Date: Wed, 21 Mar 2007 20:25:07 -0400 (EDT)
From: phil Smith <high5fiveme@lycos.com>
Subject: look but dont touch number 8

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Look but Don't Touch       number 8

After dropping Jake off, I had that warm cuddly, good
feeling that made me feel like the happiest man in the
world. I had a new lover to replace Anthony, although it was
fourteen years later. All seemed to be going perfectly. I
guess if it was just sex I wanted, I could have just left it
status quo. Married man finds young boy who likes sex.
Married man figures out time and places to have sex. Married
man makes excuses with wife and puts up a ruse to support
what he wants sexually.

These could be the headings of most any story with a young
guy like Jake. But I couldn't do that. I am gay. I always
have been gay. I am a married man out of circumstance not
out of choice. I love Jake and if he decides he loves me,
then it will be the perfect world. Oops. Well perfect except
for the wife and children.

What was Jake's advice? Don't force it. Just let it
happen...there will be something or someone to change
things.

All Right, I will just go gently into the night or the day
after tomorrow and see how it goes.

Saturday actually came pretty quickly. Jake and I got on
line that night of the twenty-five orgasms and actually
talked about things intellectual like Iraq. I wonder why we
didn't talk about sex or trade pics?

Friday, Jake went out with friends, and at our house we had
a big sleepover with both Raymond and Anna having friends
over. Marie and I were getting really estranged, but with
all the kids over we had our hands full entertaining.
Spending the night in our bed that night was a real turnoff,
and I had the feeling that our sex life was completely over.
I could cheat on my wife with a lover and come home and fake
love or even sex with her? Maybe if it were just an affair
like the French do, it would be possible, but not when I was
head over heals in love with my affair. This just wasn't
going to work. I needed a way out.



I was up early, of course, Saturday, and worked on fixing
things around the house before it was time to go. Billy was
one of the kids on the sleepover and was in the planning for
the trip to the skate park so after we sent all the other
kids off around 9:15 I got the two kids in the truck to head
towards the park. I had called Jake to tell him we were
leaving, and he said he would be taking off ASAP to walk
over to Charleston Boulevard, and I just needed to drive up
the street and we could hook up.

The boys sat in the back of the truck so they could hold
their skateboards and chat. Their relationship appeared to
be so perfect and to have Raymond tell me they were sucking
and fucking made me amazed but a little exited too. Marie
and I slept with the kids occasionally but were now only
sleeping with the same sex kid when we did that. I had seen
Raymond's erection, and he was a chip off the old block. At
ten he had a good three to four inches so I was wondering
how Billy was taking him. I think having this new
information, I had to have a talk with him about lube. But
his announcement the other night was just too shocking, and
I had to let it settle. My mind switched to Nic being thrown
into this bunch and maybe even his older boyfriend, and I
couldn't help but feel my erection rising as I had these
thoughts about Billy, Raymond, Nic, et al.

As we got off the freeway, I called Jake on his cell and
pretended like I was talking to someone else. "Hi, Jerry.
Are you going over to the jobsite today."

This was my signal to Jake I had gotten off at Charleston.
Jake said, "Hi Albert, we are at Valley View and
Charleston."

"Oh, I am on Charleston coming up on Valley View in a couple
of blocks taking my boy to the skate park. Listen could you
check my trailer out and see if I locked it last night."

Jake said "Oh you forgot to lock your trailer last night? So
which one of those cute, muscular dudes did you fuck in
there last night? By the way could you pick up the three
boys on the side of the rode with their dicks hanging out in
the next couple of blocks." If Jake's quick wit and sense of
humor didn't get to me over time, I don't know what would.

"Yeah sure Jerry. That would be great. Thanks for doing that
for me. I owe you one."

I pulled over to the right lane after this hilarious
exchange with a big smile and now a raging hard-on because I
was thinking about seeing Jake and Nic standing on the side
of the road with their dicks hanging out. Wait Jake said
"three" boys. I thought it was going to be just Jake and Nic
coming to the park. It only took a minute to see three boys
standing near the curb, and I flicked my lights. Jake stuck
out his thumb as if he was hitch hiking. I can't say how
relieved I was that all dicks were in their pants even
though it would have been exciting to see. Nic, however, did
have his thumb in a very risqu‚ position against his pants
sticking out as if it were his dick.

"I said, "Hey guys there are some skaters. They are probably
hitching up to the Charleston Park. Should I pick them up?

Both Raymond and Billy leaned forward, but it was Raymond
who said, "Fuck yeah, dad. They are gorgeous."

Gorgeous!  Isn't that kind of gay of Raymond? As I pulled
over, I realized that boy three was absolutely gorgeous. It
was ok for me to think that because I am gay. He had long,
toe-head, blond hair. He looked like he was thirteen maybe
fourteen max but would have been tall for his age because he
towered over Nic.  He was wearing a "wife-beater" t-shirt
and baggy cargo shorts. The "wife-beaters" were always my
favorite on the older boys because it showed their underarm
hair.

"Hey guys are you going to the skate park. Do you want a
ride?" This was Raymond yelling eagerly out of the window
not me.

Yeah sure, Jake said as he opened the front door and let boy
three in. Raymond opened the back and Nic jumped in faster
than anyone. Ages attract so I knew why the boys chose where
they were going.

As the new boy got in my cab, I stared at his armpits just
to see how much he had and damn he had a full set of
underarm pubes. Could this person be.....?

"Hi, my name is Sean." My thought was interrupted with the
word that I was thinking. Sean slid in looking down at my
hard-on that was not so hidden in my pants. Jake jumped in
and stuck out his hand.

"Hi, my name is Jake. Thanks so much for the ride. That's my
brother Nicolas in the back." Jake's politeness for a boy
his age told me he must be from France.  Just kidding. But
his handshake came with the middle finger sexual scratch
that I had not had done to me for years. This did not help
my erected state!

I said, "I am Mike that is...."

"Raymond." My son filled in the blank. And this is Billy my
best friend."

Nic reached forward and stuck his hand out not to be outdone
by his brother. He said, "Thanks sir, it is so kind of you
to pick us poor little boys up off the dangerous streets of
Las Vegas."  I just shook his hand and thought now this is
over the top. Nic is just letting me know, that he knows
that I know that he has seen me nude with a raging hard-on.
One smart-ass but adorable little kid!

"Oh Nicolas," I tried to say formally "It is always a
pleasure to pick up skater boys in despair off the streets
of Vegas."

"Oh, sir, "Please just call me Nic." Nic got in the last
word.

I could see Raymond sitting now between the two boys get a
weird look on his face. The exchange between me and Nic, a
ten year old, could never have been made between strangers.
My boy is one smart, fucking kid and it was at this point he
must have begun to start to put two and two together. Well,
maybe Raymond started thinking how to put three and three
together. Little did he realize it would really be four and
two with him being in the four?

As we drove up the street to the skate park, I couldn't help
but smell this new cute boy sitting next to me. He was
wearing cologne and smelled really good. I couldn't figure
how I had missed seeing him in the mall with Jake that first
night, but it made me realize how much my picking out Jake
for my look-but-don't-touch event was fate. I think I could
easily have picked out Sean because he was cute enough to
jack off to for sure.

Boy, I was throwing my son in with this boy as Nic's friend.
I didn't know if I approved of the age difference. Also,
having such a beautiful boyfriend could turn Raymond's head
permanently towards being gay, and I wanted him to have
every chance to do girls and get married and have children.
Every man wants that for his boy and must have a
disappointment when they find out their son is gay.

As we rode up the street, the back seat boys did all the
talking sharing stories about skating and skaters. Nic was
being polite as my boys were obviously faking it with their
knowledge and over exaggeration of their abilities. Nic knew
what seemed to be a lot about skating. My interests though
were to catch a glance of the kid next to me occasionally.
Jake knew I had a hard-on and was grinning ear to ear.

Pulling into the skate park, I could hardly stop the truck
before the back doors were opened and the rear boys jumped
out.

Jake opened the car and started out the door. Sean turned
towards me with no hesitation or embarrassment and placed
his hand on my cock through my pants. He went from top to
bottom assessing the situation and said "Hmmm...Now I know
why Jake has been walking so funny lately." With this Sean
jumped out of the car and headed towards the boys skating
after them on his skateboard.

Jake jumped back in the car and said, "Could I assume from
the state of your dick, you like Sean."

"Hell, yeah. And you say he and Nic do things together."

"Actually, its a little more than that. They really love
each other, and I'm a little afraid that Sean is in love
with Nic but Nic is too young to be in love." Jake said this
as if he were me analyzing my situation with him. What a
soap opera I was moving this faze of my life into!

"Mike, do you want me to do something about that hard-on?"
Jake so thoughtfully asked.

"I would love to have you do something, but this isn't the
time or place. It will go away. Let's just head over to the
half pipe, and I will watch while you guys skate."

We exited the truck and walked closely besides each other
heading for the park. We bumped into each other occasionally
like two lovers do so they can make any contact whatsoever.
This wasn't helping my hard-on problem either.

"Jake, I have been plotting our trying to get together and
really have some quality time as in a sleep over. School is
over this next Friday and Nic and Raymond have their
birthdays on Wednesday after that. What if I invite Billy,
Raymond, Nic and I guess now Sean to have a sleep over and
game night at the Excalibur Hotel. You will have to come to
chaperone Nic and Sean, and I will be there for Billy and
Nic, of course.  We will get two adjacent rooms and put the
boys in one and we have the other. Do you think you can
swing this with your parents."

"Mike, you are an absolute plotting, planning conniving
genius. It's brilliant and trust me, you won't regret that
night together. You said you wanted to make love to me. I
have been thinking about that statement a lot. I know it is
in me. I have a lot of anger in me too, but I have to get
this all worked out.  But that night I want to find out who
you are and who I am. I will have no problem working this
out with my mom because she makes all the decisions. You
will have to come over and meet her though. She will be home
in a couple of hours."

"Cool, we will meet her after the park." My heart was
growing as Jake was crawling deeper in." I had to ask
though, a question that was worrying me.

"What about your dad. I am worried about his suspecting me
with you." I said this with all the worry I could muster up.
"Jake a man worries not so much what his boy does with girls
but what he might do with a guy. Men don't want their sons
to be gay."

"Mike, I have something to tell you." After this statement
Jake looked straightforward and went on, "My dad doesn't
like me; we have never gotten along. Hell, he never got
along with his dad so he was kinda kicked out when he was
15. I mean, like, he pays and does everything for me but
it's because he is supposed to, I think.  It's just like I
know he wants me gone. Also, he is a chef and is never home
till late six days a week. You never even have to meet him.
Mondays are his days off and when he gets up, he just goes
out to some bar somewhere."

Holy shit. His dad wants him gone. The thought sent a
shutter up my spine. Problem solved, Jake. You can just come
live with me. I couldn't say this now but my "plotting,
planning, conniving mind" set to work on how to make this
happen.

"Ok, cool. Go skate and I will watch you guys and maybe run
around the park for some anti hard-on relaxation."

With that Jake turned and gave me a hug and a kiss on the
cheek. He feared nothing in public and I enjoyed that
innocence in him.  Oops. I looked forward and Raymond was
skating back to the parking lot and had just seen what Jake
did. Jake had jumped out as I just waved at Raymond while
staying in the truck to wait for my erection to deflate.

"Damn, dad. You are making friends fast." With that he
jumped up on the railing of the truck and the little smart
fucker looked straight at my cock which was still as hard
and obvious as ever.

"Yeah. How are these kids? Do you like them?" I said trying
to hurry to another subject.

"Oh man, they are so cool, Nic is so nice and a good skater,
but Sean is like a pro. Just watch him."

Well, I wont have any problem watching Sean, I thought.

"Ok go back skating. I am just gonna watch a bit from here
and then run around the park."

"Ok, dad. But hurry up I want you to come out and be with
us. Oh yeah, Nic speaks Spanish." Raymond added the last as
he was skating away.

How could Nic speak Spanish? He is French. My Spanish was
terrible but Raymond and Anna were fluent, as their mother
had pushed the Spanish down their throats speaking only to
them in Spanish for most of their lives except when I was
around. I was happy they spoke though since a second
language is not something that many Americans had.

There is more to this story than I could imagine but it was
going to be my soap opera and I wanted it to end with "Mike
and Jake lived happily ever after." It was going to take
work for me, and I needed some help with the circumstances.

After I sat for a while and resolved myself that my son was
now totally suspicious of Jake and me by now, and after my
hard-on had completely subsided. I ran a couple of times
around the park for my exercise and then sat and watched as
all the boys skated and fell and skated and fell with my
boys doing the majority of the falling.

The boys interacted well with their new friends Nic and
Sean, who seemingly were very seriously interested and
concerned with helping Billy and Raymond learn. It was
refreshing, as most boys of these ages would just go off and
skate for themselves.  Jake was paying attention to all four
of them but left the teaching up to the younger boys. He
just seemed to be very fatherly in the situation and would
do his thing while letting the younger ones interact but
watching constantly making sure that all was going well. I
could detect the love between Nic and Sean, which was
obviously not there between Billy and Raymond as they
competed to beat each other. So here were four young boys in
relationship in pairs and both sets were having sex. One
relationship had love and the other had sex only.

I wondered about Jake's statement that Nic was too young to
be in love. Sean was younger than Jake and Jake was way
younger than me. Who determines who can be in love with whom
and who is old enough to be in love? "What the fuck is this
thing called `love?'"

Skating looked over and the boys were walking towards me
with Raymond and Nic leading the pack in deep discussion.

"Dad, guess what? Nic and I have the same birth dates and
here is what we want to do. We want to play all day and then
have a sleep over with all of us. We are getting too old to
have birthday parties. And what I was thinking is that we
could get a couple of rooms at the Excalibur because you
have that friend who can get you a comp like we have done
before. That way we can play the three arcades."

After a moment of stunned silence I looked at Jake who had
his usual smile on his face and I said, "Sounds good to me."
I must have the smartest boy in the world and he has the
smartest new friend Nic. These were the angels that Jake had
known would be sent to help us.

"Ok, guys. Lets go meet Nic's mom and maybe if its ok with
Nic's mom and you want to, I'll treat to a movie."

I went ahead of the crew but really wanting to lag behind
and get near Jake. Raymond ran up behind me and put his arm
around me saying "Thanks, dad, for finding me these new cool
friends."

"Sure." I said and put my arm around him. Had my kid figured
this all out? Jake came up next to me and put his arm around
me saying nothing. Behind me were three more boys two of
whom had their arms around Sean who had his arm on Nic. 3
and 3 makes six.  4 and 2 makes six ...any combination
seemed to work and the sleepover was going to be the
greatest.