Date: Wed, 1 Apr 2009 21:44:49 -0700
From: Tom Baxter <tbax93722@hotmail.com>
Subject: Pensacola 13

I am sorry this chapter was so long in coming... I have been on vacation.

This story is fantasy. It never happened. If it is illegal or inappropriate
for you to read this, don't.

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Copyright 2009

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Pensacola - Chapter 13
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Josh felt a drip of sweat roll down the side of his face. He was
concentrating hard and was as focused as he could possibly be as he flew
his T-34C to within a few feet of his lead aircraft. Josh had advanced into
the `formation' stage of his flight training where he would learn to fly
most of the maneuvers he had already become skilled at while flying just a
few feet away from another airplane.

Josh was pleased that he was scheduled to fly this first formation flight
with Lt Pride. Not only did he already know the lieutenant, but he also
knew that as a carrier jet pilot, Lt Pride was an expert at this type of
flying.

The lieutenant's style of instruction had not changed in the last several
weeks, however, and Josh was feeling the pressure coming from the rear
cockpit as he was scolded for not holding the relative motion between the
aircraft to a minimum.

The lead aircraft's pilot gave the hand signal for the next exercise, a
`break-up and rendezvous'. First, with two fingers up, he waved his hand
back and forth and then he performed a `kiss-off' as he brought his fingers
to his lips and threw his hand open towards the canopy. This was Josh's
signal to roll into a high angle-of-bank turn away from the lead aircraft,
thus `breaking-up' their formation.

Once Josh was about 1/2 of a mile away, the lead aircraft rolled into a 30
degree angle-of-bank left turn at 150 knots and held steady. Josh
maneuvered his aircraft inside the lead's radius of turn, found an
imaginary line 45 degrees off the nose of his lead and began to close the
distance between them.

If Josh slid forward of this 45 degree line, he was considered to be
`Acute'. This was undesirable, because it became more difficult to see the
lead. If he slid aft of this 45 degree line, he was considered to be
`Sucked' which was detrimental because it was difficult for the lead to see
him.

As Josh approached the other airplane, he lowered the nose of his aircraft
and passed a few feet under the lead's plane and then climbed up on the
other side and hung off of his right wing. Lt Pride rode on the controls
with Josh during the first two rendezvous to demonstrate the maneuver and
to show Josh the necessary movements of the control stick. Josh was used to
the lieutenant's instructional screaming now, so it didn't bother him like
it used to. He understood that Lt Pride was just trying to teach him.

Later, Josh found Ryan in the study center. "Fuck, that formation shit
really takes it out you. I was workin so hard I had sweat pouring down my
face!" Josh exclaimed. "Shit, was it scary? Was it hard to hold the
aircraft in position?" Ryan questioned. Ryan was a few flights behind Josh
and hadn't flown in formation yet, so he interested in learning as much
from Josh as he could.

When Josh was finished relating the details of his recent flight, Ryan
looked him in the eyes and said "I love you Josh!" Josh took a quick glance
around to ensure they were alone and said "I love you too cutie." Josh
reached over and squeezed Ryan's arm as they sat across the table admiring
each other.

"What's gonna happen when we get sent to opposite sides of the world?"
questioned Ryan worriedly. "Fuck, I can't even deal with thinkin bout that
shit right now. I gotta focus on flyin" said Josh. "Ya, I understand
dude. That's one of the things I really respect bout you... ur so
focused. But eventually we are gonna have to face it... we aren't gonna be
here forever!" reasoned Ryan.

                            ===============

Several weeks had passed since Josh, Brandon, and Ryan had professed their
love as a threesome and they had been through several ups and downs.
Brandon would feel left out because Josh and Ryan were together at work and
shared the same knowledge and goals. Ryan would feel left out because Josh
and Brandon would have their little intimate dinners and Jacuzzi tub
sessions that Ryan didn't really feel invited to.

Occasionally, when Josh was caught up at the base, Ryan would hook up with
Brandon alone. Ryan seemed so young and less focused than Josh and that was
refreshing to Brandon. Though Brandon loved Josh deeply, the intensity of
their relationship was sometimes burdensome and wasn't always fun. With
Ryan, Brandon could really let loose and have a good time.

Though the love between them was real and passionate, Josh, Brandon and
Ryan felt like they were not quite fulfilled. In a healthy two-way
relationship each partner could be confident that they have the complete
attention of their partner.  In a three-way relationship, however, the
partners might feel on the surface that they are fulfilled because they
almost always have one of their partners present, but a problem arises
because they are never quite sure where they stand as far as their status
within the threesome. In other words, one might ask, "do the other two
possibly love each other more than they love me?"

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Ryan and Josh arrived at Josh's apartment, Brandon was already there
working on dinner in the kitchen. Brandon liked cooking at Josh's where he
could usually find all of the ingredients that he needed for whatever he
was making. Tonight, he was making tacos.

"Hey guys!" Brandon greeted them. "Hey lil buddy!" said Josh. "Hey dude!
Whatcha cookin?" replied Ryan. "Tacos!" Brandon answered. "Cool, let us get
out of these flight suits and we'll come give you a hand" Josh suggested.

A little later, Brandon assigned Ryan to cut up tomatoes and lettuce and
Josh suggested that margaritas would taste good with the Tacos and got the
blender out. They each relayed their days and joked around while they
worked on their specific tasks.

Brandon thought that the story of his day at school paled in contrast to
the stories that Josh told of his first formation flight and Ryan's
description of flying to NAS Atlanta for lunch. Brandon felt like an
outsider, he didn't know some of the `inside' jokes, he didn't know all of
the jargon, and he had never had these same experiences.

Brandon relayed the one thing that he did at school that he knew would get
Ryan's attention. "I ate lunch with Spence and John today" said
Brandon. "You hung with Spence?!  Did he mention me?" Ryan questioned
excitedly. "Ya, he said that you and him are hangin together on Wednesday"
Brandon replied.

"Did he say anything else? Did he say that he likes me, or thinks I'm cool,
or anything like that!" Ryan pressed. "Na, I really didn't talk to Spence
much, I was talking mostly to John. Turns out he's a pretty cool guy!"
Brandon answered. "As a matter of fact, John and I are kinda hittin it
off. I think we are going to hang out more" Brandon continued.

"Shit... On our `date' on Wednesday, I gotta figure out if Spence is into
me or not.  It's driving me crazy. I really wanna be with him!" Ryan
declared. "Fuck! What about us dude! If Spence said he liked you, would you
just dump us to be with him?!" Brandon said, obviously hurt. "Ya dude, ur
talking to us about Spence like we're just a bunch of buddies trying to get
laid, not like you are in a relationship with us" Josh sided with Brandon.

"Shit, I'm sorry dudes! Ya you're right, I'm kind of disregarding our
relationship when I say stuff like that... I just feel though, like I would
like to have a relationship of my own" justified Ryan. "Ur own! What the
fuck do you mean!"  Josh replied, beginning to become upset.

"God, I'm fucking this up! I don't mean to upset anyone" Ryan replied, on
the verge of tears. "Well, I just don't get it, dude! Are you with us or
not?" Josh demanded. Brandon eagerly waited for Ryan's reply with tears in
his eyes.  "Listen guys, I love you man... I love you both dearly, but I
always feel like I'm on the outside. I joined this amazing relationship
that you had together, but I can never see my relationship with either of
you being as tight as the relationship you already had" Ryan explained.

"Notice that you even define that feeling as the way you `see' it, but did
we ever do anything to make you feel that way?" Josh questioned. "No, you
guys have always been so nice to me! But I can't help the way I feel. I
feel that I am on the outside and I don't want to screw up ur guys' awesome
relationship or my close friendship with you" cried Ryan. "I just thought
if I could find a really cool guy of my own, maybe everyone would be
happier!" Ryan continued.

"You feel on the outside! That's the way I feel!" Brandon broke in. "You
guys are always jokin and telling Navy stories, I don't even know what's
goin on!" Brandon pouted. "Shit Brandon, I'm sorry! I never meant to cut
you out when I'm talking to Ryan" Josh apologized. "Brandon, I'm sorry
too. I just can't stand the thought that you might think that I was
stepping in and taking Josh from you. I love both of you sooo much!" Ryan
fretted.

Josh managed to get everyone settled down. He acknowledged that there were
misconceptions on everyone's part on how their relationship was proceeding.
Each of the boys professed their love for the other two, so at least that
was not the problem. The problem seemed to be in their perceptions of how
each of the others felt.

They decided that they would each be extra sensitive of how the others
might feel as they went forward. They agreed that Ryan should try to find
out where he stood with Spence, because he was never going to be satisfied
until he did. And then they put it to rest for the time being, because they
all enjoyed each other's company too much to be upset with each other.

"These tacos are kinda runny!" Josh jokingly complained as he bit into one
end and the meat squirted out the other end. "Hey watch where ur pointing
that weapon!" Ryan shrieked as he dodged an oily taco splatter. "Fuck you
guys, I tried!" pouted Brandon. "They're gooey, but tasty cutie!" Ryan said
with a big smile as he leaned over and gave Brandon a quick kiss.

"You guys are falling behind me on your margaritas!" complained Ryan. "I
can't keep up with you anyway dude, just pour yourself another one"
suggested Josh.  "Ya, I'm gettin a buzz already dude... I gotta slow down a
bit" said Brandon.  "Slow down?!! Let's put some music on!" Ryan
prompted. Josh cleaned up the kitchen while Ryan gave Brandon an impromptu
dance lesson.

"Ok, put ur right foot out like this... and then lifting ur heel, let a
wave flow from ur foot to ur head" Ryan instructed. Brandon moved his leg,
hips and torso as he followed Ryan's directions. "Ur too rigid dude! Loosen
up and let it flow with the music!" Ryan coached. Ryan stood behind Brandon
and held him tight, forcing Brandon's body to mimic his movements.

Brandon liked dancing with Ryan. It made him feel free and sexy as Ryan
broke Brandon's stiff posture and forced him to move with the music. "It
looks like we're having fun in here!" Josh announced as he entered the
living room. "Join us!"  Ryan prompted. "I think I'll just watch" Josh
chuckled. Josh was like Brandon, his reserved nature took a bit of alcohol
before he could really let loose and groove with the music. But, he really
enjoyed watching his two boys dancing together, though.

"Let's fill the Jacuzzi!" suggested Brandon excitedly. "And all three of us
get into it?" Josh questioned. "Sure, why not. Its big enough... we'll just
be extra cozy!"  Brandon giggled. Josh looked at Ryan. "I'm game. It sounds
fun!" Ryan agreed.

After the tub had filled, Josh turned on the jets and Brandon found the
bubble bath and squirted a bunch in. "Watch it dude! We don't want the suds
to fill the whole room!" cautioned Josh. "I like lots of suds!" said
Brandon.

The three of them striped naked and settled into the tub enjoying the
invigorating massage of the Jacuzzi jets as well as the intimate contact
between them.  Brandon initiated some sexual horseplay as he reached
between both Josh's and Ryan's legs and grabbed their cocks in his
fists. "I just need a good massage...  move over a little sweetie, so I can
get this jet on my back" said Josh.

They began talking about their lives and the journey that each of them had
taken that lead them to where they were today. Ryan and Josh, of course,
had a few more years to gather experiences than Brandon, but even his story
was interesting.

Josh knew most of Brandon's background, but sat and listened again as
Brandon related to Ryan the story of how his father had left and his mother
had raised him while working several jobs at a time. Josh explained how he
was raised in suburbia, the only child of a medical doctor and a dotting
mother.

"You guys were both an `only child'?  Shit, I got an older brother that
used to beat me up from time to time" laughed Ryan. "How much older is he?"
asked Brandon.  "Just 3 years, but when I was 12 and he was 15, those 3
years made a big difference, not to mention that he is just an all around
bigger guy than me anyway" Ryan explained.

"So you were the runt of the litter?" joked Josh. "Fuck you! He was just
really muscular early on. He played football, dated the cheerleaders, and
all that gross shit" Ryan laughed. Josh and Brandon giggled in
agreement. "What's his name?"  asked Brandon. "Chase" replied Ryan. "He was
a good older brother though... If anyone got up in my business, Chase would
kick the shit out of them, but we never really talked or got really
close. He really didn't know me" Ryan explained.  It was obvious that he
regretted the superficial relationship he had with his brother when he was
young.

"So he had big muscles; was he cute?" Brandon asked eagerly. "Ya, he was
like Spence; the most popular, hot, confident guy in his class" Ryan
replied. "That's hot! Did you ever see his dick?" Brandon
continued. "Brandon, we're brothers. I saw his dick all the time when we
were little!" Ryan laughed. "Well, did you ever get to touch it?" Brandon
pressed.

"Nosey little fucker aren't you?" Ryan joked. "Fuck, I wanna know too dude!
Did you guys ever fool around?" Josh questioned. "God! I don't know whether
I should even be telling you guys this shit!" Ryan exclaimed. "We won't
tell...  promise!!!" Brandon sweared. "Ya dude, you've got me hard just
thinking bout two hot brothers doin it after Thanksgiving dinner or
somethin... If anything happened, you gotta tell us!" Josh demanded.

"Ok, ok!" Ryan agreed. "Like I said, he was Football and Basketball, I was
Swim Team and Track. He dated all the time, I dated rarely, and then only
for appearances... but I usually had a secret boyfriend on the side though"
Ryan snickered as he confided to Josh and Brandon.

"I think Chase suspected early on that I was gay, but he never said
anything about it. Then, when I was 15, he went off to college and I was
home alone with my parents, but he visited often since he was only over at
UCLA. So maybe bout a year later, he was home one weekend and he went out
with some old high school buddies and got drunk. My parents were asleep
when he got home, but I was still up surfing the net. He came into my room
and started talking to me" Ryan continued.

"He started talking about girls and sex like he never had with me
before. Then he started really pressuring me for details on my sex life. I
was evasive, so finally, he just came out and said it. `You suck cock,
don't you Ryan?' he said to me. I feebly denied it for a few minutes, but
then he said that if I would admit it, he would show me his dick and maybe
even let me touch it."

"Fuck!! What did you do!" asked Brandon excitedly. "Shit, here I was lookin
at this awesome hard package I had been lusting after my entire life, and
obviously he was gettin off on it too. And, all I had to do to get a look,
and maybe even a touch, was simply admit to him who I truly was. So I did"
Ryan admitted.

"And?!....." Josh and Brandon asked in anticipation. "He unbuttoned his
jeans and showed me the nicest dick I've ever seen. You think my dick is
big, you should see Chase's! It's like 9" long and it's beautiful! It's
absolutely straight, nice size head, cut, thick, everything about it was
perfect!" Ryan explained. "Did he let you touch it?" asked Brandon.

"Fuck, we just skipped that part and the first thing I touched that dick
with was my tongue!" Ryan laughed. "It's what he wanted and he put his hand
on the back of my head and just directed me down onto it!" he
continued. "Did he cum?" Josh questioned. "Ur getting ahead of me dude!"
Ryan laughed. "He was fuckin horny and wanted the whole ten yards! He was
panting and moaning and pumping his hips, pushing his dick in and out of my
mouth. Fuck he was shoving his meat so far in, that's when I learned how to
`deep-throat'. But then, he suggested that he fuck me!"

"Awesome! Were you a virgin then?" Josh asked. "Fuck no! But I'd never been
fucked by anything as big as my brother's dick!" Ryan replied. "So I pulled
my pants and underwear off and lifted my legs. He laughed and called me a
`slut' when I produced a bottle of lube. He greased that cannon up and
began to slide it into me. It hurt, but I was in fuckin heaven!!"

"As he fucked me, I looked into his eyes and he looked into mine. It was a
very loving moment... I mean It wasn't like we were in love, or anything,
but I felt like Chase and I understood each other more at that moment than
we ever had in our entire lives. His smile then changed to a look of total
ecstasy and he jammed his cock into me harder as he shot his load. Then he
pulled out, kissed me on the forehead and left my room" Ryan concluded.

"So did you ever do it again?" asked Josh. "No, we never even spoke of it
again.  And now he's married and his wife is pregnant with twins! But, our
relationship changed forever that night. Now, we talk on the phone a couple
times a week, he's majorly interested in my Navy training and we are closer
than any other two brothers I know."

"But he knows you're gay?" Josh asked for clarification. "Ya... We never
discussed that night again, but we freely talk about my sex life, and
his. I tell him about boyfriends and guys I meet, and before he was
married, he did the same telling me about girls he was fuckin" said
Ryan. "What are you gonna tell him bout our relationship?" asked
Brandon. "Chase is very non-judgmental, I have already told him all about
you guys" Ryan divulged.

"Really? What did he say?" questioned Josh. "Well I had told him bout how
crazy I was about both of you guys long before we ever got together. He
just laughed at me and told me to get over it. But when I told him that we
were all boyfriends he said `congratulations!'  He's always real supportive
of anything I really want" Ryan explained. "That's really cool!" Josh
observed.

"Fuck, look at this guy... all boned up an shit!" Ryan exclaimed referring
to Brandon's hard-on sticking up through the suds. "Did my story turn you
on dude?" teased Ryan. "Ya! Sorry, I just got hard!" Brandon
apologized. "No problem dude!" said Ryan as he lifted Brandon's rear with
one hand and grabbed his cock with the other.

Brandon moaned as Ryan leaned in and licked his dick. Josh enwrapped his
own cock with his hand and started stroking himself as he watched Ryan
going down on his little buddy. Brandon raised a little onto his knees as
Ryan's mouth drove deeper and deeper onto his shaft. Brandon's hips began
to pump to meet Ryan's eager lips.

Josh's cock had reached full erection and he was stroking it
furiously. Brandon smiled as he watched the expression on Josh's face. Josh
looked him and leaned in for a kiss. Brandon eagerly met his hungry
lips. They pressed their mouths together and rubbed their tongues as Ryan
continued to bob up and down on Brandon's boy meat.

Josh's hit a frenzy pace as he jacked his penis and searched the depths of
Brandon's mouth. Suddenly semen began to jet from the swollen red cock-head
hitting Brandon's chest with some of it going into Ryan's hair. Brandon
watched this and couldn't hang onto his own load any longer. Ryan eagerly
accepted several squirts of Brandon's cream, swallowing completely.

"Fuck! That was awesome!" Brandon cried out. The three stepped out of the
tub and toweled off the water and suds. "Shit dude, I jazzed in ur hair a
bit" Josh apologized and Ryan stepped into the shower stall to quickly wash
his hair.

School had ended, so Brandon no longer had to get home every night. Now, he
frequently told his mother that he would be staying at Josh's with Josh and
Ryan.  Jane continued to be thrilled by Brandon's association with the Navy
boys.  Though she suspected he was drinking, she knew that Brandon was not
doing drugs. When Jane looked around the neighborhood at the other boys
that Brandon might be hanging around, she appreciated that he chose to
spend his time with young men that were educated and career oriented.

The three boys climbed into Josh's king sized bed and curled into
one. Brandon chose his favorite spot of being between his two Navy
studs. Each of their bodies found comfort in the curves of the bodies of
their lovers. They fell asleep to the rhythmic sound of their heartbeats
and breathing.

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Spence really enjoyed hanging out with Ryan. Ryan was older, a super-cool
Navy pilot, and obviously a chick-magnet. On top of that, Spence liked how
Ryan really liked him. Ryan was always so interested in what Spence had to
say and never minded answering Spence's endless questions about the Navy
and his flying.

This was the part that confused Spence, however. He thought about how much
he wanted to hang with some guy several years younger than himself... Not
at all!  But he realized that this was not really a fair analogy.  Ryan had
a lot more in common with Spence than Spence would have in common with a
seven year old!  "But certainly a cool guy like Ryan could find more
interesting friends than me" Spence thought to himself.

Ryan had taken Spence to the athletic club to play racquet ball. Spence did
not play racquetball regularly, but he was a very talented athlete, so very
quickly he was giving Ryan a competitive game. As they played, they kept
the ball moving fast. This required them to move quickly both to hit the
ball and to move out of the other's way. The result was a lot of body
contact and collisions between the two of them.

Ryan was crazy about Spence. Spence was everything that Ryan wasn't at his
age, confident, popular, muscular, and good with the girls. On top of that,
Ryan really liked how Spence almost idolized him. "Certainly the two of us
could be together!" Ryan pined to himself.

At the end of their two hour court time that Ryan had scheduled, they were
exhausted. Ryan suggested they go use the sauna and whirlpool to sooth
their tired muscles. "I don't have a swim suit" said Spence. "I got an
extra one in my locker" Ryan replied. Ryan took a good look at Spence's
fine build and ample equipment as they changed into their swim shorts in
the locker room.

In the pool, Spence found a massage jet and moved his back around on it to
massage each muscle. "Ahhhh! I love this, it feels sooo good! The school
needs to get one of these whirlpools" suggested Spence. "Ya, and the coach
would never get to go home, cuz the entire team would be in the pool for
hours after practice!" laughed Ryan. "I spose ur right!" Spence
agreed. They alternated between the sauna and the pools a couple of times,
sitting in the sauna until they couldn't take it anymore and then hopping
in the swimming pool and then the whirlpool.

They hit the showers to wash off the sweat and chlorine when they were
done.  Ryan pulled his suit off and hung it on a hook at the entrance to
the showers.  Spence did the same and followed Ryan to the rear of the
shower room and took a shower right next to Ryan's.

Ryan took full advantage of the opportunity to examine every bump and curve
of Spence's body. He thought that it was magnificent! Spence too was
checking out Ryan. Spence had never seen a guy Ryan's age naked before. He
had seen his dad, and the coach, but they were like twice Ryan's age. He
appreciated the beauty of this developed, toned male body and was freely
comparing it to his own. Spence couldn't wait until his own physique
matured into a body like Ryan's, he knew the girls would go crazy for
it. Ryan was not a big guy, but Spence marveled at the definition that Ryan
had developed.

Ryan was aware that Spence was looking at him closely and he liked it! It
was turning him on, and Ryan's 8" cock began to chub up a bit, rising to
about half mast. Spence, in his inspection immediately noticed this and
quickly looked away embarrassed. Ryan noticed Spence's reaction and said
"Shit, sorry dude, sometimes that just happens!" "Don't worry bout it... it
happens all the time with the team after practice too!" Spence laughed.

Ryan was a bit embarrassed as they toweled off and dressed. Spence did not
seem to be phased by it all though. When they left the gym, Ryan suggested
that they go for Italian food "I like to eat some Spaghetti and Meatballs
after a workout like that!" "Ya, Spaghetti sounds good!" Spence agreed.

They were seated at a very private booth near the back of the restaurant
and they took advantage of this discussing their lives and dreams. Spence
professed how he couldn't wait to get into the Navy and start flying like
Ryan. Ryan revealed that his training would be over in a few short months
and then he would be leaving Pensacola, forever.

"So, there is something that has been bothering me" Spence
mentioned. "What's that buddy?" Ryan replied. "I still just can't figure
out why you would want to hang with me. But I think I have theory" Spence
explained. "Oh? What's that?"  questioned Ryan as he was internally
`shitting a brick'.

"Ryan... are you gay?" Spence asked very directly. Ryan got a scared look
on his face and stammered "Why do you ask that?" "I just got a vibe, man. I
just think you might be interested in me" replied Spence. Ryan just sat
looking at him with a confused look on his face. "Look... it doesn't
matter. It doesn't bother me... really! Hell, my best friend is gay" Spence
confided.

"Really?  Who's that?" asked Ryan. "Well, I'd rather not say, just yet. But
I guarantee you if I had a problem with gay guys I wouldn't spend almost
all day everyday with one!" Spence explained.

Ryan was not experienced at coming out to people. He was still in the
closet to almost everyone. The point of this `date' with Spence this
evening was to find out where he stood with Spence, so it would have been
wise to consider how he might come out to Spence, but Ryan hadn't. Right
now he really didn't know what to say.

"So dude, between you gettin a hard on while lookin at me in the shower and
you not denying being gay now... I think I got you figured out. But, I
really don't mind, so let's get past this... Ok?" Spence reasoned. Ryan
nodded and seemed to relax just a little bit.

Spence spoke again "now, what I gotta tell you is that I think you are
amazing, hell, I wanna be just like you! Ur smart, ur cool, ur hot"... Ryan
looked up with a smile and then Spence continued "that's right! I even
think you have an incredible body, but I'm sorry, as much as I like you, it
just doesn't turn me on... I'm just not gay" Spence explained. Ryan was
embarrassed. He had basically thrown himself at this boy and now when Ryan
couldn't find a word to say, this teenager was intelligently and eloquently
describing the situation to him.

"Fuck, when John came out to me and wanted to be with me, I knew I loved
him, even though I wasn't sexually attracted to him. I thought I could do
it anyway but it just didn't work out, and believe me I tried! So now we
are just really close friends... Shit!! I guess I just told you that it's
John that's gay... You gotta keep that to urself, ok?"

"I've never even met John" said Ryan. "Well, ur close to Brandon and he is
good friends with John, so don't tell him" directed Spence. Spence pondered
this for a moment. Suddenly the close relationship that Ryan, Brandon and
Josh had was coming into perspective. "Shit, you guys are all foolin
around, aren't you?"  Spence exclaimed.

"What the fuck you talkin about?" Ryan cried out. Had he given away all of
their secrets? "Ryan, you don't have to lie to me. Remember, I don't care
who's gay" Spence assured him. "Shit, I always wondered how Brandon was
hooked up with you guys. And, I've always suspected Brandon was gay
anyways! This explains everything!" Spence continued.

"Spence, you got it wrong!" Ryan pleaded. "No, I'm pretty sure I don't. And
stop worrying about it. I think it's cool. I'm even a little envious of
Brandon... too bad I'm not gay" Spence replied. "Shit, they're gonna hate
me!" said Ryan. "Don't worry about it!!!  I'm not telling anyone!" Spence
repeated again.

The waiter came with their food, so they paused their conversation
momentarily.  "Ryan... seriously, don't worry about it!" Spence consoled
his older friend as Ryan looked like he was going to cry into his plate of
spaghetti. "I hope the Navy doesn't give you any `national secrets' to
guard though!" laughed Spence.

This brought a smile to Ryan's face as he pictured the enemy using a
professional interrogator to pry top-secret information out of him when a
mere teenager was able to completely figure out Ryan's secrets without Ryan
hardly saying a word! "Ya, I guess I don't keep a secret very well, huh?"
Ryan chuckled.

"So have you ever had a girlfriend?" Spence asked Ryan. "I've gone out with
a lot of girls... even fucked a few, but I've never really been close to
any of them" Ryan confided. "Did you enjoy the sex?" Spence
questioned. "Ya, when I'm actually getting blown, or fuckin a girl I enjoy
it, but after I'm done I don't crave a second round with her" Ryan
chuckled. "So that's how you knew you were gay?"  Spence asked.

"Shit, I think I knew I was gay when I came out of the womb!" Ryan
laughed. "But one thing I think that can really tell you about your
sexuality is what you fantasize about when you jack-off" Ryan
continued. "What do you mean?" Spence queried.  "I mean that when you are
by yourself, dick-in-hand, allowing your mind to explore the entire realm
of sexual possibilities without fear of anyone else's judgment... then,
wherever your fantasies drift to is probably what you truly desire
sexually" Ryan explained.

"That makes total sense! I think about all kinds of shit when I'm
jerkin-off, but I usually come back to the same few things, the stuff I
really like, before I cum" Spence confided. "I'd like to see that!" Ryan
teased. "I bet you would!" Spence shot back.

"So, you fooled around with John?" asked Ryan. "Fuck, I shouldn't have even
told you he was gay, much less talk to you bout that shit!" said
Spence. "Hell, I don't even know who he is, you can tell me!" Ryan
reasoned. "So you actually were in love with him and wanted to have a
relationship with him, but when you had sex, you just weren't into it?"
Ryan pressed eagerly.

"I'm kinda weird" Spence explained "I really like my guy friends and I want
to spend all of my time with them. I really don't like hangin with girls at
all- even though they turn me on, that's why I have a hard time having a
girlfriend. I used to spend all of my time with John, all day everyday, and
we even slept over at each other's houses all the time. It really would
have been perfect for me if I could have just had a sexual relationship
with him" Spence continued.

"But you tried it, right?" Ryan wanted details. "Ya, I tried it!" Spence
laughed.  "One night I was stayin at his house. We decided to do it. We
jerked each other off, I thought that was ok. Then he went down on me and I
thought that was great! I fuckin jizzed in his face! But when I sucked him,
I realized that it just wasn't for me" Spence explained. "What do you
mean?" questioned Ryan. "I mean the whole thing, lookin at guys, touchin
guys, havin sex with guys, just doesn't work for me" Spence concluded.

"Well that sounds like I'm not gonna change ur mind" Ryan stated
solemnly. "Ya, sorry dude... but everything else I said about you I
meant. I really wanna keep hangin with you, unless you don't wanna hang
with me now" said Spence. "Of course I still wanna hang with you!" Ryan
insisted.

"Any chance you might introduce me to John though?" Ryan joked. "Shit, if I
introduce you to John, you won't want to meet up with me anymore, Fuck
That!  Ur just gonna have to pull on that cock of yours all by yourself my
friend!" Spence laughed.

"But really dude... you can't tell anyone that John is gay!  So – I
guess you can't fuck him either" Spence demanded. "Well, you got some
secrets you gotta keep too dude! No one can know about Josh and Brandon!"
Ryan shot back.

"Ok, I think we're both cool. We just gotta keep our mouths shut" Spence
agreed. "But really man, please don't just ignore me cuz I won't sleep with
you!"  Spence continued. "Don't worry Spence, I love you so much I don't
care if ur not gay, I still want you around me even if I can't touch you"
Ryan reasoned.

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