Date: Wed, 19 Apr 2006 12:42:14 +0000 (GMT) From: Nathan Marks <nathan7new@yahoo.co.uk> Subject: James Chapter 12 New email address nathan7new@yahoo.co.uk Please note that email addresses listed previously are no longer active and I no longer use the groups mentioned there. My stories are now archived at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/nathansstories/. This story contains material of a sexual nature and describes sexual acts between adults and children. If you find this kind of material offensive, if you are under the legal age to read such material or if it is illegal in your country, please do not read any further. My stories may contain some factual or autobiographical elements, but they are works of fiction and any apparent similarities of my characters to real people are not intended. This story is protected by copyright. It may not be downloaded, copied, printed or otherwise reproduced in any way other than for your private enjoyment and may not be changed in any way without express written consent of the author, me! I hope you enjoy this story. James: Chapter 12 He woke frequently, either because he was cold and damp, or because he was stiff. The sounds of early morning took time to filter all the way back to his hidey-hole. When he finally ventured out, it was fully light and there were people hurrying by in both directions. He wandered down towards Shaftsbury Avenue, but turned right onto Old Compton Street, drawn by the smell of food. Just around the corner was a bakers and sandwich shop. As he entered, he was overwhelmed by the smell of warm pasties and pies. James pondered over the trays of baked goods, racked on shelves in a glass counter. He chose a huge hot sausage roll and a can of coke to wash it down and made his way quickly back out onto the street. The can stuffed into one the pockets in his jeans; he turned back the top of the white paper bag to reveal the end of his breakfast. He nibbled on the pastry. It was hot, but he kept on nibbling anyway. He took a bite of the sausage filling and burnt the roof of his mouth, quickly opening it wide to let the cold air in. He wrapped the sausage roll up again and took out the coke. He opened it too quickly and it frothed out of the hole and over his fingers. He stepped back so it wouldn't splash him, and then leaned forwards to take a swig. After the first swig, he gulped a couple of mouthfuls, hoping that it would ease the burning in the roof of his mouth. He swallowed too quickly and made himself choke. Once he had stopped spluttering, he walked back round the corner and found a doorstep to sit on. He took another mouthful of coke and then unwrapped the sausage roll from its now greasy bag. He nibbled the pastry round the sausage until he thought it was cold enough to eat that too. Intermittently swigging his coke, he watched the cars, bikes and pedestrians rushing by. They all seemed so busy, with somewhere to go and something to do. Here he was with nowhere to go and nothing to do. The child sat for awhile watching the world go by, once again trying to understand why all this had happened to him. Why had his mother had to die? Why had they just dumped him in an unfriendly children's home? What had he ran? Would it have been better to stay there? Why had he let Tom do those things to him? Why had he enjoyed it so much? Was he gay? Was he some kind of pervert, like Tom? What should he do now? Where should he go? Were all men like Tom? Should he go back to the children's home? Could he even remember his way back? What else could he do? Were the police looking for him? Did anybody care what happened to him? Why did it feel so good when Tom did those things to him? Why is it all so confusing? Why is life so unfair? Would it be better to just die? The questions were many and just kept coming, piling up, one after the other, unanswered. Water glazed his eyes as he realised just how helpless and hopeless his situation was. Without help from adults it was unlikely he could survive. Some adults would put him in a children's home, others would want to use him like Tom. Was there really no other option? A tear trickled down his cheek and fell onto the back of his hand. In what seemed like a surreal moment frozen in time, he felt the tear land and spread, making a small mirror on the soft flesh between his finger and thumb. As he gazed into it, for the briefest of moments he could have sworn that he saw his mother's smile. No sound penetrated his moment, nothing else was visible, just his mother's smile and only for a fraction of a second that lasted a lifetime. Silence, a single heartbeat... an eternity. Suddenly the screech of a taxi's brakes broke the spell and reality crowded back in n him. He felt warmer, safer and bolder. He had no more answers, but he was not alone. Wherever his mother was now, she was watching him, close to him. He felt it. That briefest of moments had allowed a glimpse of her, so she couldn't be that far away. Perhaps she could help him, perhaps she couldn't, but she was there, and that knowledge alone revitalised him. He crumpled the greasy paper and tossed it into the corner of the doorway, finished his coke and defiantly threw that down too. He walked boldly out into the day, Monday. Even after the rush hour, Central London remained busy. What was it: eleven million people, or something like that? He couldn't remember exactly, but he remembered enough from his geography lessons about the capital to know that Greater London was huge and he only knew a few small areas of it. London City its self was the smallest city in the world at only one square mile. That was the financial centre of Europe, followed by Frankfurt, Zurich and Geneva. Oh yes, and Edinburgh in Scotland. Few people knew, according to his geography teacher, who was himself from Scotland, that Edinburgh was a major financial centre too and that as much money went through there in a day as went through Zurich or Geneva. London City was all banks and offices now. No one lived there anymore. Had he ever been into London City? He couldn't remember. He guessed he must have, or at least been through it. Most people, especially tourists, didn't realise the difference between Greater London and London City. It would be like saying that Manhattan and New York were exactly the same. Some people didn't even know that Westminster, where the Houses of Parliament and Buckingham Palace were was a completely different city, the City of Westminster. He remembered passing the Houses of Parliament a few times with his mum. They had been to the Natural History Museum together and that was somewhere over there too. That was it. Now he had a target, and goal for the day: find the Natural History Museum. He knew it was west of the Houses of Parliament and that they were west of him now. So which way was west? Back towards Trafalgar Square, he guessed, or perhaps he'd be better walking back down Shaftsbury Avenue to Piccadilly Circus and looking the tourist map he'd seen there the day before. It took him longer than he remembered it taking, to reach Piccadilly. He crossed over and walked up to the tourist map. The museum was on Cromwell Road in Kensington. He remembered going round Hyde Park and Harrods department store in Knightsbridge. It looked a long way on the map and it had just taken him ages to walk this far. He looked at the map of Hyde Park and Kensington Gardens. They'd had a picnic there before they went round the museum. He remembered the lake, The Serpentine, and walking down one side of the Royal Albert Hall, a huge, round, old concert venue were they held the Proms every year. He'd been in there once too. He couldn't remember what the event had been, but he remembered being in one of the boxes that lined the walls, watching some show with his mum when he was little. So many memories of his mum. But is seemed so far on the map. Was it worth it? He wasn't sure he wanted to walk that far today and he was getting hungry again. It must be getting close to lunchtime. He sat on the steps and pulled out the little change he had left. There was enough for perhaps a couple of MacDonald's burgers, one today and maybe one tomorrow. What would he do then? He walked back up to the restaurant and bought himself a cheeseburger. He made his way downstairs and to the same table he had occupied the previous day. It must have only been two or three hours since his breakfast of a sausage roll and coke, but he was starving already. He opened the heeseburger and took a big bite. It tasted great. He loved the type of cheese they used. Once he had devoured the rest of it, he took out his remaining coins and spread them on the table in front of him: just enough for another burger. He was still hungry, but that would be stupid. Better to save it for tomorrow. But what about after that? He felt a deep panic starting in his stomach. His brow furrowed and his fists clenched. Across the isle, on the table next to the door that led to the customer toilets, sat a well dressed man in his late 50s. He had just eaten a cheeseburger and a vanilla milkshake. He frequently came in here, either after work, or sometimes during his lunch break and sat there. Piccadilly Circus and this bottom end of Shaftsbury was heaven for men like him. Usually the boys that stood around the statue of Eros or sat for hours at the bus stop at the bottom of Shaftsbury Avenue were in their mid teens, 14 up, or even in their early twenties. Rarely did he see a rentboy of about 12 or 13, but when he did, he always made for them. They were more of a risk, but that only made it more exciting. He had been doing this for more than twenty years and had been arrested twice and even charged once, but when the rentboy failed to turn up at court, he got off with a warning. He never took anyone home, just did what he wanted here, in the MacDonald's restroom a couple of times a week. He went to other places at other times, as it didn't pay to become to familiar at one place, or you could end up getting thrown out. Fortunately for him, the staff here changed on an almost weekly basis. He'd had a few of them too, but had stopped targeting them when he almost got himself into another mess. This boy was obviously about 12. He was also, obviously alone and, the man was almost sure, the same boy he had seen alone here the day before. He watched the boy devour the burger, waiting for a parent or someone to arrive. No friends, no parents, no one came. This boy was young and alone and, then, joy of joys; the boy had almost no money. He watched as James counted and recounted the few coins in front of him. He looked at the boy's dirty hands and face. The clothes were pretty clean, but this could be a new street kid. Probably dosing down at a friends or in some squat. The boy seemed upset by his lack of funds. Well, I can help with that, if he'll let me. The man sat planning his approach, how he would introduce himself, get talking and then... He leaned across the isle and almost whispered, "That doesn't look like enough. Can I help and buy you another burger?" Now, if this kid had no idea, he would refuse any offer from a strange old man and scarper, but if he were available, this offer would be accepted. James looked at the man who had just spoken to him. He had a dark grey suit and red tie on. The man's hair was grey, peppered with black flecks. His face was lined, but still carried enough features to be handsome and seem quite strong. He was smiling, but had straightened up again, no longer leaning across the isle. He was waiting for something, for James to answer. Why did the man speak to him? What was he offering? Another burger? Yes James would love another burger, but his experience with Tom had made him a little more wary. Ok, so the boy didn't say 'yes' straight away, so he wasn't rent... yet? But he obviously was considering it. He would have to play the boy carefully to get what he wanted. He had had a couple of virgins give him blowjobs before. They weren't as good technically, but the thrill of a young beginner outweighed that by far. He stood and made his way just past where James was sat, then turned, "I'm having another cheeseburger, what would you like?" Despite himself, James said, "Cheeseburger, too, please." Then he immediately regretted it. He knew he shouldn't talk to strangers; all those warnings at school, from his mum and the adverts on TV. But how was he going to survive if he didn't take opportunities like this? He could always eat and run, couldn't he. He watched as the man climbed the stairs to the ground floor and the sales counter. Should he run before the man came back? He couldn't decide what the best thing to do was, so he sat, hoping something would help him make up his mind. The man returned with two cheeseburgers and two medium cokes. "I know I didn't ask, but I always get a dry mouth if I just eat a burger without some kind of drink, so I hope this is Ok." He placed a burger and coke in front of the boy and then sat down next to him. "I'm John, by the way, and what's your name?" he smiled at the boy who was looking quite nervous and unsure of anything at the moment. "James," he said as he gingerly opened up the burger on the table in front of him. "Well, James, do you come in here often?" "No, this is just my second time in here." "I didn't think I'd seen you around before. So where are you from?" He immediately regretted asking the seemingly innocuous question. He could see the boy had become suddenly nervous, or, he thought, even more nervous. "I like this part of London. There are so many visitors and I meet so many new friends." He continued on, trying to recover the ground he had lost. Then he launched his gamble, "In fact, I especially like meeting new young men like yourself, finding out what the like: football, bikes, swimming, girlfriends and boyfriends and suchlike. Sometimes, when I find a special young man, we even have a bit of fun together." Just two days ago, James would have had no idea what this man was getting at, but after his experiences with Tom, he had a fair idea. "What kind of fun?" he said round his burger.Here it was, the negotiation: first establishing what they were going to do and then a price. "Well, normally, when I meet someone for the first time we just jerk around a bit, or if we get on, perhaps a suck." In truth, almost none of the younger boys ever wanted to suck him or let him suck them. A quick feel, or a wank was the most he got. If he wanted more, he usually looked for an older boy he'd seen before. He didn't like being rejected. Well, here goes the clincher, "and of course, I am always very generous to my young friends." James' brow creased for a moment as he tried to work out what this man was saying. Slowly it dawned on him that this pervert wanted a wank or a blowjob and was offering to pay him for it. At first the thought disgusted him, but as he chewed on his burger three thoughts fought in his mind. First this was another pervert. Second he needed the money. Third, he had liked being jerked off by Tom. Was it so bad? He fought back and forward in his mind, staring at the man. Shit! "Where?" "I have found that a cubicle in the toilets here will do for a few minutes." "Here?" James couldn't believe this man wanted to do it in the toilets, but at least, he thought, that meant he wouldn't be going home with this man, this pervert."What do you say?" "How much?" James wondered how much a wank was worth. "Quite the little business man aren't you? Well, let's say £5.00 for a mutual wank and £10.00 if you suck it." James thought about it, then couldn't believe he was thinking about it and then thought about the money. He had finished his burger and slurped the last of his coke. His inner turmoil must have shown on his face, because the man looked a little edgy himself. Strangely, that made James feel a little bolder, a little more in control. Slowly, he nodded his agreement. The man smiled right across his face and flashed unnaturally white teeth. "Excellent. You go in first and I'll follow in a moment, just so it doesn't look weird." James thought this guy had it all worked out and must have done this a lot before. He stood and edged his way around the table. Taking a last look at the man, he turned and went through the door to the toilets. He walked into one of the blue cubicles and pushed the door too, without locking it. A few moments later, moments that had each seemed like hours, the door went again and the man appeared at the cubicle door. He came in, closed and locked the door behind him. He reached down and fondled the boy through his jeans, then he pulled down the zip and fondled him through his under pants. James closed his eyes and leaned back against the partition. Already his dick was getting hard. The man undid the boy's waist button and pushed the jeans and pants down to his knees. He pushed the foreskin back and revealed the head, rubbing a course thumb across the piss slit. Then he pulled the skin over the head once again and began to masturbate the boy. After a few minutes he undid his own fly and pulled out his already erect penis. He was about five inches long, not as long as Tom, but as the man's dick filled out, James could see it was a little fatter. The man took James' hand and curled the fingers around his penis. James knew what to do know. He began slowly moving his hand back and forth, up and down the shaft. It firmed up still further in his hand. Each stroke took him over what felt like ripples in the man's dick, but were probably veins. Suddenly, James wondered why on earth he was doing this. His hand froze and he looked past the man to the cubicle door. There was no way out. He was trapped. Panic started to rise in his stomach and must have shown in his eyes. When James stopped, the man looked down at him to see why. He saw the flash of panic and had experienced this before with first-timers. He firmed up his grip around James' hand and re-stared the back and forth motion. He stared James straight in the eyes and started talking softly to him, in a tone of voice you would use with a pet. "Your good at this. You're such a handsome boy. I'm really enjoying being here with you." He kept his tone low and even, reassuring, maintaining constant eye contact with the boy. James seemed to relax a little and the man risked taking his hand a way again. He reached down to the boy's genitals again and started to pump him. The man was so turned on. This was obviously a novice to rent but he must have had some experience with another male. After a few moments he bent his knees and lowered his head, letting his own dick slip out of James' hand. He kissed the end of the boy's penis and then began sucking it gently, back and forth, right down the shaft. The boy relaxed even further. He was obviously enjoying this now. His little hips pushed forwards into the man's mouth. With his hands on the boy's hips, he felt the pelvis thrust forwards, again and again. A small shuddering sigh emitted from the boy's lips. He took the boys balls in his hand and massaged them in rhythm. He slowly increased the pressure around the dick and the balls and James was in heaven. The familiar bolts of energy shooting through him overwhelmed all fear. A few more minutes and he had his dry orgasm, still in the man's mouth. The man didn't stop, he kept massaging and sucking. The longer he did it the more sensitive James' dick felt, like it was beginning to burn. James was about to complain when he orgasmed for a second time in as many minutes. This was even more intense and he let out a yelp of pleasure mixed with pain. This time the man let up and James couldn't believe how intense that had been. He collapsed back against the cubicle wall and took a moment to calm down. The man stood smiling, stoking himself and watching as James recovered his composure. He reached forward and grasped the boy by the back of his head, pulling him forward and down to his now fully erect penis. James twisted his head to look up at the man. The man nodded. As he had pushed James' face to within an inch of the engorged head, it was now obvious that he wanted the child to blow him. James looked at the large purple head in front of him. Why was he doing this? Did he really want this? He opened his mouth and stretched it as far as he could, hoping it would be enough. Why? He allowed his tongue to graze the rough surface of the dick head in his mouth. It tasted saltier that Tom's had and it was bigger. He moved forwards slightly and allowed his lips to form a seal and sucked. The man's hand on the back of the boy's head now felt heavy. He was applying slight force, not wanting to panic the child. James allowed the bulbous mass in his mouth to slide in deeper and deeper until he gagged. He pulled back quickly, but the man's hand, still on the back of his head, stopped him pulling off altogether. He slowly slid part way down the shaft again. Each time he found he could go a little further down, but not as far as the bush of pubic hair. Back and forth he moved his head, applying more pressure around the man's dick. He wasn't really enjoying this, but neither was it as gross as he thought it would be. The man applied more pressure to the back of his head and he went down further than he had intended. The man's dick shot along his tongue and deep into his mouth, hitting the back of his throat and again causing him to gag. This time the man had no intention of letting go. As James pushed back the man thrust his pelvis forward and sank still deeper. As James fought to come up for air, the man shot load after load deep into his throat. Although it took seconds, to James it seemed like forever and he was suspended half in panic, half in shock. He made a fist and punched the man's thigh. The man slowly released the pressure on the back of his head, allowing James to slide of the shaft of his dick. James came up for air, his mouth full of the taste of the man's cum. He felt it on the back of his tongue and sliding down his throat. He turned and tried to spit as much as he could into the pan of the toilet, but he had already swallowed much of it. James was flustered, angry, upset, amazed. He wanted to shout at the man, but dare not because of where they were and what they were doing. He felt guilty. He had come in here knowing what this man wanted. No one would believe him that he hadn't really wanted to go as far as this man had made him. Still, he was alive, and hopefully, he was now going to get paid. He looked up at him. The man was smiling and a little red in the face. James watched the man's chest rise and fall under his coat. The man made no attempt to move. He stood there watching the boy and gathering himself, still a little flushed from his orgasm. This boy was beautiful and malleable. It was a shame he couldn't have a boy like this at home, but that was unrealistic and would never happen. He put his hand inside his jacket and pulled out his wallet. How little could he get away with giving this novice? A fiver? Probably not, but certainly a tenner. He pulled out two five pound notes and held them out to the boy. James looked at the money and wondered why he had agreed to this, but here and now, he realised he really needed the money, so he reached out and took it, without a word. No thank you or small talk: a business transaction. This was what he had heard those boys talking about. He had done it too now. He felt somehow as if he was smaller, something less than he had been before he came in. so was this what life would be like now. The man pulled another smile, turned and left the cubicle. James just stood and watched him leave. He felt like crying, but he didn't. He felt like running, but he didn't. His brain was screaming, but he wasn't. A numbness spread across his body, an empty feeling that was slowly consuming whoever he had been. What would be left? He didn't know, he just knew that things were very different now. More to come...