Date: Sat, 4 Dec 2004 15:53:19 EST
From: PixaJax@aol.com
Subject: Growing Up 4

This is the last part of this story. Thank you for publishing it.

Growing Up:? Part Four (Envoi)

Oh my! What an experience! I went to Postie's house and we did the
bumfuck thing. Wow! He's a nice man, a kind man, and I just did it
because he wanted to, but, between you and me, I was really really
scared. Have you had that done to you? It's like nothing else you ever
expreienced. Wow!
OK, I am older now, and I understand a lot more since that warm Saturday
afternoon when I was just ten and a half and I - what's the expression -
I lost my cherry to a horny man. .
You know how there are moments in your life which you never forget?
I remember when my mother reproached me for the spunk puddles that I left
on my sheets. Bad karma.
I remember panicking when a strange man showed me his erection in our
local cinema. What was I afraid of?
I remember the first and only time I slid my finger into a girl's soaking
wet vagina and being REVOLTED by its sliminess. Yuck.

So, coming back to that warm Saturday afternoon when Postie buggered me
(isn't that a nice expression?!): I guess the usual boy reaction is to
remember the pain, the terrible stretching, and to pray it will be over
soon. Let's face it: it is a kind of rape. But, believe me, once a boy
gets past the panic, the nervousness, and the first TERRIBLE moments when
he feels his little pucker stretched to breaking point, there is
something just so amazingly WONDERFUL about feeling a mancock filling
your back passage.
Difficult to explain.
To put it crudely, it's like needing to pass a huge stool but deciding
that you don't want to pass it. So instead of trying to expel it, you try
to SUCK it into you. Sorry if that isn't a nice description, but I am
trying to be honest. Being PENETRATED, being FILLED, and then being
FULFILLED is what it's all about. Maybe skydiving and bunjee jumping are
like that. Apprehension, Doubt, Fear, and then: jump! And the thrills
come thick and fast!

It hurt. Make no mistake. A hard mancock pushing into your tight lil boy
"love-hole" for the first time is disproportionate. (Advice: lots of lube
and a man who is gentle and patient, as my Postie was).
What's it like?
It's brutal, and the only thing that stopped me from SCREAM:ING was
Postie's calm voice telling me to relax, showing me how to regulate my
breathing to get a rhythm with his thrusting.
The funny thing is, ladies and gentlemen of the jury, that a moment
arrives when you start to accept. ACCEPT. And that's the moment when you
overcome the natural tendency to EXPEL, and adopt a different strategy,
which - I now realise - is like trying to SUCK his cock into you rather
than trying to expel it. Magic moment.
I will not tell you more at this time. I just wanted you to know.
One last issue: is it natural? Natural? If sliding your good mancock into
a malodorous slack wet womancunt is "natural", tell me why a sweet tight
boypussy is so much  more exciting, fulfilling, and just plain fucking
WONDERFUL?
Well, just before we close, I have to tell you that a week later I went
to visit John the Baker, the sweet shy man. Want to know what happened?
Watch this space!
Love and sux
J
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