Date: Fri, 17 May 2013 20:19:16 -0700 (PDT)
From: Billy Berglund <billykoolia@yahoo.com>
Subject: Starting over
All usual disclaimers apply
Love and Hate
Chapter 3 ' Come Down '
It had been several weeks since I last saw Justin. The only sex I'd had
been with my hand. I was damn tired of jerking off, I needed the real
thing. As I laid in bed that night Justin kept popping up in my head.
Fucking faggot I didn't even know where he lived. Just then I remembered
I'd taken pictures of him at the park. Grabbing my cell phone off the
night stand I opened my picture gallery and began scrolling through them.
The first one was of my dick buried in his hot little cunt. I stared at it
and thought back to the day. With my dick in my hand I recalled how tight
he was and my hand tightened it's grip on my dick. Goddamn that boys cunt
made my dick feel good. I remembered the first night when I'd taken his
cherry ass. oh fuck that was hot. I had to stop jerking or I was going to
cum. I scrolled to the next pic which was of his
face bunched up in pain. That made me smile. He'd been such a distant
bitch that day. He deserved to be in pain. I hoped his cunt was still
sore. I couldn't get his face out of my mind. Even all twisted in pain he
was cute. Cute? Where the fuck did that come from? I wasn't the fag, he
was.
I smacked myself upside the head for thinking that, trying to get the
thought of him being cute out of my head. I scrolled to the next pic, the
shot of his smooth chest covered in my sperm. Yeah, he was the fag. My
hand went back to jacking my dick and I pumped it hard and fast. Damn I'd
shot a helluva wad. I pictured him here in my bed fucking the living shit
out of him. Fuck why couldn't he be here now. I could feel the soft
texture of his colt like legs, as I fucked into his ass over and over
again. Fuck I was losing it. My legs trembled and my toes curled up as my
cum came rushing out of my dick. My hand and tee shirt were covered in it.
I took the tee off and used it to wipe off my hand, tossing it on the
floor. Why couldn't he have been here to swallow it? I knew what I had to
do.
Beginning on Monday I had to go looking for him. My life sucked. I had
friends but no girl friend, no sex life. The only sex I'd ever had was
with Justin. I hated even admitting that to myself. How low had I sunk
that I was going to track down a fag and and say and do whatever I had to
to get him back. I needed him, no I wanted him. It wouldn't be easy he
was so pissed last time. He only reluctantly got into the car with me last
time. Even if he did talk to me and we worked something out my friends
could never find out. I'd end up with no friends. My life would be over.
Shit this sucked I hated myself for letting this fag get to me. Why had I
even answered the door that first fateful night. Monday couldn't come fast
enough but I dreaded it at the same time.
Somehow I got through the day Monday. My mind was only on one thing,
find Justin. I even jacked off in the bathroom thinking about him. I had
to get some relief because I knew even if I did find him today and he
talked to me there would be no sex for me. After school drove over to
junior high and slowly drove down the street looking for him. Hoping he
hadn't changed the route he took home. I was nervous and hopeful at the
same time. Then there he was,walking by himself. I slowed way down
staying a half block behind him. Damn his ass looked hot in his tight
jeans. I had to stop thinking about that. I might only get one chance to
make this right and if my dick got in the way I was going to lose. I
rolled the passenger window down and pulled up beside him.
"Please get in Justin. We gotta talk."
"No! Get away from me!" He took off running like I was a monster. He
took a right at the next street and I turned down it and kept up with him.
Yelling at him that I wasn't going to go away and he couldn't run forever.
Finally after running for 3 blocks he stopped, half bent over trying to
catch his breath. This was it. I stopped the car next to him and got out.
As I approached him he put his hand up to stop me. I grabbed it so he
wouldn't be able to get away. I put my other arm around him and started to
walk him over to the car.
"I'm not going to hurt you Justin. I just want to apologise.", I opened
the passenger door and got him seated. I hoped he didn't get out and run
again while I was walking around to get in. He didn't. Maybe that's just
the way he was. If he felt trapped and had no choice he just gave up and
accepted whatever was going to happen. He'd pretty much got his breath
back but was just sitting there staring straight ahead, "I know you're mad
at me and don't walk to talk to me. That's okay Justin I'm going to talk,
just hear me out", I drove away and headed for the nearest convenience
store, "I'm sorry Justin, and I mean that. I really am. I know I hurt you
and I feel bad", pulling into the convenience store I parked and turned
towards him. Taking his chin in my hand I turned his head to face me. I
smiled at him but he just stared back at me blankly, "I'm going to go in
and get you a pop and something to snack on. You need some energy after
all that running. I am not going to try to do anything with you. We're
not going to go anywhere else. We're going to stay right here , out in the
open in the public until I'm done apologising to you. You can leave
anytime you wantbut I hope you're still here when I come out", looking at
him with pleading eyes I got out and went into the store. If he wasn't
there when I came out I'd probably never see him again. I grabbed a couple
pops and candy bars and paid for them. When I went out the door I looked
down towards my car. Yes! He was still there. That was a good thing
wasn't it. Did it mean he was going to give me another chance?
"Here ya go Justin." I said smiling at him and handing him a pop and
both candy bars. I opened my pop and took a long swig of it, "Thanks for
not leaving Justin. I really need to get this off my chest", taking a deep
breath I continued, "I know what I did was wrong and it's bothered me.
I've thought about you every day and I couldn't take it any more", he was
just sitting there drinking his pop and eating the candy bar. Not looking
at me all. I knew he was listening and probably going to make me sweat
this out, "I'm going to make this up to you somehow baby. I need you and
I'll do anything to get you back", he did look at me when I called him
baby, but then turned back away. I'd win him overeventually. He was
starting to crack, "I'm sorry Justin baby. I know it's just words but I'll
say them a thousand times if I have to", he was done eating the candy bars
now and just drinking his pop. I took another swallow of mine my throat
was getting dry. I wanted him to give me some sign that I was getting
through to him, "Can you please just look at me. This is hard for me to
say. And smile, you're a lot cuter baby when you do",
he did but it was a weak forced smile. I wished he'd just say I was
forgiven, and give his ass to me. But that was hoping for too much, "I
know you don't think I deserve any more chances, but please if there's
anything left in you just give me one more."
"Can you say something, anything. You're silence is killing me."
"Aren't you afraid of being seen sitting here with a fag to use your
words." he spat out. I cringed at that thought.
"Right now Justin I really don't give a fuck what anyone thinks. You're
here and that's all that matters. I need a hug." Christ tears were
welling up in my eyes. What was happening to me.I leaned over the shift
console outstretcing my arms to him, "Meet me halfway Justin", after a
tense moment of him just sitting there staring at me he gave in. He
embraced me and we hugged. Damn it felt good to hold him, "Baby I've
really missed you. You do something to me that I can't explain. I want
you in my life to... to be my...lover."
"This is a side of you I've never seen. I didn't think you had any
feelings or emotions."
"This is the real me Justin. Trust me. I want you and I'll do anything
to make up for the bad shit I done. Just say yes you'll give me a chance"
"I'd like to say yes Chance, but I can't just yet. I trusted you before
and you hurt me. Bad!"
"I know Baby and I'll say it a million times, I'm sorry. Just say you
won't run away from me anymore and I'll prove it to you."
"Okay. It's getting late chance. I should have been home from school a
long time ago. I gotta go." he reached for the door handle to open it.
"No you don't have to walk Justin. I'll take ya home. Just give me
directions"
"I'm not sure I want you to know that. You might just want to know so
you can stalk me", he said. then with a quiver in his lips and almost a
whisper, "or rape me."
"Justin I'm not going to force you anymore. We're not doing anything
unless you want to."
"Okay, but if this is just another one of your games I swear Chance I'll
call the cops and report it." He directed me to his house and on the way
we talked about school and stuff. I think he was pretty relaxed by that
time. I know I was feeling a whole lot better. He pointed out his house
and I pulled over and parked in front of his neighbours.
"I'll let you out here just in case your moms looking out and watching
for you."
"She probably is. The police are probably out looking for me."
"I got nothing to hide. I didn't kidnap you. Give me a hug baby before
you go." There was no hesitation now and he leaned over and we hugged. He
got out and before he shut the door I told him I'd pick him up after school
tomorrow. To wait for me out front. He smiled and walked away. Damn he
had a nice ass. I watched him until
he was inside. Then drove off.
Tossing and turning, tossing and turning. I slept little that night.
Fuck what was I becoming. No, no, no! This wasn't the L word.
Shi-i-i-i-i-t! I couldn't fall in love with a fag, god take me right now!
My life is over. I banged my fists into the mattress. Sleep came, then
went repeatedly through the night. Always waking up with visions of his
hot ass as he walked away. I couldn't shake it, finally giving up I
whipped my dick out of my boxers and jacked off. Furiously! Fisting my
dick hard and fast. Playing back the pics on my cell phone, I could smell
and feel the touch of his smooth body. Every nerve in my body was on fire.
Go-d-d-d-d, I wanted him here in my bed with me. I had to have that
faggots ass again. Pressure building up, building up slowly. Then rising
quickly while my body trembled and shook. Releasing my pent up desire in a
volcanic like eruption. Covering my fist and chest with cum. Sleep came,
then went. Finally the mornings golden rays of sunlight filtered through
the window.
I made it through the school day, anticipating seeing Justin after. I'd
stopped by a gift shop during lunch and picked up something for him. I
hoped it would turn the tide in my favor. He just better be there. When
the last bell rang I ran out to my car. Please be there Justin was all I
thought about on the drive to the Junior High. He was! I patted my
crotch, 'soon baby soon' as I pulled up to Justin smiling at him. I
reached over and unlocked the door and he got in.
"Hi cutey I'm glad you're here. Give me a hug." He looked at me like I
was from another planet.
"Told ya yesterday I didn't give a fuck what anybody thinks you silly
boy." I did but none of these kids would know me. And next year I would
be off to college. He was the one who had to deal with it. And everyone
knew he was a fag. Pulling into the convenience store I went in and got a
couple pops and candy bars. Jumping into the car I handed him a pop and
candy bar, "Here ya go cutey", He thanked me. When he smiled I had to
admit, at least to myself, he was cute. I took a deep breath, "I know
you're probly not ready to forgive me yet Justin. But I hope you can see
that I've changed. I'm really trying" pausing I waited for him to see if
he was going to
say anything.
"Chance I can't forgive you yet. Maybe I never will. But you've
certainly changed. You've said and done things these last two days that
have surprised me." He looked at me with a glimmer of hope in his eyes. I
couldn't let him down now. Or it would all be a waste. I was so close.
"Can I have a hug? I really need one." He leaned towards me and I leant
across the console. We embraced in a hug. I took advantage of the moment
and pressed my lips to his, "Open up baby, kiss me", he let me in and we
kissed. Passionately. While we were kissing someone walked by calling us
queers, homos. Damnit! That is just what I did not need. I broke the
kiss, "Justin I know I said we'd stay here. I don't want want any
confrontations. Could we please go someplace else?"
"Yeah, but don't you dare try to do anything. I swear I'll call the
police."
"I know you will. We're just talking." He wouldn't call them, or at
least I didn't think he would. The fag loved me. He needed me just as
much as I needed him. I drove to the park we were at the last time, but
parked in a different spot, "This okay?", he just didn't say anything.
Just looked at me with apprehension, "Relax baby, I'm not gonna do
anything. Just talk", he said okay. We both took a drink of our pops and
I continued, "It's taken me all this time. To find out what I need. And I
need you", I didn't know if he was going to believe me.
"I know what you need. To get laid. And I don't need that!" He cut me
right me back down to size.
"No! I don't need that...okay I do. But it's you that brings out that
need." I knew exactly what he needed. Wanted. I had to go for it, "I
want you to go out...I mean I want to spend time...fuck! What I'm trying
to ask you Justin is will you be...be my boyfriend?" There I'd said it.
It seemed like foreverbut it was only seconds before he replied.
"What!?" He asked dumbfounded. Staring at me with his mouth open. I
couldn't help it but that made my dick hard. His luscious full lips and
mouth wide open. I knew what
that felt like wrapped around my dick.
"Boyfriend, I want you to be my boyfriend. Just say yes."
"Okay yes. Yes!" I reached out to him and leaned back across the
console. We met and our arms went around each other and we kissed. French
kissing. Exploring his mouth with my tongue. My hands went up and down
his back. The feel of his young, lithe body was incredible. I missed this
and needed more. But he wouldn't give it up that easy. And it had to be
his choice this time. When he was ready. I'd give him every opportunity,
"Why couldn't it have been like this the first time?"
"I dunno. You do something to me and I couldn't control myself. But I
am now. I don't want to lose you." Locking lips with him we kissed again.
I wanted to feel him next to me without the console between us, "Baby can
we get out of the car for just a few minutes? This isn't very comfortable
and I want to hold and kiss you."
"Okay but that...", he said looking down at my crotch and the obvious
bulge, "better stay in your pants or I'm outta here. No more chances."
"It will. I promise." I said, opening my door to get out. He was
getting out too. Then I remembered it. My gift! The deal sealer, "Oh I
almost forgot this."
"What is it?"
"You have to get out to find out." I smirked at him and grabbed the bag
from the back seat. we met at the front of front of the car and I handed
him the bag. He opened it and pulled out the little teddy bear with a pink
heart on it's chest.
"I love it! Thanks. Are you sure you haven't been taken over by alien?"
"I have been taken over by something alien. You. Ha ha ha. Give me a
kiss silly boy." There was no hesitation now. He fell into my arms
kissing me. Even stuck his tongue in my mouth. I'd won him over!", "I had
to get my boyfriend something. I know that ain't going to get me any sex
today. And I didn't get it for you for that", I lowered my hands letting
them rest just above his jeans. He didn't swat them away
or say anything, "But there are some things that boyfriends do", he broke
the kiss and we stared into each others eyes. He thought he knew what was
coming but he was wrong, "You will decide when sex is okay. But as my
boyfriend I get more than just kisses" I paused to let that sink in, "and I
get to touch these", I moved my hands around to the front and rubbed his
boy titties through his tee shirt, "and this", I placed my hands directly
on his butt and rubbed it through his jeans, "Deal?"
"I'll let you do that stuff as long as you keep little Chase in your
pants."
"It's not little", he giggled and said he knew that, "Let's call it JT;
Justins Toy", I laughed.
"Whatever you want it called, JT stays in your pants. Theres something
far more important than what you name your dick."
"Cock", I corrected him, "and what is that?"
"Boyfriends go on dates. And not just to parks."
"You expect me to take you dinner and movies?" I asked increduously.
Rolling my eyes, "I'm just kidding Justin, of course I'll take you out",
Where would I take the flamer? I couldn't even take him to my house,
unless nobody was home. That was going to be a problem, "Will your mother
even let you date?"
"No, not you anyway."
"You mean she knows about me?
"No but she wouldn't let me date a seventeen year old. Almost a man."
"Then what are we going to do?"
"You'll think of something. You're smart."
"We'll think of something together. It's both of us." I said. We'd
have to work that out later, "Let's change the subject. We can deal with
that later. I just want to be with you right now and enjoy it", he smiled
at that. I smiled back and we started kissing
again. Now that he'd agreed to it my hands massaged that butt of his. I
wondered if he'd let me take his jeans off. Probably not. I wouldn't be
able to control myself if he did. It was mine now anyway. He wouldn't
withold it very long. Would he? He'd already had it. He had to want it
as badly as I did.
"You really are cute baby."
"Flattery will get you no where. You got ten minutes to stop that." He
giggled.
"Awww do I have to? As long as don't make me stop doing this." I
pinched his butt and then smacked it playfully a couple times. The boy
drove me nuts with his sexxiness, "You got one fine assmy sexy boyfriend",
His eyes danced with happiness. He had a full genuine smile.
"I like this new you. Don't ever let me down again, or hurt me Chance."
"I won't. I don't ever want to come back down from this cloud!"
"Me either. Thanks for being so nice to me. And for the bear and the
pop and asking me to be your boyfriend!", he gave me another kiss and
pulled back, "I gotta get home now or you'll be in trouble."
I took him home. On the way over I told him I wouldn't be able to pick
him up after school tomorrow because I had to work, but I would call him
later that night. And told him
we'd do something over the weekend.
*Come Down* Love and hate get it wrong
She cut me right back down to size
Sleep the day, let it fade
Who was there to take your place
No one knows, never will
Mostly me but mostly you
What do you say, do you do
When it all comes down
'Cause I don't want to come back down
From this cloud
It's taken me all this time to find out
What I need, yeah ever
* What do you say, do ya do
When it all comes down
'Cause I don't want to come back down
From this cloud
It's taken me all this time to find out
What I need yeah, yeah, yeah
I don't want to come back down
From this cloud
What happens next to Justin? Does he make it home? Does Chance have
any remorse for what he's done? Will Justin fall for moreof Chances lies
and find himself in the same predicaments again? Find out in te next
chapter.
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