Date: Sat, 13 Sep 2003 10:58:17 -0700 (PDT)
From: thextreme14u@yahoo.com
Subject: UNINTENINAL LOVE 1

It was just another ordinary Sunday like so many Sundays before. I was
visiting my family after Church and enjoying there company. I had been
summoned to the garage to help my father with another project that he had
been tinkering with. My father's neighbor had come over for a quick visit
and had brought his son with him. I had never met the two prior to today
and little did I know how this meeting would change my life.

My father introduced Bret to me. We shook hands and made small talk like
adults do. All the while I noticed Bret's son fidgeting as young males do
when they are in a place they don't want to be. They have a tendency to
grow extremely antsy. Bret finally spoke up and said, "This is my son,
Jake". I reached over and shook his hand and said, "Nice to meet you". When
I shook his hand something in that moment sparked a feeling within me that
I had never felt before.

We stood there making small talk as Bret told me that Jake had just turned
12 and how he was into sports and dirt bikes and a regular chip off the old
mans block. Something in Jakes eyes told me different. As we continued to
talk, Jake would look at me and as if no big deal would adjust the little
bulge in his shorts. I found this odd, but you now how kids are, they do
that sort of thing. We finally ended are conversation and they went back
home. I happened to look up to see Jake smiling and looking at me the whole
time he walked off.

It must have been about 30 minutes later when a panicked Bret came back to
the garage and said, " Bill, I need someone to watch Jake for a while". "I
just got a call from the hospital and my wife has been in an accident".
Without even hesitating and for some strange reason I couldn't explain I
said, "Go, I'll take care of him". Bret rushed off yelling thanks and said
he would call me as soon as he knew anything.

I looked over to see Jake standing in the driveway with a look of fear on
his face. I approached him and placed my hand on his shoulder and said,
"Looks like it's just you and me for now champ". I was completely caught
off guard when Jake responded with "cool". Now let me explain a little bit
about myself. I have never fancied myself the father figure. I avoided kids
at all times because mostly they just got on my nerves. I always felt
uncomfortable around them and boy did I find out why as the day progressed.

Jake and I were sitting in his living room waiting for his dad to call. I
was reading the latest issue of field and stream and Jake was doing his
homework. It was very quiet and we were both startled when the phone rang
as we both jumped. I answered it to find it was Bret telling me that the
situation with his wife was not good and he needed to stay there with her
all night. I asked if he wanted me to bring Jake to the hospital and he
said no. Bret didn't want Jake to see his mom like this and asked me if I
could stay with Jake tonight and get him off to school.

I was completely taken aback and reluctantly agreed to this. Bret spoke
with Jake and explained the situation to him and told him to help me out
the best he could. I was dumbfounded when Jake told his dad while looking
at me with this animalistic look in his eye, "don't worry dad, I'll take
care of everything".

Jake settled back into his homework and I back into my magazine. I would
say no more than 10 minutes passed when Jake spoke up and said, "Matthew,
can I ask you some questions"? I, thinking he was talking about homework
replied "sure champ". H paused for a moment and then took a deep breath and
said, "Do you know any gay people"? I must have looked odd to him because I
just sit there with a blank look on my face and I could feel my mouth
gaping open. Finally I composed myself and said, "as a matter of fact I
do". Jake grew very excited and jumped to his feet and said, "Awesome".

He must of realized that he was appearing overly anxious because he
suddenly tried to cover it up and was fumbling for words...  "I...  mean...
ahhh...well" and he finally just stopped and dropped his head. He stood
there in front of me for a while and I noticed that he was crying. I
propped his chin up and said, "Jacob, what's wrong"? He just shook his head
and started crying profusely.  I must have been completely consumed with
compassion because the site of this precious boy in tears overwhelmed
me. Instinctively I just reached out and grabbed him and pulled him up onto
my lap and held him. He must have had a lot built up inside of him because
he laid there with his head against my chest and just cried forever.

I just held him and stroked his hair and let him get this all out. Finally
between cries and gasped breaths he said, "Matthew, I think I'm gay". I
didn't know how to respond to this so I just sit there in silence and this
seem to make him cry even more. I finally found my voice and said, "Jacob
it's all right let it out, let it out". After a lot more tears his crying
seemed to be subsiding and he found the courage to speak once more. "I am
so confused and am hurting so bad inside", he said. "I just need someone to
talk to".

After some more silence he finally spoke again and what he said shocked the
hell out of me. "Matthew, are you gay"? I choked on my own saliva and
didn't know what to say. He said, "The only reason I ask is that I can feel
your penis is hard on my hip". I hadn't even noticed but he was right. I
thought to myself, "great, here I am with this 12 year old boy crying lying
in my lap and I have a raging hard on". I said. "I'm so sorry, I don't know
why". He raised his little head up off of my chest and looked me in the
eyes with a smile and said, "Its okay".

We sat there in silence for a moment and he slowly started to lean in and
he kissed me on my lips. It wasn't a long kiss or even with any passion,
just a little peck. He pulled back and looked at me with tear filled eyes
and said, "Please don't turn me away". "I need you". He trailed off saying
please as he returned to kissing me and forced his tongue into my mouth. I
was completely lost and extremely excited and couldn't figure out why. All
I knew was that I was enjoying what was happening and returned his kisses
passionately.

Well that's all for now. Tell me what you think. This is my first time
writing so if you want more please let me know. You can e-mail me at
thextreme14u@yahoo.com.