Date: Mon, 22 Mar 2010 10:50:44 -0600
From: brian <suddar40@telus.net>
Subject: How it happened

Disclaimer: This a true story, in fact it is how my life started. Only
names have been changed, both persons and city. Anyone too young or in any
state or province where it is illegal to read should leave this site now



Ever since grade school when I was nine or ten, I knew I was different. How
I didn't know, but just knew I was. All my life I had a fascination with
heavy equipment. As a kid I collected dinky toys, but only heavy equipment
types. Later in life I worked on construction as an operator and in the
Combat Engineers in the Navy.

When I was thirteen the street two blocks down from my house was being
rebuilt into a four lane road. During all my waking moments I spent time
that summer watching the equipment working. As it was nearing completion,
concrete was being poured. I stood and watched one of the drivers. I
started to ask him questions and he was very quick to answer them. He asked
if I wanted to drive back with him as he got another load. I said sure and
hopped into big truck. I was in heaven. When he got back to the site he
asked if I wanted ride back again and he would drop me at home after work.
Again I said yes.

On the way back to my home he stopped in a huge undeveloped park. As we
were talking he reached over and played with my cock. Well at thirteen I
got instantly hard. He asked me how it felt and when I said real good, he
asked if he could see it. I said sure and he took my cock out. As he was
jacking it he asked if I minded if he sucked my cock. I said okay so he
then sucked me until I came. After he was done he pulled out his and
started to jack it. He asked me if I wanted to suck his as he had done
mine. I said okay, and leaned over and took his cock into my mouth. It felt
kind of good and even though I could only get about 2 inches of his big
cock in my mouth he said it felt real good too. He continued to jack his
cock while I was sucking. He said he was about to come. I didn't know what
he meant so I continued to suck. When he started to come I couldn't swallow
fast enough and some leaked out. It tasted sort sweet and salty. After he
was done and I lifted off he asked if I liked it. I said yes. He then asked
if I wanted to do it again sometime. I said sure anytime. He said he would
meet me here in the park the next day. The next day was Saturday and I was
to meet him at one o'clock. When he arrived at the park he had two friends
with him. I sucked him off twice and his friends too. I guess I was sort of
hooked on sucking guys dicks. I really enjoyed it. Later in the afternoon
he took me and showed me where I could get all kinds of guys to suck. It
was in a washroom deep in the park. He showed me what to do. I sat in one
of the toilet stalls that had a hole in the wall. He told me guys would
come in and stick their cock through the hole. All I had to do then was
suck. Wow! It was great. I spent lots of afternoons and early evenings
sitting in that stall. There was always someone who wanted to get sucked
off. As I got used to sucking, I found I could get more of their cocks into
my mouth. It felt great having a cock sliding in and out of my mouth. And
they all tasted different. Some were very bitter, while others were like
honey. Most were just salty sweet.

One evening I got carried away and left very late. It was already dark in
the park when I started to leave. I was almost out of the park when I was
stopped by four men. One of them asked if I wanted to suck him. I said
okay. But he wanted me to take my pants off so another of the guys could
suck me. Again I said okay. I undid my pants and pulled them down. HE
dropped his pants and then sat down. He told me to get on my knees and suck
him. He used one hand to push my head up and down on his cock. I could
hardly breathe. I felt a liquid on my ass and thought one of the other guys
had come on my ass. The next I felt was searing pain in my ass. One of the
guys had pushed his cock into my ass. I couldn't even scream but started to
cry. IT hurt so much, it felt like he was splitting me open. They took
turns from then on. One always fucking me while I had to suck another.
After what seemed like hours, they just dressed and left me there. It took
me awhile to get my pants on and get out of the park. As I was staggering
home a police car stopped me. When I told him what happened he rushed me to
the hospital.

From the description I gave the four men were arrested. When I went to
court everyone was there, my parents, some of my friends, just everyone.
When I got back to school finally everyone just shunned me. Some would call
me fagboy, queer, faggot or homo. Most of my friends wouldn't even talk to
me. I just wanted to die. Only one boy, Tommy, not his real name, would
talk to me. He told me he really felt sorry for me. Now before Tommy hardly
spoke to anyone, but now he was talking to me. I knew he was pretty rich.
Him and his parents lived in huge house, with an outdoor pool and three car
garage. I had seen the house sometimes when I went out walking. Now I never
went anywhere. Just stayed home.

I was very surprised one day when he invited over to his house. He told me
to bring a swim suit and they would swim. I asked my mom and she said it
was okay as long as I was back before dark. That day I took my swim suit
with me to school and walked home with Tommy. He introduced me to his
parents. They were very nice. We changed in Tommy's room and then went
swimming. Tommy's parents came to tell him they were going out and not to
stay up too late.

When we went up to change again Tommy became a different person. Before he
would let me dress he said I had to suck him off. If I didn't he would tell
everyone in school that I would suck anyone for a nickel. I agreed and
sucked him off. He then told me I would have come over everyday and suck
him off. Sometimes he said he might want to fuck my ass. He only had about
a thin 5 inch dick. After I sucked him off the first time he sucked me off.
The rest of the time for the next almost a year he never sucked me again.
He tried to fuck me once, but couldn't stay hard. Sometimes when his
parents were away he would tie to the bed and whip me with his belt.
Sometimes on my ass but mostly on my cock. After he would sit on my chest
and shove his cock into my mouth until he came.

My ordeal with Tommy ended when his dad was transferred out of the city. By
then I was a real cock slut. About the same time my dad got a better job
and we moved across the city. I started high school. No one knew me in the
high school. I finally started to make some friends. One of the guys I met
was Tim. We became fast friends and I still talk to him to this day. One
day while we were playing Risk at his house, he said he had something to
tell me. We went out to the porch for a smoke. He told me he was gay. Being
very dumb and not thinking I asked him what that meant. He said he was a
homo. He liked boys. Wow. He was just like me.

He asked me if I still wanted to be his friend. I said why not. Well people
will talk if they find out. I told him then they find out about me too. I
told him I was a homo too. We hugged each other. Tim and I spent lots of
time in bed with each other. No one really noticed I spent a lot of time at
Tim's or he spent time at my house. Tim was a top and I came to figure out
I was a bottom. Even though he asked me several times to fuck him, I could
never get hard enough to get it in.

Tim was a very smart guy and won a scholarship to college. Even though I
wanted to go to college, my parents could not afford to send me. I decided
to work for a couple of years to get the money. I worked for a pipeline
company and with in 6 months was operating a side boom cat. I still got
together on occasion with Tim. He had a boyfriend and we would have
threesomes sometimes. After three years the company I was working for got
bought out by a bigger company and I was laid off.

Deciding I didn't want to go to college I joined the Navy. With my
experience in construction I was assigned to a Navel Construction Battalion
(Seabees). I spent 13 years traveling the world. Always in the closet. You
had to be very careful in the Armed forces, if they found out you were gay
you got a dishonable discharge. So it was almost 13 years of staying out of
bed with guys except with some call boys in various ports of call.

When I finally got out I travelled home. Dad was now retired, the house was
paid for and both mom and dad were in good health. They decided to sell the
house and move to the coast. They enjoyed a long happy retirement.
Travelling, visiting family and relatives. My dad died at 91 in 1990 and my
mom at 86 in 1995, almost to the day my dad died.

Although I am sure they suspected, I never came out to them. Even though
all my sisters and brothers knew, they never told mom or dad. That first
experience when I was 13 made sure of what I was. I still love to suck
cocks and have sucked every race I think. They all taste different still.

Over the years I have dabbled in every aspect of the gay lifestyle. Even
BDSM, CBT, Water sports, Master/ slave stuff, but in reality what I like
best is just sucking nice cocks. I have never had a real life partner, like
Tim and his boyfriend. They have been together now for almost thirty years
and are very happy. We don't really do much with each other anymore, but we
are still good friends.

Now nearing retirement, I figure I will probably always be alone. Well I
came into this world alone, sort of, and I guess when I leave I will still
be alone. That might bother some people, but to me it just seems natural.
Now I write stories, most erotic, gay stories, some based on my experiences
in the navy and others by what I read or see. Even everyday happenings can
bring on thoughts of a story to write.

If you haven't read some of my stuff, you can find most on www.nifty.org.

Some of the titles are Benji, Jimmy and Me, The Sandpiper, Ben, The
Thane. There are many others I have written over the last several years.

I guess that's about all, I can really say about my life. I will tell you
more when I reach 125 years of age. I figure as long as I can suck young
cocks and enjoy young sperm I will live for ever.

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