Date: Mon, 10 Jan 2000 14:04:07 PST
From: azn1266@hotmail.com
Subject: Surrender to Pleasure (gaymale, asian, first time)

Let me begin by giving a description of myself.  I'm about 5'11 and slim.  
My asian heritage is responsible for my smooth golden skin, black hair, and 
brown eyes.  I've got a pouty set of lips and a swimmers build, smooth and 
toned.  I wish that I was more muscular, but I don't seem to put on the 
weight.  My black hair often hangs down in front of my face giving me a sort 
of shy look.  Fitting since I'm rather shy in reality.  For years, I'd 
looked at women's naked pictures and then adult films; probably since I was 
about 5.  I'm not sure when it was that I began to be curious about men.  It 
first started with just noticing the men in the films.  I'd find myself 
staring at their cocks instead of the women, entranced by the stiffness and 
the veins and all of the details actually.  Since I was young and 'innocent' 
I didn't really know how to find more specific material for my curiosity, 
but soon I'd have a chance.

Even before I started elementary school, I'd been playing the piano.  My 
piano teacher was a nice man in his fifties.  A gentle voice and bright 
sparkling eyes.  I'd never known him to be gay, maybe I just didn't know 
what to look for, but one day I found something. This was when I was about 
11.  He had many students, and often if we got there before our appointment 
we'd wait in the other room.  Well, one day I'd wandered into his bedroom 
and noticed this tape.  I don't remember the name, but it had something 
about prison in it.  Even to this day, I'm not sure what possessed me to 
take it, but I tucked the video into my bookbag.  I couldn't even tell what 
was on the tape.  That day my lesson went just like any other.  My eagerness 
to watch the tape could hardly be contained though and I looked forward to 
my next time home alone.  It wasn't far off since I always came home from 
school earlier than my parents got off of work.  Finally, I got a chance to 
see what was on the tape.  As I sat there in front of the television I 
remember the uncomfortable stirring in my pants and I took them off. The 
room was filled with the sound of heavy breathing and voices of several men. 
  I could see that the sounds of dripping water were from the showers that 
these men were standing near.  About three or four men were standing 
gripping their cocks which stood straight out.  Their bodies were all wet 
and glistening and their muscles so defined. On the shower floor another man 
was on his knees and he put each of their cocks in his mouth sucking with 
wet noises.  Right then I began wondering what it would be like to put a 
man's cock in my mouth.  I began imagining what the texture and shape would 
feel like sliding in and out as I licked the underside with my tongue.  This 
tape had many more scenes and I watched them all whenever I got a chance.   
Interestingly my piano teacher never mentioned the tape and his behavior 
didn't show signs of even missing it.  I'm not sure what happened until this 
day, but I was too scared to give it back.  Not to mention it was the only 
thing of its kind that I'd ever come into contact with.

For a long time,  I'd continued masturbating to the images on the tape or my 
fantasies, but I didn't get chances to obtain other sources to feed my 
curiosity.  I always wanted to order one of those life-like dildos in the 
back of the porno magazines, but never worked up the courage.  So it 
continued until highschool when I found the Web.  Instantly I had access to 
stories and pictures.  And then I'd found the personals.  I'd read through 
them getting so hard at hearing these mens' descriptions and desires.  My 
shyness was the only barrier keeping me from responding, but it still held 
its ground.

In the mean time I'd worked up the courage to order a  dildo online from a 
company called Good Vibrations.  From what I'd read about silicone was the 
way to go and so went my order.  Again I couldn't wait for it to arrive.  
When it finally arrived I was so excited.  I had read Anal FAQs on the net 
and such and thought I was ready for some experimentation.  While I was 
washing my ass out with an enema my cock got hard instantly.  My mind was 
spinning with all my fantasies and I used the lubricant that I'd ordered 
profusely on the dildo and my puckered hole.  The shaft of the jet black 
didlo felt utterly delicious, so smooth and slippery.  The head of the dildo 
was so realistic and I couldn't help putting it in my mouth.  The lubricant 
had this sweet taste to it and the silicone smelled so perfumy.  I was 
laying on my back on this towel in front of the mirror staring at my pink 
asshole.  I'd shaved all of the hair down there (there wasn't much to begin 
with) and my own cock and balls looked so inviting.  As I began gently 
rubbing the dildo up and down my ass crack my own cock bobbed with 
excitement.  My legs were spread  apart and the head of the didlo kept 
brushing my hole.  I started to push gently while bearing down and for a 
while nothing happened.  I pushed a little harder and then head of the dildo 
popped into my whole all of the sudden.  The feelings were overwhelming.  
There was a sharp pain and the lubricant felt so cold.  I guess only the tip 
of the head had warmed from my rubbing it on my skin.  Although there was a 
lot of discomfort I didn't want to pull it out since it had taken so much 
effort to get it in.  And eventually the pain went away.  I could still feel 
my ass hole quite stretched over the head.  At the flash of pain I'd laid my 
head back onto the floor and closed my eyes, but now I carefully propped 
myself up on one elbow while making sure not to let the dildo pop out.  When 
I looked in the mirror I was greeted with such a sexy image.  My knees were 
practically to my shoulders and this jet black glistening cock was in 
between my cheeks.  Looking more closely I could see that the flare of the 
head was past my sphincter and the creases of my asshole were stretched 
tightly to a smooth circle around it.  When I pulled gently outward on the 
dildo my asshole distended and it looked soooo sexy.  My cock was hard and 
dripping clear fluid into my belly button.  I touched the pool noting how 
slippery it was and licked my fingertips.  It was salty, but so delicious I 
tried to lick it all up.  Now there was no trace of the discomfort that had 
been and so I pushed again on the base of the dildo.  It started to sink in 
slowly and I felt the pressure deeper and deeper inside my ass.  Watching in 
amazement the tight ring of my ass was scraping most of the lubricant off 
the dildo and so I had to start doing a small in a out motion.  I continued 
my slow progress until the balls on the dildo wetly kissed my ass cheeks.  
This fullness was so new to me, but addicted instantly.  I started a long in 
and out feeling and that was when I noticed this place that the dildo was 
rubbing.  It sent shivers up and down my spine.  I tried to leverage the 
shaft against my asshole and push it forward slightly on the wall of my 
tight passage.  This rewarded me with overwhelming trembling. I'd started 
masturbating in this position with my back on the floor, but curled up on 
the wall with my cock pointing down at my face.  As I came the cum squirted 
out onto my face with quite a bit landing around my pouting lips.  I moaned 
and the sound of my voice just made the moment hotter.  The last cum just 
sort of flowed out but eventually dripped down onto my face as well.  I used 
my finger again to gather it up and taste it.  I'd tasted my cum before, but 
now I was imagining that it was my lover's.  When I came I noticed that my 
asshole had tightened up quite a bit on the dildo and it felt a tiny bit 
uncomfortable, but I just lay there until it slid out.  Besides the enema 
that was my first experience with anal penetration.  You can bet that I 
continued to do that, but surprisedly it was not so often.  I think that I 
was worried about having my asshole get stretched.  I'm not sure why.

At the same time I began to crave a real cock even more and now I was  
shedding enough of my shyness to respond to a few ads.  Again I'm not sure 
why, but I wanted my first time to be with an older man.  I kept looking at 
the responses that I got and none of them really put me at ease with 
actually making contact.  Eventually though one sounded really good, and 
started calling him to try and feel the situation out.  He lived an hour 
away although I didn't tell him where I lived.  Finally, I decided that I 
really wanted this and told him so.  We'd arranged to meet at a hotel about 
halfway.  When the day came I was so nervous, but I prepared my ass and 
stretched out the rest of my body so I would be nice and limber.  I took the 
bus out there and went to the room that he told me he'd gotten.  My 
nervousness had prevented an erection up until that point, but somehow I 
started to feel a stirring.  His name was Jim and when he answered my 
knocking I saw that he was tall (about 6') and slim.  His hair was graying 
and he had a mustache.  His dress was rather normal in jeans and a shirt.  
Jim asked me how I felt, and I told him that I'd never done this before and 
was nervous.  I think he was sort of verifying my newness to this sort of 
thing and it pleased him.  It had been established in earlier conversations 
that I was a bottom, and he'd told me that he was a top. He sat on the bed a 
beckoned me to him, gently saying that this was what I wanted and not to be 
scared.  I sat on the bed next to Jim, and he began to gently run his hands 
under my shirt and on my legs.  His touch was so firm yet gentle.  His hands 
were a little rough as if he worked with his hands a lot, and it got me even 
more excited.  I felt sort of bad that my shyness kept me so passive, but he 
didn't seem to mind.  Jim was smiling and kept saying these sweet nothings 
to me while he lifted my shirt off.  The air was warm and I felt a blush 
rise in my face, but I did want this.  For some reason he hadn't tried to 
kiss me, and I just sat there passively breathing heavily.  He lowered his 
head to my chest and began to lick around my nipples and that earned him a 
quiet moan.  Then he began to kiss them and push me back onto the bed.  
Feeling my hard cock through my jeans he told,"Baby you are ready for this!" 
  The conviction in his voice and the pleasure from my nipples and cock.  It 
was too much.  All of my restraint just slid away and I began to run my 
hands over his back as he was roughly teething on my nipples.  I'd never 
felt that before, but the pain was pleasure, too!  He sucked so hard around 
them I could see a light bruising.  Jim said that he was marking me, and it 
turned me on.  When he pulled my pants and underwear off I was pleased to 
see his look of satisfaction.  I'd been worried that my size wouldn't be big 
enough.  I'm a little over 17 cm, but many of the men on the tape had been 
much bigger.  Jim took the rest of his clothes off while I lay there on the 
bed watching eagerly.  I wasn't disappointed either as a nice cock dangled 
there.  It was about 22 cm and although the head was proportional for his 
size the shaft gradually got thicker all the way down to the base.  He asked 
me if I wanted to touch it and I nodded yes quickly.  I quickly lay on his 
side on the bed and I grasped it with my hands.  The veins were so thick and 
swollen they felt so full of life.  He flexed his cock and I watched the 
head get purple and couldn't wait any longer.  I put it into my mouth.  The 
girth surprised me and it stretched my lips a bit.  Jim told me I looked 
sexy like that and I smiled inwardly.  I wanted to please this man.  Pushing 
my tongue on the base of his cock I tasted his manly skin.  The scent was 
clean yet very natural.  The textures of the skin and veins invited my 
tongue to swirl all over his cock.  Jim didn't look bulky but I found him to 
be very strong.  He pulled my hips to his face effortlessly and began to 
suck my cock.  I'd never felt anything like that and it made me moan on his 
cock.  He reached down and pinched my nipples twisting them around.  I 
pulled his cock out of my mouth with a popping noise and asked him to put it 
into my ass, but Jim told me to suck more.  I did as I was told and hungrily 
started shoving that cock in my mouth.  In this moment he was my master and 
his cock was to be worshipped.  With his cock in my mouth I could hardly 
believe that I wasn't dreaming.  Occasionally his cock would swell slightly 
and I'd taste his salty precum.  It excited me more.  I asked again for him 
to put it in my ass.  He looked at me seriously then and told me,"Baby, I'll 
fuck your ass, but you have to let me fuck it how I want!"  I nodded my 
assent with sleepy lustful eyes.  He rolled me onto my back with my head 
towards the headboard.  He pulled a condom out of his bag and rolled it onto 
his cock.  Next he squirted some lubricant onto it and I watched it drip off 
the end.  Some people say that condoms are not sexy, but sight of that big 
cock wrapped in latex glistening just  made me hot!  He grabbed my ankles 
and pushed them back up to the wall.  I felt so vulnerable and open and then 
Jim surprised me.  He pushed his tongue against my asshole and it was unlike 
anything I'd ever felt before.  He washed his tongue around and I was 
moaning and moaning.  I told him that I wanted his cock in my ass but that 
his tongue felt soooo good!  Jim told me that my honesty was good, and now 
he'd fuck me.  Again my mind was reeling with disbelief.  But I felt the hot 
tip of his cock rubbing my ass and it was like slow motion.  I saw his toned 
abs flex and then my balls were resting on his lower abs.  Then this flash 
of pain exploded in my ass again.  His tongue had definitely relaxed me 
somewhat, but the base of his cock was really thick.  Jim told me the pain 
was him marking me again, like my nipples.  He brought my legs together and 
rested them on his shoulders.  As he pinched my nipples he began to fuck 
that big cock in and out of me in long slow strongs.  I could feel my ass 
wrapped around all of his cock being pulled in and out with his thrusting.  
It was so good.  So natural, two bodies giving each other pleasure.  I 
reached down and stretched my cheeks apart, and he smiled.  That smile was 
giving me almost as much joy as that fat cock of his.  He and I both knew I 
was opening my most inner sanctum for him.   Jim grabbed the bottle of 
lubricant and squirted in over my whole body and balls.  He told me my 
golden skin looked so good slippery and wet like that and he began stroking 
my cock while his other hand rubbed my nipples.  I was moaning and groaning 
and then my cock starting squirting onto my belly.  At first I was scared 
that I'd cum.  Maybe he didn't want me to come so soon or something.  Jim 
saw it in my eyes and said,"He can come whenever you want, baby, but I'm 
gonna keep fucking you and whatever else I want, too!"  And with that he 
spread my cum on my nipples and lips while I sucked on his fingers grateful 
that he was so sexy and understanding.  He spread my legs again and hooked 
an elbow behind each knee.  Then he lowered his chest to mine and began 
thrust quickly and deeply into my ass.  I started to say all sorts of nasty 
things about his fat cock pumping in my ass.  Jim chuckled as he felt my 
mind and body surrender to his pleasure.  We had all kinds of sex for the 
next couple of hours using more condoms than he had expected to use.  When 
he was recovering between blasting that cum, I nurse his nipples or balls 
slowly pushing the flat of my tongue on them, and this eventually returned 
that cock of his to fucking condition.  As the afternoon turned to evening 
he was lasting so long that I almost couldn't even remember how long he had 
been fucking my ass.  Having prepared my ass and not having eaten really, we 
didn't have to be distracted by much.

This was my first experience and it was SOOOO good, that I knew my desires 
were true!   Jim, if you're out there drop me an e-mail!  Others, too!