Date: Tue, 27 Mar 2007 20:15:09 -0400 (EDT)
From: phil Smith <high5fiveme@lycos.com>
Subject: look but dont touch 9

Prelude:

Usually, here, if you are following this fictional story, I
post a disclaimer and I hope you read them if you are
following this story because they have points in them. Not
only to the illegal readers but also to my real readers, I
want you to know that this chapter may upset you because it
involves the younger boys. I would like my readers to read
my final statement written by me the author after the end of
the chapter. I would like those of you who aren't supposed
to read this but will anyway because you like to do illegal
things to also read my last statement because it is the
latter ones of you that have to make decisions in your life
like what is expressed in my last statement. Oh, by the way
don't read this if it is illegal to read sexual stories in
wherever in this Universe you live.

Look but Don't Touch...number 9

The rest of the day with the boys went so smoothly.

On the way home I had asked Nic how come he spoke Spanish,
and he said his mom was Spanish from Madrid. Jake explained
quickly that this was his step mom and Nic was his half
brother.

"Nic was born here after we moved here. My real mother died
when I was four in a car accident and my dad remarried
quickly and moved here to Vegas to get away from his bad
memories. I was in the car accident but wasn't even injured
because I was in the back seat wearing my seat belt." Jake
explained all this in a monotone voice as I could see he was
trying not to make any images and cry.

This was plenty of information and asking questions or going
any further was not necessary so I just drove the few
remaining blocks talking about other things.  At the
apartment Jake politely did the introductions to his mom of
my two boys and me. Like a kid though he had just said,
"Mom, this is so and so." Mrs. Dupres though stuck out her
hand to me and then the boys and smiled saying, "You can
call me Monica." I was quite self conscious and nervous
about the whole thing, needless, to say and didn't record
much about her, but her smiling so pleasantly did seem a
little fake.

Jake explained simply but deliberately the entire situation
about going to the movie and the birthday sleepover, and
Mrs. Dupres listened intently. She then said, "Excuse us,"
and gently pulled Jake into the kitchen. The other boys all
ran off to the bedroom leaving me there with my heart
pounding like a little kid waiting to get some other kid's
mom's approval that his best friend could go out with him
somewhere.

Luckily, Monica spoke to him for just a few minutes before
she made her decision. I never asked Jake what he had said
to her or she had asked him about me that made her trust
this whole situation. I just felt totally uncomfortable
about the entire thing, but I knew it was something I wanted
to do, and if it worked out, that would be great. The
clearing of Sean to go was going to be handled by Jake's
mother. I just didn't want to meet one other parent at this
time.

Jake started to head down the hall to get the boys, and I
kind of started walking to block him from leaving the room.
"Boys! Come on. We are going to the movie." I yelled down
the hall so Jake could stay with me and the situation
wouldn't be more awkward for me than it already was.

Nic ran up and kissed his mom and said, "We are going on the
sleepover aren't we?"  I guess he knew his mom and Jake well
enough that he already had packed his bags. Raymond,
however, jumped with joy at the answer.



The movie was probably good because the boys kept talking
about it afterwards, but I missed a few parts of it as Jake
and I had sat in the rear of the small theater totally
hidden from the people below and messed around for most of
the movie. Neither of us "came," so leaving the movie was
kind of awkward for me as I tried to hide behind Jake until
we got to the truck. I felt like a teenager again, and it
seemed as if years of mental aging was leaving me, and I was
preparing for a new life.

The last event was pizza. Much talking and telling each
other how much fun and how much we liked each other went on.
I was treated like one of the boys, and it allowed me to
just be free to touch Jake as much as I wanted because it
was just a bunch of cool guys hanging out together having
fun.

I think everyone would have liked just to make this the
sleepover night because all had gone so well, but I could
not encourage any more togetherness for the moment, since I
had Marie to deal with. They all exchanged yahoo addys and
cell phone numbers including Jake and me to put up a front.
I dropped the boys off at Jake and Nics' place.

On the way home, I think Billy and Raymond must have used
the words "so cool" three thousand times each to describe
everything and everyone from that day. I dropped Billy off
at his house, and Raymond got up in the front seat and
scooted all the way over next to me and put his arms around
my stomach and put his head in my lap as I drove off. He
began to cry and say, "Thank you, thank you, thank you. This
was the best day of my life," This was coming from a kid who
had only lived eleven years.

Raymond was a sentimental sucker like me and could cry at
the drop of a hat over something he was sad about or happy
about. I find this very strange and sometimes find that I
have no idea myself whether he or I are crying out of
sadness or happiness. So. Guess what! This was one of those
times, and I started to cry. I said to Raymond, simply
"No, I want to thank you because it was the best day of my
life too." With thirty- two years of experiencing life, I
think this was really saying something.

We drove up in our driveway and parked. Neither one of us
got out of the car right away. We needed to wait till the
tears dried up. As we entered the house, Raymond ran up to
his mom and kissed her. Her coolness she was wanted to
exhibit towards me was expressed to Raymond, and he ran off
to his room. I had dutifully called Marie on the way to the
movie and explained all the right things. I was going to
catch hell for planning the birthday Saturday! It did not
make sense. This, my friends, was the definite beginning of
the end between Marie and me. No two people have the best
days of their lives and come home to this shit. I was still
the bread winner and man of the house.

I dutifully listened not because I deserved the shit coming
our of her mouth but because I owed it to my wife to let her
express her feelings. And it would have been totally unfair
for me to respond so I said. "Are you finished?" and went to
my office. At this point I had to decide to just let this
happen too.

I checked yahoo messenger but Jake wasn't online but I had
an addy from Nic so I accepted it. He too wasn't online
though or I would have talked to him. Raymond was online. We
communicated this way often between rooms. I called Jake,
though, to see how he was after the day.

"Hey, dude. What's up? Jake answered.

"I was just calling because I just had a bitch battle and
wanted to hear your voice and talk a bit if you aren't busy.
Kind of thought maybe we could have phone sex cause I am so
horny after what you did to me in the movie."

"Phone sex? Can't you find a boyfriend to have real sex
with?" Jake laughed.

"Actually, I have been looking and I think I may have seen
one at the skate park today. He was the cutest blond kid."
It was my turn to laugh although the laugh was a little
manufactured so he would know I was just kidding.

"Oh, so you are looking to cheat on me, huh?" Jake said.
"Actually, I am over at Richard's planning to cheat on you,
since you got me all lubed up today and didn't complete the
act."

Wow, Jake was telling me the truth with no hesitation. I
responded." Well, at least I have an honest boyfriend so I
guess I will just have to jack off alone tonight."

 I was disappointed but not concerned because I knew we were
going to have an open relationship. There are just too many
people to fuck in life for a guy not to take advantage of
that for your fetish problems, and I had enough of cheating
on my wife in my mind already. The thing is, I think about
life that it is sure as hell tough to find someone to love.

I went on to tell Jake, "You know I think its cool for you
and Richard tonight but promise to think about me at least
one of the times!" I said half jokingly.

"How about if I think of you all of the times except, I
gotta save one for Richard?" Jake said in a serious tone.

"Ok, cool. I'll let you go. Have fun." And no sooner had we
hung up that I got an instant message.

studraymond10: hey dad you there

mnmforu31: yeah what are you doing

My name I thought was cute as it was my initials plus the n
for &...get it?

studraymond10: nuttin...just waiting for nic to get
online...listen can i ask you something

mnmforu31: sure

studraymond10: if you and mom get a divorce...can I live
with you and if she gets the house can we get an apartment
over by nic and jake and sean

Oh my god. What have I done? What is this kid saying? What
is he thinking and what has he figured out? Is this going to
be traumatic for him and Anna if this happens? I just kept
thinking and thinking about it.

studraymond10: dad are you there

mnmforu31: yeah sorry i got a call...raymond lets not talk
about this right now...[I could not lie or answer his
questions either]..lets just enjoy the party next week and
let things happen

My mind was beginning to suffer from redundancy of that last
thought!

studraymond10: ok cool

studraymond10: but just make sure i get to live with you

mnmforu31: ok

Oh dear I had just answered the little shit's question
because I knew I could never leave Raymond with his mother
and would suffer marriage to stay with him. Anna was a
momma's girl and would have no problems as long as we could
get together and shop occasionally.

mnmforu: im gonna  watch tv if you wanta come down

studraymond10: nah im gonna wait for nic to get online he
said he had a surprise for me

mnmforu31: ok. ttyl. i bet this is a sleep with raymond
nite...lol

With this I signed out with the hug sign to which Raymond
put the big kiss and three hugs with the statement "I hope
you come up and sleep with me."

I went to the family room to make a little peace with Marie
but she had gone to the room. I turned on the television and
started watching, but I was drained and fell asleep.



When I awoke, it was 11 o'clock. My god I didn't even have a
chance to go to the bedroom and say anything to Marie. I
went to our bedroom and she wasn't there so I went quickly
upstairs to make sure she had gone into Anna's room. I
slowly opened the door and all was well with the two of them
sound asleep.

My bed was open now but I thought, "Well, I would just sleep
with Raymond tonight anyway because it was such a bonding
day and he asked me too."

Marie and I had slept with the kids sometimes just to keep
close bonds but had stopped sleeping cross gender a couple
of years ago when Anna had gotten too old for me to sleep
with.

I opened the door of Raymond's room slowly without knocking
to keep from disturbing his sleeping. Straight in front of
the opened door is Raymond's computer and computer chair.
Raymond was up. Boy was Raymond up!  He was sitting with his
legs up in his computer chair fully erected with his almost
four inches of ten-year-old meat being stroked gently as he
looked at his computer screen. The four inches was from his
Irish heritage on my side; I am proud to say. I had seen
Raymond's hard-on from a morning glory a few times but this
was a shock. I had just caught my son masturbating. This is
a traumatic event for a boy, and he turned and saw me at the
door. I didn't hesitate but said sorry and closed the door.

Standing in the hallway outside his door. I thought one
million things, the first of which was what the hell was he
looking at on the computer. I thought we had all the
parental blocks so he couldn't get to porn sites. Then I
thought maybe I should knock and go back in and explain how
it was ok or something.

The door opened and, there, standing in front of me, totally
nude displaying his handsome little cock was my son Raymond
the Magnificent. I suddenly had mixed emotions: including
pride, astonishment, fear and the worst one: I felt the
beginnings of horniness.

"Hey come here. I gotta show you something. Are you gonna
sleep with me?"

Raymond turned and I watched his nude little butt saunter
over to the computer. Now I could feel my erection growing
and I was thinking, "Damn it. This isn't right," but I had
to see what was on the computer.

Look. I thoroughly expected to see some nude picture of an
old man on the computer, but instead there were Nic and Sean
on cam fucking.

"This was my surprise." Raymond said as he pointed at the
computer. "Look at Sean's dick!"

Trust me. I was looking at Sean's dick. You don't let
someone give you a complete stroke as he had done in the car
without wanting to see the other guy's dick, There in front
of my eyes was a five inch dick penetrating the ass of Nic,
who was seemingly experiencing total pleasure as he sat on
top of Sean jacking him off with his ass. I guess half-
French is all you need to be to like getting fucked and did
the French invent top fucking cause Nic was just as good as
Jake from what I could see.

But what was striking about Sean's dick was he had
absolutely no hair anywhere. He was nearly fifteen.

"Sean shaves for Nic." Raymond said before I could think of
the reason. "He is going to keep shaved until Nic grows
pubes." Well another casual sexual word coming out of my
son's mouth.

"God this is so hot, dad. Don't you think?" With this
Raymond jumped back up in his chair and continued his
jacking off. He stroked his cock like he had been doing it
for years. What the hell, as far as I knew, he had been. One
thing was for sure: I didn't need to explain shit to the kid
or tell him I was sorry for embarrassing him.

I was the fucking one getting embarrassed. I was standing
now with a raging hard on excited by two young boys fucking
and seeing my son jack off in front of me.

Raymond reached forward on the desk and something I hadn't
seen was a tube of KY gel which he grabbed. He put some on
his left fingers, raised his legs up into his chair and
continued to jack off while inserting not one but two
fingers in his ass. He said "God I want Nick to fuck m, but
I don't think I could take Sean."

I said, "Yeah, Yeah you are right" Trying to put my two
cents in.

"Ok, I'm going to lie down because I am tired."

"Aren't you horny and wanta jack off, dad. This is so hot."

You know I think this kid thinks that jacking off with a guy
is like taking a piss next to him. I was not sure what to
say here but Raymond had one thing right, I was so fucking
horny having started the day with a look- but-don't- touch
boy, Sean, then a two hour movie fiasco and now this.

I said, "Naw, its ok you go ahead." I am just going to lie
down.

Luckily the bed was behind his chair and Raymond wouldn't
see me. I took off all my clothes quickly and lay on the bed
in my boxers. I didn't know how long it would be for Raymond
to orgasm or if he even did orgasm. My god we hadn't even
discussed that yet. I began to stroke my cock with the
images of Jake from the movie going down on me during the
movie. His mouth had been so delightful and his mouth felt
ever bit as good as his ass did. With Jake all of sex was
going to be just perfect.

Raymond moved his chair to the side fully exposing his
computer screen. He had full screened the cam and I was now
watching Sean lie over Nic and suck his cock off. Nic was
not quite as big as Raymond but was definitely a mouth full.
Nic was cut so I guess the American doctors had gotten their
way and scalpeled him at birth. I could see Sean's dick
better now that it didn't have an ass swallowing it. He was
quite handsome even with no hair on his dick. I jacked
harder as I looked at him because he had come on to me in
the truck and this excited me to no end.  Sean had a good
five inches of meat. It was thin, cut and beautifully
formed. My mouth would certainly love to experience him.

Nic orgasmed from this sucking. It was awfully violent for
such a little tyke. Sean sat up and jacked his cock hard,
and I followed the same. I could see that Raymond's chair
was moving more and more as he jacked himself off. I imaged
the three of us jacking as fast as we could. I looked back
at Sean and realized he was close as he got over Nic's
gorgeous boy body and then Sean shot volleys of his load
onto Nic's chest- shot after shot going everywhere. This
sent me into near orgasm and suddenly Raymond turned his
chair and faced me looking straight at me and Raymond
orgasmed looking straight at my dick. As he put his head
back and let out a wonderful moan, I was sent through the
roof. I shot the first shot into my face. The second went to
my upper chest and four or five spurts of sperm shot
everywhere on my lower chest.

My breathing was as heavy as it ever had been. I was looking
over at Raymond totally spent from the event and Sean was
now licking up some of his sperm off Nic's chest which he
then transferred so skillfully with his tongue to Nic. I
think this was a show for Raymond as Raymond had turned to
watch the exchange.

Raymond said, "Do you need some Kleenex and grabbed the box
from his desk and brought it over. He, of course, was dry as
turning 11 in a few days is not quite old enough to shoot. I
did, however, notice a slight bit of leakage of something
from the tip of his cock.

As I reached for the box and took it with my right hand, it
gave Raymond a clean shot at my sperm covered chest, and he
put his fingers into my sperm, scooped some up and brought
it up to his mouth for a taste.

I was mortified and would have stopped him if he hadn't so
skillfully occupied my hand.

"Damn, dad, that is pretty good, thicker than Billy's and
tastes better than Billy's brother's jizz."

Mortified went to petrified. Billy can't have sperm he is
ten. Plus my son is having sex with Billy's older brother
who was a senior in high school!

As I cleaned up my sperm, I realized that Billy was behind a
grade so he could be as old as 12 now going on thirteen so
this answered one question in my mind. But the other
bothered me more.

"Are you and Billy having sex with Billy's brother?" I just
had to ask.

"Oh god, no. He is straight. We just heard him once jacking
off and popped into his bedroom and threatened to tell if he
didn't let us watch him. When we were finished though he
asked if we wanted to taste it, and I did.  Billy didn't
because it's his brother."

"Oh, ok, that's good to know." I said without explanation.

 I looked over at the cam and the guys were waving with
grins on their face. Then Nic typed something. Raymond typed
back and there was a short exchange before both boys waved.
Sean gave an extra hard wave. With that, they signed out and
so did Raymond.

"I told them you watched." Raymond announced. "They said
that was so cool.'" That made three thousand one times I had
heard "so cool" today.

"Oh yeah, you know Billy was watching too. He came three
times he said. But I don't believe him."

Well that's just great, I have just had sex sort of directly
and indirectly with four boys. Am I going to become a
Jeffrey Dahlmer or something now?

"Hey, dude. I gotta go downstairs and shower this all off.
I'll be back in a couple of minutes." I needed some time to
sort this out before I slept with my son.

End of Chapter 9

Comment from author...to my readers: If this chapter
bothered you, I am sorry. It bothered me, and I hope to sort
this out in Mike's mind in the next chapter. Mike, I think
is a confused man. Confused about his sexuality and where to
go in life. He has a tough marriage that he needs to get out
of and should never have chosen in the first place.
Rebounding is never a good idea and rebounding from a gay
relationship to a hetero one has given Mike a great deal of
sadness and loss in direction in his life. His blessings
though are his children. Gay men who don't follow the course
of their fetish and their desires often fall into the trap
of marriage and whether or not they stay in the marriage for
life or quit and find their own true selves in a male
relationship, if they have children, they should never
regret anything. The children are their blessings and
redemption for the mistake. Please don't be too upset with
Mike if this is not your cup of tea as to what he just did.
I hope he can be one of your best friends someday. I know
that he and the boys will be with me mentally forever.