Date: Sat, 16 Oct 2004 02:29:36 -0700 (PDT)
From: ray hkg <rayrayhkg@yahoo.com>
Subject: Change of my life (installment no 2)

This story is written based on my own experience (chapter 1 and 2) and
further developed based on my own fantasy.

WARNING: This story is about homosexual and domination. If this subject
offends you, or if it is illegal in your country, or if you are under the
legal age, please do not read further and leave.

Change of my life (Chapter 2)

By: Ray  ( rayrayhkg@yahoo.com )

Chapter 2: My new exploration.

I start my university studies in the 1991. At this time, internet is not
popular in my place and I was allowed to send and receive e-mails by the
university. Later in 1993, I obtain my internet account form the
university and I start look around the internet. I learn a lot from the
internet about bondage, submission, Master and slave, Master and dog,
BDSM, etc... A lot of information and there are such life style in real.
And I know I am not crazy as there is so many people enjoy to be bonded
up. And there are real slaves nowadays. (I have been dreamed so many
times before if I could live as a slave in the old time, to be bonded up,
chained up, disciplined by Masters.)

And I found that there are real handcuff and leg iron sold from the adult
toyshops. And there are so many other bondage equipments that I never
know before. Every item excited me and I want to try all of them. Then I
discover one thing which excited me the most at that time -- male
chastity belt. In my knowledge, I only know there were chastity device
made for women in the old time. But now, there are male chastity devices
in real. Later, I found a web site which provides a lot of information
about male chastity devices. Then I start reading as many articles as I
can to learn more about male chastity.

I have decided my first collection of SM gear: a pair of handcuff and leg
cuff (what I have wanted for a long time), adjustable tit clamps with
chain, and a cock cuff style chastity belt.

When the item arrived, I can't help but just put on the handcuff and leg
cuff to feel the real thing. I lock them tightly in order to feel them
closely. My first feeling is wonderful. The cool, rigid and restrictive
feeling is so good that I don't want to remove them. After about half an
hour, the feeling is not so good as I think I have locked too tight that
the cuffs are likely to cut the skin. So I loose the cuffs a bit and
double lock them to prevent them from tightened.

Chastity belt is totally new to me. I place my cock into the penis tube,
lock the cuff behind my ball sac, fasten the waist and crotch belts then
secured by a padlock. My cock can feel the coolness and rigid of the
steel penis steel. It tries to get hard but the tube itself is bended and
not allowed. I am so confused as I want to free my cock but I don't want
to do so. So I just keep locked and holding the penis tube. I can feel
the steel tube become warmer and said to myself, ¡§poor little dick, you
have to stay in your small prison for a while!¡¨

Tit clamp is another new experience to me. I read the articles and photos
on the net and know it's for torture. And now I have the chance to
¡§torture¡¨ my tits. They really hurt! So I loosen the screws to reduce
my pain. After 5 minutes time, I remove the clamps and I have another
experience ¡V removing the clamps is much more pain than applying them.
My reaction is ¡V I like it even so painful. My cock tries to get hard
inside the cock cuff during this torture session.

I remained lock into the handcuff, leg cuff and cock cuff overnight. I
cannot sleep well and keep waking up from time to time. One reason is I
am so excited to my new collection. Another reason is my cock tries to do
hard from time to time but the tube does not allowed. I unlock myself in
the morning because I don't want anyone in the class will notice
anything under my jean.

I have to tell you at that time, only 3 universities in Hong Kong has
students hostels and the one I attend did not has one at that time. So I
still live with my parents.

On Sunday, I decided to go out with my ¡§new brief¡¨ ¡V my cock cuff, the
first time. AT first, it is not easy at all as my cock head keep rubbing
my jeans and it try to go hard. I have to stop sometimes in order to let
it go soft and I have to try to forget I am wearing the cock cuff. It
seems better later as I seem to be adjusted to my new brief. I go around
for window-shopping and see a movie. Later in the evening, when I go to
toilet in a shopping mall, I go straight to the urinal. Before unzipping,
I remembered I have my cock cuff locked on so I turn around to the
toilet. I don't know how embarrassment I would if the guys next to me
have see my enclosed cock.

Chastity devices become my favorite ¡§toy¡¨ and I keep lock up myself in
the cock cuff. But the cock cuff is not designed for long term wearing as
the belts (waist and crotch belts) are made of leather. Bath and shower
is a problem to it.

I keep reading more articles from the altairboy's web site. And learn
more about other chastity devices. Those tailor made stainless steel
chastity belt become my dream belt. But the price is very high too. So I
then turn to those lightweight chastity devices and I include both the
Remy's tube and the CB2000 in my chastity collection. They are well
cover under my jeans and they don't have problem in shower while CB200
is easier to clean in the shower than the Remy's tube. What I have to
adjust is to sit for pissing. But it is really interesting.

At this time, I mostly locked into the Remy's tube as I think it's much
stronger than the plastic-made CB2000 and I am afraid the CB2000 will
break. Even I am locked, I am so excited and unlock myself from time to
time for masturbation.

After I finish my study in the university, I look for a job. I still
thinking to become a real slave, and to have myself locked in a stainless
steel chastity belt. When I have enough free money, I measured myself and
order it ¡V the Access Denied.

When the belt arrived, I immediately unpack it and adjust the shape of
the belt (the waist and the crotch part) in order to fit my body. It's a
bit too tight but luckily I have ordered the adjustable belt and a pair
of longer inserts. So I simply replace the longer inserts and the belt
become good fitted. Together with the belt, I have ordered an annual
shield and a small butt plug. This is my first experience with butt plug
(I am still a virgin). It hurts a bit when I insert the plug but the
feeling is interesting. I can't say I love it at this point but I don't
reject it. I then put on my clothes and go out for a walk. This walk lead
me to another level of experience, has my cock bended downward pointing
to the rear, rigid steel waistband and crotch cover, chains on ass cheek,
butt plug inside me and a rigid steel band keeping the plug in place
covering my ass crack. When I move every step, the plug seems to slide a
bit in and out. It really draws me mad.

When I back to home, I unlocked the butt plug and do some more adjustment
to the shape of the belt. The next day is Saturday and I have to be in
the office in the morning. I decided to have my AD belt wear under my
jeans.

The belt is good fit to my body and well hide under my jeans. So there
isn't any problem that anyone can see something wrong. But sitting is a
problem as the front shield is forced to push the penis tube towards my
body. I have to adjust my sitting position from time to time to eliminate
any uncomfortable feelings caused. But I still locked for the remaining
weekend to adjust myself towards the new belt and to ¡§gain experience¡¨
from the belt.

When I don't need to wear my suit for work, I will wear my AD belt as my
brief. At night, I do also lock the butt plug from time to time to
¡§enjoy¡¨ the feeling.

Later, I get a week's annual leave and I determine to have the AD belt
locked on for my whole holiday. I have nowhere to go but just fooling
around. It is another experience to me as I have never unlocked myself
for any period longer than 2 days for masturbation. It nearly draws me
crazy at the last 2 days of my holiday.

On the last night of the holiday, I unlock myself for a good cleaning for
my crotch and the belt. And I found my foreskin swollen up. ¡§What the
hell has happened!¡¨ is what I though. I then email the belt's producer
to ask if they learn from other customers that has the same problem. The
reply is, some uncut customers do have this problem because the foreskin
keep rubbing the edge of the penis tube or the end of the front shield.
It will return to normal within a day or two. They suggest me to use the
curved penis tube to prevent the problem from happening again but not
promise it can work for all people. I was so disappointed that I cannot
lock in this belt for long run. I love this belt too much as it is so
secure and totally prevent me from any orgasm, together with the lockable
butt plug and rear shield.

I have no other option but return to my Remy's tube and CB2000 for
longer lock up period and the AD belt for shorter session. But I really
love the hard and cool metal feeling on my body. Later, I decided to have
another chastity device, the birdcage. It is made of stainless steel
which is hard and secure to meet my requirement. The design is similar to
Remy's tube and CB2000, a ring wears behind the ball sac and the tube
encloses the penis which attach to the ring. Then lock with a padlock.
Its size is smaller than both Remy's tube and the CB2000 (I order the
small size one which is good fit when my cock is soft). It is perfect to
me as it doesn't show even in my suit. So I keep using the birdcage as
my daily chastity device.

Early this year, when I was moving home, there was a bad news to me when
I was unpacking my stuffs from the boxes. I found 2 of the boxes lost and
cannot trace them back. One of them contains all my chastity devices. I
was shocked and wonder why not other things but my chastity belts! I was
unset for a long period of time just like someone important to me has
passed. Now, I have ordered the birdcage again and waiting to locked in
it again.

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I have never forgot about real Master and slave relationship after I
learn from the internet. I always am thinking to submit to a Master as
his slave property. On the other hand, I am afraid to give my life to a
stranger who I don't know. I just keep reading the stories and articles
written by Masters and slaves to learn more about this life style,
together with those Master seeking and slave seeking ads on the net.

One day, I talk to myself, ¡§What don't give it a try to see if any
Master can train me to become his slave?¡¨ So I start writing an ad in
seeking for a Master and post it on the net. I get a lot of reply and
after several emails to each of them. I was disappointed. Some of them
keep asking for more photos of me, some of them are for cyber only. Some
of them ask for fucking only. Some of them are serious but cannot afford
for a full time slave but part time only, and they are located overseas.

I just wonder if it is really so difficult to find a real Master to train
me as his live-in lifetime slave property.

(To be continued)

Arthur's note: Both Chapter 1 and 2 are the true experience to me. The
upcoming chapter(s) becomes the imagination of myself being submitted to
a Master as his slave property. I really hope that my dream will come
true. If anyone has any comment or experience to share, please feel free
to email me. Or if any Master here has interest on training and owning me
as his lifetime slave, please email me. Thank you.