Date: Wed, 13 Nov 2013 21:57:47 -0600
From: Jace Spades <blueboykllr@hotmail.com>
Subject: The Boy at the Park 5

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The Boy at the Park Chapter 5


	The next morning I awoke to an empty bed, my first thought was Zack
must have gotten up early, and realizing what he had told me the night
before got scared and left. I thought this would happen and kicked myself
for not waking up before him. I went for my cell phone intending to send
Zack a text when I heard snoring, I shuffled over to the other side of the
bed to find a passed out Zack on the floor. I got up off the bed, went over
to Zack and picked him up as gently as I could and laid him back in bed,
pulling the covers over him. "Ok I have to figure out how this is going to
play out" I thought to myself. There were a couple of things that could
happen, he could wake up and remember what he said, get scared and
leave. Or he could have no memory of what he said, which was a possibility
since I think I gave him too much to drink last night and I wouldn't like
that since I wanted him to know that I knew. And the last possibility I
could think of was that he could remember and would be willing to talk
about it. Then I could tell him about my being gay as well. So many
different conversations ran through my head, in each one I always feared
the worst so none of them ended well in my head, I could only hope that
everything would work out. I decided to make a big breakfast to try and get
my mind off the situation that was about to arise. In the middle of making
breakfast I heard the loud thud of feet coming down the hallway, my heart
started to accelerate, I heard the bathroom door open and close. Thoughts
of different conversations started once again racing through my mind once
again. I have never been so nervous in my life, what if he hated being gay,
or what if he was just going thru a phase, and what if I told him I was gay
and he thought I was a creep and left. That last thought it what scared me
the most, what if he left and never came back, I've dealt with depression
before but I think that this would do me in. I went back to making
breakfast, trying to save what was starting to burn, trying to calm myself
to the best of my ability, but it was hard. I heard the toilet flush and
the door open, Zack came staggering in looking like he had been awake for
the past 5 days and needed sleep. "My head hurts" Zack announced. Now I was
sure I had given him too much to drink. I went to the bathroom, got the
aspirin and brought it back for Zack. "Here take this, it will help, not
right away but in about 30 minutes you should start to feel better" I said
and handed him 3 200mg pills of aspirin, and a glass of milk to down them
with. I finished making breakfast, neither of us saying anything the entire
time, Zack was still hurting so I figured he didn't want to talk as it
might make it worse, so I stayed quiet as well. After eating, Zack started
to feel a little better but still pretty bad so I gave him an icepack to
put on his head and sent him back to bed. I went to the living room, put
the volume extremely low, to where even I could barely hear it, and turned
on my Xbox. I was playing one of my games I had recently gotten, a Naruto
fighting game which was pretty fun, I watched the show for a while but
hadn't seen it in a long time but that didn't stop me from playing the
game. After about 2 hours of playing I heard the bedroom door open and saw
Zack come walking out, he came over and sat down on the couch next to me
and just watched me play for a few minutes till I finally spoke up. "How ya
feeling bud". "A lot better thank you, so was that a hangover" Zack
asked. "Ya it was man, how does it feel" I asked. "It sucks" Zack replied
smiling slightly. "Defiantly does, I have to ask though, do you remember
what happened last night". Zack looked down and I could tell that he did
remember, he seemed to not want to say anything so I said "well Zack, if
you ever want to talk about it I'm right here, I don't think any different
of you, and one last thing, I am as well" I said while keeping my eyes on
the fight I was engaged in, hoping that if I didn't look I wouldn't see the
look of disgust on his face. Zack wasn't saying anything which was kind of
freaking me out so I looked at him, he was just sitting there staring at me
with his mouth half open, once again my heart was racing, what was he going
to do, what was he going to say, these few seconds seemed more like a few
years. "Y...y...you are?" Zack asked seemingly holding his breath. "Ya, I
am, I hope you don't think I'm some kind of creep now" I said trying to
still my voice from the nervous shaking I was feeling. "What?! No I don't,
I still love you Ben." Zack replied quickly. Zack then looked down at the
floor and said "I was so scared when I woke up this morning, I knew I had
told you last night but I don't know why I did. When you saw me come in
when you were making breakfast I thought you were going to yell at me and
call me a freak and tell me to leave and never come back. But then we ate
breakfast and you sent me back to bed and I knew you still liked me at
least. I actually woke up an hour ago and was going to come out then, but I
still thought you might throw me out, so I waited" "so why did you finally
come out" I asked, "I knew I couldn't stay in their forever" Zack said
still looking at the floor looking upset, unsure of what was going to
happen next. "Zack, I still love you, I always will", Zack dove in for a
hug, I could feel my shirt getting wet from his tears and I couldn't help
but shed a few myself. After about a minute Zack looked up at me, I put
hand on his cheek and wiped away the tear that was falling off with my
thumb, he smiled slightly and closed his eyes and feel asleep again.


	I had been watching TV for only about 40 minutes When Zack woke up
again, I had laid him down on the couch and put his head on my lap with a
throw pillow in between. "Hi Ben", "Hey Zack, how ya feeling", "a lot
better" Zack replied as he sat up and looked at me. "Hey Ben, are you
really gay, or were you just trying to make me feel better" Zack asked
suddenly. "Yes Zack, I am gay" I said, shocked that I was able to say it so
openly now. "Have you ever had a boyfriend Ben?" I hadn't been prepared for
that, I started wondering what else he was going to ask... "Um, yes I have,
but only one, back in High school, my friend had come out to me and in turn
I came out to him as well, we only dated for about a month though, we only
went out with each other because we were the only people who knew about
each other. We weren't really attracted to each other, it just seemed like
the right thing to do at the time" "oh, can I ask you a personal question,
you don't have to answer it if you don't want." Zack said. "Ugh sure I
guess", I was hoping it wasn't the question I thought it was. "So,
ugh... have you ever...you know...did it...with another guy". There it was
the question I had hoped to avoid. "Yes, I have" I replied with
embarrassment. "Have you" I asked. "Have I what" Zack asked back. "The same
two questions you just asked me" I said, not want to say the words. Zack
looked away. "No" Zack said sadly. "I'm sorry man, I didn't mean to..."
"It's ok, hopefully someday I will, but probably not for a long time since
the only person who knows is you and I probably won't tell anyone else till
I'm way older" Zack said. "I know how ya feel, I've been in the closet
since I was about your age. My mom found out and now all we do is fight,
I'm pretty sure she hates me, and I'm sorry this probably isn't helping at
all, I'll just shut up now" I said, regretting everything I just said. I
pretty much just told Zack that if he comes out people won't accept him,
I'm a horrible friend. "No I understand, I know what will happen if I do
tell my family, my dad's extremely homophobic and my older brother is as
well, I'm just really happy that you know and don't hate me, I can't tell
you how much better I feel. I really do love you Ben" Zack said looking
straight into my eyes as he said the last part. "I really do love you as
well Zack". We sat there for a while after that alternating from look into
each other eyes to looking away, occasionally I would stroke his hair and
he would let me. it felt like something was trying to happen, I knew what
It was but reminded myself that even though he is gay, he is still way
underage , and no matter how much I love him and want to, I know I can't
since it might not only ruin our relationship but I also might go to jail,
but the one I was most concerned about is that I might hurt him somehow. I
finally broke the intense silence, "I'm sorry to have to ask this, but how
sure are you of being gay and how long have you known" instantly regretting
asking such a dumb question. "It's ok, I've known for a while now and ya
I'm sure I'm gay, I watch a lot of gay porn on the internet, and the girls
gross me out." Zack said matter of fact. Wow, not only did he know for a
while but apparently he has been watching porn which meant he was slapping
he monkey around to, and then the image of Zack pounding away at the
computer to gay porn popped into my head. I was glad the pillow was still
on my lap as it was hiding my erection. I couldn't let know Zack that he
just turned me on, who knows how he would react, so I quickly changed the
subject. "Hey so how bout we go rent some movies and we can stay inside,
wrap up in a nice big blanket and just watch movies all day" I said
figuring that would be a good idea since the forecast for today called for
thunderstorms all day, which was weird since a thunderstorm here usually
only lasts all of 5 minutes. "Ok, can we get some junk food as well" Zack
asked. "of course we can, wouldn't be a movie date...I mean day without the
junk food" I had accidently called it a date, Zack just looked at me a
giggled, got up and went to get dressed.


	While we were in the grocery store it had started to down pour, and
was letting up for a second. We ran to the car and loaded the groceries in
as fast as we could but by the time we got in the car seats we were
soaked. We drove off to the movie store and rented a few movies, People
Like Us, The Conjuring, Grown Ups 2, and after constant begging from Zack
we got the movie, Movie 43 along with Jackass 2.5. As we checked out the
movies the cashier looked at me when she rung up the 2 movies Jackass and
movie 43, "just so you know these movies might not be appropriate for your
little brother" the lady said. "Oh don't worry, he's very grown up, he can
handle them just fine" I said smugly at the lady who just sighed and rang
up our rentals. We left and Zack was smiling from ear to ear, "you called
me a grown up", "I said you were grown up, and it's true, you're very
mature for your age" I said, Zack just continued to smile.

	We got back to my place and in the process of making two trips for
groceries we were soaking wet from head to toe. "Well, crap. I guess we
need a dry pair of clothes now, and I don't suppose you brought a whole
other with you did you" I asked, Zack just looked at me and shook his head
nope. "ok well I guess you can wear some of my clothes, I hope they fit" I
said and went back to my room to find new clothes as I stripped mine, I
found 2 clean shirts a clean pair of shorts and underwear and that's it,
everything else was dirty or in the washer, crap. "Ok, well good news and
bad news, good news is we can get your clothes dry after I put them in the
dryer, bad news is, I only have a shirt for you, and nothing else". "That's
fine" Zack said and proceeded to head to the bathroom to change. Two
minutes later Zack walked out in nothing but my t-shirt that was oversized
on him, I once again was starting to get turned on by Zack, he just looked
so cute in just my shirt, and knowing there was nothing underneath that
shirt, nothing at all except for him, it was almost too much for me to
handle. "Ok well let me get your wet clothes and I will throw them in the
dryer" I said, "no rush, I like being in just your shirt, it's really
comfortable" Zack said. I still had to dry his clothes even though now I
didn't want to, so I threw them in the dryer and turned it on low heat so
as not to ruin his clothes. I got back to the living room and couldn't find
Zack, "where ya at Zack" I asked. "In here" Zack replied from my room. I
went into my room and found Zack lying on his stomach on my bed, the shirt
riding pretty high, I was able to see a lot of his thighs but nothing else,
with the movie Grown Ups 2 displayed on the Wall mounted TV. "Looks like
you've made yourself right at home mind if I join ya" I asked. "Of course
Zack said excitedly and patted the spot next to him. Zack hit play and the
movie began. After about 10 minutes of lying down on my stomach I couldn't
take it any longer and had to sit up, my chest was starting to hurt. Zack
saw me sit up and joined me, I propped myself up on a mountain of pillows
with Zack right next to me and my arm draped over him. My hand landed on
his stomach and I started rubbing it. After a minute I stopped rubbing his
stomach "hey, don't stop I liked that" Zack said. Not thinking a whole lot
of it I started up again, every now and then I would circle his belly with
just my fingertips touching lightly against him. A couple minutes I started
to hear Zack's breathing getting louder, I turned and saw Zack had his eyes
clothes with his mouth slightly open. I kept at it but stayed where I was
on his belly, and even though there was a blanket bunched up on both our
laps I was pretty sure he had stiffy, and after seeing this, I know I had
one as well. I decided to stop before this got out of hand, and put my hand
on his head and started petting his hair and running my fingers through the
softness of it all. I could tell he was a little sad I stopped rubbing his
belly, but he was fine with me petting his head. I had to control myself
better, each time something starts to happen I get closer and closer to
doing something, why wasn't Zack stopping me? Did he want me to? It sure
seemed that way, but I couldn't, I couldn't jeopardize our friendship. But
if he wanted to then wouldn't that better our friendship, possibly become
something more? I wasn't thinking clearly, my other head was starting to
throw thoughts at me, so I focused on the movie.



	We got thru the movie Grown Ups 2 and put the movie People Like Us
in. " now a little warning about this movie, it's a drama, and it's made me
cry before" I said. "You've seen it already?" Zack asked "ya, but it's one
of my favorites, so just be prepared ha-ha" "ok, hey can I sit on your lap"
Zack asked "umm I dunno" I said, "Pleeeeeeease" Zack said again, doing his
puppy eyes on me once again, knowing I can't resist it. "Ugh ya, fine hop
on" I said "yay" Zack said as he maneuvered his way onto my lap. I knew I
would regret it when I said ya, and sure enough I felt the familiar
feeling. Crap, I thought to myself, I need to try and get it to go
down. But it wasn't helping that Zack was still trying to get comfortable
and wiggling around on top of me, so I wrapped my arms around him and help
him still. Zack put his hands on top of mine and leaned back, he moved his
head a little to the right since he was tall enough to block my vision
somewhat, and I put my head on his on the left side of his shoulder and we
pressed our cheeks together. From here I could smell him, and his scent got
to me. I had never smelled anything like this before, it was intoxicating,
I felt myself losing control again. Zack kept rubbing my fingers with his
fingertips like I had done with his belly earlier, except he was going side
to side instead of in circles. This went on for about 20-30 minutes, then
the scene where the main character talks to his nephew in the music store
came up and that's when I remembered a certain line at this part in the
movie. We watch the scene unfold and then the boy says to the man who's his
uncle but doesn't know it yet "don't even think about touching my
balls". Zack burst out laughing, and after he stopped laughing he whispered
"you can touch mine if you want Ben", I'm not sure if he had intended to me
to hear that or not so I said "what" like I hadn't heard what he
said. "Nothing" Zack said quickly. I could feel his heart beat increase
after having said that and knew he was either embarrassed or afraid or both
or something else for that matter for having said that. Zack continued to
rub my fingers with his as we sat there, him on my lap, and me trying my
hardest not for him to feel my erection I had going, which was becoming
painful. The movie ended and Zack jumped off my lap, which hurt a lot, and
went to go change the movie. "Hold on Zack, before you put on another movie
can I talk to you" I said. "Ya sure, what's up". "I know what you said
earlier, and I just want to let you know something, I love you very much
and I don't want to ruin what we have right now, that's why I need to
know. Are you wanting to be more than just my friend" I asked. I could tell
Zack was deep in thought looking for the right words. "I love you Ben, and
yes I guess I do want to be more than friends, I'm sorry, I can't control
myself, and I just really like you. A lot" Zack replied, "I really do like
you to Zack, and I'm having trouble controlling these urges as well. This
is why I'm going to propose this, if you wanted, and it would have to be
your choice not mine, but if you wanted, we could be more than friends" I
said "do you want to be" Zack asked. "Even though I have been trying to
convince myself that I shouldn't and that I can't, yes Zack I, really do."
I said. And with that Zack crawled across the bed, sat down on his knees
right next to me as close as he could, leaned in, and gave me a soft kiss
on the lips.

				End of Chapter 5.