Date: Sun, 08 Apr 2007 06:39:36 +0100
From: Nathaniel Andrews <tigertike@operamail.com>
Subject: Nathaniel Part 2 "Gay" adult-youth

It's a scarey thing when your inside voice says something and you know its
right but you don't understand it, a man undressing a boy touching him some
I mean thats just sooo gay but if i wasn't stopping it, what did that make
me?, I never looked at boys or thought about them and girls are just plain
aliens I just dont want to know them at all.

It felt like ages I stood there but it was only minutes before Jack reached
for the remote and switched the TV on then handed me the PS3 contoller as I
took it he lifted me onto his lap which felt really weird not uncomfortable
and not comfortable more like I felt ackward but a few minutes into playing
and I didnt notice anymore. For awhile Jack rubbed my back ok I really did
like that, felt weird to start with but then it felt good his hands were
big and a little bit rough which really itched my back good.  Sometimes he
would squeeze round my shoulders softly a couple of times he ran his hands
up my sides but i jumped to mega ticklish on the sides so he stopped doing
that and by now I was feeling pretty spaced out and relaxed.  He put one
hand on my tummy and pulled me back so i was laying against his chest while
i was playing he pretty much only rubbed my tummy.

I think I played for maybe 45 minutes the games he had weren't to good
ridge racer was ok and the PS3 was cool he just didnt have the right games
for it, as I put the controller down Jack rubbed his chin on the top of my
head

" I didn't do so good with the games right?"


I screwed my nose up " not really they are ok but not really cool ones but
ps3 is very cool " I think that was my longest reply so far



" I love you being here Natty but do you have to be home at a certain time?
we dont want any trouble and it might be better if you dont mention where
you have been" Jack spoke softly from behind me.

Jack had never asked much about home he knew i was a only child because he
asked if I had bros and sisters which I didnt but that was all.

" I always have to be home by 5.30 pm on saturdays I dont get in trouble if
Im a few minutes late but I would if It was like 30 minutes" I answered
Jack half watching the TV as I did.

" well its only just coming up to 2 pm so we are fine" Jack said as he
started rubbing my tummy again " and the other thing?"

I had to think for a minute then I remebered the not saying where i was bit
I shook my head " I just say Ive been at the mall and riding around or
playing over in the reserve its cool"

Its not like Im totally dumb and I guess Jack was just checking but I
already kinda knew you just didnt go telling people you were hanging out
with a 47 year old man, I think Jack was happy with the answers he just
squeezed my arms and said " good boy how about we kick back an watch some
tv?"

Thats was cool with me I just laid back against Jack watching TV he kept on
rubbing my tummy all the time but with his other hand moved the hair near
my neck and a few times kissed along my neck and shoulder, being kissed
like that felt weird and by a man well I couldnt stop thinking this is
really gay, each time he did that he began to whisper things in my ear like
" are you having a good time here baby boy" or " that feel nice baby?" when
he would move his hand around my tummy, how do you answer questions like
that?  I was happy watching the movie and the tummy rub did feel kinda nice
even if i wasnt used to it, the kissing i didn't know what to think about
that, I mean like thats a love kiss and men and boys arn't meant to do
that, then i totally confused myself when I thought well who decided it was
bad, and why is it?

 Things were about to change again, I was laying back against Jack my legs
were between his sort of crossed at the ankles had been since I had played
the ps3, I think because part of me knew he might try put his hand down
there. Bad touch they call it at school if it happens you are meant to tell
someone, I knew all this and I knew Jack was the sort of person they were
talking about , but I couldn't see him as a bad person.


So far he hadnt done anything more than run his finger had run across the
top of my undies plenty of times ,he never went lower and what he said next
came from nowhere, he lifted me a little higher onto his lap so my head was
resting against his left shoulder as he whipsered in my ear

" Put your legs over mine so they are spread nice and wide for me baby boy"
he whispered softly as he kissed my neck


okkk umm that 's like a take a deep swollow moment it wasn't hard to work
out why he wanted me to , it had to mean he was going to touch down there,
he had even said so they are spread wide for him, my head felt a little
dizzy from trying to think it through, I so hate being a little thinker
some times, and you know while Im thinking and looking at my legs and its
like they have their own brain I watch my left leg as i lift it and hook it
over his, then my right one do the same no kidding at the same time Im
thinking "what the?"

" thats my baby boy nice and wide " this time Jack kissed my cheeck and I
felt my whole body go tight as he reached down and put his hand between my
legs I could feel my shakey breathes and gulping as i tried to swollow, I
could feel the warmth of his hand through my undies on my nuts and willy,

" just relax baby " he said softly as I watched his hand he had it flat now
and was just lightly moving it up and down on my nuts I think my eyes were
wide like a possums, I was sort of biting on my bottom lip trying to stop
my breathing sound so weird, and the only stupid thing i could think was if
he keeps doing that im going to get a stiffy.

" thats my boy lets get that dicky nice and hard so you can show me" Jack
whispered again in my ear

hey! HEY !! wait a sec that stupid inside voice said, I have a willy or a
dick or even a penis but dude I do not have a dicky!  i havent had one of
them since i was 3.

 I really wanted to say goo goo ga goo gaa then say in baby talk that means
IM 12 YEARS OLD! and yeah what about this show you? I dont think so mister
!  I don't understand me, Im laying there watching his hand making my nuts
sort of tingle hearing his voice in my ear talking about showing him my
hard dicky and the softness of his voice makes me feel so far away and
nothing else seems important and I just nod my head, which is just the same
as saying * yes Jack make my dicky hard*.

 Lame huh and you know Im not a weak, sure Im not the toughest kid in
school and I hate bullies but I can stand up to them, I can get into doing
some things I shouldnt not bad bad I guess mischief bad, I roll my eyes at
teachers when they annoy me even talk back if I think im right but some how
Jack took my 12 year old me away I just kept feeling like a little kid
around him.

As Jack kept touching, it wasn't long before I was totally hard and feeling
a little uncomfortable as my willy pressed aginst my undies, but his hand
felt so good and I was a bit spaced out by how a mans hand could make me
feel that way, the next few minutes happened like i was a million miles
away I cant say it better than that it just happened, no thinking about it
no pause I couldn't stop myself one bit from obeying his voice.

Jack could see by now I was totally hard as he touched

" Show me now baby, show me your hard dicky"

I watched as my hands reached for the front of my undies lifting them up
and pulling them over my willy which was now pointing right back at me as
Jack watched

"You are a little cutey for sure sweety so beautiful " Jack said as he
reached taking my willy with his finger and thumb and began to stroke it up
and down

yuk mush!  cutey, sweety, beautiful these are not cool words for a boy and
its only a willy but it was like something special to Jack I dont have the
puberty but I think Im a pretty good size 10 cm's when Im hard ( i measured
haa!)  not a donkey but not a weeny either some boys have the skin on the
end some dont, I dont and my nuts are the same as any other boys I guess.

My breath stayed shakey as Jack kept stroking up and down on my willy, at
first every muscle in my body ached because I tightened everyone of them
but then as he stroked I relaxed more and more until sometimes my legs
would tighten against his, sometimes I would feel myself holding my breath
then i would have to take a deep breath, sometimes I just wanted to really
wriggle around with how good it was feeling but i felt a embarressed when
my muscles kept doing weird things, and my breaths started to get deeper.

 I started to want so bad to move up and down moving my willy faster
between his fingers, i knew I was getting real close to that feeling you
can make happen, but then I couldnt go on I was to shy and nervous to to
let that feeling just happen, I didnt want Jack to see me wriggling around
when the orgasm would happen. I let go of the front of my undies which I
was still holding down for jack as he stroked, Jack didnt say a word just
took his hand away.

" I have to get going " my shakey voice suddenly said it was 10 minutes to
5 I could have stayed maybe another 15 minutes and got home in time still.
I wondered if Jack would do something he knew I was real close but he
didn't

" You're right baby it is getting late, lets get you dressed again"

And he did Jack totally dressed me in my clothes again I said I could ride
home from there but he said he would feel a whole lot better if he at least
walked with me back to the plaza so he did.  I said seeya, he said " Bye
Nathaniel I really enjoyed today ride home safely" suddenly i was the same
12 year old I was before I went his house but with a whole lot to think
about.



part 2b

I had lots of thoughts that week I wondered what would have happened if I
went those few minutes longer, I wondered why I did stop, even though i
knew why partly because when we get close our bodys want to do such totally
weird things and thats embaressing in front of someone, and because most
boys my age have started the puberty and cum when they get there and i dont
which makes me feel a bit less than them, not that it bugs me Im the only
one that knows but if i did have had the orgasm Jack would have known then
to, I wondered what he was thinking and if he was wondering if i would tell
on him or something like that, i wondered if I was gay, and if I would even
go back there again.

Saturday came around again kinda fast really , I could have not gone over
that day but part of me thought maybe Jack would get mega worried and think
he was in huge trouble or something the other part me wanted to see if the
touching had been a one time thing maybe he would never do that again, or
maybe its just that I wanted to feel it all over again.

I had my shower put some jeans and a t shirt on even put on the yellow
undies with orange as i pulled them up I thought Im putting them on because
I know Jack likes that colour how weird is that, got on my bike and rode
over. Jack was already there before me and he sure looked pretty pleased
when I got there.

" I wasn't sure if I would see you this week" he smiled

" how come?" I looked up at him shrugging my shoulders he didnt answer that
right away, instead Jack just asked if we were staying there or going to
his place, I said I didnt mind which ever but I knew right away where Jack
would choose to go, and I wanted him to make that choice so I didnt have to
that way it didn't look like I was busting to go to his place.

  As I rode my bike beside him now that noone else was around he answered
my how come question

" I thought you might be mad at me Natty, thought maybe I wouldnt see you
again" Jack said a little more serious than he normally talked.


I knew what Jack meant that maybe he had gone to far and I would tell
someone about it, all I could really say was my big line " its cool" I'm
guessing that answewr was all he needed because we weren't to far away from
Jacks house when he caught me with a question I wasn't expecting at all

" So why did you come back Natty?"

I couldn't get any words out, I didnt know how to answer that so i just
kept peddling slowly hoping he would forget that one

" You're such a shy one arn't you?, but I think you like me undressing you
and looking at you, i think you like having men look at you naked dont
you?"  Jack continued asking

my face was getting hot and not from peddling the bike we were out in the
middle of the street sure noone was around but I wasnt one bit ready for
all this.

"I dont know" I answered standing up on my bike and peddling just ahead of
Jack, that was my normal answer when I really wasnt going to answer the
question, it's sort of like when you have done something you shouldnt at
home like left a few toys laying around and you get the * who left their
toys laying around!?* its my same answer " I dont know" and Im the only one
that could have left them around haa!

" I think you do know Natty" Jack called out by that time we had reached
his house.

Jack went to the kitchen and poured a couple of cokes and put some biscuits
on a plate and put them on the coffee table

" So do you Natty?"

" what?"  I looked up at Jack

" do you like being undressed at looked at by a man?"  Jack stared back at
me

I was getting into grump mode a little I didn't see why he had to keep
saying that so I just reached for the remote and switched the TV on as if I
lived there. But Jack wasn't stopping he sat down in a chair and called me
over, I rolled my eyes as I got up and blew some air out my mouth like it
was some big hassle.

" what ?"  I frowned at Jack

"do you like being undressed and do you want me to undress you right now?"

He wasn't quitting on this, I wanted to say no, but it wouldnt come out
because I knew it was exactly true , I knew I went to the plaza today
knowing it could happen again, no that wasnt really true either, I went to
the plaza today hoping it might happen again, I knew that was the truth I
had thought about all week sometimes at night even imagined Jacks hands and
how they felt and in my imagination he stroked my willy until I had the
orgasm.

" yes" I mumbled softly looking down at my feet, Jack had won he had got me
to say it part of me was a little angry about that but I already felt Jacks
hands taking of my runners then my socks as I stood there, I put my arms up
as he took my t shirt off then rans his hands down my chest softly until he
reached the button on my jeans and popped it open then undid the zipper and
began to slide my jeans down slowly.

I watched as Jack pulled my jeans down to my knees, I watched as I lifted
my left leg for him so he could pull the jeans off my foot I hadn't even
thought about doing it, as I put that foot down Jack ran his hand up the
inside of leg all the way up then rubbed his hand softly between my legs

"I'm going to make you feel real good baby boy no stopping this week" He
quietly said as he reached for the Jeans still on my right leg I lifted
that one to with out thinking it was like my mind had stopped trying to
think about it, Jack looked at me all over standing there in my undies, he
put his hands on my waist turning me around rubbing his hands up and down
my back and bottom just like before, then turned me back to face him
putting his hand on my back and pulling me just a bit closer, I felt my
breath suddenly get shakey again Jacks hand was back between my legs his
hand was almost flat as he just rubbed in backwards and forwards between my
legs.

" Get them legs spread wider apart " he said still rubbing softly but his
voice was a little more serious, its funny being told to do it more serious
made it alot easier its about that choice thing I didn't have to choose so
I just wriggled both legs wider apart it was like Jack controlled me I just
did as he said and I couldnt stop myself, with his one hand still rubbing I
could feel his other hand in the middle part at the bottom of my back and
then he started to keep pressing there, at first I didnt get why but then I
realised Jack had stopped rubbing between my legs but was just holding his
hand still between them.

I felt more presses on my back which sort of pushed me forward a little and
back again I still didn't get it until jack said

" Show me what you need" Jack used the same gentle but serious voice and I
didn't understand it at first but with his hand still making presses
against my back I suddnely knew what he wanted and began to slowly moved my
hips backwards and forwards which meant I was rubbing my own willy and nuts
against his hand


" Thats my boy show me what you want" Jack said I could see him smiling as
I began to move my hips in a steady rythem rubbing up and down on his hand
and it was starting to make me feel really good , I looked down at my own
hips moving backwards and forwards as I rubbed against his hand and I
couldnt help thinking that it looked kinda sexy not just that it was sexing
me up something fierce.

" Thats my baby boy , look how much your hard little dicky is liking that"
Jack said as I kept up the rythem I could feel my willy almost aching under
my undies, I wanted to close my eyes and see nothing around me just feel
how good it felt.

" tell me you want it to feel good Natty, tell me you want a man to make it
feel good for you" as I rubbed foward Jack kissed my undies right where my
willy was

 Why did he have to say man, why did he have to like always say man or men
instead of just him, why couldnt he just say tell me you want me to make it
feel good, I didnt understand why he always made this point of saying man
like it meant admitting something really big , which got me to thinking
maybe I did only like being touched by a man, I hadnt thought about
anything much before,

" I want to feel good " It sort of rolled out my mouth fast and shakey

" Tell me properly Natty" Jack replied still with his serious voice

" I want a man to make me feel good" my ears and face burned as I said it
not so much because I had to say it because right at that minute I knew I
wanted a man to make me feel good.

Jack moved his hand away and I felt them on my waist as his fingers locked
around the elastic on my undies and he slowly started to pull them down.