Date: Tue, 8 Oct 2002 20:02:01 -0700 (PDT)
From: m o <daytool86@yahoo.com>
Subject: Opening the door- chapter 3

Hello all,
Once again, I would like to thank all of you who took
time to read this story, and a special thanks to all
of you who emailed me.

As usual a disclaimers apply, If you are underage or
if you are offended by gay love/ possibly sex between
minors, or if it is illegal for you to veiw this
material, please stop reading now.  Well here is the
third chapter, email any comments to me at
daytool86@yahoo.com


	As I left my house I had so many thoughts racing
through my head.  "Where is Sean?", "What am I going
to say to him?" and "Fuck, how could this happen?" are
just a few.  I was running as fast as I could trying
to figure out where he may have gone, I decided to
hope he didn't go to one of the other guys' house, so
I ran to the park first.  Its only two blocks from my
house, so I figured that would be the closest place
for him to go.  I looked all over but there was no
sign of him, from there I headed up to the abandoned
train tracks.  I ran all over them, checking all of
our chill spots.  I finally got to the old walls that
once connect a bridge that was torn down years ago.
It was in the woods behind them that I found him.
And what I saw was a complete shock.  I just stopped
dead in my tracks and stared.  It was completely
unexpected.  Sean was sitting on a fallen tree,
crying.  When I finally overcame the shock, I slowly
walked over to him, he hadn't noticed I was there.  So
I spoke first and said "Umm hey Sean, we need to
talk."  He looked up and just began to sob harder.  I
didn't know what to do.  I was so confused.  So I sat
down next to him on the tree.  "Sean, please, we need
to talk, please come back to my house".  He finally
spoke "Uh... um... ok" he stuttered. We both got up,
and he tried to stop crying, he began to wipe his
face.  We walked back to my house in silence, not a
word was spoke between us.
Now before I continue with this story, I feel the need
to describe Sean.  He is around John's height,
5'4"ish, maybe a little shorter.  He has lighter brown
hair, green eyes, and like John, is also smooth.  His
skin is also very soft to the touch.  Sean is the kid
that everyone picks on.  He has a depressed
personality, he feels as if no one likes him, he has
considered suicide and he has cut himself before.
Sean constantly calls himself a loser, and just takes
the verbal abuse from all of us.  I try to be nice to
him, I know what its like to be in his situation, but
it is often easier to just join in with the crowd and
make fun of him.  But I make sure he knows I am only
joking, and I always try to make sure he is ok, so
when I saw him crying, not only was I shocked, but I
was very concerned for his sake, as well as John's and
mine.
	When Sean and I got back to my house, we found John
in the backyard, smoking feverishly.  When he sees us,
he immediately jumped up and began rambling things
such as Oh my god, Sean, please don't tell anyone what
you saw, please".  He was going crazy.  I had to
interject and say "John, calm down, lets all sit down
and talk about this".  We all sat, lit up cigarettes,
and I started the conversation.  "Now Sean, when you
first came, we were both horribly worried you would
tell everyone what you saw, but after what I saw on
the tracks, im not so sure, would you mind, please,
helping John and I out and telling us what your
feeling and thinking right now?"
	"Well, umm, I just don't know, what I saw was such a
shock, b... but don't worry, I won't tell anyone one."
	"Oh my god, thank you so much" said John.
	I continued the conversation with "I thank you as
well, but I am confused, why were you crying, I dont
understand."
	"Well, its, just, umm, well, its like this, when I
saw the two of you together, you looked so happy.
And, well, like, I felt so sad because Ive never been
that happy.  I mean you two obviously like guys, and
you were able to find eachother, and confide in
eachother, and love eachother.  But me, im all alone.
See, I have share your secret as well, I too, am gay."
	Well that statement took John and I by such surprise,
both of our jaws just dropped.  We never expected this
to happen, I mean we never expected eachother to be
gay, and now Sean is too.  Sean continued what he was
saying with "And I guess as long as im sharing, I
might as well get it out and say, John I like you, I
like you a lot, Ive liked you from the first time I
met you."  This again, another huge surprise, but was
even more shocking was when John said "I like you too,
Ive wanted to tell you I was gay for so long, I just
didnt want to lose you as a friend, so I kept my mouth
shut."
	Well, this left me completely crushed, all these
years, I had been longing to find another person who
liked guys, and now when I finally do, another gay boy
comes along, and it turns out they like eachother.  I
couldn't be around them at that moment, I said I had
to go inside, and I ran inside, up to my bedroom, and
began to cry.


Well thats chapter 3, 4 should be up within the next
few days.  Email any comments to me at
daytool86@yahoo.com  Thank you