Date: Sat, 7 Sep 2002 21:16:40 -0700 (PDT)
From: tag michaels <tag_m@yahoo.com>
Subject: Ray Of sunshine-alternate ending

The response I have gotten from the other ending has created a down pour of
correspondence. Amazingly most of it has been favorable. While incredibly
sad for many including myself, it had a ring of reality to it and a
reminder that life is so short and so unpredictable, to grab the brass ring
when we can.  I debated long and hard as to whether I wanted to submit
this, choosing to let the original story stand as is. As you can see, I
have chosen to give you, the reader, something a little lighter if that is
your choice.  I have however been so overwhelmed by the story, that I have
started a full length novel based on it. Time will tell.

Thank you all for your support and letters.
Tag Michaels


The last week of the summer before school started, Jared wanted to go to
the water park, some hundred miles away. It was an all day thing, we left
early, got there as the gates opened and spent the day. Leaving when the
park closed. My baby boy was so pooped out and tried to stay awake and keep
me company for the drive home but he couldn't.  "I love you so much Shawn,"
he whispered before he fell sound asleep against the door, his beautiful
head on the window.

 At the first stoplight just on the outskirts of town, is an
intersection. The road on the right leads to a manufacturing plant where
big rigs come and go at all hours of the day and night and is a blind
spot. You can't really see the road until you are in the intersection, nor
can drivers see the highway from it, almost until they are at it. The light
was red as I approached and turned green so that I didn't have to slow way
down but had downshifted to third. As I entered the intersection I saw
headlights almost on me from the right then the sound of tires screaming as
air brakes were applied. Because I was in third gear and had been
accelerating, I had a fair amount of power left and stomped on the gas
which shot us forward. It most likely saved our lives. The truck slammed
into the bed of my pickup right at the rear tire blowing the tire out. The
impact spun me around so fast that the right front fender of my truck then
hit the side of the rig, which spun me again so that my left side slammed
into the trailers side, shattering the drivers side window, the windshield
and the back window.  In effect, the whole thing had spun me 270 degrees.

Jared and I were both wearing seat belts, saving us from serious injury and
possibly death. I managed to stop the truck from moving and reached my hand
for Jared who was sitting quietly, blood running down his forehead,
obviously in shock.  My whole left side was on fire and I felt warm liquid
running down my head and face as well. All of a sudden people were at the
side of my truck and asking if we were ok, saying an ambulance was on the
way, and I fainted.

I came to in a hospital bed with tubes running out of me and bandages or
casts all over hell. I glanced to one side and saw Jared awake and looking
at me, and a huge grin split his face when he saw I was okay. I was
obviously drugged to the max, tried to smile back and my eyes dropped back
shut.

The long and short of it was that both Jared and I had fractured skulls
from being banged against the cab of the truck, as well as fractured
ribs. I had a broken left arm, dislocated shoulder and possible damage to
my back from being torqued around so fast. My face and head had a multitude
of cuts from spraying glass and it was plain fuckin luck that I hadn't lost
an eye. Jared had some glass cuts as well and both knees were injured from
cracking into the dash. Needless to say the truck was totaled.

The next time I regained consciousness Jared was asleep but Megan was there
and came to my side when she saw I was awake.

"How are you feeling Shawn," she asked quietly, concern clearly etched on
her face. I could only whisper but said ok. I asked about Jared.

"Jared is fine Shawn. Banged up, some cuts, fractured skull and ribs but
he'll be going home in a day or two.  It's you that had us worried. We
talked a few minutes more then a doctor came in, and ushered Megan out
while he checked me over explaining my injuries. He said he was going to
keep me in the hospital for about a week for testing and observation, and
removal of various stitches.

Jared went home the next day and I was left on my own. Megan came by each
day to see how I was as did employees from work, and a few other
townspeople who knew me including my landlord who told me not to worry
about the rent for the time being. My parents and grandmother came and
stayed for a few days before going back to the city, which was fine with
me. My mother drove me nuts.

Jared came by with Megan one day and was an absolute cheer, my little ray
of sunshine.

"How are you doing Shawn, boy, was that an adventure or what. The doctor
says you can get out in a few days.  I'm feeling a lot better but I been so
so worried about you Shawn, I'm glad you're okay."

"I'm glad you're okay too B. Jared, yes it was a scary thing." I almost
said baby boy and I think Megan knew I was going to say something then
caught myself.

A few days later Megan came by herself. She said that an attorney had
contacted her about suing the company, and the company's attorney had
called asking if we were suing and offering money to settle things before a
suit could be filed.  The attorney who talked to Megan stated that a
moderately large suit could probably be won, enough to help her out
financially as well as guarantee her son a college education. That would
apply to me as well. Needless to say, all hospital expenses would be
covered, and best of all, it would most likely be settled out of court. The
company and it's driver were clearly negligent and if we chose a modest sum
as opposed to trying for zillions then an out of court settlement was all
but assured.

"The next thing is Shawn, that you will be getting out of here in a few
days, you're going to need someone to help you for awhile. Do you have any
plans for that?" I admitted that I did not. She went on.

"Well there are nurses who can do that sort of thing but really, it seems
that mostly you'll need help in the shower, cleaning up and possibly
someone to help fix your meals and it also seems to be a big expense to
hire a nurse. Jared and I talked about it and he would be willing to stay
with you for as long as you need him."

My eyes almost popped out of my bandaged head, I was sure. Megan went on
softly,

"I've known about you and Jared for sometime Shawn . You know, Jared loves
you with every fiber in his body.  I know you and he are sexually active
and I had some concerns when I found out. I wouldn't say I freaked out but
I had concerns. When he told me how long you have been involved and that he
initiated the whole thing, I realized that all of it preceded the changes
that he has gone through. It's like he's settled about who and what he is.
I simply cannot find it in me to interfere with that, not when he is so
happy and things were going so well for him. The few times I saw you two
together after Jared told me, it was very clear to me.  You are very good
to him and for him Shawn and I believe that he's good for you as well. I
know that you love him as deeply as he loves you. All I ask is that you
don't hurt him."  I paused for a moment to collect my thoughts. I was
embarrassed. I, a twenty something year old, was having sex with her
thirteen year old son and here we were talking about it.

"Megan, I could not and would not ever do anything to intentionally cause
Jared a moment of pain. I love him so much, he means so much to me, that
sometimes I get scared thinking about it. He has turned my life upside
down, yet he has righted it as well. I cannot imagine living my life
without him in it, I would not want to live without him." I was so
overwhelmed with emotion by this train of thought that tears were running
down my face. Megan hugged me, as much as she could under the circumstances
and said,

"I know Shawn, I know."

A few days later I went home and Jared went with me. He washed me, helped
me around, fixed me simple meals from things Megan had cooked for us.  My
Grandmother came over for a few days and slept in the guest room on a bed I
rented and didn't seem phased about Jared sleeping with me, or helping me
with other personal things. One day, we were sitting in the living room
when Jared went out to get the mail. She said somewhat whimsically,

"I felt that way about your grandfather you know, that he was the other
half of my life, that which made me complete." I must have had a look of
shock on my face. She chuckled.

"Of course I know Shawn, only a blind person could miss how you and Jared
feel about each other. Your adoration, your love, is as clear as day even
to an old coot like me."  She smiled then added, "besides, you both were
somewhat noisy in your adoration after you went to bed at my house. Then of
course there was the shower running all the time" I must have blushed
horribly because she went on.

"I'm not a fool Shawn, nor am I one to judge people's behavior's,
particularly when it comes to love. Love is meant to be honored and
cherished, when it can be found. You take care of that boy Shawn, and he
will care for you and your love will sustain you both through anything. I
haven't said a word to anyone else, nor will I.  That's for you to deal
with as you see fit, not me."

As Jared came running back in with the mail I was beginning to wonder if
there was anybody who didn't know we were lovers.

Epilogue:

The company settled out of court as predicted, bought me a brand new Jeep
Grand Cherokee, paid all medical expenses and would continue to pay related
medical expenses for 10 years. And I got a settlement that put a million
six in my bank account.

Megan got the same medical deal for Jared plus about six hundred seventy
five thousand, after attorney fees.

We all had a big chat and decided that we might try living together. Jared
really didn't need much parenting but since he and I were lovers, which
would necessitate some shift in adult power, and he was after all still a
young teen, it was agreed that I would act as a father type. Never once did
I ever have to be anything other than a lover and friend to him. Needless
to say it was a little strange having sex with him in the same house as his
mother but we all managed to fall into it pretty easily.  We moved to the
city, Megan and I both home schooled Jared and we both went back to school,
me for an MBA and Megan for a psych degree.

It's ten years now since Jared and I first met. I love him as intensely
today as I did back then and there is no doubt that he feels the same. We
have yet to have a serious argument about anything and continue to act like
the young lovers we once were, still being sexy at least once a day on most
days.  Jared turned out to be a whiz kid with computers, majored in
computers in college and we now live in Hawaii running a specialized
business that builds computers, computer systems, and programs for
businesses and people from all over the globe. I managed to parley the
insurance settlement into something four times as large and growing so
neither Jared or I have to work if we don't want to and in fact, we take
extended vacations frequently throughout the year. My gramma comes to visit
a couple times a year and adores Jared as much as I do.

Megan got her psych degree and eventually married one of her professors, a
PhD psychologist. They started, and run, a non-profit foundation in Seattle
for gay and lesbian youth. I managed Megan's settlement as well so she and
John don't have to work either. Like us, they take a lot of vacations,
sometimes with Jared and I.

Megan wants grandbabies so Jared and I are considering adoption or possibly
finding a surrogate mother and Jared donating sperm, which I get to help
him make.

My family knows Jared, knows we are lovers and once they got over shock
have been just fine. My mother wants grandbabies too so maybe I'll do the
sperm donation and surrogate mother thing too.

 The front door opened and I heard my baby boy come through the living room
to the lanai, padding on bare feet. He kissed me on the neck and said,

"Look who I found wandering around with nothing to do." I turned to see
Ikaika standing in the living room.  'Kikes is a local boy, about fifteen,
drop dead fucking cute with a shredded swimmers body that both Jared and I
love to worship. Ikaika lives in our building and loves to have us worship
his body as often as possible, and since both Jared and I have very gym
toned bodies, well, I'm sure you can figure out the rest.

"So, kaika, whassup?" I asked. He said nothing, undid the snap on his board
shorts and let them fall to the floor allowing his seven and a half inch
long, rock hard teenage Hawaiian cock, proudly speak for him.  I walked up
and kissed him on the lips, my hand stroking his beautiful penis. Jared
joined in, undoing my pants and pulling them down so I could step out of
them, before stripping his clothes off. I was still amazed at, and in love
with, Jared's body. It was much the same as it was ten years ago, firm,
defined, with soft skin and a delicious bubble butt. His cock had grown to
about six and half inches, almost exactly the size of mine, his balls had
gotten larger and hung nicely between his legs, and he kept his pubic bush
nicely trimmed.

Naked, we all fell to the floor and began kissing and sucking and licking,
and slurping all over each other.  Moans and groans filled the condo and
soon I had my cock buried inside kaika's ass clear up to my balls. I fucked
him while he suckled Jared's cock, and Jared held Ikaika's young cock in
his hand so that my fucking him cause the boy to fuck into Jared's
hand. After a ton of sperm was released, never to reproduce, our wonderful
Hawaiian play toy went home for dinner and Jared and I sat on the lanai,
naked, Jared snuggled up to me on the bench so I could hold him. We split
an ice cold beer as we sat quietly watching the sunset, me, and my little
ray of sunshine.