Date: Sun, 27 May 2012 13:25:44 +0800
From: Ben Ng <ng.ben9@gmail.com>
Subject: Rick's Diary Part 21 - Back to Ben

Back to Ben

For the next few days, I felt like shit. I couldn't concentrate in class, I
didn't know what I was doing during football practice, and coach yelled at
me a few times. I was like the walking dead. Ben certainly noticed
something was wrong, and once again he pulled me to a corner and talked to
me after football practice.

"What happened? Mike broke up with you?" I just stared at him. "I told you
it wouldn't work, didn't I?" I stared some more. The last thing I needed
from him was "I told you so."

"Ok. Talk to me." Ben looked at me intently. He was giving me his full
attention. It felt good. At least I know someone still cared.

"He said he wanted to be a homophobic football guy."

Ben frowned. "That's even dumber than I can imagine." I had to laugh.

"I don't know what you saw in him."

"Well, too late for that, it's over."

"But you are still rooming with him? That got to suck."

"Is there any place I can move to?"

"You want me to kick my roommate out?"

"No. I think I just got to suck it up."

"You can always hang out in my room. My roommate stays out a lot."

"Thanks. I think I will." We walked back to Ben's room together. I didn't
even want to go back to my room.

"So, what should we do now?" Ben rubbed his crotch. Usually we jerk off or
suck each other, but I suddenly remembered something.

"Hey, I just remembered I forgot to ask my professor something, and the
homework is due tomorrow. I have to make it before his office hour is
over!"

"Stop working so hard! Relax!" I ignored him and rushed back to my room. I
needed to get some papers from my room before I could go to my
professor. When I opened the door, I was stunned. Mike was fucking a girl
on his bed. He had her legs thrown back and he was pounding hard in her. I
could see his ass cheeks jiggling as he thrust, and his balls swinging back
and forth. I stood there, totally shocked. After a few seconds, I closed
the door. I stood in the hallway motionless for a few minutes, my mind
frozen. Slowly, I drifted back to Ben's room.

When he opened the door and saw my face, he knew something was wrong. "You
look like shit. What happened?"

"Mike is fucking a girl in my room as we speak."

"Wow, that's quick."

"I think he did it on purpose. He wanted to show me."

"He's an exhibitionist, you think?" I gave Ben a dirty look. Now is not the
time to joke.

"Ok, fine. He wants to piss you off?"

"He wants to convince me and himself that he's straight."

"By letting you see him fuck a girl... I see."

"He's such an asshole."

"Yup, he's always been a jerk. I was surprised you feel anything for him."
I shook my head. I don't think Ben would realize Mike's gentle side.

"So, what do you want to do now? What about seeing the professor?"

"I can't get the image of him fucking the girl out of my head."

"So how can I help you?"

"Let me fuck your face."

"That sounds brutal... I don't know."

"Please, I'm not asking to fuck your ass, just your face."

He looked at me for a moment, then said, "Fine."

I went over to him, took out my cock and shoved it roughly in his mouth. He
frowned at how rough I was but he didn't resist. I just grabbed his head
and kept thrusting. I wasn't even deriving a lot of pleasure from it; I
just wanted to vent. I was going to fuck those images out of my head. Ben
didn't like what I was doing, but he endured. I was thrusting so quickly
that I reached climax in a matter of minutes. I held onto his head as I
shot deeply into his mouth. Then I just pulled out and sat down.

Ben rubbed his cheeks and jaw. He was sore, but he didn't yell at me. He
just looked at me and asked, "Feel better now?"

"Yes. Thanks." I looked over at him and felt guilty. That must have been
rough on him. "And sorry. Are you ok?"

"Yeah, just a bit sore. Now what?"

"Now you can fuck my face back." I said, and he laughed.

"I kind of like how you used to tease me while sucking my cock. It's a lot
more fun and a lot less... violent." I smiled. That was some time ago. I
loved sucking him and teasing him, bringing him to the verge of climax but
not letting him cum, then let him beg me to finish him off. Suddenly, I
thought about edging Mike and how he pleaded with me to let him cum. I was
pissed again.

"Whoa, what happened? You look scary again!"

"More images to get rid of."

"Sigh. I'm not letting you fuck my face again."

"No, I need to put him out of my mind and focus on you." I went over to him
and started taking off his clothes. I got to stop thinking about Mike.

"Just don't bite off my cock, ok?"

"I won't." I looked at Ben sitting on the bed naked, legs opened and
slightly bent, his cock hanging limply while his hands casually draped over
his legs. He looked so hot. I've not been messing around with him for so
long I've forgotten how good he looked. While Mike was a burly giant, Ben
was well proportioned and easy on the eyes. He told me his muscles came
from working his ass off on the farm he grew up on, since as young as he
can remember. They looked natural, unlike those bodybuilders with bulging
muscles everywhere, using steroids and protein shakes. I kept looking at
him I forgot about sucking.

"What are you looking at?"

"I just... haven't looked at your body for a long time. You look good."

"Thanks." He looked at me curiously since I still wasn't making a
move. Slowly, I reached out my hand and touched his chest. I wanted to feel
him, to feel his heartbeat. I wanted to know this beautiful body is real,
not a figment of my imagination. It felt warm. I could feel his heart
beating, slow and steady. With each beat, his chest jumped slightly and I
could feel it with my hand. I closed my eyes.

"You are... not yourself today." He's right. After my episode with Mike, I
have become much more open and honest with my sexuality. I can't stand
living like Mike, denying who he is to be accepted. I've loved Ben for
years. Why can't I be open with it and show my love? When I opened my eyes,
I've decided. I will make love to Ben. He saw the fire in my eyes but
didn't know what I was thinking about. He was taken aback.

"You sure you are ok?"

"Yeah, I'm more certain than ever." I gently put my hands on his head and
leaned forward to kiss him. When my lips were about to touch his, he reeled
back quickly. There was shock and fear in his eyes. We stared at each other
for a moment before he spoke.

"What are you doing, Rick?"

"Trying to kiss you."

"We are talking about a blowjob. No kissing necessary."

"No, but I want to do it."

He stared at me for a moment. "Are you trying to make love to me, like you
did with Mike?"

"Yes, what's wrong with that?"

"I'm your best friend, not your boyfriend."

"I thought you are open to all kinds of sexual experiences?"

"Not making love to my best friend, it's kind of weird." I sighed. It
doesn't work. I can be open and honest about my feelings, but it doesn't
always end well. What do I do now?

"Can you just... suck my cock? Please?"

"Sure. Is there anything else that is out of bounds?"

"Well... no kissing and no fucking. That's about it." Damn, that means my
plans to get him to fuck me wouldn't work, at least for now. But we still
have three more years in this college together. Who knows what will happen?
I thought to myself: no kissing or fucking; there is still a lot I can
do. I'm going to enjoy him as much as I can today.

"Close your eyes, Ben."

"What are you going to do?" He asked apprehensively.

"Make love to you."

"What? I just said..."

"You said no kissing or fucking. I'm doing neither." He looked nervous,
unsure of what I was going to do. His best friend trying to make love to
him still freaked him out a little. I can understand.

"Relax, you are going to enjoy it."

"I hope so." He closed his eyes. I reached out and touched his chest
again. His heart was beating a bit faster. He must be nervous and
excited. I smiled. I will take my time to enjoy this beautiful body
today. I reached up and stroked his jet black hair, combing it back. I
caressed his handsome face gently, feeling every curve on it. He shivered
under my touch. I can tell he was still a bit uncomfortable. I traced every
feature on his face and rubbed my fingers on his lips. I slowly massaged
his neck and shoulders, feeling his strong muscles. He started to relax a
little as he realized it's not so bad.

I proceeded to feel his arms, squeezing his strong biceps. I traced my
hands down his arms and reached his hands. I felt every finger of his,
wanting to get all of him. I went back up and arrived at his chest. I
rubbed my hands all over his broad chest, brushing against his nipples a
couple of times. He inhaled sharply. His nipples were very sensitive. Every
time I touched them he jumped. I circled the area around his nipples and he
was shifting uncomfortably. I gently rolled his nipples with my thumbs and
index fingers and he jumped. He briefly opened his eyes, full of lust. I
have successfully aroused him, without ever touching his cock. He was
breathing hard already.

"Like it so far?" He nodded and closed his eyes again. I traced my fingers
downward, reaching his stomach. I rubbed his six-packs, feeling every
contour. I caressed his sides, running my fingers up and down. I went
further down, putting my hands on his waist. His cock pulsated in
anticipation when my hands drew near, but I wasn't going to touch it
yet. He let out a sigh, disappointed that I wasn't going to touch his
cock. I reached around and squeezed his buttocks instead. I wanted to feel
his firm, round ass. It wasn't very big but it was very muscular. His cock
jumped again as I grabbed his ass. It was now leaking precum, pulsating,
dying to be touched. I smiled. He's ready, but I'm not going to give it
satisfaction yet.

I proceeded down his legs. I rubbed his hairy, muscular legs. I squeezed
every muscle and touched every spot, all the way down to his toes. I even
rubbed every one of them. He sighed again and shifted uncomfortably. He was
not used to someone rubbing his feet. I went back up his legs in one quick
motion, causing him to shiver. I stopped at his thighs, making his cock
jump again. By then, his cock was leaking profusely. It has gone from its
usual red color to almost purple. It must be dying for release.

"Please, suck me already." He knew it was coming but he couldn't take it
anymore. I loved it. I wanted him to want it, to beg for it. I licked the
tip of his cock and it jumped. He inhaled deeply at the touch he's been
waiting for so long. All his senses were now focused on his cock. It was
pulsating wildly, leaking precum. It looked like it could shoot without me
touching it. He must be horny as hell.

I used my left hand to cup his sack, jiggling his balls with my
fingers. His cock jumped again. I really enjoyed teasing him. He was
squirming around, clearly couldn't wait to get off. I leaned in and licked
his cock from his balls all the way up the shaft to the tip, and he moaned
loudly.

"Holy shit!" He yelled, his voice trembling. His whole body was shaking; he
was so close to cumming. I could tell he was trying hard not to cum right
then. He was breathing hard. There was still a thread of precum lingering
from his cock head to my tongue. I pulled away and it finally broke. His
cock looked so delicious, like a ripe fruit. It's yearning to be sucked. I
leaned in again, this time my tongue made circles on his cock head,
spreading his precum all over. He moaned again and suddenly he reached for
my head, grabbed it, then shoved it down his cock. I wanted to tease him
some more but he has reached his limit. He started fucking my mouth.

He fucked like a madman. I have seldom seen him so worked up before. He was
panting and grunting, and thrusting hard in my mouth. He shoved his entire
seven inch cock in me, which I gagged a little. However, I wanted to give
him all the pleasure so I didn't protest. I just let him use my mouth to
get off. I knew he wouldn't last long. After a few minutes of furious face
fucking, he climaxed, shooting ropes of thick cum in my mouth. He was
moaning so loudly, holding my head in place while shooting
repeatedly. There was so much cum I couldn't swallow in time. He must be
really aroused today. Some of his cum leaked out of my mouth and flowed
back down onto his cock and balls, soaking his pubes. It took him a while
to come down from his climax. It was intense. He grabbed hold of my head
until his cock completely deflated. Meanwhile, I kept flicking his
softening cock with my tongue and swirling it around in my mouth. This
caused him to give another two small squirts, milking him dry. When he was
finally done, he just leaned back and breathed heavily, totally exhausted.

I took a step back and admired his naked, sweaty, relaxed body, all
spent. And to think that I gave this stud so much pleasure... I was
proud. I smiled, congratulating myself for a job well done.

It took Ben a long time to recover his breath. When he finally did, he
said, "That was one hell of a blowjob. No, it's more than a blowjob,
it's..."

"Lovemaking?" I offered.

"If that's lovemaking, you can make love to me every day." He gave me a
playful grin.