Date: Tue, 20 Apr 2004 02:52:13 -0400
From: Damion <snwdemon@worldnet.att.net>
Subject: Rodie's Love  Chapter 4  (M, b, wet dream, oral)

WARNING:

	This story contains descriptions of sexual acts involving a man and
a MINOR boy.  I wish to explain that this story is not true!  Further, it
is not intended to promote illegal acts against minors, but to demonstrate
that men and boys can love each other.  The sexual acts described in the
story are the result of my imagination.  I have not performed these acts,
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Author's Note: Hello again, I would like to thank Randu first, because it
was His original story "Double Trouble," that gave me my inspiration for
Rodie's talents.  I would also like the thank Leo, who along with Scott,
are proof reading the chapters as I complete them.  They check for
spelling, grammar, and context errors in the chapters.  This makes the
story easier to read, as well as improves the "flow" of the story.  By
doing it by myself, since I am the author, I will not catch many errors.
The job they are providing is a crucial part of the editorial process, and
I want to acknowledge their time and effort they have committed to help me
bring this story to you.  In this chapter, I decided to follow the theme of
the Nifty Archives.  I figured that since this is being written as an
erotic story then I will have to abide with the general idea and include
some sexual scenes, hopefully I wrote it correctly. I have to say that
after I complete this chapter and the next, I will be taking a small break
due to renovations in my home.  So do not despair because I have not yet
finished with the story, and will continue once our renovations are done.
Chapter 5 is complete and 6 is in the process of "proofing" and I hope to
post it when I return after my 2-week hiatus.  Thank you to everyone who
has responded to my story with his or her emails.  I have tried to answer
each of you in turn.  Damion


Rodie's Love, by Snwdemon with collaborating efforts from Leo and Scott

Chapter 4.


	Jim awoke with his head pounding with a headache along with his
usual pain in his back and legs.  "Oh God," Jim said aloud as he struggled
to sit up.  What a hangover, he thought as he rested his face in his hands
before finally looking over at Eddie as he slept.  Getting up slowly, Jim
went into the bathroom and turned on the shower.  He then brushed his teeth
and shaved before undressing and stepping under the hot spray.  He stood
there letting the hot water run over his body as he remembered that Eddie
drove him home and put him to bed the previous night.

	"Morning Bro!"  Eddie said waking Jim out of his reverie.

	"Uuhhgg!"  Jim exclaimed through the frosted glass to his best
friend.

	"Hey I warned you about drinking so much.  I don't want to be the
one who says 'I told you so', but I did tell you so."  Eddie said in a
mocking tone.

	"You're enjoying this aren't you Eddie?"  Jim replied.

	"Me?  Now why would I do that Bro?  I just want it clear that 'I
told you so' is all, I wouldn't want someone to think that I would let you
do this to yourself without warning you."  Eddie explained in a nasally
tone of voice as he applied toothpaste to his toothbrush.

	"Do you mind!  It seemed like a good idea at the time.  So
please...I am trying to drown myself at the moment!"  Jim said in an
exasperated voice.

	"No, I don't mind a bit Jim" Eddie said with a mouth full of
toothpaste before laughing and then continuing to brush his teeth.

	Jim could not help laughing with Eddie, as he grabbed the shampoo
and started washing his hair.  Quickly finishing his shower Jim asked his
closest friend, "You want me to leave it running?"

	"Yeah Bro," Eddie answered through a face full of shaving cream.
Jim stepped out of the shower, grabbed a towel, and started rubbing himself
vigorously as Eddie finished shaving.  Eddie rinsed his face then turned
and stepped past Jim into the shower where he started to hum loudly and
slightly off key.  Shaking his head while grinning, Jim pulled on his terry
cloth robe and went into the bedroom.  He walked over to the dresser,
pulled out fresh clothes, and then started dressing.  He was almost fully
dressed as Eddie came out of the bathroom with just a towel wrapped around
his head.  "You still got my stuff in the spare room don't you Jim?"  Eddie
asked as he admired himself in front of the full-length mirror.

	Looking at his friend, Jim saw that Eddie still had that lean and
chiseled look despite being 40 years old, "Yeah I do, it's still your room
you know," he replied.

	"I know, it's just hard to still think of this place as home now
that I have my 'Grand Palace'," Eddie answered while flashing a grin at
Jim.

	"I'll go start some coffee while you finish up ok," Jim explained
to Eddie who just winked at him before strolling out into the spare
bedroom.

	Jim walked into the kitchen and made coffee, while waiting for it
to brew he thought about the previous night.  After Cathy carried Rodie
home, Jim had called Eddie and told him felt like going out.  It was a
little surprising to his friend since Jim had not been out for almost a
year now.  Eddie told him that he would pick him up in an hour and for him
to dress visible.  That meant to dress sharply and expect to be noticed.
So Jim went, and changed into expensive clothes then waited until Eddie
arrived.  They went out to dinner at a small but excellent Chinese
restaurant.  Then he and Eddie went to a party at one of Eddies more
flamboyant friend's house.  The music was loud while the liquor flowed
freely.  Knowing something was on Jim's mind, and that he did not want to
talk about it, Eddie had them mingle with their assorted friends.  Seeing
Jim drinking much more than he normally did, Eddie nursed his drink until
it was time to take Jim home and pour him into bed.  Jim looked up as Eddie
walked into the kitchen wearing a bright pink floral shirt with white
slacks.

	"Coffee ready yet?"  Eddie inquired taking a seat at the table.

	"Just finished," Jim replied as he poured two cups of coffee and
handing one to Eddie before seating himself across from him.  Eddie looked
over at Jim and asked, after adding cream, sugar, and taking a drink.

	"Ok, you willing to explain your sudden need to petrify your
liver?"  Jim took a drink of his coffee, thinking for a moment, then
answering his long time friend.  He briefly went over the events of the
previous day, explaining about Rodie's secret of what his father had done
to him.  Then Jim explained the events at the beach, telling him how they
had met John Winters.  In addition, how Rodie reacted when John touched him
while he was not expecting it, shortly after arriving home.  Jim also
explained to Eddie what Cathy told him about Rodie's abilities, although
she never told this to Rodie.  He finished by telling him about how he
insisted that Cathy explain all of what she had learned about his abilities
to the one person, who needed that information most, Rodie.  Then of his
private talk with Rodie, and how he convinced Rodie to tell his mother
everything.  Finally, of his own conclusions he had reached afterwards as
Cathy carried Rodie over to their trailer.

	"So that's why he just walked out, I knew that we were missing
something," Eddie replied.  "I mean, Jesus man, how could a father walk out
on a son who was like Rodie.  He is perfect, intelligent, friendly, unique,
and fucking gorgeous.  If he were mine I could never leave him."  Eddie
paused for a few moments then said, "you are sure he is going to tell Cathy
everything?"

	"Yes, I believe so, he promised me he would, and he lays great
faith in promises.  Do not ever make a promise to him that you can not or
do not plan to keep."  Jim replied.

	"In addition to Cathy explaining to him why he feels these things
right?"  Eddie pursued intently.

	"Yes, once I explained the reasons to her, I know she will tell
him.  With him, not knowing about this every time he 'senses' something or
makes physical contact it only confuses him more.  Moreover, that confusion
makes him even more frightened than he already is.  I have to end that
confusion, so if she doesn't tell him then I will."  Jim stated
emphatically to Eddie.

	"You really love him a lot, don't you Jim?"  Eddie asked while
taking another drink.  Jim thought a moment before replying, "yeah Eddie, I
really do love him.  More than you can know right now."

	"Well what are you going to do if she decides to return home at the
end of summer," Eddie asked.

	"I haven't really thought about that yet Eddie, but if she did I
guess I would move there too just to be with him."  Jim answered quietly
while staring at his cup.  Just then Cathy came up the steps and knocked
lightly on the glass door.

	"Come on in, Cathy.  Would you like some coffee?"  Jim asked her as
he let her in while noticing Rodie was not with her.

	"Thanks Jim, I would love some," Cathy answered with a smile.

	"Where's the boy wonder?"  Eddie asked her as he stood to hold out
her chair for her.

	"Thank you Eddie.  Well, he had a very rough night, so I gave him
something to help him go to sleep without dreaming.  I got the prescription
for him after Paul left because Rodie was having nightmares.  At the time I
assumed it was because of Paul's leaving that was causing the nightmares, I
did not realize what he had done to Rodie though.  I should have seen it,
but I didn't."  Cathy said with a slight quiver in her voice.

	"Do not punish yourself Cathy, how could you know when Rodie
refused to tell you.  In his mind he thought he was being punished for
being bad, when it was your ex being unable to control his lust for his own
son," Jim said in an understanding and comforting tone.  "All that matter's
now is that we all know now.  The question is what do we do now?"  Jim
stated while Eddie nodded his head in agreement.

	"I know Jim, and I appreciate what you and Eddie have done for us.
We have plenty of time to talk about this; Rodie did not get to sleep until
almost 5 AM, so he will be asleep for quite awhile still because the
medicine is quite strong.  If you want to know, I think I should get him
some kind of therapy or something.  However, I am afraid of what he might
say by accident about you.  He would die if he implicated you in something
by accident."  Cathy explained to them.

	"I agree with you Cathy, and I know just the person to take him to.
Do not worry about if Rodie slips up with him, because he will not say
anything," Eddie told her.  Cathy gave Eddie a questioning look until he
replied.  "You are just going to have to trust me now, won't you, dear."
Eddie said while patting her hand lightly and smiling at her.

	For the rest of the morning, they talked about various things until
shortly past noon.  Rodie, while very groggy and disoriented still, walked
in wearing only his white bikini briefs with his small penis tenting them
out.  His eyes were half closed as he staggered sluggishly into the kitchen
past Cathy and went directly to Jim, letting Jim pull him up into his lap.
Jim hugged the sleepy boy to his chest before brushing his hair out of his
face and kissing him on the nose.  Rodie's hair was tangled and messed up
looking, and he had dark circles under his eyes, which also had a glassy
cast to them.

	"Good afternoon, sleepy head, I heard you had a rough night.  You
ok now?"  Jim asked as Rodie rubbed his eyes with the back of one small
hand before leaning his head against Jim's chest.

	"I do not feel good Jim...I am dizzy and my head hurts" Rodie
mumbled in soft high-pitched pitiful voice as he buried he face into Jim's
shoulder.

	"I know it does surf boy, why don't we go lay back down for a
little while," Jim said tenderly as he kissed the top of Rodie's head.
Looking over at Cathy and Eddie for a moment, Jim finally stood up when he
saw Rodie nod his head in agreement.  Rodie wrapped his arms around Jim's
neck then wrapped his legs around Jim's waist, and rested his head on Jim's
shoulder.

	While supporting Rodie with one hand under his thinly clad pert
bottom, and the other on his bare upper back, Jim hugged Rodie's small body
to his own while looking over towards Cathy and Eddie.

	"I will go lay down with him for awhile, I still do not feel that
good myself," Jim told them as he stood there and nestled Rodie to his
chest while the long haired boy drowsed in his arms.  Eddie and Cathy
nodded in agreement while shooing him off towards the back of the house,
with that Jim turned and carried the drowsing boy into his room where he
laid him on the bed.  Quietly closing the door and then undressing to his
boxer briefs, he carefully lay down on the bed beside Rodie, quickly
pulling the covers over both of them.  Of course, Rodie immediately
snuggled close to him, draping his arm and leg over Jim, then laying his
head upon Jim's chest and shoulder.

	Whispering into Rodie's ear, Jim said, "Go back to sleep Rodie,
I'll be here to watch over you."

	"Jim..." he heard Rodie mumble from his half-awake, half-asleep
state.  "I love you...forever" Rodie mumbled softly as he slipped off to
sleep again.

	"I love you to Rodie, and I am very, very proud of you," Jim
answered as he watched Rodie's face relax.  Then despite the coffee he
drank, Jim drifted off to sleep as he held Rodie's small body close to him,
dreaming warm dreams of his beautiful surf boy.

	Jim woke as he felt Rodie's little hardness pushing against his
thigh.  Glancing at the alarm clock, he saw that it was 3:30 PM.  Rodie let
out a soft moan as Jim felt the young boy slowly thrust his small hips
forward rubbing his hard cocklet against Jim's thigh.  As Rodie dreamed,
Jim felt Rodie's breathing quicken as his thrusts becoming more frequent,
and his soft moaning becoming more urgent.  As Rodie's passion slowly
built, Jim saw the young boy start to rise slowly out of the depths of his
sleeping state.  After a few minutes of watching him, Jim saw that Rodie's
face was flushed, his breathing had become more ragged, moaning softly, as
Rodie struggled towards his peak.  Rodie's eyes suddenly opened, instantly
aware of what was happening, and he took a deep, ragged deep breath,
holding it in as he lifted his head from Jim's chest, then he winced
gritting his teeth while his small body stiffened.  Jim felt him thrust
hard one final time.  Then Rodie released his breath as a quivering moan as
his body shook while he climaxed.

	"Uuhhhnnn ... oh no ... uuhhhnnn ... Jim ... oh ... uuhhhnnn
... no!"  Rodie cried out with a look of horror mixed with unbearable
pleasure came onto his face.

	Jim felt the warm wetness spreading onto his thigh, as Rodie's
three-inch hard penis swelled again, and again as it flexed repeatedly.
Understanding instantly what was happening, Jim was a bit surprised
considering Rodie's young age.  Tears started to well up into Rodie's eyes
as his ongoing orgasm slowly began to fade.  With all of his muscles
through out his small body taunt, they slowly began to relax as each spasm
came.  Jim felt Rodie's hard cocklet flex less and less, and the hardness
ebbed away, as each spasm passed.  Now spent from his overwhelming orgasm,
Rodie started to inhale and exhale roughly as he slowly collapsed back down
onto Jim's bare chest while his sobs of shame started to escape his small
mouth.  Jim held Rodie gently while the last tremors of the orgasm left his
slim body while he fought bravely to hold in his increasing shame.

	Slowly looking at Jim's face, while the hot tears started to rolled
down his small face, "I'm s ... s ... sorry ... Jim ... I ... I ... cou
... couldn't he ... help it."  Rodie sobbed slowly as he started to lose
his struggle to control his increasing shame.

	"It is ok surf boy, don't worry about it," Jim soothed.  Now with
tears of shame streaming down his face, Rodie looked at Jim and sobbed
quietly.

	"I ... I ... th ... think ... I ... p ... peed ... the ... bed
... Jim."  Rodie quietly admitted as he lost what little pride he had left
in his voice.  Then breaking down and sobbing uncontrollably as his shame
finally won the struggle as he kept repeating in between sobs "I peed the
bed Jim...I peed the bed".

	Jim held his weeping boy gently for almost 30 minutes before
looking at him and saying.  "No Rodie, shush now, my love.  No you did not,
ssshhhh, you did not pee the bed, honey.  Its ok my love, you just had an
orgasm is all, sometimes stress triggers them, so ssshhhh my love.  All
boys have them, we all have wet dreams Rodie, including me, my love."  Jim
answered softly, caressing Rodie's back slowly with one hand, while he
brushed the tears softly away from Rodie's small face once his shame had
run its course.  "Come on, stand up and I will show you ok," Jim told him
with understanding.  Jim purposely avoided using the term "baby" knowing
that it would only hurt Rodie's already wounded self-esteem causing it more
damage.  Jim slipped out of the bed and waited until Rodie, who was
blushing, a deep red in embarrassment as he saw the wet circle on Jim's
boxer briefs, got out of the bed also wanting to believe Jim's comforting
words.  As Rodie stood up Jim could see the complete outline of his small
limp penis as Rodie's wet bikini briefs molded themselves to his tiny
member.  Jim sat on the edge of the bed then sat Rodie in his lap between
his legs.  Jim gently pointed out the large wet spot covering the front of
Rodie's white bikini underwear.  Jim then pulled the waistband out and down
a little, revealing the thin, white, sticky fluid coating Rodie's now limp
little penis and acorn sized balls as well as his underwear.

	Sniffing loudly, Rodie asked, "So I didn't pee in the bed?"

	"No you didn't honey.  I thought you might be able to ejaculate a
little, considering how much larger your testicles are compared to other
boys your age, but I was not sure until just now.  It happens to all boys
as they start to enter puberty surf boy; all it means is that you are
growing up is all.  So there is nothing to cry about ok."

	"Testicles?"  Rodie asked with a confused look on his face as he
wiped his nose with the back of his hand.

	"It is a big word Rodie, it means your balls ok," Jim said with a
smile as he gently squeezed Rodie's damp nuts which caused Rodie to start
giggling loudly.

	Once he had settled down, Rodie looked at Jim, "I still made a
mess...Yuck!"  He exclaimed while still holding his waistband out away from
his body before sliding them down, off his slim legs, and then holding them
up pinched between two fingers while he made a gross-out face.

	Jim smiled at him, "come on surf boy, lets go get cleaned up," Jim
told him as he headed for the shower.

	They showered quickly and dressed in clean underwear, then Rodie
helped Jim change the linen on the bed from where his cum had leaked onto
it.  As he followed Jim downstairs to the laundry room with his messy
underwear and some of the linen, he asked Jim to explain to him about what
happened exactly.  Jim started giving Rodie the "Birds and the bees" talk
as he loaded the soiled linen and clothes, plus detergent into the washer.

	After they had returned upstairs and sat down in the dining room
did Rodie ask, "so this sperm stuff is what I peed out Jim?"

	"Yes that is right, only it is more commonly called cum though,"
Jim answered.

	"And I can make a baby now?"  Rodie asked with a slightly disgusted
look on his face.

	Jim smiled before he replied; "I don't think so, not quite yet.
You see you just started to make sperm so I believe that it is still
immature, which is why it felt so watery and thin.  Although in a few years
you will be able to."

	"Why do you think that?"  Rodie asked innocently.

	Looking at Rodie warmly, Jim replied, "Well it is because you are
not yet fully mature yet either.  I am only 5' 5" tall and you are over a
foot smaller than I am.  You don't have any pubic hair down there, and you
have to admit that your pecker isn't all that big yet."

	"It's bigger than Eric's is!"  Rodie said defensively.

	"Well that is true, and it is definitely a good sized one for
someone your age and size, but as you continue to grow, so will it."  Jim
answered making Rodie smile with pride.

	"So how did it feel?  Pretty good huh?"  Jim asked Rodie watching
him blush prettily.

	"Truthfully?"  Rodie asked shyly.

	"Yeah surf boy, truthfully," Jim said while looking Rodie in the
eyes.

	"Before or after I thought I was peeing on you?"  Rodie asked in a
shy voice.

Smiling Jim replied, "before."

	Blushing an even deeper shade of red Rodie said, "I thought it felt
wonderful!"

	"Why?"  Jim pressed.

	"Well I was sort of...umm...sort of was thinking about you when it
happened.  That's why I was so embarrassed cause I thought I had peed on
you!"  Rodie replied honestly which made Jim chuckle.  Rodie blushed as he
glared at Jim, "What's so funny!"  Rodie demanded looking injured.

	"I'm not laughing at you surf boy, I'm laughing at myself.  I was
just imagining what YOU were thinking about ME while you were dreaming."
Jim answered still chuckling with mirth, as Rodie blushed red again
although he did have a big smile on his cute little face.  "And after?"
Jim asked still looking at him.

	"Well at first I couldn't believe that I was wetting the bed cause
I haven't done that since I was a baby.  Then I realized that I was laying
on top of you while I was peeing... and..."  Rodie's voice trailed off
quietly as he looked away.

	 Moving over to where he was sitting, Jim reached out and gently
turned his small face back towards him.  "And?" Jim asked.

	Swallowing hard just as a tear started to make its way down his
face Rodie said softly, "and I thought you would hate me now like my daddy
does."

	With a look of understanding and compassion in his face Jim knelt
beside Rodie, and softly wiped away the tears from his eyes.  "I could
never hate you Rodie, no matter what you do to me, my beautiful surf boy,
because I love you."  Jim admitted to the young boy finally.  Rodie looked
into Jim's brown eyes for a moment sensing the truth of the words he just
heard.

	"You really love me?"  Rodie asked needing Jim's verbal
verification to believe him.

	"Yes, Rodie," Jim answered, "I really do love you.  I have loved
you since I first saw you surf boy."  Not responding in words, Rodie leaned
forward and kissed Jim's lips before wrapping his arms around his neck.

	Just then, the telephone rang, and Rodie followed Jim as he stood
up and went to answer it.  "Hello?  Oh hi Eddie.  Oh you are...I was
wondering where you two went.  Oh yes, I thoroughly enjoyed my rest.  Uh
huh, well yes I would love that.  You will?  I owe you one then.
Therefore, Cathy will be back late then.  No it is not a problem.  Oh and
thank you Eddie.  Talk to you later!"  Jim said goodbye and hung up the
telephone.  Rodie was looking at Jim intently, but Jim shoo'd him away
breaking his concentration.

	"What you do that for?"  Rodie asked with a surprised look on his
face.

	"Ah Ha!  So your radar can be jammed on occasion!"  Jim exclaimed
as he walked past Rodie and went into the kitchen.  Rodie followed Jim into
the kitchen with a slightly amazed look on his face.  Then Jim told him,
"well my beautiful surf boy, it looks like we have the whole night to
ourselves," Jim said with a serious face while Rodie stared at him.  No
longer trying to hide his thoughts and feelings from him, Rodie quickly
understood.

	He reached out and took Jim's hand while staring intently at him,
then his eyes opened wide in disbelief, "you mean that Jim, I have you all
to myself tonight?"  He asked in a small voice, and watched Jim slowly nod
his head before opening his arms wide.  Rodie rushed into his embrace
kissing him passionately on the lips as Jim lifted him into his arms.

	"You sure you want to be alone all night with me surf boy?"  Jim
asked solemnly.

	Lifting his head until he could look Jim in the face Rodie answered
softly, "more than anything else Jim."

	"Ok surf boy, you got all night."  Jim said while Rodie nodded his
small head.  "Let's get some dinner first ok, how about Italian surf boy?"
Jim asked then watching Rodie vigorously nod his head while grinning at
him.  "I know a good place that delivers, so what would you like?"  Jim
questioned.

	"Ravioli in a white cheese sauce with garlic bread!"  Rodie replied
quickly.  Jim ordered Lasagna, and Rodie's Ravioli, plus an order of garlic
bread sticks to be delivered and paid with his credit card.  They went and
dressed into something other than their underwear, then Rodie helped Jim
make a Caesar salad.  They had just finished setting the table when the
doorbell rang and Jim walked down to get their dinner.  Once it was brought
up and served on plates Jim had Rodie say a quick prayer before both began
eating while laughing at each other's jokes.  Once they finished with
dinner Jim sat on the couch with Rodie snuggled close while resting his
head on Jim's shoulder as they watched "The Sixth Sense" together.

	As the movie ended Rodie asked, "Jim can we try out the Jacuzzi?"

	"Sure beautiful, I'm yours for the night remember.  Anything you
want to do ok," Jim answered him with a smile.

	"Anything?"  Rodie peeped.

	"Anything!"  Jim repeated.

	Rodie thought for a moment then lifted his head and whispered into
Jim's ear.  "Can we go naked Jim?"

	Looking at Rodie's face, "you sure...ok, if that is what you want,
surf boy," Jim said while Rodie nodded his head slightly.  Turning off the
TV Jim picked up the small boy and carried him downstairs into the room
where the Jacuzzi was.  Lowering Rodie until he was standing, Jim reached
over, turned on the jets, and adjusted the heat level.  Turning back to
Rodie Jim pulled him closer and started lifting his tee shirt up and over
his head.  He then untied the knot in Rodie's board shorts and slid them
down his slim legs until he could step out of them.  Jim then removed his
own shirt and shorts while Rodie stood watching him in his cotton boxers
with an obvious tent in them.  Jim stood up and slipped his thumbs into the
waistband of his boxer briefs and slowly slid them down and stepped out of
them.  He then did the same to Rodie's boxers before picking the small boy
up and stepping into the warm water.  He settled himself in the circulating
water with Rodie facing him as he sat on his lap.

	Once they had adjusted to the water temperature, Rodie leaned
forward with his head tilted slightly, and placed his small lips on Jim's
mouth.  As Jim met Rodie's small tongue with his own, he slowly ran his
hands down Rodie's back until he cupped Rodie's small ass cheeks in his
hands.

	Breaking the long kiss finally Rodie said in a heavy breath, "I
love you Jim."

	"I love you too, surf boy," just as Rodie kissed him again.  Jim
ran his fingers lightly along Rodie's crack until he found the little pink
anus.  Jim could feel it tighten reflexively as he traced around it's edge
while Rodie's body started to tremble against him.  Jim pushed the tip of
his finger inside, Rodie cried out breaking their kiss and Jim quickly
stopped but left his finger inside of Rodie's ass buried almost to the
first knuckle.  Jim felt Rodie's sphincter relax slowly, but also felt
Rodie's body shaking even more.  While Rodie's sphincter spasms finally
ceased, Rodie looked into Jim's face.  A look of utter anguish was covering
his small face like a mask while tears welled up in his eyes.  Jim watched
him as he thought for a moment, then Rodie's expression changed to that of
a person who dreaded what was going to happen next, but had no control to
prevent it, only to accept it.  However, Jim could see the sexual desire in
Rodie's frightened face also.  Seeing all of that, Jim quickly removed his
finger thinking he had gone to far, and to fast for the young boy.

	As Rodie felt Jim withdraw his finger, Rodie showed his desire as
well as his willingness to accept the fate that he feared.  He cried out
quickly, "No!  Please don't."  With his body beginning to tremble more as
that fear grew.  Rodie continued to speak in a voice tinged with that fear
now.  "You do not have to stop Jim.  If this is what you want...it is ok
with me...ju...just don't hurt me...please."

	Trying to be brave and not cry but not succeeding, as the fear and
memories rushed through his mind.  "N...not like daddy did ... please Jim,"
Rodie begged. He was unable to stop the tears now as they slipped down his
small face as his resolve started to crumble while his desire faded.  Jim
saw Rodie's bottom lip beginning to quiver, as the tears came faster now.

	"Please Jim...I'm just real...really scared...is all.  All I
know...is that it hur...hurt really b...bad when daddy...al...always did
it.  I...I thought he...he loved me J...Jim...he said he h...had to
hur...hurt me...ca...cause...he...l...loved me."

	He was stuttering now as he hiccuped with his growing fear.  Rodie
tried to look Jim in the eyes, but was unable to see anything beyond his
tears.  His voice was small and high pitched, sounding much like the
10-year old boy he really was as he started to hyperventilate.

	"B...but you promised me...y...you promised not to hurt me...I...am
ju...just...s...so ...sca...scared...right...now...but y...you
p...pro...promised.  Y...you said you lo...love me...ss...so
don't...hurt...mm...me...p...p...plea...please Jim...please."  Rodie wailed
as he embraced Jim tight and lay his head on Jim's shoulder.  Jim could
feel Rodie's small chest heaving in spasms while he hyperventilated and
hiccupped in his fear.

	Finally submitting to the hysteria of his fear, Rodie continued to
plead with his heart, while his small naked body shuddered violently
against Jim.  "I...d...do...not...w...want it...to hu...hurt as
bad...li...like...when d...d...daddy hurt me...p... ple ... please
Jim...d...don...don't hurt me...p...pl...please...you
pr...promised...me...J...Jim...please!"  Rodie spluttered, in a near panic
now, due to his fear as he pleaded and begged, all while trying to be brave
as his tears gushed down his face.

	Jim held his small shaking body with great concern, then looked
into Rodie's tearful eyes where he saw the uncontrollable fear.  Jim saw
the need in them also; he knew that he had to change how Rodie equated pain
and sex with love.  Therefore, he decided that from now on Rodie would see
that it was wonderful, and gentle while filled with compassion and caring.
Rodie would know that love and sex was not brutal while filled with pain,
as he believed now.  Jim was no expert on children, and he had no training
or experience working with them.  However, he knew how desperately Rodie
needed the memory that he had of love and sex to change now, if he was to
continue living.  He had to first calm Rodie down though.  Who was crying
now from the fear of his memory of the pain and trauma his father had
inflicted on him so many times in the past.  All while claiming that he was
loving Rodie instead.  So Jim pulled Rodie closer to his chest and started
whispering in his ear.  Rodie struggled at first but then less and less as
the time passed.

	Rodie's fear slowly slipped away as he heard Jim repeat the words
softly in his ear, as he let his body slowly melt into Jim's caressing
embrace.  "I promised you Rodie.  I will never break this promise to you
because I love you.  Now calm down my love, I will not hurt you, not now or
ever.  You are my beautiful surf boy, and I would die first before I ever
hurt you or cause you harm.  I love you Rodie, and you remember this
promise always."  Jim slowly repeated over, and over for twenty minutes
until Rodie calmed down and finally relaxed against Jim's chest.  After
another 20 minutes passed as Jim slowly scooped the warm water on Rodie
while he lightly kissed his face and head.  Lifting his head finally, Rodie
just looked into Jim's eyes as if he was searching for something important.
Jim could see the desire and need rising once again in his dark brown eyes.
Finally Rodie just leaned forward and kissed Jim on the lips lightly before
sitting up straight again in Jim's lap.  Jim had been scooping handfuls of
warm water onto Rodie while he calmed him down.  Taking a handful of water,
he tilted Rodie's head back and let it dribble onto his tear stained face.
He repeated this three to four times before pulling him closer and wiping
his wet face gently with a washcloth.

	"I told you that I didn't think you were ready for this yet, surf
boy," Jim said gently to Rodie.

	Placing his hands on Jim's shoulders while looking down at Jim's
hairless chest, Rodie quietly answered, "I know, but I couldn't help it.
Everything I feel inside me was saying 'yes, yes, yes,' but as soon as you
touched me there my mind was screaming 'NO daddy NO'.  Then all I could
think about was how much it hurt when he did it.  Of how he refused to stop
no matter how much I screamed, then him telling me that that if it didn't
hurt then it meant he didn't love me.  So I felt how much you love me, but
I couldn't stop being afraid of how much it is going to hurt me.  I'm sorry
Jim."

	Looking at Rodie as the small boy stared at Jim's bare chest, Jim
replied, "No Rodie, you do not have to apologize to me.  I know you are
frightened and confused my love.  What you have is called PTS syndrome, and
I know you have it because of the panic attacks you are having...first with
John, then with me just now."

	"P.T.S.?  What's that?"  Rodie asked looking back up at Jim's face.

	"It stands for Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome.  You get it when
something very bad happens to you, like a car accident or something like
what your father did to you.  Your mind is unable to deal with what has
happened, my love, so it sort of blacks it out so you do not think about
it.  The only problem is that when certain events are all combined in a way
that is similar to what happened to you, your mind suddenly releases all of
those memories and emotions right then.  Then the survival instinct of your
brain takes over to try to protect you, that is why you do things that you
cannot control.  It overwhelms you because you are not prepared to handle
it mentally or emotionally.  So you end up having a panic attack, it is as
if you have a mini breakdown.  It will continue to happen more, and more
often, while it gets worse, and worse each time until you do something to
escape from it all like Byron did.  Byron had it, but I was not allowed to
see him so I could not help him and it got so bad that he ended up killing
himself to make it stop.  I will not let that happen to you Rodie, I
promise you with all my heart.  I will help you through this, and I will
not let you do something to hurt yourself.  What your father did was to
rape you.  Rape is not about love, it is about control and power, and it
usually hurts the victim so bad that all they remember is the pain.  Your
dad did it because he liked that, he liked you begging him not to, he liked
how you struggled against it, but most of all he liked how you screamed in
pain while he did it.  He then said things to control you, like he did it
because he loved you, or that this was how boys had sex, and how the pain
must be endured if you love that person.  I also know that he told you that
if you told your mother that she would hate you and tell you how it was all
your fault.  He told you this knowing you would believe him because you did
love your father.  I know now how you felt his desire for you, but that was
only his lust Rodie, it was not love."

	"Can you feel if I desire to have sex with you right now Rodie?"
Jim answered.  Rodie stared at Jim intently for a few moments sensing how
Jim wanted to feel his naked body, and an image came to Rodie of Jim
kissing his hard pee-pee.  He giggled at the naughtiness he felt of the
idea.

	He then smiled because his interest was now peaked about it, he
said, "yeah Jim, you do, I can feel it."  Then looking down quickly then
back at Jim, "see you are making my pee-pee big again," Rodie said as he
pointed to his growing penis while he giggled.  Now blushing a little he
looked at Jim with questioning eyes he asked, "you think kissing my pee-pee
is sex Jim?"

	Looking back into Rodie's face Jim answered him; "yes I do desire
you.  Because I think you are beautiful, and you are perfect in every way
in my eyes."  Jim stated truthfully making Rodie blush prettily while he
sensed how Jim believed what he had just said.  "Also to answer your
question, yes kissing and sucking your pee-pee is a form of sex, it is
called oral sex.  Just like kissing each other and rubbing our bodies
together is different form of sex, and even by yourself when you tickle or
play with your pee-pee is still another different form of sex, you
understand?"  Jim explained and waited until Rodie nodded his head slowly
before continuing.  "Now I am thinking about things a little
differently...can you feel if I still desire to have sex with you now?
First, I want you to put your hands on me ok."  Jim said knowing that Rodie
would experience everything instead of just sensing some of it if what
Rodie and Cathy said was true.  Nodding his head silently, Rodie placed his
small hand palm down on Jim's chest just above his heart.  Rodie flinched
slightly as images flashed into his mind as well as the emotions and
thoughts he sensed.  He could feel the pain and saw the images of what
Byron's father had made them do to him, that Jim had.  Mostly he could feel
Jim's growing revulsion and sickness as he concentrated on those images.
Rodie quickly pulled his hand away as the bile rose into his mouth while
his head was dizzy.  Looking away quickly, Rodie started coughing and
gagging as he leaned over the side of the Jacuzzi retching but was able to
prevent himself from throwing up.  He dimly realized that Jim was patting
and rubbing his back during that time.  It took Rodie a few minutes before
he was able to look back at Jim.

	"Now do you understand surf boy?"  Jim asked kindly.

	"Yeah, I think so Jim," Rodie replied while nodding his head
slightly as Jim handed a bottle of water to him so he could rinse out his
mouth.

	"I know your afraid Rodie, but you have to trust me now on this.  I
can see now that what he did is slowly tearing you apart inside.  However,
I want to help you fix it so that you can forget about what your father did
to you.  You are going to have to trust that I will not break my promise to
you, that I will not hurt you."  Jim explained carefully.  So with all of
his compassion and kindness in his face, as tears of understanding and love
coursed down his cheeks.  Jim said, "ok Rodie, I will never hurt you, but I
need to do this to make everything easier for you.  I will take you through
this very slowly.  Therefore, you can understand that there is a difference
between sex with love, and rape with cruelty and pain.  Sex is not supposed
to be full of pain, but full of joy and happiness.  Now if you are confused
about anything, or you are scared, and do not want to do this, you just
tell me at any time ok.  I do not want you to wait to ask or tell me
because I will stop immediately and explain as best as I know how.  I
promise this will not hurt at all, my beautiful boy, so do not worry my
love.  I want you to put your hands on me and do not let go ok."  Jim
explained slowly while projecting as much love, compassion, desire, and
caring that he had for the young boy in his lap.  "You are not my first boy
I have loved, but I am your first man that you love.  We will learn to love
each other together ok.  Trust me, my beautiful surf boy, I will not hurt
you ever."  Jim explained as he slowly slid his hands down until they were
around Rodie's slim waist.

	"Mom told me about Byron...of how much you loved him, but you don't
have to stop loving him just to love me Jim.  You do not have to love me
`cause you already love Byron.  It's ok with me that you love him, I
understand Jim.  So please do not stop loving him just for me," Rodie said
quietly as he looked into Jim's face while placing both his hands on Jim's
shoulders.

	Jim cried as he realized that Rodie loved him so much that he did
not want him to forget his love for Byron and love him instead.  "I loved
Byron Rodie, and I love him still.  However, he is gone up to heaven while
you are here with me.  I can love you and do love you Rodie, and love him
too.  You know what I think?  I think Byron would approve of our love.  I
know that because I loved him when he was here although we never made love.
I never had sex with him because his father took him away from me before it
could get that far," Jim explained as he held Rodie close to him.  Jim
loved Rodie more now because of his compassion for a boy who he had never
known.

	As Rodie wiped Jim's tears away, he trembled as he asked Jim, "you
promised this won't hurt me?"

	"I promise my love, this will not hurt at all, as a matter of fact,
it will be the most wonderful feeling you have ever felt."  Jim said to him
as Rodie sensed the truth of it all coming from Jim.

	"Ok Jim...I trust you," Rodie said to him with his voice barely
higher than a whisper.  Then giving himself over completely to Jim's trust,
Rodie surrendered his body and mind to him, letting down all of his
defenses.  It surprised Jim as he realized that he could now feel what
Rodie was feeling at that very moment.  He had not imagined that Rodie's
desire could be that intense, and his attraction towards Jim that strong.
However, he also felt the overwhelming fear that was tainting all of the
small boy's emotions, including his love for his mother, that he would
drive them away if they knew that nothing was hidden from him.  He could
also hear Rodie's thoughts as well.

	"You are the only one who does not hate me because of what I am
Jim.  So please remember your promise to me."  Rodie thought to him as Jim
stared at his unmoving face.  Realizing that Rodie had a much stronger
talent that anyone could ever realize, Jim realized how something like that
would frighten people, but oddly knowing this only made him love Rodie
more.  Rodie sensed this and responded by projecting a sense of gratitude
to him.

	"Does your mom know that you can do all of this Rodie?"  Jim
questioned silently.

	"No.  You are the only one who knows everything Jim.  I can only do
it if I really try hard with someone I know, then only if they know what I
am doing.  If they do know then they have to let me in or I cannot do it.
All you have to do is think of something like a wall or barrier and I
cannot get in.  It really helps if I am touching them at the time too, but
not necessary.  As to sensing what someone is feeling, I cannot help that,
it just happens when I am around them but I can sorta block it out and
ignore it.  I do not try and read mom though cause I do not think it would
be right, and if I did, she might get mad and ground me for like forever.
I promise not to read your thoughts either unless you want me to ok Jim."
Rodie quietly explained within Jim's mind at he stared at Jim.

	Suddenly Rodie was gone from Jim's mind as if someone had broken
the link, as Jim thought about a brick wall blocking Rodie's access.  Then
Rodie was back in once Jim restored the way in so nothing was blocking him.
Jim then touched upon a memory that revealed to him the reason of Rodie's
thoughts towards his father.  Of how a very talented and very young boy had
tried to connect mentally with his father and succeeded once without his
father realizing it.  First learning the secret desire and lust, his father
had for him, and seeing the images of himself being dressed up in girl's
clothes with long hair.  Then of the revulsion and hatred over the years as
his father realized that Rodie somehow knew his darkest secret while seeing
his son trying to fulfill his father's desire.  Thinking everything through
carefully, Jim pondered for a while before deciding to wait until another
time to pursue this further, Jim told Rodie to listen to his voice as well
as his thoughts.

	"Ok my love, I'm going to need a little help with this.  So, do as
I say ok.  First, just relax and lean against me, let all of the tension
and fear go away.  Remember not to let go with your hands also."  Jim said
softly into Rodie's ear as he caressed the still trembling boy's back and
sides.  Rodie listened to Jim's comforting voice, he felt the fear easing
away as his body relaxed more and more against Jim.  "Now open your mind
completely Rodie, let it feel what I am feeling," Jim whispered in his ear
while he continued to lightly caress Rodie's body while feeling the
connection of their minds.  After a long while when Jim felt and sensed
that Rodie was completely relaxed, he tilted his small head up with his
hands before kissing him very gently on his small parted lips again.  Rodie
started slow, but as he sank deeper into the passion he sensed from Jim,
and his own desire rose, his kissing became more wanton.  Breathing heavily
after Jim broke the kiss, then as Jim slowly moved down kissing his neck
all the way to his chest.

	Rodie was absorbed deeper into the passion of the moment as he
closed his eyes and sat up straight in Jim's lap.  He had his small hands
on Jim's shoulders while feeling the heat from Jim's engorged member as it
was nestled in between Rodie's spread ass cheeks.  Catching his breath and
holding it, Rodie let out a low moan as Jim softly sucked on one of his
tiny nipples then the other while sensing the thought Jim kept repeating
silently to him.  "I remember my promise, my love ... I will never hurt
you."  With these new sensations beginning to overwhelm him, Rodie
continued to sink deeper into the passion he felt with Jim.  Rodie started
mewing like a newborn kitten as Jim ran his tongue lightly over the area
where his ribs met his little flat belly.  Opening his eyes as his
breathing became heavier, and faster, Rodie moaned softly as Jim traced the
edges of his tiny belly button before sucking lightly on it.  "Oh
Jim...oh...uuhhhnnn", Rodie said as his body started to quiver with growing
excitement as he tilted his head back until his face was turned upward
towards the ceiling.

	Lifting Rodie's small body higher until Rodie was almost kneeling
as he straddled Jim's lap, Jim gently sucked on one small testicle then the
other, swirling his tongue around in circles on the soft silky skin.
Moving slowly to the hairless area above Rodie's quivering cocklet, Jim
continued to run his tongue in small circles over Rodie's small pubis and
the base of the boy's very hard cocklet.  Jim could hear Rodie breathing
with sharp ragged intakes of breath.  Seeing Rodie's acorn-sized balls
beginning to draw up close to his body, Jim realized that Rodie was getting
close to his peak.  Jim lifted his head then slowly licked along the length
of the boy's pulsating dick as it twitched and quivered, all the way up to
the small blue knob of his cocklet.  Hearing his boy cry out briefly as Jim
sucked in Rodie's full 3-inch length, he paused momentarily until he felt
Rodie's body tremble before hearing him drawing in another ragged breath.

	Curling his tongue around the bottom side of the thin penis Jim
started moving his tongue back and forth, as he sucked gently while moving
his head back and forth also.  As Jim sped up his tongue and head action,
he slowly increased his suction until he heard Rodie cry out loudly.  As
the first powerful orgasm wracked Rodie's body, Jim grasped his firm
buttocks as he felt Rodie's small penis jump once, then again, and again.
At the same moment, Rodie cried out as he arched backwards pushing his
throbbing cocklet as far as he could into Jim's mouth as his body shuddered
with pleasure repeatedly.  Jim felt the thin watery stream spurt into his
throat three times before pausing momentarily, then three more powerful
spurts as another orgasm shook Rodie's body before slowing to a thin
trickle while Jim continued to suck gently while at the same time releasing
his own seed into the water.  Rodie's small body convulsed as the powerful
multiple orgasms washed over him.  Crying out in ecstasy, Rodie jerked as
wave after wave of the orgasms overwhelmed him before falling into Jim's
gentle embrace as the world around him went dark.  When he awoke sometime
later, he was laying in Jim's bed while Jim cradled him in his arms while
talking softly to him.

	Jim caught Rodie as he went limp finally as the unending orgasms
wracked his small body.  Gently holding his slim body to him, Jim could
still feel the tremors coursing through Rodie's body as his small head
lolled against Jim's chest.  Scooping him into his arms, Jim watched as
Rodie's still hard cocklet jumped and quivered while it still leaked tiny
droplets of his immature boy seed down the side of it.  Jim slowly climbed
out of the Jacuzzi and carefully wrapped Rodie in a large towel and putting
on his robe before carrying him up to his bed.  Lying next to Rodie, and
cuddling him softly while whispering in his ear how much he loved him.  Jim
held his lovely boy for over an hour, gently stroking his hair and back,
while rocking him gently before Rodie stirred.

	"What happened to me Jim?"  Rodie asked in a weak voice as he
opened his eyes and looked at Jim.

	"You had a couple of very powerful orgasms my love, you had me
worried there for a little while surf boy," Jim answered while brushing the
hair our of Rodie's face.  Regaining his senses a little now Rodie tried to
sit up only to discover how weak he felt.  Remembering the raw power of the
sensations he felt through out his body, Rodie smiled weakly at Jim.

	"Are you ok now Rodie," Jim asked in a concerned voice.

	Nodding weakly Rodie said, "yeah...that was the most awesome
feeling I have ever had Jim."

	Jim smiled at him, "I'm glad you liked it, but next time try and
warn me before you zonk out like that.  I almost had a coronary when you
fell over like that.  I'm not that young anymore you know."

	A weak laugh escaped Rodie's lips as he rested contently in Jim's
arms.  "Is this what real love is like Jim?"  He asked silently to Jim.

	"Yes Rodie, this is what real love is like, there is no pain in it,
unless you lose it, then the pain has no end until you find love again,"
Jim replied in his thoughts only.

	"Why do I feel so weak Jim?"  Rodie asked in barely a whisper with
half closed eyes as he tried to raise his arm.

	"I think because you set the record on the biggest orgasm anyone
has ever had.  It just drained all of your energy is all, surf boy.  You
even drained me my love.  Try and rest and you will feel better in the
morning."  Jim explained to the spent boy he cradled in his arms.

	"I have to pee though Jim," Rodie said to him quietly.

	Reaching under the night table beside him, Jim retrieved the
plastic urinal jug he had kept from the hospital.  Gently holding Rodie's
soft 2-inch penis into the opening of the urinal as Rodie watched him with
half open eyes.  Jim said, "ok Rodie go ahead and pee now."  He carefully
held the small red penis as Rodie emptied his full bladder into the plastic
urinal.  Jim knew it was still extremely sensitive because of the way Rodie
breathed in quickly as his finger brushed against the reddish blue head of
the small cocklet.

	"Thanks Jim," Rodie said as the last few drops of piss were
expelled from his penis.  "Is it supposed to hurt like this Jim?"  Rodie
asked sleepily.

	"What hurts my love?"  Jim asked in a concerned voice as he snapped
the lid onto the now half full urinal and set it on the floor.

	With a giggle Rodie replied, "my balls Jim, hahaha!  They ache."

	"Oh well they will for a little while, but don't worry that is
normal.  That happens sometimes and you did drain them pretty thoroughly
tonight, you know."  Jim answered with a knowing smile before laughing as
he gently fondled the little balls.

	"It's not funny Jim!  And do not touch it cause it only makes it
worse," Rodie exclaimed as Jim felt his little limp dick and now flaccid
nut sack.

	"Alright surf boy, I was just checking to make sure you didn't
shoot them out also during your massive orgasm."  Jim said with a smirk on
his face as he carefully kneaded Rodie's small balls.  He removed his hand
as he watched Rodie begin to doze off with a smile on his face.

	"Thank you for keeping your promise to me Jim," Rodie thought to
him as he drifted off to sleep.

	"Your welcome my love," Jim answered before gently easing Rodie's
head down onto the pillow and standing up.  After emptying then rinsing out
the urinal in the bathroom, Jim placed it back under the night table.  Jim
then walked out of the bedroom naked and went downstairs, shut off the
Jacuzzi and opened the valve so it could drain.  He then collected their
clothes, and turning out the light before going upstairs.  Jim went around
the house securing the doors and turning off lights before re-entering the
bedroom.  Slipping quietly back into bed and pulling the covers over Rodie
and himself, Jim then eased his arm under Rodie's pillow again.  As usual,
Rodie scooted closer and draped his arm and leg over Jim's body while
laying his head on Jim's chest before sinking deeper into sleep.  Jim
turned out the light before kissing Rodie lightly on his forehead and
falling asleep almost instantly while he held him.

End Chapter 4.

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