Date: Tue, 30 Jul 2013 23:27:02 -0700 (PDT)
From: Kiddo Xavier <discreetlyweird@yahoo.com>
Subject: Remembering It All Too Well Chapter 2: I just wish I could stay much longer

The events and people you are about to read are only work of fiction and
just a product of my imagination. Any similar events are extremely
coincidence and not a proof of copying. Be aware of the sexual orientation,
although it is really part of it. But then again why the hell are you here?
O.o *no sex happened on this story though.

Remembering It All Too Well Chapter 2: I just wish I could stay much longer


-Jomar

We both got out of the ride with dizzy feeling crawling all over my body.
But I have to admit. I enjoyed the ride like hell. The feeling was
intense. Earlier I was scared to death in taking the ride. Ever since I was
a kid I am afraid of heights. That?s why I never ride any of these roller
coasters. In fact, I am slightly trembling just by looking outside the
mirror on our office. I never had any experience on riding it if it was not
because of Erick. But what made me decide to try it is because of his
promise. His promise that?ll he?ll always be at my side no matter what and
that he?ll never let me go. I just found the balls and courage to just go
for it as long as he was there.

I laughed so hard at the intense feeling I just felt as I dizzily walked at
the other side of the rail. I looked back and saw Erick laughing but his
hands was rubbing his faces with his head low. I walked at him as I sense
something was wrong. ?Hey, are you okay?? I asked smiling.

?Yeah, of course.? He chuckled before he sniffed with his hands still
covering some of his face. ?It?s just that....?

?Are you crying?? I hesitated as I grabbed his hand to look at his face. He
was crying. ?Why are you crying, hmm?? I asked genuinely as the smile in my
face was swept away. He tried to look away but I was persistent. He finally
looked at me with wet eyes before he broke in laughter again. Jeez, this
man is crazy. ?Are you nuts?? I suddenly asked when I can?t help but laugh
too. ?This thing really hit your head really hard, eh??

?No!!!? He squirmed chuckling. ?I just can?t explain why I?m crying right
now. I just freaking ride this thing and next thing I know my eyes are
tearing up.? He said as he rubbed his eyes to take off the remaining
tears. He was calmer now. ?I?m getting nuts. No you?re driving me nuts.? He
nodded looking at me after rubbing his face.

I then felt my heart just warms up on those words and I simply moved to
kiss his forehead and wrapped my arms around him. He smelled the same as
the first time I fall for him.....


*

Today might be those fucking day where all of those bad lucks in the world
are scattered bees just for me. It won?t get any better, would it? Earlier,
I got caught to hour traffic and I ended up riding a commercial train which
is, by the way, stacked because of the enormous people during rush hour. I
was 2 hours late with that. Then an escalation to my manager about the
wrong output I generated yesterday because of the wrong file that was sent
to me. I also got tripped on my way of buying my lunch which results in
ripping my khaki pants on the knee side. Another thing, I also lost my coin
purse where I placed most of my allowance.

So now here I am, ended up taking the local commute under a heavy rain
instead of riding a cab. The most bummer thing is, I forgot to bring any
foldable umbrella. I am soaked wet with only my leather bag as my
shade. ?Fuck it.? I groaned to myself as I waited for the local Jeepney at
a nearby bus stop.  The rain got heavier as each minute passes and my whole
body are trembling in coldness. I?m going to be fucking sick after
this. ?Where the hell are those jeepneys?? I grunted. A thunder struck
above me as the sky poured rain much heavier than before. ?Oh will you
fucking shut up?!?!? I shouted in annoyance.

The universe just hated me today.

?Yow dude!? I heard someone called. But I was to frozen to find who the guy
was. ?You want to ----? I didn?t hear the last thing he said since another
struck of thunder roared.

I rubbed my face to get rid of the droplets in my eyes as I suddenly felt
the rain stopped pouring at my spot even if it was still raining. I felt
someone was standing beside me. I looked back and saw him with his umbrella
shading us. ?Jeez, dude you?re like a wet dog.? He said with a mixed tone
of irritation and concern. ?What are you doing out here? Haven?t you heard
that this road is close? The open one is at the next street behind.? He
said pointing behind me.

I knew this guy. He was that nosy boy that?s always everywhere in the
office. I find him a weird-nagger since he?s like he had swallowed a
megaphone whenever he talked with someone. Rumors say that he?s a boy-next
door homo which is one thing no one ever confirmed. But to be honest, I
can?t help to think that he is, he moved a little too jolly and bouncy. Or
maybe he?s just plain born happy. His broad face, full curved lips and
piercing eyes looked plainly normal to me, though except on his blonde-dyed
hair. It doesn?t fit him. I never liked the guy but since he?s the only one
around, I have no choice but to consider him. ?I don?t know what you?re
talking about.? I said a little too loud because of the rain. ?But I?m
freezing here.?

He rolled his eyes before unzipping his back pack with his other
hand. ?Obviously you will.? He brought out his blue leather-cottoned jacket
and handed it over me. ?Here. Keep yourself warm.? I was astounded on what
he just did. First of all, we didn?t particularly know each other and
second why does he care anyway? ?Well? what are you waiting for?? He asked
impatient as he caught me staring.  ?Take it.? He demanded. I took it and
wrapped it around me as he looked around looking somewhere to get out of
the rain.

Despite of the heavy rain, my nose immediately caught his distinct scent
that was overpowering on his jacket. It was sweet like a smooth fresh
breeze of meadow but at the same time manly enough to consider. It smells
good. No. I actually like his scent.....

*

?Will you at least move a little? I barely have enough space to breath.? He
chuckled complaining because of our position as we waited in the line for
the carousel. I was actually spooning him from behind with my arms wrapped
around his torso and my head lying at his shoulder. We stood there
patiently as I enjoyed smelling his scent from behind.

?Pfff... stop being crabby. I know you like this too.? I said as I hugged
him tighter hoping that this moment won?t last.

?You?re poking me from behind.? He joked too low almost like a whisper so
that no one could here. I knew he was blushing right then. I can?t help but
to giggle and bit his neck playfully.

?Oww...? He chuckled trying to get out from my embrace. I didn?t let him
go, though. I just laugh at his neck. ?That?s not funny.? He nagged
giggling. I didn?t give any fuck of his complaint I just enjoyed the moment
of embracing the man I loved.

?Jeez, such a freak. Fags nowadays are overexposed.? We heard someone
criticized behind us. We looked back to where it came and an obese pig
faced woman on her fitted black shirt stood behind us.  She had this
disgust expression as she looked at us from head to toe. Her curly black
hair was messy as traces of her sweats dripped down her neck and her
forehead. The heat was blanching her alive. Her convex layered fats made
her looked like a human caterpillar. Beside her was another woman which was
exactly her opposite, a thin woman much taller in height but lighter in
skin color. It was like all the blood was sucked out off her vein because
of her lifeless face. Her eye balls was about to gag out from its sockets.

?They look hideous. How could they?re parents stand seeing them act like
this? Gays are such a nuisance.? The thin woman agreed to which I figured
her friend. They were trying so hard to keep their chitchat as low as
possible but it was too obvious not to notice. I suddenly felt rage spiked
through my vein. I can?t stand the way how they both looked at us like a
piece of thrash. What are with these homophobic bitches? ?Such a waste that
they prefer dicks.? The thin woman added.

I let go of Erick to completely face them. The fat woman rose one of her
brow as if inviting me. I was about to scold something when I felt Erick?s
hand grabbed me. I glared back at him and he just gave me a genuine smile
before shaking his head lightly telling me not to engage and let it go. If
he was just a friend of mine, I could easily disregard his move but it was
Erick and I don?t want to ruin our date. It was too special to get spoiled
with these bitches.

I soften up and dropped my shoulder in defeat. I turned my back and saw
that it was now our turn in the carousel. The operator opened the gate and
we started to get in. ?Oh look Bea, fags will ride the lovely gay unicorns,
isn?t that beautiful?? I heard the fat woman said a little too loud for
everyone to hear. I instantly felt Erick?s hand squeezed mine in caution. I
halted and he looked back.

?Hey!? I called. ?Who were you calling a fag?? I sarcastically asked.

She had this indigenous doubted face before I looked back at Erick which
had the same face. I smiled at him before I leaned in for a soft tender
kiss. I moved back and he had this ?oh I get it? face. The fat woman and
her friend were shocked and at the same time blushing on what they just
witnessed.  ?Sucks that you couldn?t ride these gay unicorns. No elephants
allowed.? I added before pulling Erick at the ride. I heard someone
chuckled but I didn?t bother to look back.

I hopped at one of the horses and Erick rode the one beside me. ?You?re
such a mean boy. She might be whining now.? He joked.

I rolled my eyes. ?She started it first. Beside I like the idea of kissing
you in public.? I winked. He tried to hide his face but it was too obvious
that he was blushing. The chiming sound of the ride started to play as the
horses started to move. I looked at Erick and started adoring his face as
we move around. I took my IPhone to take pictures of him. This moment needs
to be captured.

I laughed at him when he started making ridiculous poses as if he had
expected me to take pictures of him. No matter how stupid he did with his
face, he still looked attractive to me. Erick then grabbed my phone and
signalled me to make some pose. I was uncomfortable at first and I don?t
know what to do.  He rolled his eyes in annoyance. ?You could do better
than that.? He stated. ?Use your beak nose.?

I looked around in self-conscious before picking my nose and made a stupid
face. Erick broke out a huge laughter as he started taking shots. I laughed
at myself as I tried to picture how stupid I looked.  Actually, I am
beginning to enjoy doing these poses.

He then waved his hand to move closer to me. ?Come here, bad boy.? He
invited. I moved at him as he took pictures of us together over our own
ridiculous faces.

I slowly looked at him as he continued taking pictures of us. I stared at
his adorable face and my heart just skipped for a moment.  I then knew and
convinced that I really love this man and that I wanted to spend the rest
of my life with him. I regretted the day that I denied my affection for him
and the times that I just took him for granted.....

*

?Dude, stop being too mushy.? I said irritated. ?I know, you?re a nice guy
but you?re all over me. I don?t assume you?re gay, right?? I said
bluntly. The truth is, I?m getting too annoyed at him. We are good friends
but as the time passes he started acting a little too weird. There were
times that he was doing things with me that normal straight dudes don?t
do. There was this cup of coffee every morning, sweet post-it with
different notes everyday or he would just stay beside my cube and started
chit- chatting me while I?m in work. People around us started to notice
these and they began teasing me.

?Of course not!? He said a little defensive. ?We?re dudes.? He hesitated.

?Great to hear that because I?m not gay too. And I will never be.? I nodded
before going back to my cube.

?Hey, can we go out for a lunch later?? He asked persistent. Jeez he?s
getting into my nerve. In the exact moment one of my officemates passed by
carrying a cup of coffee. She looked at me with a smile that I?m not sure
if it was in disgust or a tease.

Great, they?ll throw homophobic jokes at me again later.

?I?m getting hungry and I know you...?

?Will you stop being such a freaking queer?!? I suddenly blurted out. He
was astounded at my words.  ?I?m not hungry and I?m busy working!? I
groaned before turning my back at him. I didn?t want those words to come
out like that but Erick was pushing me.

Conscience started to kick in.

Fuck this!

*

Another flash from my camera woke me up from my trance. I looked at the
delighted guy beside me.  He looked at me and flashes those perfect set of
teeth. I?m just plain happy that those days are gone. I swore to myself
that I will never let anyone or even myself mock him because of what or who
we are.


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-Erick

We wasted no time in riding all the rides that this place could offer. It
was fun and exhausting. But I knew I won?t reach this level of happiness
without Jomar beside me. I was planning to make him the happiest guy today,
but it turned out he made me feel it instead.

I?m glad that this day came.

We continued exploring the some-what mystical town of EK. We took pictures
of the enthralling sites together doing crazy faces and laughing at the
pictures after. We even chased some scattered mascots and took pictures
with them. Jomar and I also tried some game booths that were stalled
around. There was this shooting game or hooking some bottles and throwing
up plastic rings. Jomar was determined with these games, though. He even
reached to the point of wasting his whole pocket money. I was laughing at
him the entire time.  We made sure that we make everything we do count. All
in all, we were making the best out of it that life could offer.

It was late in the afternoon when we decided to grab something to eat. This
day almost left us exhausted and hungry. I stood in the front of the
counter as I looked up at the menu above. ?Good afternoon, Sir. Can I take
your order?? The staff in front of me asked with a smile drawn on her face.

?I?ll take.. uhm a 12 inch Hawaiian Pizza, two large fries and two upsized
coke.? I stated.

?Will that it be all?? She asked again. Her smile never faded which was
quite impressive. If only all staff of fast food chains is like her. I
would be glad to come back for more.

?Yep.? I nodded.

?That?ll be 399 bucks.?

I took my wallet for some money and handed it to her.  ?That?s quite much
to eat.? Someone said beside me. I looked up and got a little dazed to the
man at my side. His clean cut black hair, white Asian complexion and wild
eyes match his chiseled jaw. ?But I have to admit, the food here is damn
fine.? He said with an impressed face.

?You said it.? I nodded. I knew right then that he was hitting on me.

He chuckled and offered his hand. ?I?m Spencer, by the way.? He introduced.

?Patrick.? I lied shaking his hands. I am not planning to further entertain
this guy especially that I am with Jomar.

?Can I join you or something? You seemed could use some company right now.?
He offered.

?Naw.. I?m with....? I looked at my side when I felt a hand crawled around
my waist and pulled me lightly. I smiled when I saw a strange serious
expression drawn all over his face. ?I?m with my boyfriend.? I said looking
back at Spencer. His face instantly changed.

?Who?s he?? Jomar asked flatly. I almost burst to laughter just by looking
at his face.

?Jomar, this is Spencer. Spencer, meet my boyfriend, Jomar.? I said making
a clear introduction with the boys around me. ?You were saying?? I asked
Spencer again.

?Oh nothing. I have to go, forgot to do something.? He said nodding as he
took a step back before turning away. ?Catch you guys later.?

 ?You wish.? Jomar said annoyed.

?Here?s your order, sir.? The woman said giving my order.

I took the tray and smiled. ?Thanks.? I looked back at Jomar and he has
this upset face. I rolled my eyes before giggling. I walked at the near
table seat as Jomar followed me. He kept on looking back at the guy who was
hitting on me. He looked funny.

I sat at the metal chair as I started to fix our food. ?I don?t like that
guy. He seemed like he?s plotting something on you.? He said sitting beside
me. I chuckled at his comment as I took a slice of pizza and placed it on a
paper plate. ?He looks like he?s a mafia or something. You should stay away
from that kind of people.? I rolled my eyes as I continued to prepare our
food. ?Are you even listening to me?!?  He pressed when he noticed that I
am not paying any attention on him. ?He?s a dangerous guy and....
umpff...? I shut him up by stuffing a huge slice of pizza on his thin
mouth.

He struggled in chewing it. ?Dangerous because he?s gorgeous?? I asked to
infuriate him more.

He?s face changed and swallowed everything so he could talk again. ?I knew
you like him. I could see in your eyes when... uhmpf...? I stuffed another
slice to shut him again.

?Stop whining beak-face. You?re too obvious to be jealous, okay?? I
chuckled.

?..mheff..? mhell mno!? He hesitated shaking his head vigorously as he
swallowed the remaining food.  ?Your too conceited you know that??

?Really.? I retorted rather than a question. I stare at him and he can?t
look into my eyes.

?Uh...... alright, alright. I am.? He said grumpy like a kid got caught. ?I
don?t like what I saw. He looked at you like he was stripping you down.?

?And what makes you think that I?ll entertain the guy?? I asked confident.

?I don?t know. After all I did to you. I just that you finally realized
that I?m not worthy for you and...?

?Shut up...? I said not letting him finish. ?This sounds a little cheesy
and I don?t want to come it first to me but I know that you know that
you?re the only guy for me and I am only for you. We made for each other
and no one can destroy that.... Not even the universe.? I said a little
shy. ?You the man of my life and uhmpff....?

He suddenly stuffed my mouth with a whole slice of pizza. ?Okay, shut up
now before I melted with your cheesy lines.? He said blushing. I chuckled
as I struggle in chewing.

This wasn?t the first time that he got jealous and had an argument. In
fact, there were a lot and I could still remember some of it until
now......

*

Silence was the only vocabulary we knew that time. No talk, gestures or
even a breath. There was nothing. I continued mixing my cup of coffee as he
started making his.

Well this is awkward especially that we are both left alone here. I kept my
eyes down pretending that I am with no one right now.

I didn?t dare to look at him again.

?So what?s with you and that Lance guy?? He suddenly asked flat breaking
the icy silence in the pantry.  ?You seemed to get well with each other.?

I glared at him and he had this smug face which irritates me. I choose not
to slip anything in my mouth.  I already knew he?s just as any homophobes I
encountered.

?What? Is he your new gay love couple?? He taunted. I was starting to get
pretty pissed off right then.

?Like I just wish that I had with you?? I suddenly asked.

He was in silence for a moment. ?Do me a favor will you? Stop
fantasizing. You?re all delusions and dreams.? He stated. ?I?m not like
you. I?m a straight guy.? He?s words just pierced through my veins.  And
the fucked up thing is, he gave me the one thing I never wanted to see from
him, that disgusting look over me.

Great, mock me all you want!

I looked away trying to keep my composure. ?Then why do you care?? I asked
looking at the cup I was holding.

?I know you. Erick, he?s a dude and you?re risking his reputation. The kid
is new here and you know how things run here??

?Maybe I?m not aware of that.?

?Bullshit!?

I glared back at him as I finally lose it. ?Bullshit? Okay, you want to
make it blunt? Fine. Let?s put it this way. What do you really know about
him? Or let?s get to the point. What do you really know?? I said as I walk
my way on him. ?You said that I?m all delusions and dreams but how about
you, all of you?  Weren?t you all just talk and shits? Do you even bother
to know who I really am before you point fingers at me?? I said as I force
not to let anything slip on my eyes. ?NO! You guys don?t know anything.
You just love gossips and fucking rumors. Jomar, I maybe gay but I never
judged anyone. I just wanted a normal life away from all these homophobic
settings.?

He stared at me as I felt something dropped in my eyes. Shit!

I rubbed it off and glared back at him. ?You wanna know why I hid all this
time in my closet? Why I never had the guts to speak out? It?s not because
I?m afraid that someone will throw rocks at me every single day, it?s
because I?m afraid that I might lose those persons that are close to
me. You have no fucking idea how it is to be like me. So if you have much
of a decency left in you, I suggest stop minding on how I live my awful
life and mind your own business.?

?I?m just helping you to prevent yourself being caught in another gossip.?
He stated flat as he looked away. Something in his face changed. I just
don?t know what it is?

I glared at him bewildered. ?What are you really plotting to, huh??

He didn?t answer and kept his eyes away.

?Fucking, answer me, what do you want?? I demanded.

?I don?t want you to be with him!? He finally answered scolding.

I was shut at my spot after hearing his answer. Even he was surprised to
what he just said. I could see it in his eyes. He hesitated before turning
his back at me and walked away.

I was left speechless.  *

I woke up from my reminiscence as we finish our food. Jomar?s arms wrapped
me from behind as his head rest at my shoulder. I could hear how peaceful
his breathing was and I just love feeling the warmth of his body. I moved
my head a little to rest it on his.

?Aren?t you worried on what others would think about us?? Jomar asked in
low modest tone.

?I am.? I answered.

Both of us know that even if we talked about on how we are going to face
the people around us, there?s always somebody who will point fingers and
judge us on what we are. I felt Jomar made a nod.  ?It doesn?t matter
now. As long as we have each other, I think I could make it.? He whispered.

I looked blankly at the sky as I pondered what he just said. I just wish I
could stay much longer?.

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-Jomar

I looked up in the dim sky as the sun sets. It?s getting late and soon this
place will close and our day will end. This is what I hate the most. I wish
this day wouldn?t end. ?Come on slowpoke, we need to get in the Wheel of
Fate!? Erick said enthusiastic.

I snorted in disagreement as he struggles to pull me in the entrance
hall. Ferris? Wheel, another fearsome ride because of the height. Kill me
now. I hesitated as we got in the line. We are lucky that it was short or
perhaps Erick was the only one lucky here. I looked around and the sun has
completely dropped as the light bulbs lit up the whole place. I noticed
that Erick continuously looked at his wrist watch as he waited impatiently
in the line. ?What?s with you? Well ride it soon, don?t worry.? I reassured
him.

He looked at me and frowned. ?We?ll gonna miss it!? He said a little
irritated.

?What will we miss?? I asked. He looked at the line again ignoring my
question. He then grabbed my hand and proceeded at the front of the line
ignoring the ones that was before us. ?Excuse me, coming through! Sorry!?
Erick apologizes as we walk over the crowd. Some got irritated and others
even cursed our actions. Erick simply ignored them all. I somehow felt
ashamed, though.

Soon we were already at the front. ?Excuse me sir, I think there?s someone
who is before you.? The operator said pointing at the people behind us.. I
didn?t look back in embarrassment.

?Yeah I know that but this night is important and I?m already desperate.?
Erick pleaded as he held my hand. He then let go of me and moved to whisper
something at the operator. He?s already in his mid thirties if you ask
me. The operator was in thoughts for seconds as he looked both of
us. Erick?s face was still in hope.

The operator then shrugged and opened the door. ?You owe me in this one big
man.? The operator said chuckling. Erick?s face lit up almost jumping as we
walked inside. I was still bewildered to what was happening.

?I owe you my life, sir.? Erick said as he grabbed my hand and pulled me
inside in excitement. ?Let?s go let?s go!? He said to me.

?Hurry now, you?ll gonna miss it.? The operator said.

We entered inside and headed at the separated round seat that was fixed at
the end corner of the enormous wheel. I looked back and the faces of the
people we just passed were upset and frowning. I can?t help but just smile
on that reaction.

I gripped at the side bar as it started to move slowly. I feel tension
crawling at my spine again as little by little we are rising up. I
struggled not to look down but I always end up peeking down which
intensified my pressure. I slowly breathe to relax myself and a soft wind
suddenly blew in the open seat. I felt Erick?s hands wrapped on me as he
embraces me from behind. ?Ease down, cowboy. You?ll be fine.? He said. I
felt myself ease down a little as I felt his body on me. Just earlier, I
was the one who kept on hugging him now he?s the one doing it. And I just
love the feeling of knowing that someone is there at your side.

A few second have passed and I felt relaxed finally. I didn?t realize that
we were already on the top.  The weird part is I am no longer panicking. I
could see the city light sparkle below at the dark peaceful night. It
wasn?t scary as I thought up here. It was actually a beautiful scene if you
ask me. I held his hand and face him. I looked at him satisfied. His
piercing dark eyes, flat nose and full lips were not as perfect as those of
any artist model but he is indeed attractive. He wasn?t the ideal gorgeous
man that every person would want but I have enough and what I need is
him. What makes him more sweet, is his always-happy face that never loses
hope. I touched his face with my fingers as he suddenly looked back at his
watch.

?Why do you keep on looking at your watch?? I chuckled in curiosity. ?Are
you waiting for something??

A whining whistle suddenly broke in the air. Then it was followed by an
explosion as sparkling yellow glitters exploded beside the Wheel. We both
looked up in surprise. ?I am waiting for this.? Erick stated as another
explosion rang on the sky followed by another firecracker. I slowly walked
at the edge and held at the bar as the light of the explosion illuminated
the whole scene.  It wasn?t long before I realized that I am witnessing a
firework display around us in this short distance. Rockets of pyrotechnic
display instantly follow the initial display and soon we were surrounded by
bright sparkling light. I was wonderstruck on how perfect the scene was. It
was unbelievable to witness such great moment. I almost got hypnotize by it
if I didn?t felt Erick?s hand held mine.

I gazes at him and he just simply smile. ?Before this day, I thought of
what we have, this what they so called ?love?, I thought of it as a
joke. Simple talk about it then afterwards it?s just nothing but a past
conversation. I really don?t know what it is and yet I envy those people
who do. Because they know how and why they felt it. I wanted to feel it,
too.? He said looking straight at the window of my soul as the firework
continued. I was left speechless. ?But then after learning that I am who I
am, that I am gay. I figured that searching for it was like looking for a
tossed pebble in the Pacific Ocean. It?s hopeless.? He stated in weak
eyes. ?Then there are you.? He added biting his lips trying to stop his
watery eyes.

?Erick?? I whispered.

?I know people will continue to throw rocks at us or stab us in our backs
or even spit in our grave because of who we are. It?s inevitable. And I am
still scared.? Erick said when his eyes began to tear.  He then took
something in his pocket and I stared at his hand. A silver plain ring
stands out on his finger.

I looked away not believing that this is happening. ?Erick? god wha?.? I
laughed weakly blushing.

?No Listen to me?? He said pleading to look back at him as he chuckled. ?I
want to give my promise in this piece of ring that I swear for the rest of
my life that you?ll always and forever be the only person I will love
unconditionally.? He swore as he took my left hand and placed it in my
index finger. ?I love you Jomar Ray Agosto. And I will always be. I will.?

I unknowingly felt something crawled out in my eyes as he moves to kiss my
forehead. It was like how I did when I first admit how much I love
Erick. He moved down to kiss my nose. And I started to cry in happiness. I
opened my eyes to meet his. The fireworks just illuminate his beautiful
face.

He then leaned for my lips as I wrapped my arms around him and kissed back.

I will always treasure this moment?  --------------------------------



-Erick

We stepped out of the cab and Jomar signaled the driver to wait for him. He
escorted me at the gate of my apartment as he held my hand. He never let it
go after my pledge with him at the Ferris? wheel. I was pleased with this
action, though. It was like I am part of him and that he can?t be whole
without me. The smile in his face never faded throughout the whole trip.

No words can describe how happy and satisfied we are this day. But we are
both worn out.

I face him as we both stood in front of the hallway. He rubbed my hand
before giving it a sincere kiss.  ?It sucks that night separates me from
holding you.? Jomar sighed sounding more like a diplomat or something. ?I
love holding you hand.?

I rolled my eyes on what he just said. ?Enough with the cheesy lines, you
sound ridiculous.? I chuckled.  ?You need to take some rest. You?re crazy
hag manager will kill you first thing in the morning, that?s for sure.? I
stated. ?Besides, you?ll still have me tomorrow.?

He smiled at me like a kid. ?Swear??

I knew my face changes as he asked me that word. My heart started to ache
again as I looked at his adorable face. I used my other hand to touch his
face as I trace every inch of its part. I tried to keep myself as I slowly
moved to kiss him for the very last time.


I touched his lips with mine and cherish every moment time can give, trying
to record every details in my memory as he happily give back the lovely
kiss we share. My chest ached in pain as I knew that it?ll be the last. ?My
love will never change, that?s my promise.? I whispered in his lips after
parting an inch away from each other. He nodded and smiled again. I moved
back and faked an enthusiastic smile.  ?Go now.?

?I?ll call you when I got home.? He assured me as he walked back at the
cab. ?Bye boyfriend.? He winked at me.

I smiled to what called me. ?Bye.? I said as he got inside the cab and
drove its way to the night. I could still see that Jomar was smiling back
at me in the window before they took a turn at the corner and disappeared.

My smile vanishes as I looked back at my apartment and opened the gate. I
could still see in the front window that one of the light bulbs is still
on. I used my keys to open the front door as the weight of keeping the
loads in my chest started to get heavier. The deafening silence of the
night was much noticeable without Jomar beside me. I walked inside weakly
and a woman, sitting at the dining table in her night robe, looked at me
with sudden concern at her eyes. ?How does it go?? She choked asking.

I gaze back at her struggling to keep myself. ?It?s done.? I whispered when
I felt I finally couldn?t keep my eyes from dropping out tears. ?It?s
already done, Cha. It?s over?. It?s over?. It?s over? I continued saying as
I lowered my head dropping in my knees crying.

Cha rushed in front of me as she cradled me in her arms. ?Shhh. It?s okay,
everything will be fine. You?ll get over this.? She said as she rocked me
back and forth.

?I did it?.. I can leave now?. I?m going to miss him, Cha.? I sobbed at her
arms as I felt Cha?s hand rubbed at my shoulder.

?You?ll be fine, Erick. You?ll see, everything will change when you?re in
Canada. You?ll forget everything about him.? She whispered.

?I don?t think I can.? I gripped at her arms crying. ?I can?t.?

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(Inspired by Taylor Swift?s All Too Well. And someone that almost breaks my
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