitable:
1- adoption stabilises relationships 2- he wouldnt be vulnerable to the
whims of the child-care system 3- who knows where he would land if he didnt
choose adoption; some foster parents should rot in hell, not be left to
care for anybody 4- it would be good for his protector, which would
probably be devastated if Donny said no
>From LP: Here's a thought: "judicial emancipation"
It's a legal manuver wherein a minor becomes "legally" an adult and
therefore able to sign legal papers, etc.
When my dad died, I was 18. My older brother and I wanted to sign our
inherited interests in the house we all lived in over to our mother, free
and clear. In order for me to sign such legal papers, I needed to be 21.
So... a lawyer drew up the papers, we took a little trip to the courthouse,
I signed on the dotted line, the judge signed on his dotted line, and
voila! I was 'legally' 21 !!
If Donny were to pursue the same path, it could solve a lot of problems!
Just a thought....
>From Rye: Personally I would like to see the adoption with Tom go through,
or perhaps an emancipation letting Donny become an adult. If he is
emancipated a lot of problems are dealt with. If he becomes Tom's son they
could have a big discussion where Donny sort of lays down the law.
Explaining how he wants to stay and loves Tom, but can't be just a son any
more. If Tom forces him to choose then he would have to leave into the
system because he wants Tom as his lover. Tom will have to overcome his
feelings of guilt and it could be a very mature Donny who puts it into
perspective for him.
>From Lex: Just a quick thought. I think Donny should consider not being
adopted. He is of the age where most kids don't want to be adopted even if
not gay.
However on the other hand, being adopted makes a permanent relationship
that can not be done any other way. except in Canada and Vermont?
It is not going to be an easy choice.
>From Dick:
I believe that you should have a conversation in detail between Tom and
Donny once the parental rights are severed and let Donny and Tom decide
together what to do. Perhaps even get Dr. Bob to talk to them and build an
alternative family relationship It's to bad they can't up and move everyone
to Vermont or Hawaii since I don't see Texas joining the 21st century
anytime soon.
>From Rick: Donny should really consider being adopted by Tom. Here he has
a man that loves him greatly and will protect him. If Tom doesn't adopt him
then maybe someone else will and not allow Donny to see Tom again. When
Donny reaches the age of 18 then he can truly proclaim his love for Tom,
being he is adopted there is no incest there.
And finally, from Bill this very thoughful letter to Donny:
Donny,
Please understand that Tom loves you with all his heart and his soul. He
will NEVER betray you or your love for him in any way. True love, as you
claim to feel for Tom, DOES NOT need or mean SEX!
Your willingness to give yourself to Tom for his sexual pleasure means more
to Tom than you can ever imagine. However you must remember that Tom is an
"adult". With that title come obligations and responsibilities both legal
and moral. Know that Tom does love you and when the proper time comes,
that may become the sexual encounter you now desire. The deal is, if you
truly love Tom as you claim then you must wait until he too is ready. To
continue to force your self on Tom in a sexual manner is selfish and does
not show consideration for Tom, his feelings, his emotions, his desires, or
his own devils which he is trying to control. To continue down this path
can ultimately push Tom away from you. Eventually his guilt for his own
sexual feelings toward you and your continued perusal may be too much for
him to bear given his love for you. Know that he loves enough NOT to have
sex with you and that is a far greater love and one that he hopes to teach
you too.
Your Friend, Bill
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I turned and watched Dad leave, his shoulders slumped.
Fuck. It felt like I just stabbed the person I love the most right
through the heart. But I gotta think about this first. What do I really
want? Damn, I don't want to leave here. But I do want Dad...no, Tom, as
my lover. Shit, what do I do?
...
Sleep last night wasn't very good. I tossed and turned all night. My
mood for breakfast was dull and mumbled. Good thing I had school so I
wouldn't have to face Dad again till the afternoon.
How I made it through classes that day I will never be able to tell.
Chet kept asking what was wrong, I just told him I had a bad night
sleeping. After the last bell I stumbled out the doors, headed for the
bus.
Oh, shit! There's Phyl!
"Donny. Come on. I'll give you a ride home."
"Where's Chet?"
"On the bus. I want to talk to you privately."
Fuck. What did I do wrong now? Did the school call home and complain
about my behavior today?
We got in and didn't even make it out of the parking lot before she
started.
"Donny what is wrong with you?"
"Nothing. I just didn't sleep well last night."
"I should hope so. Your father isn't doing well either, because of
you."
Huh? "What? What do you mean? I didn't do anything to him." Yeah, I
was too sleepy to do anything this morning.
"What? You don't know?"
"Know what? I'll admit, I wasn't good company this morning, but I
didn't do anything to Dad." And what's it to her anyway. I was starting
to get pissed.
"You sure did last night."
"What? What do you mean?"
"What did you and your dad talk about last night after you got home?"
"Uh, just about what the judge said yesterday. I wasn't sure what the
judge meant so I asked Dad and he told me. Then I went to bed."
Phyl looked sharply at me. "You don't realize, do you? You don't know
that you broke your dad's heart last night."
"What? How? I didn't do nothing." What's going on? I mean, yeah, I
know Dad was a little disappointed last night when I pulled my sleephead
act.
"That's right. You didn't do nothing. But your dad was hoping for
something with all his heart."
"What?"
"You."
"Huh?"
"Donny, your dad loves you so very much. And he wants nothing but the
best for you. He wants to give you the loving and safe home that you
deserve. But now he thinks you don't want him as your dad. Do you realize
how that makes him feel? How much he loves you? And now he has to
opportunity to ensure you never feel unsafe or unloved again. But you
turned away from him last night. Now he is doubting everything he has done
for you in the last year. And he is talking of going away."
"Going away? Where? He hasn't told me of any trips being planned."
Dad wouldn't plan a trip now, just when we are getting ready to open the
ranch.
"I don't think he was planning for this to happen."
"But what about the ranch? If we go on a trip, who will run the ranch
until we get back?"
"Donny, you don't understand. Your Dad is not talking about a trip for
you and him. He's talking about leaving to give you the space he thinks
you want. So that if it is what you want, you can begin your new life
without him."
"What? Without him! I don't want that! I don't want to leave! I
don't want him to leave!" Shit, what is she saying? Is Dad talking about
leaving me? Where am I going? Nooo!
"What do you want, Donny? And you better think fast because you have
set things in motion with your little act last night. So you better make
up your mind. Do you want to be adopted by your Dad? Or are you going to
throw yourself into the muddled mess of Children's Services, ending up God
knows where?"
"But I love Dad. He wouldn't leave, would he?"
"Donny, if he thinks that you do not want him as your dad then he has
no choice."
"But...but..."
"No buts. Make up your mind quick buster. And hope it isn't too
late."
Fuck, what do I do now? I want him as my dad, but I also want him as
my lover. I can't lose him. Why can't I have both?
"Damn!" Phyl slammed the steering wheel. "I just figured out what
your problem is! You still have a crush on your dad and are afraid that if
he adopts you then you two can't be lovers. Am I right?"
"Yeah. Sort of." Crush! Is that what she thinks? Like some school
boy?
Phyl chuckled. "First of all, incest is only between blood relatives.
Second, before your dad lets you into his bed you have a whole bunch of
growing up to do. Third, you will probably meet someone else and fall in
love, maybe two or three times, long before you will be old enough for your
dad."
Never! "I will never love anyone as much as I love Dad!" No way, no
how!
"We'll see. But first things first. Do you want to stay with your
dad?"
"Of course. With all my heart."
"Then you better tell him that. And be quick about it. You are
killing him now."
"Okay. Okay. Hurry up, will you?"
Two minutes later we pulled up in front of the house. I jumped out of
the car almost before it stopped and ran into the house.
"Dad? Dad? Where are you?" I charged through the house. Where is
he? Why doesn't he answer? God, he better not be gone already! But
nothing but my own frightened voice came back to me.
TBC