Date: Wed, 17 Oct 2001 17:01:22 -0700
From: Robert Just  Robert <kewl_dad_1@msn.com>
Subject: Skatebaord Boy part-13

Skateboard Boy
Part 13


	I awoke with a start and found I was alone on the living room
floor.  My back ached and I had an immediate need to pee.  I slowly got up
and padded to the closest bathroom.  When I finished I went into the
kitchen but, found none of my boys there.  I checked the bedrooms and found
no one there either.  I soon satisfied myself that I was alone.  Then
returning to the kitchen I found a note on the fridge door.  I pulled it
from beneath the Pizza Hut refrigerator magnet and read it.
	Dear dad:
	We went to Jas's house to get his cd's.  We didn't want to wake you
up.  We will be back around 10 and will be hungry...hahaha.
  	Love, your boys
	I smiled and put the note in a safe place.  I know it's silly, but
I keep everything that the boys write.  Some day when I'm old and they are
gone, I will re-read all of them and remember our life together.  I took a
quick shower and got dressed then began fixing some breakfast for my boys.
I was just taking the biscuits out of the oven when the phone rang.  It was
Mark.
	"Hey, what's up?"  I ask cheerfully.
	"Not much, I just missed you."  Mark said in a sweet voice.
	"Awww, I missed you too. Why don't you come on over, I almost have
breakfast ready."
	"I wish I could, I have to work.  I just wanted to hear your voice.
I had a bad day yesterday and I just wanted to talk to you.  Would it be
too late if I came by after work, say around nine o'clock?"  Mark ask
softly.
	"No problem."  I replied with excitement.  "That would be great.
Maybe we could go for a drive or something."
	"Yeah, that would be cool.  I gotta go Robert, uh..I'll see ya
later.  Uh...I really miss you."  Mark said sounding unsure of himself.
	"I miss you too.  I am really looking forward to tonight."
	"K, later then....uh..and ....ahh, never mind..I'll tell ya
tonight."  Mark stutterer.
	"Okay babe, later.  Have a good day at work.  I'll be thinking of
you."  I said smiling to myself.
	"K, gotta go..byeeee."  And he hung up.
	I was humming and smiling widely as the boys came in a few minutes
later.  I must have been pretty obvious, because Cody looked at me and
grinned.
	"What's up?"  Cody asked slyly.
	"Oh....nothing.  I just got off the phone with Mark.  He is coming
over later, after work."  I said smiling from ear to ear.
	"Cool.  What's for breakfast?"  Cody ask snatching a piece of
bacon."
	I slapped at him playfully and told him to grab the eggs out of the
fridge.  I scrambled up a dozen or so and added cheese onions and peppers.
I had a hard time keeping my hungry boys at bay while I finished, but soon
we were all sitting around the table and feasting.  Of all the things I
liked about boys this was one of my favorites.  Nothing warmed my heart
like a hungry boy getting his tummy full.  I felt revived and energetic by
the time we finished and I let the boys clean up while I went in and
watched a little tv and read the paper.  The boys wanted to do something,
so I looked in the entertainment section to see what was going on this
weekend.  There was not much going on, so I suggested we go to the park or
zoo.  The boys chose going to the new skateboard park.
	The skateboard park was a great place for the locals to hone their
skills and stay out of trouble.  There was usually a parent or responsible
adult around and so far there had been no problems.  A lot of ignorant
people think skaters are "hoods" or trouble makers.  The truth is most
skaters are just normal kids.  My Cody was an awesome skate boarder and his
brothers were learning fast.  Jason was not quite as good as Cody but,
wasn't afraid to try anything.  I grabbed the camcorder and we headed to
the park.
	It was a gorgeous day, about 80 degrees and sunny.  The boys
grabbed their boards and headed to the fenced in park and I found a place
on the bleachers nearby.  I turned on the camcorder and started filming.  I
always loved coming here, there were so many cute boys here of all ages.
And the skills they demonstrated never ceased to amaze me.  I insisted that
the boys wear all the proper safety equipment and they agreed, it was after
all the way the pros did it.  Tim had really improved his skills as of late
and I got some good footage of him as he grinned and showed off for the
camera.  Cody and Jason were performing some team stunts and Mike was
working on some smaller ramps.
	I couldn't help but notice an older boy, probably 16 or so who was
an absolute master at his board.  He wore baggy corduroy pants and a loose
button up shirt which was open part way down.  His hairless chest was well
formed and tanned.  His long brown hair stuck out wildly beneath his helmet
and his dark eyes seemed serious and determined.  Then each time he would
complete a difficult run he would smile and his eyes would sparkle.  He had
the most amazing face..so beautiful yet wise.  Once our eyes met and I
blushed, but he just smiled and continued his stunt.  I found myself taping
him every chance I got and he was putting on quite a show.
	I lost track of the teen as I was taping Jason and Cody but
suddenly I was aware of someone climbing the bleachers and standing near
me.
	"Hey dude, did you tape that last run I made?  I looked up to see
the object of my attention standing over me.  He was even better looking up
close, a perfect example of adolescent male.
	"Uh, yeh.  Is that okay, I mean I guess I should have ask your
permission."  I said blushing again.
	"No, dude.  It's cool. I just wanted to see it.  Can you play it
back on there man?"  He ask sitting down beside me.
	"Yeh, hold on a sec."  I said re-winding the tape.  The boy was so
close I could smell his sweat and musk.  His smell was intoxicating, and I
found my mind wandering, I missed his next few words."
	"Sorry..what did you say?"  I stuttered.
	"I said is that your son over there?"  The teen said pointing at
Jason and Cody.
	"The dark haired one is..that's Cody and that's his friend Jason
with him.  Those two over there are mine too."  I said pointing out Mike
and Tim.
	"Wow, you don't look old enough to have that many kids."  And then
he laughed...his voice was almost feminine.  I studied his face to see if
he was kidding.  He looked serious.
	"Thanks, actually they are adopted."  I said smiling and still
blushing.  This kid was having a very strange effect on me.  "Okay, here is
the part where I started taping you."
	He leaned in close and I could feel the heat from his body and his
breath on my neck.  I flushed and I felt my skin tingle.  He reached up and
touched my hand to tilt the camera a bit his way and I felt sparks jumping
between us.  I was sweating and I felt my hard on pushing at my fly.  I
glanced down and looked at his lap, but I couldn't really see anything in
the loose material of his corduroys.  "I'm being silly."  I said to myself.
"He is just interested in the video, that's all."  But, if he got any
closer I was going to cum without touching myself.  I felt like some love
starved teenager, and heaven knows that wasn't anywhere near what I was.  I
was just a horny old man, who read things into innocent deeds because I
really, really like young studs like this one.
	The vid ended and he ask to watch it again. I re- wound the tape
and as we waited we chatted.
	"I'm Josh."  He said smiling and offered his hand in a that
side-ways brother kind-of shake.
	He was surprised that I returned the shake that way, I could see it
on his face.  "I'm Robert. It's cool to meet ya."  I said somewhat
composing myself.
	"Uh..I don't suppose I could get a copy of that tape?"  He asked
almost shyly.
	"No problem.  I'll give you my phone number and you can call me in
a couple of days.  I can dub one with my vcr at home.  Then we can work out
a way to get it to you.  Maybe I could bring it here."  I scribbled my
phone number down on a card and he pocketed it as I started the vid again.
	"Cool, or I could come over.  I got my own car."  He said moving in
once again.
	He watched the vid once more and then reluctantly he said he had to
get back home.  He thanked me for the vid and said he would pay me for it,
but I said it was no big deal.
	"That's my Honda over there."  He said pointing proudly at a
brilliant blue Civic.  It had a body kit and rims and wide low profile
tires.  It looked expensive, and I wondered if Josh was from a wealthy
family.  A lot of skaters were but, Josh at least didn't act stuck up like
a lot of them did.
	I checked on the boys and they were busy with their boards so I
walked Josh to his car and looked it over.  It was very nice and he had a
nice sound system inside, with a box and 2- 10" subs in the back.  He got
in and turned it on and began pumping out some awesome bass.  I
complimented him on his car and he beamed like a little boy.  He told me
all the stuff he had done and told me proudly that he had paid for it all
with his part-time job.  Here was a good kid, who was proud that he made
his own way.  I recognized his type, and I would bet that he didn't have
much of a relationship with his dad.  I decided to feel him out a bit, just
out of curiosity.
	"Did your dad help you with your car.  I plan on helping Cody get
his fixed up when the time comes."
	"Nah, my dad says I'm crazy.  He says I don't need all that loud
stuff and all that fancy stuff.  He says I should have bought an American
car."  He looked a little sad as he spoke , then his eyes brightened and he
looked at me and smiled.  "Your son is lucky."
	"Thanks."  I said humbly.  "Well, I better let you go Josh.  Be
sure to call me in a few days.  It was really nice meeting you."  I added
unconsciously reaching out to shake once more.  I think I just wanted to
feel his warm strong hand again.
	We waved good bye and he drove off slowly.  I turned on the cam
corder and taped his departure until he disappeared from sight.  I walked
back over to the bleachers and sat back down.  The boys stayed a bit longer
then talked me into taking them for ice cream.  We dropped Jason off at his
house around six and headed home.
	We had soup and sandwiches for supper and the boys went off to do
homework while I chilled in front of the boob tube.  I couldn't help
thinking of Josh, but before long I was looking forward to Mark's visit.  I
really hoped my relationship with Mark would go somewhere, I really needed
someone stable in my life right now, I mean besides my boys.  I found
myself dozing off and when I awoke it was almost nine.  The boys had bathed
and gotten ready for bed without being told and I went in to check on them.
	Tim and Mike were playing Nintendo 64 and barely looked up as I
kissed them goodnight.  I told them to be in bed by ten and no funny
business, Cody was in charge till I got back.  They grunted affirmation and
continued with their game.  I found Cody stretched out on his bed looking
cute and thoughtful.  He was wearing boxers and no shirt and I sat down
beside him and rubbed his back.
	"What you thinking about?"  I ask.
	"Oh, nothing special.  A lot of stuff really.  I just feel...really
confused sometimes.  I love you and Jason, but I don't know if I really
know what it all means."  He said thoughtfully.
	"Well, buddy.  Don't try to analyze it too much.  Just enjoy it
while you can.  When you get older love isn't as easy to come by and it
doesn't seem nearly as good.  Your first love is probably the most special
of all.  I remember mine, it was so great."  I said thinking back to my
younger days.
	"Who was it ?"  He ask curiously.
	I found myself telling him about Jimmy, my first love.  I was 19
and he was 12 when we met and I fell head over heels in love with him.  The
fact that I never confessed this love still haunts me and by the time I
finished my story I found I was near tears.  Cody sat up and hugged me
close and kissed me sweetly.
	"How come you never told him?"  Cody ask softly.
	"I was afraid.  Afraid I would loose his friendship and to me that
was a risk I couldn't take.  I was very fragile then, in fact I came close
to suicide."  I said staring into my lap.
	"I'm sorry."  Cody said hugging me tightly. "Where is he now?"
	"I..I'm not sure.  I think in Alaska.  I lost contact with him
after he moved away.  I have always wanted to contact him and tell him the
truth.  It doesn't seem to matter much though.  I guess it would just be
silly."
	"I think you should."  Cody said thoughtfully. "I would."
	"Yeh, maybe I will.  Now, I gotta go meet Mark and you need to get
to bed.  I told Tim and Mike that you were in charge while I was gone."
	"Okay, they won't be any problem.  Say hi to Mark for me, okay.
And give him one of these."  Cody said leaning in and kissing me on the
lips.
	I felt much better as I walked out of Cody's room and back into the
living room.  I head a soft knock at he door and opened it...it was Mark.
He came in quickly and fell into my arms.  He had been crying.  I held him
for a minute waiting for him to compose himself.
	"What is it babe?"  I ask softly.
	"I can't tell you.  You will hate me.  I...."  and he broke down
and started sobbing loudly.
	I held him tightly rocking him like a baby as the sobs racked his
slight form.  I felt like crying myself, but wanted to be strong for him,
to help him with whatever the problem was.
	"Shhh...it's okay.  I could never hate you.  I...love you."  I
confessed.
	He looked up at me with tears running down his face.  He looked
surprised then began to wail even louder.  "I'm so sorry Robert.  I should
never have come here.  I...."  But his words were lost in his sobs.
	"Shhh..." I said holding him close and stroking his hair.  "Nothing
can ever change how I feel about you.  What is it, what's wrong?"
	"I...was with someone else last night.  I feel so terrible,
I.....don't love him...I don't know why I do these things."  He said
pulling away and looking up cautiously at me.  He looked as if he expected
me to hit him.
	I stepped back and smiled. "Is that all?"  I said in as normal a
voice as was possible under the circumstances.  "You don't have to tell me
about your private life...I don't own you.  I mean we only just met, and
neither of us have made any commitments."
	"But...you said you loved me.  Did you mean that?"  He was looking
expectantly at me and I felt if I said the wrong thing now, I could
jeopardize our relationship.  I wondered if I should be totally honest or
tell him what he wanted to hear.  Only problem was, I didn't know what he
wanted to hear.  I had no clue.
	"Yes, but I can't expect you to necessarily feel the same, at least
not so soon.  If you need to see other people, I understand.  I don't want
you to feel pressured in any way."  I said trying to convince myself that
it didn't matter if Mark loved me or wanted to be only with me. I searched
his eyes for a clue as to how he felt trying to guess what he would say.
	He stepped a little further back and looked at me soulfully.
"I...don't know how I feel yet.  I want to be honest, that's all.  I don't
want to hurt you.  I like you a lot, I just don't know....."  He said
sadly.
	"If you love me?"  I finished for him.  "It's totally cool, how
about this?  We just see each other, but we don't make any promises.  How
does that sound?"  I added, my heart suddenly heavy.
	He nodded but looked suddenly confused.  "So...you don't love me?"
He asked in a hurt voice.
	"I didn't say that."  I said trying to keep my voice from cracking.
"I just don't want you to feel any pressure."
	"Why don't you just tell me the truth.  Do you love me or not?"  He
said pouting.
	I took a deep breath.  What did he want from me.  My heart was
breaking and I was trying to make it easy for him.  I wanted to crawl away
and hide.  But he stood before me demanding an answer.  I lowered my head
and stared at the floor.  "I love you more than I have loved anyone except
my boys.  There are you happy?"  I said tearfully.
	He reached out and took my face in his soft hands and raised it as
he stepped closer.  His beautiful face was beaming.  He wiped a tear from
my eye and kissed me on the lips.  "I love you too.  I just had to be sure.
I really wasn't with anyone last night.  I made it all up just to see how
you would react."
	"I....don't know what to say."  I answered not really knowing
whether to laugh or be angry.  I had had enough of sadness and anger in my
life.  I had an oppurtunity to have some happiness now, and I took it.
"You little stink...you almost had me thinking it was over before it
started.  I would paddle your cute behind if I wasn't so happy right now."
I picked him up and hugged him close kissing him passionately.  He melted
into my arms and we must have stood there for fifteen minutes or so
exploring each other's body.
	"Let's go for a drive and cool off."  I suggested.
	"Okay, if you want.  But, what I would really like to do is spend
the night in your arms."  Mark said almost shyly.
	I took his hand and led him to my bedroom.  As I closed the door I
heard three small voices, giggling and one crying out lowly..."Alright
dad!"  I smiled to myself and turned to face Mark who had already begun to
undress.  I looked at his hairless chest and he smiled opening his arms.  I
ran to him and we embraced.  We wasted no time undressing each other and
fell into the bed our bodies entwined.  Our heards beat together as we
wrestled in love's grasp.  My heart was his and I hoped I could win his
before the night was over.  We had a long time to figure things out..right
now..our love was all that mattered.

End of part13...more to come.