Date: Sat, 19 Oct 2002 20:29:54 -0700 (PDT)
From: m o <daytool86@yahoo.com>
Subject: Opening the Door 5

Hello All,
First of all I'd like to say thank you to all that are
reading this, second I want to say that I'm sorry that
this chapter took longer to get out than normal, I've
just been real busy.

As usual all disclaimers apply, if it is illegal for
you to read this, or if you are offended by gay minors
having relations, then please stop reading.

Please email any comments to me at
daytool86@yahoo.com, I appreciate any feedback, hope
you enjoy this chapter...
	When I woke up the next morning crying, at first I
was confused as to why, but then last nights events
replayed in my head, and I cried even harder.  I
didn't know what to do, I like John so much, and he's
so helpless, I don't know what I can do.  I finally
calm down enough to call John's house, his sister
answers, she says both her parents are at the
hospital, and John woke up late last night.  The
doctor's should be releasing him later this morning,
they kept him over night just to make sure there was
no internal damage.  I was so relieved, as soon as I
hung up with John's sister, I called Sean, he was
still in bed when I called, so I was the first to give
him the news.  He too was relived, he said he was
coming over.
	Like 10 minutes later or so, my doorbell rang, and
Sean was there.  We were both so happy that John was
going to be ok, that as soon as I answered the door,
we just began hugging eachother.  Tears were coming
down both our faces.  I could see he had been as
concerned as I had.  During our embrace, Sean leaned
into my face, and we kissed.  It was shocking, I never
expected it between us, and I have to say I liked it.
Apparently Sean did as well because we kept kissing
for a good 5 minutes.  It was electric, the feelings
running through me were amazing, first of all John was
ok, and I was also kissing a guy.  The second guy I've
kissed in the past 3 days, its so weird seeing as how
before then I'd never done anything with a guy.  When
we finally broke the kiss, we both just took a step
back and stared at eachother, both in complete shock,
not knowing what to do or what to think.  We decided
to, at this point, pretend it never happened.  We
decided just chill in the back and smoke for a while,
until John got home.  Around 12 we decided to call
John's house again, see if he was home and if we could
visit him.   He was at home but he was asleep, his
parents said we should come over at 2.  In order to
kill time, Sean and I decided to go out and get some
lunch.
We went to a pizza place that was a few blocks away.
As we were eating two really cute guys came in, and
the best part was that they were gay.  They were
obviously a couple, they were all over eachother, not
like kissing or anything, just a lot of flirting, and
not your typical lets be stupid teenagers and pretend
to be flirting, it was real, you could tell by their
tone.  So after we finished eating, Sean and I decided
to go over to talk to them.  We introduced ourselves
and explained that we couldn't help but notice their
sexuality, and that we had recently come out to
eachother, and we wanted to try to get to know some
other gay teens.  Their names were Noah and Andy, and
they were very nice, both very cool.  They were 17
years old, and they say they have been together for 6
months.  They told us about this gay coffee house not
to far away from where we lived, where they met
eachother.  We had said we should all go there
together sometime, but seeing as how it was almost
1:30, Sean and I decided we had to get going, we gave
Noah and Andy our numbers and screen names, and got
theirs as well.  After we left we stopped back at my
house for a little bit, then we headed over to John's.

	When we got to John's, his parents let us in and said
that he was down in his room, and he seemed excited
when they told him we were coming over.  Sean and I
went down to his room, and I wanted to cry when I saw
him, he was all bandaged, and he just looked so
helpless.  John was really glad that we had come over
to see him, we all talked for a while, but he was real
groggy and out of it, from all the pain killers he was
on, but he was still his normal cute self.  Sean and I
told him about Noah and Andy, he said he definitely
wanted to check the coffee house out, and we wouldn't
mind meeting Noah and Andy.  After a while John was
getting real tired, but he just wanted us to sit with
him until he fell asleep.  When he said that, my heart
melted, it was so adorable.  It was only a few minutes
before he fell asleep, when he did I just watched him
sleep for a few minutes, it was so cute, but sad to
seem him in that state.  When we left Sean and I each
kissed his head, and then left.
	We were silent on the walk home, but as soon as we
got inside my house, Sean started crying.  I wanted to
cry to.  I said to Sean "Oh my god, he looked so cute
and helpless, I feel so bad, I really wish I had done
something."
	"Yeah me too, it makes me feel so bad to see him like
that, he's just so adorable, how could somebody hurt
him."
	"I don't know, I'll just never be able to understand
how fucked up with world is, it just doesn't make
sense how people can be so cruel."
	"I know exactly what you mean."
	We talked about Sean for awhile, when the phone rang.
 It was Andy, he wanted to know if Sean and I would be
interested in going to the coffee house that night, I
wasn't sure what to say, so I asked him if I could
call him back in a few minutes, he said sure no
problem.  When I hung up I told Sean who it was and
what he wanted, we weren't sure what to do, seeing as
how we hadn't told them about John, and we felt bad
leaving him all alone.  We decided to call John and
see what he thought.  He said we should go, and we
kept asking him if he was sure, because we felt so
bad, but he kept insisting.  He was like "Go, please,
don't feel bad about me, that way, when I get better,
since you two will have already checked it out, we
will all be able to go together."  So after we hung up
with John, Sean and I decided to go.  I called Andy
back and told him we would be going.  We decided to
meet at that pizza place at 7, so we could all go in
together.
	After that, Sean decided he would head home to get
ready for tonight.  I did the same.  I was so confused
about my feelings though, because I felt so bad about
John, but I was also really excited about tonight,  I
was really hoping I might be able to meet someone,
because although I like John a lot, im not sure it
would work out, because then we leave Sean out, and
John also likes Sean.  Oh boy, I was confused on what
to do,  I guess I'll just have to wait and see what
happens tonight.


Well thats it for chapter 5, I hope you enjoyed it,
and I hope to have 6 up soon.  Please email any
comments to me at daytool86@yahoo.com.  Thank you.