Date: Wed, 08 Nov 2006 15:42:17 +0000
From: Dean Hargreaves <deanwaltham@hotmail.co.uk>
Subject: My Formative Years Part 2 Adult-Youth

After that man had faced raped me in the bog (toilet) in Southsea I kept
getting hard in bed thinking about him pushing his cock into my mouth. I
would have a wank in bed imagining it happening again. I never went looking
for men, but I sort of wanted to.

In February next year just before I was fourteen I was out on my bike having
a ride. I wanted to have a pee and there were no public bogs anywhere. I saw
a wood and thought I could go in there. There was a car park and cars in it
and I didn't want to leave my bike there in case it got stolen so I went bit
further and hid it in the bushes and crept into the wood. It was a place
called Thatcher's Copse. I kept going into the wood till I found a place
really hidden and then I had my pee. I was doing myself up when I finished
and I heard some noises nearby. I looked as best I could through the bushes
and saw two men. One man was standing up and the other one was kneeling down
and I couldn't work out what was going on. Then I remembered and realised he
was sucking the man's cock like I had done in that bog in Southsea, except
this man was enjoying doing it and I think the man being sucked was too cos
he was making the same noises as the man I was forced to suck had made, cept
he didn't call the man sucking him all the names I got called.

I got a hard on watching this and then the man who was standing sort of
shouted/cried/groaned and I guess he must of cum... It was awesome! I was
like really horny and had a stiffy in my shorts.

I walked back through the woods to where I had hidden my bike and a couple
of men passed me going the other way. They looked at me and my shorts and
then started playing with their cocks in their jeans. I didn't realise then
what it meant. I got to my bike and rode the long way home.

In bed that night I thought bout the man getting sucked and also the man
doing the sucking and the men playing with themselves and it sort of
clicked! The men were like telling me they wanted sex! I cum two loads in
bed that night.

In April, like eight weeks after my fourteenth birthday I rode my bike to
Thatcher's Copse again. It was my Easter school holiday and it was in the
week. Mum was at work so I had all day. I got there like about 1200 and I
hid my bike and went into the woods. I couldn't find anybody at all and I
walked like all over the wood. I was going to leave when on my way back I
saw this man about 50 I guess. He saw me and he looked at my face and then
my shorts. I was a bit away from him but I could see what he was doing and I
got a stiffy and it showed. I got nearer to him and he looked at my shorts
again. He looked very nervous but he put his hand in his pocket and I could
see he was groping his cock in his trousers. Not sure what I was supposed to
do I copied him.

The path was narrow and as I got to him and went to go past him he grabbed
my cock through my shorts. ^Ö WOW it felt horny! I just like froze I didn't
know what I was supposed to do and he started to wank me through my shorts.
It felt good and I let him do it but I was very embarrassed and went bright
red and kept just looking down, but all I could see then was his cock bulge.
I thought maybe I should feel him and so I gently touched his cock through
his trousers his cock through his trousers. It felt hard and quite big and
he sort of gasped as I did it. He let me do it for a bit and then whispered
that we should go somewhere a bit more private.

He led me through the bushes on paths I hadn't noticed before until we got
to where I had seen the other two men. He opened his fly and pulled out his
cock. It was quite big and quite thick. It was very read with a big knob end
and like bumps and veins showing. He put my hand on it and then pushed my
shorts down. My shorts had like an inner bit so I didn't have pants on
underneath and so my cock popped out real hard.

He played with me for a bit and I played with him and then he knelt down and
put his mouth on my cock. It was like MAGIC, it felt better than when the
man had done it in the bog in Southsea. He sucked me right into his mouth
and also rubbed and groped my bum and balls. I was like nearly cumming.

He stopped and stood up and then gently pushed down with both his hands on
my shoulders. I guessed what he wanted. I was like terrified but real
excited at same time. I knelt down and he pushed his cock towards my face
and I opened my mouth a bit and he pushed it in.

It was different from in the bog in Southsea. This was more gentle and his
cock was warm and felt good. I sucked it for him and he rocked it in and out
of my mouth. He said I was a really good boy and I could suck cock really
well and I soon tasted something in my mouth. I thought he was cumming but
it was pre-cum and it didn't taste bed, it was quite sweet taste.

He started rocking a bit more and soon I was like sucking less and he was
like fucking my mouth more. Each time he sort of got more into my mouth and
sometime I gagged as it went really deep into my throat. I could tell he was
close to shooting. He was moaning and groaning and then he rammed his cock
deep into my mouth two or three times and the last time he held my head and
held his cock in my throat so I couldn't breathe and he made funny noises
like he was being strangled and he cum a huge load in my throat. I had to
swallow it or I would of drowned. He must of cum four or five lots before he
pulled back. He was panting really heavy and out of breath.

I stood up and thought he was gonna suck me off then but he did up his
trousers and said that he never thought he would meet a young cock sucking
kid in the wood today. He said thank you and walked off!

I was rock hard and dripping my own pre-cum and like really frustrated. I
felt like he had abused me and that I was dirty. I had to cum so I wanked
off and then I went back to my bike and rode home. I cum two times in bed
remembering and I like knew I was gonna go back again to Thatcher's Copse.

It was like nearly three months before I just HAD to go back to the Copse. I
felt dirty wanting to suck men off but I was just so horny and frustrated
that wanking was no good anymore. The weather was not too bad but I wore
jeans and not shorts cos it did look like it might rain. I hid my bike like
the first time and walked into the woods by my secret route. Quite soon I
saw a fantastic guy sitting on a fallen tree. He looked about 30 and had a
shaved head and a really fit ripped body. His white shirt was bulging with
muscles. It got me horny right off just seeing him. He saw me and stood up
and started walking. His walk was just a camp mince and I got turned off
right away. I walked down a path I didn't know and found myself in the car
park which had quite a few cars in it. Some men were in the cars and some
were outside talking and some cars were empty. I turn round and started back
up the path. I didn't want to be out in the open in the car park. I heard
car doors slamming and saw back through the bushes that seven or eight men
were walking along the path from the car park behind me. I got scared cos
this was like just too much and too many. I looked around and saw a little
path on my left that vanished into the trees and bushes and I went in there
and hid. I was crouching down and I could just about see the path I had been
on and saw the men approaching where I was hiding. One by one they walked
passed and I thought about what might have happened and got horny and opened
my jeans and dropped them and my pants and started to have a wank. I watched
and waited until I could be sure that they had all gone and it was safe.
Then I heard a noise behind me.

I turned round still on my knees and found myself starting at pair of
bulging workman's jeans. I looked up and saw the face of a man about 45/55,
he was in workman's clothes. I started to get up and he put his hand on my
head and told me to stay where I was.

"You wouldn't want to stand up and let those men know where you are would
you, but looking at that cock in your hand maybe you would"

I went bright red and looked down at the ground.

"Shy are we just cos we like looking at men. Go on kid look up and look at a
real man"

I raised my head and as my eyes got like level with his crutch I saw he now
had his cock out of his jeans and it was hanging half hard just in front of
my face with his balls out behind it too. I went even reader but didn't
move.

"Like what you see? I can see you are still hard. I think you had better get
me hard too don't you?"

"I d d don't think so mister thanks"

"Actually I wasn't asking I was telling, or I might get angry and start
shouting and that will bring all those men back here and they will find you,
on your knees in front of my cock with your dick in your hand. I wonder what
they would make of that??"

I just froze where I was and he moved even closer to me.

"Either grab it or suck it kid, your choice"

I gently held it and he sort of started to fuck my hand.

"Wank yourself kid, go on have a wank as your wanking me"

I did what he said and he started sighing He got harder and harder. His cock
felt like a hard bone in my hand but it was also warm and sort of soft as
well.

"That's enough of that now put it in your mouth, suck me kid"

I know I should not but I was turned on now by his cock, his aggressive way,
my wanking and the humiliation. I leaned forward and opened my mouth and
sucked his cock in. I hated what I was doing but it was like a drug addict,
I needed it.

At first it was mega. His warm cock filled my mouth and I sucked on it and
he groaned and moaned. I love to make a man make noises like that. They
think they are in control but really it is me getting them like that not
what they are doing. After a while I could feel his cock was growing a bit
more and he started to take over.

He put his hands either side of my head and started to rock his cock in and
out of my mouth. It was ok and his cock only like hit the back of my throat
now and then. Slowly he got like more active and now he was starting to
really fuck my mouth. His cock was like banging on the back of my throat and
he was getting more forceful until the knob end was pushing into my throat
and then down my throat. When it went right into my throat I couldn't
breathe and my eyes bulged and I gagged. He laughed and said I should
breathe each time he pulled back. I did what he said and it was easier and
he fucked harder and harder, the end felt like it was in my chest when he
was right in. He was making some wonderful noises and I was wanking as best
I could whilst trying not to let him knock me over by his forceful fucking.
He suddenly pushed really hard into me, froze, made a sort of "Ug Ug Ug"
noise in his throat and I felt him shoot. He shot about three times in me
and then he suddenly pulled right out and he shot two more lots on my face.
I crouched there with his cum in my throat my mouth and over my face. I
HATED him but I was still mega hard and wanking.

He looked at me and laughed.

"I just knew you were a horny little cock sucking slut kid. How old are you"

I swallowed the cum that was still in my mouth, coughed and then I told him
I was 14.

"Sweet, not often you get a kid your age in here, sweet. You're a natural
cock sucker kid, really good. Shame I can't get hard again quick or I could
try what else you have to offer. I'm sure you're made for that too."

I had no idea what he was meaning.

"Well I gotta go kid; you want me to send another man in her for you?"

"No please No"

"Ok but I'm sure that's what you want, after all you still hard and dripping
and you need to cum now. You'll be back I know, you got the taste and you
will want more and more. You won't be able to help yourself"

He did up his jeans and patted me on the head.

"Just a great sight kid. A 14yo cocksucker on his knees, cock in hand,
waiting for a real man's cock to suck. Hope we meet again soon. Bye for now"

Then he just walked off leaving me on my knees wanking my own cock with his
cum running down my face.

I was confused. Was he right, did I enjoy it? No I didn't! But I WAS hard
and I WAS wanking and I did like they way he spoke to me and humiliated me.
I hated him, but wondered if I would ever meet him again. Of course he was
wrong. I wouldn't do it ever again I was going home for a shower and to
clean my teeth.

I did up my jeans even though it was painful and I was bulging. I found the
path I knew back to my bike. I was going along when I bumped into a man who
looked about 60 or more. He looked at me, looked at my cock and then started
rubbing his through his trousers. I just stared at him as he rubbed himself
then open his fly and pulled out his cock and balls. It was not as big as
the other man's and the hair had grey in it but it was still a fat cock and
looked nice. I just stared and then suddenly realised that I had got mine
out and was wanking it. He smiled and took hold of mine and put my hand on
his. We wanked each other right there in the middle of a path!

He bent over and sucked me, it was heaven and I almost shot as soon as he
put it in his mouth.
He stood up and just put his hand on my shoulder. The pressure was almost
none but I found myself dropping to my knees. He looked down at me as I
looked up, and he smiled.

"So sweet, so willing, so submissive, an old man's dream come true"

I didn't need to be told. I took his cock in my mouth and sucked him. He
didn't fuck he just let me do it al and it seemed no time before his cock
stiffened and grew and shot load after load of cum in my mouth. Because it
was not in my throat but in my mouth I got filled up quickly and even though
I tried to swallow it some ran down my face. He sighed and moaned and it
sounded beautiful.

He gently pulled his cock out, lifted me to my feet and whispered

"Thank you son that was wonderful"

Then he dropped to his knees and took mine in his mouth and sucked me. It
took like seconds before I cum the biggest load I ever had cum in my life. I
almost screamed it felt so good and yet the cumming was so strong it like
hurt too at same time. When I had finished I felt my knees buckle and I
started to fall down. He grabbed me

"Wow nipper take it easy, you enjoyed that didn't you"

"Yes" I whispered

"I did too; it is something a man of my age will never forget. Don't often
get that treatment form a boy your age, but somehow I just knew you would"

"Mister, how did you know?" I wanted to be sure it was nothing my friends or
mum would notice.

"It is called Gaydar nipper, gay men or boy lovers just know, but the cum in
your hair and on your face was a give away too. If I was you I would get
cleaned up before anybody else sees you like it. You got a man's cum in your
hair and on your nose and forehead and my cum running down your chin and
neck. Don't worry only men who would want you to suck them off, or even
more, would know the signs"

He smiled. Patted my cheek and then walked slowly away.

I felt still hard! My legs felt weak and I felt dizzy form the cumming. I
felt used, disgusted and dirty, and I felt horny as hell.

I cleaned myself up and then found my bike and rode slowly home. My mind was
like doing my head in and I couldn't work things out.

I went back a few more time over the rest of the year and I guess by the
time it was near my birthday, when I would be 15, I had sucked off about six
men in total. Most of them only played with me or sucked me a bit before
they got me to suck them, but one man licked my bum and I went like crazy as
it felt just mega!! It only happened the one time but I wanted it to happen
again. The men must have been aged between like 30 and 70 I guess but I'm
not good at ages. The worst time was when I was in Fareham and I bumped into
a mate of mine from school. He had a man with him and he told me it was his
granddad when I saw him later at school. I had sucked off my mate's grand
dad in a wood!!

I hated myself for what I did with men. They humiliated and abuse me. They
used me for their own pleasure and not for mine. It was disgusting and I
resisted as much as I could. But I was like an addict; it got just so bad
that I had to have sex with a man again. So I rode to the wood 2 day after
my 15th birthday on a grey February day.


I hide my bike and walked round to the car park. It was almost empty and the
few cars there could be dog walkers, I couldn't tell. I walked into the wood
where I knew men would go. It was quite soon when I saw a man. He looked
maybe mid 50's I guess, grey with a bit of a belly. I had his hand in his
pocket and took it out as soon as he saw me. Some men did that when they saw
me I guess they didn't think I was there for sex and so got scared. He
walked away. I walked on a few minutes later I saw the same man again
walking towards me. He didn't look too bad so I put my hand in my right
pocket and stopped walking. He looked at me sort of surprised, and then at
my crotch and hand, and then put his hand in his pocket and I could see his
fingers reach towards the bulge that was growing in his trousers. I copied
him and he immediately took his hand out of his pocket and grabbed his bulge
outside his trousers. That was new to me and like q very quick response. I
carried on rubbing myself in my jeans and he walked towards me and just
reached out and felt my cock. This was like very quick reaction from a man;
most times it took longer than this. I didn't pull away and he said quietly:
-

"Not here kid, come with me to a quieter spot"

I followed him and we went through some bushes and into a space I didn't
know about. It was quite clear and there was a tree that had fallen down
that stopped us going nay further. We could have gone over or under it cos
it was only about my waist height but he said: -

"This is great kid, lets get started"

I turned round surprised as he was like moving really quick into sex and saw
that he had his cock out and was wanking. It looked massive. I suppose it
was only about 19cm but it was very thick and had a huge fat knob end on it
with a big pee hole in the end.

"Don't just stare at is nipper, get hold of it, and get your jeans down and
get your out."

I went bright red but did as he said and dropped my jeans and briefs. My
cock sprung up hitting my belly.

"Sweet, turn round nipper show me your arse"

I did that but was getting worried. I didn't like they was he whistled when
he saw my bum. I was not into getting fucked. I turned round to face him

He bent over and sucked my cock. He was good. Then he knelt down and sucked
it some more and slipped a hand between my legs and very very gently rubbed
my bum hole as he sucked me. It was HEAVEN! I started to get quite close and
both my cock and my bum sorta jerked.

"Horny little bugger you are. You like your bum played with?"

"Yes" I replied in like a hoarse whisper.

"You ever been fucked nipper"

"No"

"You want to be?"

"No thanks"

How old are you?"

"I'm 15"

"You don't look it"

"Well I am my birthday was like two days ago"

"Well you like a 14 year old with a 12 year old's bum. Now it's my turn"

He stood up and I felt the familiar pressure of two hands on my shoulders.
My resistance was gone and I almost threw myself to my knees and opened my
mouth and tried to take his cock. I was really horny, I wanted to feel his
cock in my mouth and hear him moan as I made him feel good and then hear him
yell as he cum because of me. I couldn't get it in! The knob end was too
fat. I tried and tried. I licked under then head. I put my tongue in his pee
hole. I did everything but it was just too big to go in my small mouth.

"Here let me help you kid"

He put his hand behind my head and pushed me forward quickly as he pushed
his cock towards my mouth. My mouth felt like it was being ripped at the
edges as the fat head farced its way into my mouth and my teeth touched the
shaft. He suddenly slapped my face hard.

"No teeth, I didn't use teeth on you"

I did my very best and soon he was quietly moaning and rocking backwards and
forwards sort of just gently fucking my mouth as I sucked. Slowly he got
more active and pushed further. That fat head hit the back of my throat and
I gagged. He pulled back and did it again, further. I gagged more. He was
getting really active now and I was having trouble breathing and his cock
was starting to go into my throat and even down it a bit. I could feel my
eyes bulging and they were watering. I wasn't crying but it must have looked
like I was. He was saying the usual things that men do.

"Yes you slut suck it. Nothing like a sweet boy's mouth and throat. Take it
you bitch, take my man cock.  Kid you were born to suck cocks and please
men"

I had heard it all before, but it was exciting at the same time.

He got going so fast and so deep I thought he was gonna cum but he held my
head each side and with a big pull took his cock out of my mouth. My jaws
ached with being forced open so much, and my face was wet where my eyes had
watered.

"I know you don't want to be fucked nipper, but could I rim you, lick your
bum hole for you?"

I remembered the time before when a man had done it. It was MEGA!! I agreed
right off.

"Ok kid, just bend over that tree and I will take you to heaven."

It did it. I never thought I just did it and he knelt down and played with
my cock and licked my bum. Oh God it was sooo good. He actually pushed his
tongue into my bum. I almost cum right off. He kept licking my bum and then
sliding his tongue right up my back and kissing my neck then back down
again. The feeling was amazing and the anticipation of his tongue getting
back down to my bum was almost too much. He had stopped playing with me by
now or I would have cum. I was dribbling everywhere it felt so good. I felt
his tongue pushing into my bum once more. I moaned and sorta pushed a bit to
get more. He started his trip up my back, licking my spine as he went.

Then a forearm was across my neck and something much much bigger was pushing
into my bum; and I realised I had been very stupid.

I screamed like I didn't know I could as he cock ripped and forced its way
into my bum. I heard him laugh.

"Scream kid, scream. You have no idea how much that turns me on to hear you
scream as I take your sweet arse"

He pushed and I screamed more and he pushed more but it felt like he was
getting even harder. Eventually he put his hand over my mouth.

"Don't want anybody hearing you and interrupting do we, unless you want
another man to join us?!

I shook my head. By now I was crying and I couldn't seem to focus my eyes
right.

He slapped my bum really hard several times.

I'm gonna take my hand off you mouth kid. You can moan and yell a bit but no
screaming. If you scream I'll beat your arse black and blue and I'm gonna
fuck you regardless. If you make too much noise then other men will hear and
you could end up with a queue waiting to fuck thus sweet tight little arse
of your. Would you like that?"

Again I shook my head. He took his hand off my mouth and started pulling out
and then pushing back in. It hurt like hell and I cried and yelled and
moaned and he held me pinned down by his body over my back. I felt his hand
on my tits and he started to rub them. It felt good. Then he pulled them and
it hurt but it sent like an electric shock down to my cock which had gone
very soft. Then he pinched my tits and I yelled and again it shocked my
cock. I felt his other hand on my soft cock.

"You not enjoying this nipper? Well I am your arse is the tightest ever. You
had to be a virgin. Am I hurting you, good I like doing that to sluts like
you that go around tempting men with their looks and arses, teaches them a
lesson. I'm gonna put a bottle under your nose and you gonna sniff from it!

I felt a small bottle under my nose and he pinched the other nostril. I
didn't know what it was and there was no way I was gonna sniff anything and
die. He twisted his hand so he was not only blocking my nostril but also my
mouth. I tried and tried and held my breath but I had to breathe. I took a
huge sniff of air!!

Suddenly my head was like gone. All I could feel was my bum with his big
cock, my tits and my cock. He started to really move and held the bottle in
place. I sniffed again and it got worse. The pain was still there. It hurt
like hell as his huge cock ripped in and out of my bum. Deep inside so it
seemed to be in my belly then pulled back so the knob end was trying to
force its way out and turn my bum inside out. He was like a crazy animal and
I was getting hard. I didn't know about prostrate and stuff and thought it
meant I was enjoying what he was doing to me. Through all the pain it did
feel good. Each time he rammed it in; each time he slapped my bum; each time
he twisted my tits it sent an electric shock into my now hard cock.

He didn't last very long. He suddenly let out a huge bellow sound, shoved
his cock in so hard and deep I thought it was in my chest and he froze. I
could feel his cock jerk in my bum. He held still then pulled back and
shoved it in again and jerked. He did that five times. Then he fell over my
back squashing me to the tree.

After a minute or tow he had softened and he pulled out and off me. I slid
onto the floor. My mouth hung open from either sucking his huge cock or the
fucking he had given me. I couldn't see right and I couldn't think right.

Slowly my head cleared and I saw him pulling a condom off his soft cock. He
leant forward and let the contents fall onto my face which was wet with
crying.

"Kid you look like a boy should when he been properly fucked; shagged out
and covered in spunk. You think this was bad but you are hard and I bet you
remember this and wank about it later. I hope I find you here again, I'd
love a return match, or maybe you would come home with me and we could
arrange a party with a few friends?"

He laughed and did his trousers up and walked slowly away through the trees.

"Thanks kid, best fuck ever if I see anybody else I'll let them know where
you are and what you want"

I heard him chuckle.

I slowly managed to get myself together, scared in case he did send together
men. My bum hurt like hell but I was still hard. I actually wanted to have a
wank but being too scared in case other men came I didn't. I couldn't walk
right, my legs felt weak and my chest hurt from being squashed against the
tree. My bum was stinging from the slapping he had given me and my tits
ached from being pinched and twisted. Whatever he had given me to sniff had
worn off and I could feel the pains now. It almost felt like he was still in
me!!

When I got home after a painful bike ride I had a shower. There were spot of
blood on my pants but not too much. I managed to wash most of it off so mum
would not see. I stood in the shower trying to wash him off me, but I could
still feel his cock in my bum. He had raped me, this man had raped me,
abused and raped me. I kept going over and over in my mind what had happened
until I suddenly realised I was wanking thinking about it and I shot a huge
load all down the shower wall!!

I still felt him in me three days later, after about 8 wanks remembering. I
was never going back to that wood; it was too dangerous. I was never ever
gonna let a man fuck me again. It was 5 months before I did!!!

This is a true story and it happened in England.