Date: Thu, 23 Aug 2007 05:38:55 EDT
From: Andichan@aol.com
Subject: 'Life starts with love'  Part 5

All the normal disclaimers apply.
This is a story about love and bonding between a young boy and a male adult
under very difficult circumstances.
Some parts of the story is of a sexual nature and I would suggest you exit this
site should you find such things offensive or distasteful.

The author does not condone sexual abuse of children in any form. They are so
very important to us and should be protected. All animal life is out there
however sometimes a situation occures which demands that the rules have to
be bent. 

You are very welcome to send your comments by email to
andichan@aol.com

I will reply to all, good or bad.


A big thankyou to everyone who has taken the time and trouble to email
their comments and thoughts. It's been a real inspiration.

One comment that has been voiced on more than a few occations is that I
haven't given any real details or descriptions of Ryan and Peter.  I will
try and address this now.

Peter is an average sort of bloke. Middle class Englishman living in the
southwest midlands. 28 years of age, 5' 11'' tall and weighing in at
175lbs. Slim clean shaven and deffinatly not the weight lifting, body
building type. Just Mr 'Man across the street'.  Successfully running his
own business but trapped in a shite marriage. No he's not hung like a
donkey and has always considered himself hetrosexual.

Ryan is a lovely little boy 6 years old, ("I'm almost seven, Pete!!") 4'
1'' tall in his bare feet but weighing in at only 84lbs.mainly due to his
junkie mothers inabillity to look after him.  A very bright child but
something of an under achiever as his school attendance was patchy in the
extreem.  Sadly he didn't get the physical attention all young boys need
such as the 'horsing around', tickles and cuddles and genuine affection so
he discovered that this could be substituted by allowing the sexual
advances of one of his mothers boy friends. Over a period of time, he just
assumed that this sort of activity was the norm and indeed believed that by
him pleasuring this man was the mans way of showing him the love he so very
desperatly craved.  He knew of nothing else and didn't believe that he was
being sexually abused.  Neither was he 'over endowed' Just a normal 6 year
old, ("Almost seven, Pete!!") little boy.




LIFE STARTS WITH LOVE.  (Part Five.)









God was good to me! I slept finally even with this little lad clinging on
to me as if his life depended on it.  Either I was so played out I never
noticed, or Ryan never moved during the night.He was still spooning me as I
'came to'. I tried to edge away from him as I was 'piss hard' and
desperatly in need of the toilet.  No chance.  The little sod was clinging
on to me. Every move I made was countered by him snuggling up to me
tighter.

Finally I decided to wake him.

"Hey Mister! Wake up please!"  A swift nudge in the bribs and Ryan slowly
started to come into the land of the living.

"I've got to pee mate! I mean now!! Let me out, ok!"  Ryan slowly woke,
stretching himself. "I don't want to get up yet Pete?"  "No problem. You
stay there but I need the loo, ok?"  "Uhh.Ok"

I slipped out of bed sporting the biggest hard on of my life. Busting fora
piss but also slightly turned on.I threw what little I was wearing into the
washbox and finally I was able to piss. Oh!Relief!  The next moment Ryan
was at the door.  "I need to go as well Pete."  "Um, Ok.Just let me stand
up and get dressed."  "You're naked! Ha ha!!"  'Shit. So I am!'I thought.
"Sorry. Just wait a second. Turn around if it bothers you and I'll be done,
Ok?"  "I'm not bothered. I just need to go!"  I shook off and stood up. My
cock was still semi-hard from earlier. Ryan's eyes were locked on to it.
"Wow! You're huge!"  "No. Not huge. Normal for a man my age I think."  "Way
bigger than Colin and he was really stiff!"  I blushed ten shades of red.
"Just have a leak and come back to bed Ok?"  "Yeah. Ok. You're still well
big! Nice as well!"

Oh Shit!  "Just do it mate!"

I went back to the bedroom and hugged the covers, wondering if I should get
dressed and put all of this behind me but before I could make a decision,
Ryan skuttled back into the room and under the covers. He cuddled up to me,
freezing cold to my skin. Ryan shuddered.  "You're so nice and warm! Will
you turn over and hold me?"

I could not refuse him despite my doubts about the 'correctness' of the
situation.  I turned over and held him tight. I could almost hear his
heartbeat. More than that, I could feel my cock swell against his little
body. He wriggled a little to get comfortable and then I could sense his
little cock swell against my leg.  'Oh my God! This is so wrong! So bloody
wrong but almost so natural and right. Such mixed emotions. I went with the
flow and pulled him towards me, kissing him on the chin and stroking his
back.  For his part, Ryan put his hand on my lower back and squeezed
gently, almost as a sign of approval but then moved lower onto my bum,
kneading my bum cheeks gently and sending my cock rock hard again. I'd been
doing a damn good job of getting it down but now this little twink was
doing his best to wreck my efforts!  "Oh damn that feels nice Ryan but you
really should stop, you know? Remember the woman from the social services?"
"I know. You make me feel good and I want to do this for you. I won't tell,
you know that and anyhow, I like you and I like to do it."  "You like to do
it?!"  "Umm. It makes me feel all funny in my tummy and nice! My willy
likes it too! It gets all hard like yours and sometimes I can get so it
feels, well, awsome! Do you ever feel like that?"  "Ah. Well yes I do and,
-- yes I do and if you carry on, I will again!"  Ryan giggled. "Like
Colin. You squirt some stuff and then go to sleep, right? Then kick me out
of bed. Right?"  "No. I won't kick you out of bed. I happen to love
you. Remember? And also, you shouldn't do that unless you really want
to. You don't HAVE to do it just to make friends. You understand?"  "Umm. I
think so, but if I really wanted too and the other person, like you, wanted
me to do it, is that ok?"  Shit! Talk about being caught on the hop!  "Err,
well I guess so. Well maybe. No one should EVER make you do anything you
don't like. Ok there's school and no boy really enjoys it but it has to be
done, you know? When it comes to what we were talking about, well it's up
to you to decide and no one else. Do you understand?"

Ryan thought for a moment and then replied.  "I think so. I like to cuddle
you. You're nice to me and you feel good when I cuddle you and I want to
touch you 'cos it makes me feel good."

"Then it's ok! I don't want to stop you because it DOES feel beautiful. You
must let me make you feel nice as well though. Is that a deal?"

"Umm! Nice! Can you make me squirt like Colin?"

"Think you're a bit too young but I can make you feel the same if you
want?"

I reached down and took his little cock in my hand. Uncut and stiff as a
board.  Ryan gasped.  "Ohhh Pete! That's so good!"

I ducked under the covers and took his little dick into my mouth. Using my
lips, I drew back his forskin and set to work on his cock.  It didn't take
long. Ryan bucked and thrashed around in sexual heaven and then he came! Oh
God did he come!! Dry cum as it was but he just lost it big time! His
breathing was short and shallow.  Sweat dripping from his face. Slowly he
relaxed.

"Ohh! Oh Pete, that was just---, I dun't know!"  "Nice?"  "Hmm! Very nice!"

I let him calm down a bit and when I could sense Ryan's breathing and
heartbeat had returned to something like normal, I quized him a little plus
smome explanation about what had happened to him.

"You OK mate?"  "Umm! I'm fine!"  "Ryan? Do you know what just happened to
you, to make you feel 'nice'?"  "Nope but I want it again Pete!"  "Let me
give you a run-down on what happened first. Ok?" I didn't wait for the
reply. I knew a kid so young would run rings around me in a 'chat'
situation so my best bet was to hit him with it, the truth and all. Run
with it or give up. His choice and I would never question his decision
whatever.

"I love you Ryan but this isn't what or how it should be, u understand? I
wanted to do that to you but as you grow up, you may well fancy girls,--
don't interupt 'cos I've just got started! You may well fancy girls! You
are a very good looking boy! The girls will be falling over themselves to
be with you. When you discover the joy of sex with girls, you may well
think about this and hate me and what we've done. I DON'T want you to hate
me! I want you to be happy! Ryan. I like boys.  I like you and maybe-----."
"Love you Pete! Cuddle me please and let me feel good again!" His little
cock was rock hard again which sent me into sexual overdrive.

My guilt and all the other 'law abiding' thoughts went into the ether.

We cuddled up and it wasn't long before His little dick was in my mouth
again. This time I was going to make him last. Tonight, he was going to
learn how to return the favour!



During the day I had work to do in the office. Ryan bumbled about exploring
the house and garden and every once in a while, sit next to me on his
computer playing games. It was amaizing how relaxed he was, cheerful and
happy! 'I must be doing something right' I thought.

Just as I was regaining my thought process for my work, there was a knock
on the front door.  "Sit tight Ryan. I'll get it mate."  Opening the door,
the 'hag' and her rather tasty junior sidekick were standing on the step.
"Good afternoon Mr Morrell. I hope we've not caught you at a bad time?"
"Not at all. Please, come in and make yourself comfey. Can I get you some
tea, coffee maybe?"  "Tea would be nice thanks." the hag replied.  "Come
through into the kitchen whilst I brew up and we can talk."

"Well Mr Morrell. How are things going? It must be quite strange to have a
little boy under your feet. With no prior experience I mean."  "It's weird
actually. It feels as if he's been here for ever. I can't explain it but it
feels so natural somehow."  "That is good to hear. How is young Ryan
feeling about it I wonder?" The 'hag' was a sly old mare and very good at
her job. Christ we could do with more of them like her.  "He's through in
the office playing on his computer. Why don't you take your tea and ask him
yourself?"  "HIS computer?"  "Well actually it's one of my redundant
ones. I let him use it. He's got his own email address and, before you ask,
all the perental controls are active and password protected. I bought some
games, mostly educational ones. I thought it would get him up to speed a
little quicker for when he starts school. Go on through and have a chat
with him. I'll clear up and join you in ten minuits."

I left them to it for about 15 minuits before going in to join them. As I
got to the office door, I could hear the 'hag' laughing! Good start!

"Oh Mr Morrell! What a transformation! So chatty. So polite! You should
take it up as a profession!"

"No chance! Ryan is a one off great lad! I am very lucky to have him." I
paused as Ryan was back playing a spell check game and was completely
oblivious of anything else.  "Let's go back into the lounge and talk, well
that is if you've finished talking to him?"  "Good idea Mr
Morrell. Thanks."

Once seated in the lounge we could talk more openly. We would hear Ryan
comming from a distance as all of the floor boards creaked badly and he
hadn't been here long enough to figure out how to side step them.

"Firstly Mr Morrell. How do you refer to me?"

"The lady from social services of course!"

"I'll bet a months salery you secretly call me the 'hag'! No problem 'cos
that's how the police refer to me however my name is Rita and this young
lady is Gillian. Gillian will be taking over from me on Ryan's case. It
will be her first solo file to handle and as far as my tired old eyes can
see, it should be very straight forward. Mr Morrell, I was in two minds as
to what to do with the boy, sorry! Ryan but you are doing such a splended
job in such a short space of time I want Gillian to oversee the next few
months. Is that alright with you?"

"Absolutely no problem with me and by the way. You were right. The 'hag' it
was but Rita now. For the record, my Christian name is Peter. Ryan calls me
Pete. I don't mind which but can we scotch the 'Mr Morrell' bit please!"

"Bit unethical Peter! But it's a done deal!"

The 'hag', sorry Rita stood up and looked at Gillian. "Do you want to add
anything Gill?"

"No I don't think so. He seems so very content and happy. I wish all our
poor kids could be like that but there is one question Pete?"

PETE! I loved it!

"Sure fire away Gillian!"

"Oh Gill please! Umm, it was to do with schooling. Have you made any
arrangements yet? There's a primary school in the next village you know?
You might find a place for Ryan there?"

"Yes Gill, I know it but I've started the process of enroling him in to the
'Stockbridge' prep school."

"That's very expensive you know?"

"I know but for all his brightness, he isn't the best educated for his
age. I happen to know the head master and most of the board of govenors
quite well and I'm hoping that he will be admitted and given some special
tuition. Without sounding brash, I can afford it and I've made a commitment
to Ryan and I'm going to make damn sure he gets the life that he
deserves. That doesn't mean that he will be spoilt, no way! He will be
taught values and sense of worth. Ryan has just so much to offer and I
intend to bring out the best of him, - not to push too hard but to let his
natural tallents flow, keep him happy and safe and to be with him always!"

Tears flowing down my face like a cascade!  "Sorry. It's easy to get caught
up!"

Rita chipped in. "It's ok Peter. It's good that you feel this way about
him. We'll leave you to it and Gill will call again at some point or if you
want us, you have our number. What a difference you've made! I might just
write a paper on this if you continue in the same way! Thanks for the tea
and have the rest of a great school holiday! Oh and by the way. Crying is
good for you. Keep loving him. Ok?"

"Believe it Rita! He's very special and as for the crying, - , I just can't
get over how lucky I am and I thank God every day but still I can't fully
come to terms as to how lucky I am!"

"I hope that he will understand, in the future, just how lucky he has been
Peter. In all the years I've been in Social Services, dealing with kids
like Ryan, please understand, I've seen and have to deal with horrors that
you can only begin to comprehend. Believe this. He is a very lucky young
man."


We said our farewells not before Gill poked her head around the office door
one more time.

"Oh he is such a lovely lad Peter!"

"Tell me! He's the best thing that's ever happened to me! He will be safe
and nurtured and loved."





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We messed around during the day. For the most part I was watching Ryan
getting used to his new surroundings.  Sometimes I had to bitch at him
because of his attitude but given the situation, he was really settling in
well. No talk about Colin or sex, he acted like a typical lad of his age.

It was only after we'd eaten in the evening and I sugested he went for a
bath or shower, did the subject crop up again.

"Can we bath together Pete?"

"I don't know mate. You should really do it all by yourself and if you want
me to dry you off, well that's ok."  My resolve was so weak!  "Do you want
us to shower together?"  Ryan thought for a moment.

"No but I want to have a bath with you. Please Pete!!

"Well I suppose so! Go and get ready and start running the water and I'll
be with you in a second. Make sure you don't overdo the bubble bath!"

Ryan skuttled off and after a few moments I could hear the bath water
running. The floor boards creaking as he ran. I could tell exactly where he
was at any given moment.

I ventured up when I heard the water stop running.  Peeking in to the
bathroom, Ryan was totally immersed in bubbles and relaxing with his eyes
shut.  I was getting undressed to join him but my cock had a mind of it's
own and was getting very hard indeed!

My thoughts went into overdrive. All the things that you grew up to believe
was normal behaviour were all going wrong for me. I desperately fancy this
little boy! For heavens sake! What am I! I've never, as they say, 'perved
around' looking for sex of any kind but now I'm faced with the fact that
I'm, not just in love with a young boy but I want him sexually as well. I
cannot believe I'm a peadophile. It just isn't me! Please God. Show me the
way to handle this.  Nothing much I could do. After all, Ryan had seen me
naked and hard before so what the hell!  I walked into the bathroom. Ryan
kept his eyes shut as I stepped into the bath.  I used my foot to nudge him
very gently in between his legs. That woke him!!

"Oh Pete! You woke me up!"

"Hmm! Yes I did. Sorry! You woke a part of me up as well!"

"What part?"

I stood up with the biggest hard-on of my life.  "This part!"

"Oh WOW! You're huge! Oh WOW! I want to touch you!"  Ryan reached forward
and before I could protest, he put his right hand around my cock. I nearly
fell over into the bath as he did so. His eyes never left my throbbing dick
as he played with it.

"Damn it Ryan! Give me a moment!"  He let go and I knelt down into the
water, my cock ridged in front of him.

"Oh WOW!" he whispered as he took a fresh hold on me. After a few more
strokes he leaned forward and took me in his mouth.  "OH SHIT THAT'S SO
GOOD!" I slowly started to fuck his little mouth. He was so very good! No
teeth and not too eager, just letting me slide in and out of his mouth with
the touch that only comes with experience.  Ryan looked up at me as if
asking for approval.  I answered his unspoken question. "Oh yes mate! That
is so very good!"  He replied by taking me deeper still, swirling his
tounge around my cock head, bringing me right to the edge.  "Ryan!! I'm
going to squirt if you carry on like that! You better stop before I blow!!"
He nodded his head on my cock and as if on cue, throated me, taking all of
me to my balls and swallowed my cock head. That was it!  Oh RYAN! My balls
tightened and I could feel the impending climax building up inside me.  "Of
fuck! I'm cummmmingggg! Grrrrrrrr! Oh YESSSSS!"  I exploded into his throat
and pumped wad after wad into him. He swallowed the damn lot and held me in
his mouth until my heart stopped racing.

"You taste nice Pete!" was his first comment.  "Jees Ryan. That was so
bloody good! How on earth did you learn to do that!"  "Colin taught me but
I didn't want to do it to him. Honest" "Why did you do it to me. You didn't
have to you know? I love you anyway. You don't have to do anything to me --
ever, if you don't like to."

With words beyond his years, Ryan answered me.  "I know that but I really
wanted to. I wanted to make you squirt and make you happy. You didn't make
me do it and that was nice. I wanted to do it and I enjoyed it a lot! I
loved it! Really! Look!"  His little dick was as hard as a rock under the
water! So very tempting to go for it but I took another tack.  "I can see!!
Let's get clean and I will help you with it in bed. - Our bed! Ok?"  "OUR
BED! Really! OUR BED!"  "Yeah. Our bed! I want you always in our bed!"



[To be continued so long as feed back is possitive but even if it isn't I
probably will anyway.]

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