Date: Sun, 18 Jul 2004 14:00:29 -0400 From: Owen Emm <owenmtheprofessional@hotmail.com> Subject: The Professional, Chapter 2 The Professional By Owen M Sorry it took so long everyone, and sorry it's so short - I wound up splitting the original chapter into two separate postings so that I could at least get something up this weekend. Look for chapter 3 sometime next week, since it's pretty much already written. Thanks to everyone who's taken the time to write and tell me what they think about my humble little tale. I hope to hear from even more of you as the story progresses. Comments to owenmtheprofessional@hotmail.com Chapter 2 By the time Jon had bounded up the steps to his apartment, Elliott's instant message was already waiting on his computer. His part was simple. All he had to do was to show up at the private terminal at the airport with the money and his blood test around 4:30 the next day. Elliott would take care of the rest. Jon might have raised an eyebrow about the private terminal if he hadn't been captivated by the ten smiley icons at the end of the message. He stared at them for what felt like an hour before he was able to pull his eyes away, a similar grin plastered across his face. His mind racing feverishly, he stood up and began to pace back and forth with a determined stride. There was really no other choice now, he realized. The indecision that had plagued him for the last nine months had suddenly evaporated, his path laid in front of him with no more time to stall and no more room to stray. He had made his commitment to Elliott, and to meet that commitment he would have to put certain things into motion that couldn't be undone. This would have to be his last night in this hellhole of an apartment, of a city, of a life. Once he touched the money in that secret account, it's location would be revealed to prying eyes, and a holy storm would descend upon him that he couldn't possibly weather. It wasn't the first time he had considered just disappearing, starting over again from the beginning in a new place with a new name. There had been little else on his mind through those long months. But now, it felt like it was the first time he could actually do it. The fear that had gripped him with viselike jaws had vanished, replaced with a giddy determination to face the unknown that Jon hadn't experienced since he was a teenager. Someplace warm, he thought. Someplace I'll never have to feel the bite of winter again. His feet blazed a path through the olive shag as he paced away the long dark hours through the dead of night. I can't go out to see Elliott looking like this, he thought as he caught occasional glimpses of himself in the cracked bathroom mirror. I'll need some new clothes. He'd like me to wear something nice and classy without being too formal. Actually, I guess I'll need five days worth of clothes. I can't just wear the same thing every day, what would he think about that? I'll definitely need a haircut and a shave. Maybe I should get one of those facials. They have those for men too, don't they? I'm sure they could do something about my fingernails at the same time. I wonder if they have some kind of scrub treatment, one were they could just scrape away all the grime that seems to be permanently embedded in every crease of my body. Is there enough time to whiten my teeth? Elliott, he breathed softly. It was that voice, that sweet and innocent voice playing over and over again in his head. For the life of him, Jon couldn't remember a single thing he had said to Elliott, but every nuance of every word that boy had uttered was imprinted indelibly into his memory. The bright tone when he had first introduced himself, the quiet sadness creeping around the edges when he had revealed that Jon had struck a nerve about Moon's business, the dreaminess when he talked about making men happier than they had ever been, the hopeful voice when he had asked him to come the very next day, the disappointment when the money had threatened to tear them apart, the elation when that barrier had been shattered. He could replay every instant with precise replication, as though he had a tape recorder built into his head. I wonder what he looks like. I wonder if he has the messy blonde hair and wide, open blue eyes that I can't help but picture. I wonder if his skin is as pale I hope. I wonder if his smile is as radiant as I imagine it must be. Bit by bit, Jon constructed a picture of Elliott in his mind as detailed as a photograph. Not that I'd mind whatever he looked like, though, he kept telling himself . It doesn't matter if he has dark hair, eyes, or skin, or if he's not proportioned the way I'm envisioning. No matter what he looks like, Elliott cannot be allowed to see any hint of disappointment in my face when I meet him tomorrow. Elliott, he breathed softly again. He kept on repeating the boy's name out loud, trying it out in different voices. Sometimes, his tone was playful, inviting him to play a game of catch or roughhouse in the sand. Sometimes, his tone was a gentle reprimand, like a parent lovingly setting a child straight who's innocently gone astray. Sometimes, his tone was gentle and soft, comforting a best friend in need. Sometimes it was nothing more than a whisper full of childlike wonder. Speaking his name made it feel as though Elliott was right in the next room, about to peek around the corner with a smile on his face. Jon would hold out his hand, expecting at any moment that the boy would grasp it. He would extend his arms in front of him, closing his eyes, waiting to feel Elliott's arms wrap around him in a warm embrace. He imagined their first moments together, what it would be like to meet finally meet him face to face, to hear his clean soprano voice freed from the distorted tinny echo of the telephone. For hours, he had contemplated every moment of those precious seconds until every tiny detail had been fully rehearsed. The first thing he would do when he saw Elliott would be to smile broadly and wave. Elliott would undoubtedly do the same. Even though he wanted to run right up and lift the boy in his arms, whirling him around madly, he decided instead that he would walk up to him at an even pace, embracing him gently and tenderly for just the right amount of time before looking deeply into the boy's eyes and telling him how happy he was to be there. That was it, that was as far as his imagination would take him. To think about anything beyond those moments felt like trying to contemplate the nature of the universe, and besides, spending any time thinking about what came next would only be a dangerous distraction. After all, if he bungled their first meeting, Elliott might decide that he didn't like him, didn't trust him, didn't want to spend time with him. I'm not going to let that happen, Jon told himself resolutely. Whatever it takes, I will make a good impression, I will make him happy, I will make him love me... Jon looked out the small solitary window in surprise when he noticed that the colorless black of a cold winter's night had transformed to the gloomy gray of a cold winter's day. Never once through those dark hours had he even considered slumbering, despite the fact that he knew he couldn't get away with things like he could when he had been in college. For the first time since he had read Elliott's note and stared at his precious smiley faces, he stopped pacing and with a calculated certainty began his preparations. Twenty minutes later, he stood in the open doorway, surveying the aftermath of his rampage. The computer had been reduced to a small pile of electronic rubble, the hard disk battered beyond all recognition by a leg of the shattered coffee table. What few clothes he wasn't wearing were torn up and stuffed into the toilet, hopelessly clogging it. The apartment keys had been tossed out the window to the trash-choked alley below with a gleeful laugh. It was immature to take revenge like this for the nine months he had been sentenced to live here, Jon knew that, but it still felt good. As he took one last look around, he knew he should try to remember every detail of this moment, that it would be important to look back on it as a turning point in his life, but the last thing he wanted to do was to remember this place. He yanked the door closed as hard as he could, hoping to pull it right off its hinges, but it defied him and did nothing more than rattle the wall. With a spring in his step he practically jumped down the stairs, his feet only touching half of them, leaping the drunk sprawled over the third floor landing in a single bound. He burst out into the street, the day somehow seeming brighter despite the heavy cloud cover and the threatening flurries of lake-effect snow, setting off at a brisk pace on the long walk to more respectable parts of town. One by one he counted off the blocks as he passed, places that he would never have to see again. He arrived at his destination with more than an hour to spare, so he ducked into a small crowded diner, squirming his way into an empty seat at the counter between two burly guys in plaid flannel shirts. For a few moments he contemplated the menu with the intention of ordering some cereal and a banana, but when he finally got the attention of the single harried waitress he wound up inexplicably asking for the trucker's special, a spread of food he couldn't possibly hope to eat. She filled his cup with coffee that would have been better used to strip the paint from a car while he glanced at his bare wrist impatiently, a ritual he repeated until he spotted the clock on the wall. When the waitress threw down four plates piled with every kind of breakfast food known to man in front of him, he didn't even notice. His eyes glanced around the room, at the people in various uniforms, people in suits, people in work-clothes, people who all had places to go and things to do. As often as he tried to tell himself that they were absorbed in their own lives, he could feel their eyes boring into him, the accusing and knowing stares stabbing into his mind. He looked up nervously at the clock, only thirty seconds later from the last time he had looked, which had only been thirty seconds later than the time before that. We know, Jon. We know everything... When the clock had somehow finally managed to slog forward to five minutes to nine, he stood up suddenly. Leaving the untouched food and a tip well beyond his means on the counter, he slipped quietly out the door, crossing the street and walking up the steps to stand in front of a stately building. Jon took a deep breath, gathering his strength, trying to find the confidence he would need from somewhere deep down within. It wasn't going to be easy, he knew that. It was never easy to get banks to part with money, especially when it didn't even belong to them. He fidgeted nervously as an armed security guard opened the front door, his polite good morning ignored as Jon pushed his way past him into the bank, heading straight for the well-dressed woman sitting at the nearest desk. He screwed up his courage along with a condescending sneer on his face, hoping against hope that they hadn't learned about this account, that it was still a secret, that he make his escape before anyone was the wiser. "Good morning," Jon said haltingly, taking a deep breath. "I'd like to close my account today." The woman took one look at him and politely excused herself, returning with a man who was clearly the branch manager. They escorted him quickly to a private office. "Mr. Mitchell, I understand you'd like to close your account." "That's right," he said abruptly. "May I ask the reason?" "Do I have to have a reason to want to close my account?" he snapped. The manager looked up sharply at him. "Is everything ok, Mr. Mitchell?" he asked in a concerned way, but Jon could hear a hint of suspicion in his voice. "Everything's fine," Jon snapped back. "I have a flight to catch and I don't have time for this." The manager leaned back in his chair. "Do you have some identification?" Jon rolled his eyes in annoyance. "Of course I have ID," he said harshly, pulling his driver's license directly from his pocket, throwing it on the desk. The manager studied it carefully. "This is a California license," he remarked. "I'm a California resident," Jon snapped again. "I travel a great deal, on business." He looked at the manager piercingly. "I'm in sales." "I'll need some corroborating ID for an out-of-state license, Mr. Mitchell," he said smoothly. "Are you sure you're all right? You look a little pale." Jon fished into his pocket and pulled out a stack of small pieces of plastic, dropping the whole pile unceremoniously onto the table. He took a deep breath, hoping the manager wouldn't investigate and find out that every single credit card with his name on it was defunct. He tried to look in another direction as the bank manager looked through them cursorily. "I'm sorry, Mr. Mitchell, we were concerned given your, well, your appearance, that someone was attempting to access your account fraudulently." Jon breathed a deep sigh of relief. "I suppose I can understand that," he said, trying to force his heart to stop pounding. "I'm in a hurry, I'm going to miss my flight." The bank manager nodded, and hastily filled Jon's request with profuse apologies. Five minutes later, Jon pushed his way out the building, his account emptied, a cashier's check for thirty-five thousand dollars in one pocket nestled up to about ten thousand dollars in cash. His hand was shoved in the other pocket, wrapped nervously around another check for two hundred and fifty thousand dollars. Not since he was seven years old had he actually carried every cent he had to his name. First thing, he told himself with a relieved smile on his face, putting as much distance as he could from the bank, I need a wallet. ******* Jon stared out the small airplane window at the lights spread out below, picking out and naming each hotel on the unmistakable Las Vegas strip as they made their final approach into McCarran airport. Forcing himself to breathe deeply, he picked up a napkin from the pile on his lap, trying pointlessly to dry his sweaty palms once again. His stomach churned as he quietly thanked himself for not having eaten anything all day. His eyes flitted around the cabin, staring at the other spacious leather chairs, the television he had long ago turned off, the well polished hardwood table in front of him, the ignored open bar with the glasses that rattled every time they had hit a small patch of turbulence. It was the first time Jon had ever been in a private jet, but it wasn't as much the fact that he was flying in one that made him anxious as it was the fact that he was the only passenger, that this entire display of obscene wealth was for him and him alone. As the plane touched down gently on the runway, the sudden deceleration pressing Jon back into this chair, a far more powerful nervous tension gripped him. Any moment now, he'd be meeting him for real. Elliott. As the plane came to a halt on the tarmac, the pilot that hadn't exchanged a word with him other than to greet him by name when he had arrived at the airport came out from the cockpit and opened the hatch. Jon fumbled at the seat belt, unable to work the latch, his hands shaking. He had wondered if Elliott was going to be on the plane as he had climbed the steps into the cabin, relieved and disappointed at the same time when he found that he was alone. Now he wondered if Elliott was waiting for him at the bottom of those steps. Jon saw someone climbing into the cabin, his breath catching, his hands freezing completely until he realized that it was a fully-grown adult addressing him from the open doorway. Jon allowed himself to breathe again. "Mr. Mitchell?" the man said, not expecting to be answered. "Jack Keller, MGM resorts. Welcome to Las Vegas." Jon managed to unbuckle the seat belt and rise awkwardly to his feet, allowing the man to shake his limp hand. "How was your flight?" Jon stared, confused. "Fine," he mumbled after a short pause. The man turned to descend the steps, Jon following him hesitatingly, staring at the long limo pulled up directly next to the plane. Someone was already putting his suitcase into the trunk while someone else was holding the door open while the man climbed into the limo. His mind a complete blank, he followed the man into the car mechanically. It pulled away even as the door was swinging closed behind Jon. "Mr. Mitchell, I'll be your casino host during your stay at the Bellagio. If there is anything that you require, no matter what it is, day or night, please feel free to call upon me or a member of my staff and it will be our pleasure to serve you. We're very excited that you've chosen our hotel during your stay here in Las Vegas." "You're my what?" "Your casino host," the man explained with a smile. Jon stared at him, at the small gold badge on his chest with the familiar "B" logo, the name Jack next to it. Jack, that's right, he had said his name was Jack. "I'll be your liaison with the casino and hotel. If you need show tickets, dinner reservations, or any special services, I'm here to make sure you get it. We want your stay to be as memorable as possible." "I have a casino host?" Jon asked incredulously, still not comprehending. "Of course, Mr. Mitchell. You're a valued VIP guest of our hotel." The man seemed to enjoy Jon's look of utter astonishment. "Your suite is already prepared, and I believe you'll be happy to know that your nephew has already arrived." "My nephew?" "Your nephew," Jack said, his voice just a little leading. "You must be a little jetlagged, I'm sure you remember that you had arranged to meet your nephew at the hotel this evening." Jon stared at him for a moment before a relay finally clicked inside his head. Nephew, that must be the story Elliott tells everyone. He looked across at Jack with narrowed eyes, wondering how much he really knew about his "nephew." Jack politely excused himself and answered a call on his cell phone, leaving Jon to stare out the tinted window as the limo threaded its way through the inevitable traffic. While he really hadn't given much thought to the arrangements that Elliott was making, having a private jet fly him to a waiting limo and a suite at the most exclusive hotel in the city was so far out of the realm of possibilities that he was having trouble grasping what was happening. It was a short drive from the airport to the Bellagio. Jon watched with a certain fascination as the limo passed the grand entrance where he had entered the hotel on the four previous times he had stayed there, driving down a small road to a more private area off to the side. The moment the limo came to a stop the door was opened for him, Jon climbing out tentatively as a pit began to form in the depths of his stomach. He walked through the small, plush lobby and stood in front of the gold elevator doors that would take him to the private floor where his suite was located. Even though Jack kept on speaking and Jon knew that the words were meant for him, he found himself completely unable to understand a single one. When the elevator chime went off and the doors opened, it took every ounce of concentration for Jon to force his legs to carry him in. The elevator doors closed with a kind of finality that left Jon shaking. He wiped away the sweat on his brow with the back of his hand. Slowly, as though time had somehow been stretched like taffy on a pulling machine, the elevator climbed into the sky. He couldn't stop shaking, his hands trembling as the realization set in that this time, the moment was truly upon him. Somewhere at the end of this ride, Elliott was waiting for him. Ok, he told himself, go over the plan one more time, just to make sure. Smile, wave, walk, hug, happy to meet you, eyes. He repeated it over three times in his head until he was yanked back from his meditation by the elevator doors smoothly opening, the chime of their arrival ringing as loud as a peal of thunder. Mechanically, he followed Jack and the valet carrying his suitcase down the wide hall, not paying any attention to the overstuffed leather armchairs and small tables with their obligatory expensive lamps. Wave, smile, walk, hug, happy to meet you, eyes, wave, smile, walk... Somehow, no matter how many times he'd watched those shows on the Travel Channel, the ones where he had drooled over the indulgences afforded to elite high rollers in Vegas, he wasn't prepared when Jack threw the double doors open at the end of the hallway with a little flourish. The opulence spread out before him was simply breathtaking, Jon's mantra trailing off as he stared open-mouthed at the cavernous room. The crystal chandelier hanging from the twenty foot ceilings, the marble floors, the exotic wood walls, the rare rugs on the floor, the full sized pool table to the right and the shimmering ebony grand piano to the left, the elegant furniture, warm gas fireplaces blazing on either side of the room... It was at that moment that all the luxury Jon had ever been able to imagine in one place held no interest any longer as his eyes fixed on the figure leaning casually against the wall, partially obscured by the shadows cast by the fire. Jon's breath caught in his throat, his heart began to pound, every sound in the room suddenly silenced by the rushing of blood through his ears. He watched paralyzed as the figure pulled away from the wall, stepping fully into the warm light. A boy, just shy of five feet tall, his sandy blonde hair combed neatly. Freckles were scattered across pale skin of his face, haphazardly arranged as though they had been plastered there randomly by some freak explosion. Gold-rimmed glasses with round lenses were perched on his small nose, not obscuring his face but accenting it perfectly. He wore an expensive looking blue blazer, a finely knit white sweater, beige slacks, and impeccably shined brown leather shoes. The boy's face broke into an honest, open, and just slightly mischievous grin. Elliott, Jon tried to whisper, but no sound came out. Every detail of his carefully rehearsed plan were irrevocably wiped from his memory as he stood completely still, not even daring to breathe. The boy began to cross the room at a casual and even pace while Jon stared, unable to form a coherent thought. Their eyes met, and as he grew closer Jon gasped as he stared into the most dazzling hazel orbs he had ever seen. Before he had even realized, Elliott had crossed the room and was standing right in front of Jon, looking up into his face, his calm manner a sharp contrast to Jon's rabbit-like twitching. Their eyes remained locked for a moment, and then without a word Elliott wrapped his arms gently around Jon, not the tentative embrace of strangers but the confident and knowing warmth of long-lost friends reunited. As much as Jon told himself to hug the boy in return, he couldn't find the strength to reciprocate. It didn't seem to bother Elliott, who held the embrace tightly for a long time even though Jon's arms hung limp and useless at his side. The boy finally pulled away and looked back into Jon's eyes. "Hungry?" he said in that bright voice that Jon loved so dearly. He barely managed an imperceptible nod. "C'mon, let's go get something to eat." Elliott turned, picking up a long cashmere coat from a nearby chair that Jon had completely overlooked earlier. He looked at Jon, his eyes sparkling. "Ready?" Jon managed a small nod again. His hand began to move of it's own accord, and as Elliott walked by he reached out and grasped the boy's hand. Elliott stopped for a moment, looking down at Jon's hand clasping his, and then squeezed back gently with a warm smile. Elliott leaned into Jon's side, resting his head against Jon's chest, and spoke, his words soft and tender. "I'm really glad you're here."